Alright, yet another chapter of this =D I don't know if it's good or not, so keep reading through =)
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~NiceGirl
I ripped out a piece of paper from my potions notebook, took out a quill and started writing.
Dear Mom and Dad,
Today was really nice. Professor Snape wants me to make a potion for the hospital wing, but it's rather difficult. So he's letting me stay in the guest room in his quarters while I work on it, with his help, of course. I know everyone says he's a stubborn git, but I think otherwise. I'll prove it, too. I'll find a better side of him that nobody's seen before. I know you believe that I can do it. If you wrote a letter back, I'm sure it would say, 'Raverin, you've done great things and changed lots of people.' Well, Snape is different. I actually kind of... like him. Like, I'm in love with him. I'll be honest, I have been for a while. So when you read this, I'll probably be trying to get closer to him. Trust me, I know he's a teacher. But he's what I want. He's what I've wanted for years. So please don't say anything about this to anyone else. I've told you the truth, and I WILL keep writing.
Love you both,
Raverin
I sighed, reviewing my letter. Wonder what they'd think. Who cares, he's what I want, so nobody's going to stop me from loving him. Hell, not even I can... that's how bad it is. I suddenly smelled food. Guess I didn't hear Snape tell the elf what we wanted. Figures. I usually zone everything out when I'm writing. I turned around to see the black-robed professor with two plates of fish and chips, along with two cups of water floating beside him. I smiled gratefully and took a cup and plate. "Thank you." I said, setting my food on a desk and putting my letter in an envelope. I handed the envelope to Auburn, my owl. "Do you have a window I could let her out of?" I asked, opening her cage. Auburn climbed onto my shoulder and stood while I held her up. Snape nodded and strode over to a window, and opened it. "To Mom's house, Auburn." I said softly, holding out my arm to the open window. Auburn hopped over to my arm and about to my elbow. She took off and out the window. I grabbed the window, almost about to close it. I stared into the evening, almost hypnotized by it's beauty. I've always loved around sunset and early night. I don't know why... "Miss Claw, you're food's getting cold." I heard Snape say. I shook my head, getting myself out of the trance. "Sorry, sir, I just... love the night." I smiled and closed it, walking back to the desk. "Shall we eat in my living quarters? I assume we could do more work there. I do have a lab back there." I nodded, in a good mood. I grabbed my plate and glass and watched as a portrait opened on the other side of the room. "Neat," I mumbled as we walked through, and into a living room. The portrait hole closed behind us, and Snape walked past the beautiful green living room and into a kitchen/dining room. "I love the colors." I said, noticing how nicely the kitchen was laid out. He nodded and sat down in a chair. I followed, sitting next to him. "Alright then professor," I said, grinning. "I want to see your reaction when you taste it!" I smiled, in a really good mood now. Snape looked at me, perhaps studying my expression. I saw his lips twitch... upwards... for... OMIGOD... SNAPE ALMOST SMILED AT ME! Yes! I'm gonna do it! I'll find a better side of him! I smiled, trying to get him to do it again. He stabbed a piece of fish and put it into his mouth. He chewed thoughtfully, thinking about how it tasted. I smiled very brightly and started eating mine. After the first bite I asked him, "Well, what do you think?" I said, keeping my smile. My god, I don't think I've ever smiled this brightly before! I just LOVE seeing him happy like this! I sound like a giddy school girl, but I really don't care at the moment! Snape, again, studied my face and replied, "Is THIS what everyone likes nowadays?" I laughed, still really happy. "Well, sorta. In muggle London. But everyone is entitled to their own opinion, so I understand if you don't like it." I watched him very carefully, studying his face closely, especially his lips. They curled upwards, but more, this time, until he was actually smiling. Wait a minute, what? HOLD ON A SECOND! SEVERUS SNAPE IS SMILING? WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO HIM?! BLOODY HELL! "It was good. Not what I expected." He said, keeping his strange, crooked smile. "Professor," I started, giggling while I said it. "You're