I was thinking 'no this would be much better'. Then I was like 'but this would be nice, but where the hell am I going to put that in this story?' I hate writing blocks :( Having a major one for Lost so I worked on this story.

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Baby

It's been about 3 months and we've still trying for a baby. Its disappointing but I don't mind all the sex involved. Even though I'm 100% sure she's enjoying it too, its just that she...hasn't really been the same. It could be due to the fact that she's not pregnant yet.

The next day I was at the table getting my things together to go to work. I followed my mother's footsteps and went into the science department. Not much happens though, I'd rather ride my bike. Before I could grab my bag I heard a disappointed sigh from the bathroom and a clunking sound. I put my things on the ground and walked over to the bathroom. I saw Shizuru with another familiar look of disappointment. I took a quick glance at the trash can and saw a pregnancy test stick with the big red letters screaming 'No'. I stood behind Shizuru and wrapped my arms around her.

"Shizuru...its okay."

Shizuru's body somewhat stiffened. I knew this sign all too well.

"I...I don't understand. We did everything to doctor told us to."

"I know, but he did say it wouldn't be easy. These things take time." I tried to comfort her.

"I know...but..."

"Hmm?"

"I don't know what to do." Shizuru sighed.

I turned her around to face me. Her eyes were watery and I held her close to me.

"It'll happen, don't worry." I smiled.

"Okini..." She held me back.

XXXX

I hate hospitals. Hated the place ever since I was a kid. I swear every room is painted in one boring color, white. I slightly glared at medical instruments that were on the nearby table.

"Behave Natsuki."

I looked at Shizuru who was smiling at me. I smiled back and tried to calm down.

"I'll try." I sat next to her on the medical bed.

She took my hand and leaned on my shoulder. I blushed a little as she placed my hand on her stomach. It made me smile though.

Flashback

"Nat~su~ki!"

I heard at the end of the phone. I tried to hide my blush from my co-workers. I turned around and tried to find a place where I wouldn't show anyone I was blushing.

"What is it baby?"

"Did my Natsuki find a place to hide?" I heard her giggle.

"S-shut up! What did you call me for?"

"I can't call my Natsuki anytime I want? Ikezu." I swear I could see her stinking our her bottom lip and making a pout face.

"Of course you can but don't say things that will make blush."

"Ara, so my Natsuki was blushing." I heard her chuckle.

I felt my cheeks burn again.

"No I wasn't!"

"Ara, ara."

"Shizuru!"

"Kanin na, but my Natsuki sounds too cute."

I sighed as I sat back in a chair I found.

"Natsuki."

"Yes?"

"When are you coming home?"

"Not till later. Why?"

"Just wondering."

"Is everything okay?"

"Everything is wonderful. See you tonight." She ended the conversation before I could respond.

I raised an eyebrow as I put my phone away.

"Oh well, guess I'll know when I get back home."

After work I rode back home as fast as I could. Turning off and placing my bike in the garage, I walked into our home and closed the door behind me.

"Natsuki!" I felt hands come and wrap themselves from behind me.

"Shizuru!"

"Yes, my Natsuki?"

"Please don't do that. You know I hate that."

"Don't hug you from behind?"

"Don't surprise me like that." I sighed.

"Kanin na." She smiled.

I smiled back despite being somewhat mad at her. I turned around and wrapped my arms around her neck.

"If you give me a kiss, I might forgive you."

Shizuru smiled as she leaned in and captured my lips with hers. I moved my lips with hers and held her closer.

"Forgive me now?" Shizuru asked once we parted.

"Of course." I rested my forehead on hers.

"Okini." She gave me a quick kiss on the nose.

"So you said your day was wonderful?" I said.

"Yes..."

I raised an eyebrow at her as she lead me to the couch and made me sit down. She smiled as she held my hands.

"I'm pregnant."

I just stared at her.

"W-what?"

"I'm pregnant. We're going to have a baby."

I continued to stare at her. After a few moments of digesting the news, my face broke into a smile.

"Really?"

"Yes."

"Shizuru...!"

XXXX

"Shizuru, are you okay?" It had been a few weeks later and I noticed a change in Shizuru.

"I'm fine, why do you ask?"

"Well, you've been a little distant lately. Did I do something?"

"No, have I been distant?"

"Just a little."

"Kanin na, Natsuki."

"You sure your okay?"

"...I'm just worried about our baby." Shizuru put her hands on her stomach.

"What's with the baby?" I put a hand over her's.

"I don't know...I'm just really worried. Maybe maternal instincts have already kicked in?" She smiled.

I sighed before giving her a small kiss on the cheek.

"If your worried that much, let's go to the hospital then."

"What about work?"

"Our child comes before our jobs."

"You hate hospitals."

"I'll manage for our kid." I sighed.

I felt two arms wrap themselves around me.

"Okini Natsuki. You'll be a good Mama."

"I hope so."

That's my biggest fear, not being a good parent.

XXXX

"Is the baby doing okay?" I asked rubbing her stomach.

"I thinks so." Shizuru responded.

The door opened to our room and the nurse came in.

"Good morning, Mrs. Kuga. Everything okay?" The nurse looked up from her notepad.

"Everything's good. Just want to check up on the little one." Shizuru smiled.

"Great, then let's hook you up to the ultrasound." The nurse smiled as she walked over to the machine.

