Ladida! so here's another chapter...my computer's being really dumb today so it's another short one sorry!

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Anniversary

Kanda went up to the roof to get some fresh air. He was fed up of seeing Kamiko and that stupid Moyashi always being together. Kamiko hadn't seemed to notice that Allen liked her so Kanda was sort of fine with it for the moment, but he knew that it was only a matter of time before Allen would make a move.

Up ahead, sitting in the shadows, Kanda saw a figure. It was shaking and light sobs filled the air. The figure had long hair that was reddish and looked a lot like Kamiko.

"Kamiko?" he asked in the gentlest voice he could muster, which still sounded quite gruff.

The figure didn't move, so he walked towards it. It continued to sob until Kanda came an arm's length away, then it began to laugh eerily.

"Kanda! Watch out!" called someone from behind him. He moved to the side and turned just in time to see Kamiko flying through the air like a phoenix. She fired the two guns that she held in her hands at the figure behind him until it exploded in a fit of shrieks.

"An…akuma." Said Kanda in disbelief. How had he not seen it? "How could you tell it was an akuma?"

"I just can. Can't all exorcists? I can see the souls in them and sort of sense them, you know?" Kamiko seemed confused at Kanda's question.

"No, only Moya- Allen can see them." Kanda said, catching himself before he made himself look bad in front of Kamiko. He suddenly realized that her eyes were red and puffy.

"Were you crying?" he asked.

"No. I was pretending to be a fountain." She said defensively and turned away.

"Look, just because I'm not Allen doesn't mean you can't tell me things." Kanda said with a touch of hurt in his voice.

"Sorry," Kamiko said, hanging her head down, "today is a bad day… I… it's complicated."

A tear rolled down her cheek and she fell to her knees, crying. Kanda had no idea what to do with himself. He was not used to people being all emotional around him, nor caring for that matter, so he was unsure of how to proceed.

"Do… do you want to talk?" he asked, again cursing how gruff he sounded.

"Kanda, I wasn't always alone, you know. I had a family. My mom, my dad, my brother… I had to leave them because of my curse. I was to kill the one who I loved most, so I had to leave them. If I stayed, I know I would have only ended up hurting them. I miss them so much! Today is the third anniversary of my leaving and I didn't want anyone to see me crying. These people here risk their lives everyday and abandon their families so they can help us in their war and don't shed a single tear! And here I am crying over my family when there are people who are looking to me to guide the way! I can't do this, Kanda! I can't be strong like you!" Kamiko hung her head and let her tears drop into her lap as she held Kanda's sleeve.

"You don't have to be strong all the time. We all have our weak moments; so don't be afraid to cry. Yes, we have to fight this war and put on a brave face, but it's all right if sometimes you have to cry and think of the one's you left behind. Just let it all out. We can sit here and you can cry as long as you want." Said Kanda, slightly surprised at his own words.

Kamiko looked up at him before suddenly throwing herself in his arms. She continued to sob there and Kanda could feel the wet of her tears seeping through his jacket. The two stood there for a while as Kamiko let all of her tears out. She's so beautiful. Kanda thought as he looked at the girl in his arms. If only we could stay like this forever… If only there was no war and we could just live peacefully together.

Kanda knew his wishful thinking would get him nowhere. There was no way he could magically stop Kamiko's pain, her curse, or the war. He felt Kamiko pull back slightly from their embrace and Kanda realized that she was no longer crying. He looked down at her to see her violet eyes boring into him.

"Kanda… thank you." She said as she wiped her face and pulled herself out of his arms. She began to walk away to where she had come from and a longing pulled in Kanda's heart. Should her tell her now? While he had the chance?

"Kamiko!" Kanda called after her. She turned and raised a questioning brow.

"Yes?" she replied.

"… Next year… next year you can come here and cry and I'll be here for you." He said.

Kamiko smiled the most genuine smile he had ever seen from her.

"Thank you…" she said as she disappeared into the shadows.

Perhaps, just maybe, Kanda could have this part of Kamiko just for himself.

So yeah...Kanda turns into a softie when around Kamiko...

Guest- whoever you are thanks for reviewing and I didn't really study Kanda's character, but he's my favorite so that's probably why it's easier for me to write for him. And you do make a good point. Though I read the manga and didn't watch the anime it is true that I made Allen a little darker than he really is but... love does stuff to us! :P that's my only excuse! lol

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