Sorry I meant to up date sooner but I tend to speak too much and got grounded. I'll try to keep my mouth shut from now on. =)

Alice; come on you have to.

Me; no.

Alice; please?

Jasper; just say it or we're going to get Emmett.

Me; what would Emmett do that you wont I'm not afraid of him.

Emmett comes around the coroner with toothpaste, bananas, and a toilet brush; are you sure about that?

A pouting me; fine I do not own twilight or these meanies either.

The next morning, I woke up sore in many places but the burning that was still between my legs was the worst pain ever. I would take James on a million times over, if I could take back what happened the night before.

I looked out the window to see, that Charlie was already gone for work. I immediately went to get my shower, after I got my Notre Dame Hoodie, and sweat pants. When I stripped for my shower, I could feel all the cuts, and bruises, but I refused to look into the mirror until I was clean again.

I stepped into the shower, and turned the water as hot as it would go. I grabbed the sparkly pink, and light blue, sponge I got in a bath and body kit, and the bar of soap.

As I scrubbed, I saw the bruises, on both of my inner thighs, the hand prints, on my upper arms, and the shallow cuts, on my abdomen. But the pain of my opening cuts, and skin being rubbed off, I never felt but, I did stop when the floor of the tub was completely a fading pink color.

I now had red blotches, all over my body to go long with the cuts, and bruises. When I was done, and looked in the mirror, I broke down in tears again. I slid to the warm tile floor, brought my knees to my chest, and rapped my arms around myself. Just like I had so many times before when Edward left.

And with that thought, I cried even harder, I couldn't handle him, or any of the Cullens leaving again. And that was the moment I promised myself two things. One: I would never let any one especially the cullens find out. And two: I would never cry about what mike did ever again.

And with that, I stood up, got dressed, and sat at the kitchen table, and did my homework until 4:30 when I started dinner. I had the chicken, floured, seasoned, in the pan cooking, and on mine and, Charlie's plates as the cruiser pulled into the driveway.

"Hey, kiddo. Are you feeling better?" he asked as he put his gun belt on the hook by the door.

"Yeah, I think I am." I told him. "Dinner's ready for you."

"Okay. Give me a minute I'll be down as soon as I change." He said walking up to his room. All throughout dinner we were silent, until Charlie stood up, and said "I'm gonna so watch the game. Do you need any help?" he added the last part as an after thought.

"No, I've got it." I told him simply. I then stood, and made my way over to the sink, with the dishes in hand, and was done within five minutes. Next I wiped the table, off with the sponge, and then used glass cleaner. After that, I did the same to the counter tops.

When I was done, I put the sponge back under the sink, and wiped out the sink. "Dad, I think I'm just gonna head up to bed." I told him walking up the stairs.

"Okay. See you in the morning. Night Bells." He told me not taking his eyes off of the T.V.

"Night, dad." I said as I walked up the stairs. When I got to my room, I first opened the window, trying to forget why I closed it in the first place.

Quickly trying to distract myself, I looked around the room. I finally spotted my bathroom bag, and picked it up, and went to the bathroom. I started the water before I got in, just like I had hours before. And again I avoided looking in the mirror afraid of another breakdown, especially since I made the promise to myself.

Instead of my normal sleepwear, I wore a set pajama pants, and a school shirt, from my old school, back in phoenix. After I finished brushing my teeth, and hair. I slowly walked out of my bathroom, expecting to see Edward, waiting for me on my bed.

And he was, sitting on my bed, like my own personal Adonis. "Hey." He smiled his breathtaking crooked grin. "How was your weekend?" he asked in his angelic voice.

I looked at him, but what could I tell him? At this point I hated myself even more, not only did I cheat on him, but now I'm lying to him too. "Fine, but I did get a few bumps and bruises when I slipped at the beach." I explained to him.

I slid into the bed next to him, and got under the covers, next to the Greek god on my bed. "Sleep, now, my love." Edward kissed my forehead, and I closed my eyes.

I was in the woods by our meadow, and I was holding Edwards hand, we were in the sun, and he was shining like a million stars. I looked around the meadow and suddenly, Edwards hand turned warm, no, not warm, hot I turned back to look at him, but I was looking at the shoulder of Jacob.

Then I wasn't in the forest, But on the beach sitting on a tree, our tree, mine, and Jake's, in La Push. Then suddenly Jacob's hand turned cooler, but I knew that I wasn't holding hands with my best friend anymore, but it was to warm to be Edward.

I turn my head to see who I was holding hands with and gasped, I tried to get out of his grasp but he was too strong and wouldn't let go "please! You don't have to do this." I told him. "Oh, but I want to Bella. I've been patient long enough with you. You will want me." Mikes voice commanded.

His hand made they're way down my body, as he forced me to the ground "Wasn't once enough?" I asked though sobs and tears. When his hand reached my thigh he started to bring it back up to my waist line and he pulled off my pants, and I sucked in a breath and screamed as loud as my lungs would allow.

"Bella!" I heard Edward whisper, yell.So I sat up then he was gone, but I soon figured out why.

Charlie came busting in my room. Gun pointed and ready to shoot whatever made me scream. If only he knew the truth, but I'm not going to tell him, and I doubt Mike will. "Bella! Are you okay?" he asked still looking around the room for an intruder.

"Yeah. I'm fine bad dream is all." I told him truthfully, well, for the most part.

He lowered the gun and said "Are you sure, Bell, cuz it sounded like you were being murdered." If only he new he was so close but two days late I died the second Mike entered my body. "And you're crying." I hadn't realized the hot tears pouring from my eyes.

I nodded and wiped away the tears with my sleeve. "Okay. Well I'm gonna be getting back to bed. Night Bella."

"Night daddy." I told him, and he looked shocked but nodded and went to his room.

Edward came out of the closet, (the real one in my room) and sat next to me "What was the dream about to make you scream like that?" he questioned me.

So I decided to tell him the one thing to get him to not ask anymore questions. And it not only hurt him but me also. "You left." And at those two simple words we both flinched. But he let it go as I knew he would. But he held no to me twice as tight as before.

"Go back to sleep, my Bella." His Bella. God if only he would never have me completely. I felt one lone tear slip down, and fall to the pillow, beneath my head, then the darkness consumed me, and I thanked god for that.

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