"Natsuki be nice." Shizuru must of noticed I was slightly glaring at the machine.

"I'm trying." I sighed.

"Okay, if you could raise up your shirt for me?" The nurse asked.

"Me?" I blushed.

"No not you, Mrs. Kuga. Your partner." The nurse replied.

I felt embarrassed but Shizuru seemed to enjoy it.

"This might be a little cold." The nurse squirted some of that weird jelly on Shizuru's abdomen.

"Ara." Shizuru slightly flinched.

"Okay, here we go." The nurse began to search for our baby.

I became so excited when the display showed up on the screen. I saw the moving black and gray shadows and grew curious about where our baby was.

"Will we know what the baby looks like? Whether its a girl or not? Oh what about its hair color?" I began to question the nurse.

"Natsuki, it's only been a month." Shizuru commented.

"But a lot of things can happen after a month right?" I asked the nurse.

"Not much." The nurse responded.

I sighed in defeat but I felt a hand cup my cheek. I looked down and saw Shizuru smile at me. I smiled back and put my hand on top of hers.

"Hmm...I'll be right back." The nurse said as soon as she cleaned up Shizuru.

"Where are you going?" I asked.

"I'm going to get the doctor." The nurse responded before leaving the room.

I looked at Shizuru and saw a look of worry on her face. I gently placed a small kiss on her cheek.

"I'm sure its not anything too serious."

"Yeah..."

We continued to wait anxiously for the nurse to come back with the doctor. I began to twiddle my thumbs as the minutes flew by. Shizuru patted the medical bed. I walked over and sat next to her.

"You know...we should think of a name for the baby."

I looked her, not sure what to say next. So I just smiled and tried not to think about what news the doctor might bring.

"Okay...boy or girl names?"

"Since we don't know yet, how about you think of girl names and I'll think of boy names?" She suggested.

"Sounds fair, but please don't name our kid after me."

"Likewise my Natsuki."

Damn, I really liked the name Shizuka.

"Okay...uh...how about...Kaori?"

"Sounds nice...a boy name...Daisuke?"

"Eh, its okay. Oh, how about Arisa?"

"No, don't like the name. How about Tohru?"

"Its okay...um, Izumi?"

"Mmm...Shin?"

"Umm...Kagura?'

Shizuru nodded her head no. We both sigh as we really couldn't agree with the names we thought of.

"Damn, who would of thought naming a kid would be so hard." I groaned.

"Well we still have time to think about it." Shizuru smiled.

"I guess so."

At that moment the doctor arrived. I sat up straight and tried not to glare at the doctor.

"Good morning." He smiled.

"Good morning, is there something wrong?" Shizuru asked.

"Well given the results of the ultrasound, I'd like to perform some test on you." The doctor said.

"What kind test?" I raised an eyebrow.

"Just some test to see if the baby is okay."

"Is there something wrong with the baby?" Shizuru asked trying to hide her fear.

"Well...lets just run the tests first and see what we get."

"Your not going to hurt her are you?" I asked.

"No, completely harmless procedures."

"Okay then." Shizuru nodded her head.

XXXX

After they ran those test on Shizuru, they put us back in the same room as before. They told us to wait for the result, but the longer they were gone the more anxious I grew. I looked over at Shizuru and saw her rubbing her hands together.

"How long have we been waiting?" I asked Shizuru.

"About an hour."

I groaned as I tried to find something to keep my patience from running thin. We tried the naming game again but no good names came to mind. I really have a bad feeling about those test Shizuru went through.

"Natsuki?"

"Yeah?" I turned to her.

"What about the name Suri if we have a girl?'

I thought about the name for the moment. It sounded nice.

"I like it."

Shizuru smiled as I sat down near her again.

"But if I remember correctly, I was suppose to think of a girl name."

"Yes you were." Shizuru smiled.

"So what do you think about the name Shizuka?"

"Ara, that kind of sounds like my name."

"I really like that name." I responded.

She looked like she thought about it but smiled at the same time.

"I like it too."

I smiled and gently grabbed her hand with mine. I leaned into her and eyed her lips. She knew exactly what I was going for and she leaned in as well.

"The test are back in." The doctor entered the room.

I had to hold back a frustrated sigh when the doctor interrupted our kiss. Shizuru somewhat smiled but seemed disappointed too. The doctor seemed to notice.

"Sorry about that, but I have the results back in."

"What do they say?" Shizuru asked.

The doctor took a deep breath before looking at both me and Shizuru.

"Well when the nurse was using the ultrasound, she couldn't find any signs of you being pregnant."

Shizuru began to turn pale.

"But, the pregnancy test showed that I was pregnant."

"Right, so that's why I asked you to undergo those test. That way we could determine whether

or not the machine messed up your results."

"So?" I asked.

"I'm sorry, but your not pregnant."

"But...but then why..." Shizuru began.

"It might have been that the pregnancy test messed up. Another test you tested through showed that...well..."

"Well what?" I asked.

"Mrs. Kuga...you can't have children."

I looked at Shizuru and saw her face almost shatter. I put my hands on her shoulder as I tried to intake the news as well.

"I'm sorry, but your infertile. You won't be able to bear children."

Shizuru buried her face in her hands and began to cry.

Not carry a baby...ever?

I'm sorry, just couldn't do it :( Thanks for reading. R&R please