Sorry went camping once again and I'm most likely to be doing that every week so sorry I'll update ASAP

Before Leah had a chance to say any thing else my phone rang "is it okay if I answer your phone?"

"Yeah" I whispered desperately trying to avoid telling her how the father is.

"This conversation is far from over." she told me mater-of-factly as she stood up. Before she left she looked back at me with a small, sad smile, that didn't reach her eyes.

I heard the phone stop ringing and Leah say " hello Bellas in the bathroom right now can I help you?" the person on the phone said something "well can I ask who's calling before I do that?" her niceness wearing down. "Well why don't you just tell me what you want bloodsucker." all kindness completely gone from her voice now.

I cleared my through so I wouldn't sound like i've been crying. "Leah just give me the phone." I told her quietly but I knew even though she didn't have vampire hearing she could still hear better then a normal human.

"Fine she want to talk to you." she told who ever was on the other side of the argument.

Leah walked back into the bathroom where I couldn't bring myself to leave "it's Alice Cullen. You know you don't have to talk to her if you don't want to." she handed the phone over to me and sat back down next to me.

"I know" I told Leah then put the phone up to my ear" hello Alice." I answered simply

"hey I thought you were coming to our house or ay least that's what you told Charlie or at least that's what I saw you say you did say that right cuz I think my visions are messing up lately oh how come I can't see you are you with a werewolf..." she wouldn't spot so I decided to interrupt
"Alice calm down. I was planning on coming over but then Leah stopped by and I agreed to hang out with her this weekend. That's problem why you can't see me and yes she is one who answered the phone." when I was done explaining I had to catch my breath.

"Leah's a wolf. Huh. Well if your not coming Eddie and I are going hunting." when she called Edward 'Eddie' I heard him say "my name is Edward"

"Okay well have fun." I told her

"Will do bye Bella"

"Good bye Alice." I hung up and through the phone at the wall as hard as I could.

Leah just put her arm around me and said "Bella please tell me who did this so we can put him I'm a jail cell."

I just shook my head and said "I...I can't Edward will be mad at me cuz if I tell he'll find out cuz of a trial and then he'll hate me." I sobbed and that is when I relieved I had broken the promises to myself again, I was crying because of what mike did to me and this revelation only made me cry harder.

After a minutes or hours I couldn't tell you which Leah asked "okay so you said you're gonna need my help? What are we gonna do?"

"I can't kill the baby I just doesn't feel right to me. And I don't think I could handle giving it away. So the only option I have left is to keep it and I can't do that with Edward." I cried.

"So, what? Are you gonna leave him? Just up and leave him?" I just nodded

" I have to" I stood and walked out of the bathroom" I need a change of scenery will you take me somewhere?"

"Where?" she followed me and we got in her car
I shook my head and said "I don't care just not here but you have to stay with me so Alice doesn't know what I'm planning."

"Okay." Leah nodded and started the car as she drove I was thinking about where I would go and how I would go without Edward following me. I was lost in thought until I saw it out of the corner of my eye.

First beach we were in la push. I felt like a hundred pound weight was on my chest, I couldn't breath. And then I wasn't in he car with Leah I was on the beach with him. He was holding my hands above my head with one hand as he took my bra off with the other...
"Bella!"

"Bella? Come on snap out of it!" Leah brought me out of my flash back.

I looked around to make sure we weren't by the beach. And we weren't we were in some ones driveway, when I realized this my breathing slowed and so did my heart. "Bella why did you freak out when you saw the beach?" Leah asked but didn't give me time to answer "is that where it happened?"

"Yeah." I whispered.

Leah nodded and seemed to be in thought "is that why you haven't visited Jake since the last Time we got her trail? Because it happened here." she answered her self. I just nodded again I seem to be doing a lot of that today.

"Come on let's go in. No ones home so we can talk." we got out of the car and walked the front door that was unlocked. She went through the living room down a hall and past a bathroom before she opened a door and said "this is my room."

I didn't say any thing and we both sat down on the floor leaning our backs on her bed. "Bella tell me you have a plan. Cuz he isn't just gonna let you leave and not go after you."

"I know and I do have a plan I just need time to save some more money. But I will need you help to plan this and I will need you to be with me when I have to get things like a plane ticket and when I write the note. And the thing is I'll have to do it soon so I can start going to a doctor for the baby." a few tears slipped from my eyes.

"Hey why don't you write the letter now so you can have it ready?" Leah suggested softly.

Leah hates the Cullens and I don. Think I'm her favorite person either and she is helping me. I started to cry. You'd think I would have been cried out but he tears kept coming.
"Bella. What's the matter? You don't have to do this." she told me.

"I know but I have to and thank you so much I think these are some happy tear." I told her "you barely know me and look what you doing."

"Shh I'm glad you're sorta happy, but I think the hormones are getting to you." Leah smiled and I couldn't help but laugh at that because I knew it was true.

That night I fell asleep next to Leah with her holding me. The next morning I woke up and Leah was still sleeping next to me. I immediately felt it and ran to the bathroom. I throw up twice before I cleaned up and walked back in to Leah's room.

I looked at her desk and saw a pencil and some paper; I took them and sat back in the chair under the desk. And I started writing my letter to Edward. And I figured I would write one for the rest of the cullens and another for Charlie.

Dear Edward,
I am sorry I really am but I can't do this I know it seems that we are meant to be together but we can't I can't be there for you and I don't want to marry you. If you love me you won't follow me, please don't. Maybe some day I'll come back but for now I need space. I'm so sorry.
I love you,
Bella

That was the hardest thing I have ever written and I was crying the second I the pencil hit the paper but I knew I had to write two more so I took a few deep breaths and started on The one for Charlie.

Dear dad,
I'm sorry I have to do this. And I love you very much but I just can't stay here please forgive me. I tell you everything but I can't yet I'm just not ready.
I love you,
Bella

I was thinking when I started to write that one day I will tell him every thing other then the vampire, werewolf thing.

Dear Cullen family,
first I want to thank Carlisle and Esme for always being there whether it was to stitch up a cut or to bring me cookies just because you felt like it I love you guys like my own parents. Jasper i want you to know that you're like a brother to me I love you and I never have and never will blame you for the birthday incident. Rose I'm not sure how you feel about me but I think you understand me or at least to a point but I want you to know that I love you like a sister. Emmett you're the best funniest bear of a brother any one can ask for no offence jazz but I am gonna miss your jokes I love you brother bear. Alice, what can I say you're my best friend and sister and you are the best all around person ever I love you and I need you to take care of Edward and I will honestly be surprised if I can pull this off with out you finding out and trying to stop me?
I love you, please don't look for me.
Bella

I was crying because I knew I would miss my family. "what about Jacob?" Leah asked from behind me and made me jump. But I'm glad she did I need to tell Jake something
"I'm doing that now"

Dear Jacob,
You were there for me when everyone else left me in the rain I don't know were I would be without you. You're my best friend and brother I'm so sorry I'm leaving like this but I'll see you someday.
I love you,
Bella