smiling!" I said, still giggling. He immediately frowned, and said, "What, do I really look that funny when I smile?" he frowned more, and kept eating, avoiding my gaze. I suddenly started frowning, and went right out of my happy mood. I almost wanted to cry. "No, professor, I wasn't laughing because it was funny..." I reached out and touched his shoulder. He looked at me, clearly still irritated with me. "I have just... never seen you smile before, and I was so happy, I just... I'm sorry..." I looked down, so I didn't see his change in expression. I guess I just loved seeing him happy a bit too much. Gah, why am I so stupid... ugh... "Raverin," I heard him start. He called me 'Raverin'... instead of 'Miss Claw'... I turned around to see him and he suddenly noticed he looked... apologetic. My sad-looking eyes melted at the sight of him. I really did love him, and seeing him in this state just... I don't know. "When I smiled... it made you happy?" He finished. I looked at my food, taking another bite. "Y-yes... listen, maybe I'll explain everything after dinner... but for now, can we just eat?" I asked. To my surprise, he nodded. We ate in silence, and when we were both done, Snape politely asked me, "Well then, we are both done, so how about you explain while we work on the potion?" I nodded, sipping the last bit of my water. We both walked silently to his lab. "Explain, while I get the ingredients." I sighed, wondering how I would explain this. "Well, uh..." I thought for a second before continuing on with, "I... professor, please don't take this the wrong way... but a lot of people think you're just a cranky old man who's mean to everyone... but I don't think so. I think you're hiding who you really are. I think that you are only showing a certain side of yourself. I really want to uncover the real you." I looked at the cauldrons the whole time, so I didn't look at him. I wasn't sure what his reaction would be, but I almost didn't want to find out. "Why?" Was all he said back. Crap. Now I would HAVE to tell him I liked him! God dammit... I guess... I guess if I got myself into this mess, I'll have to get myself out. I heard Snape let down the ingredients and wait, clearly wanting an answer. "Sir... you're going to hate me and be disgusted with me for this. I completely understand. But I need to tell you... uh, I need for you to know... uhm..." I took a deep breath, gathering all my courage to just say this one sentence. "I am in love with you." My OWN EYES widened at what I said. I couldn't believe that I actually told the man I loved that I loved him... even if it was after 2 years of waiting. "I'll leave and figure the potion out on my own, if that would make you more confortable. I'll understand completely." I suddenly felt like I was almost hyperventalating. Then I felt intruded, as if someone entered my mind. Oh, it was Snape. Now he could see my thoughts. I won't hide anything from him. He could see how much I hated myself for the tiny mistakes I'd made in front of him. He could see that a lot of my mind was devoted to him. To processing his movements, and knowing when he even entered the room. I felt him exit my mind, but I didn't look at him. Not until he said, "Raverin." I turned around and saw his face for the first time after telling him. He looked very surprised. I could read nothing more. Just surprise. "Right now we need to work on the potion," I thought for a second that he thought I was joking. "afterwards I will tell you something." He finished, his expression going back to almost normal. By almost normal, I mean he didn't look very stern anymore. He looked... softer. I nodded, never looking directly at him. I opened my potions book and started. I chopped up some ingredients as the professor-that I was more confused about than ever-watched over me. "Now, do I go ahead and put these in, or these?" I held up two ingredients, unsure of which to mix in. The professor pointed to the one in my right hand. I put it in slowly, being careful not to splash any liquid out. "Now it says to... great, I can't do that." I sighed, looking at the cauldron. "Just try." I heard his say, and felt his presence very close to me. Like, right behind me. I sucked in a breath and started to stir. I was off to a good start, but just as I started to stray from the pattern, I felt an extroirdinary warmth around me. It was professor Snape's arms around me, holding my hands and stirring with me. My eyes went very wide, as well as my cheeks going red. I couldn't possibly be more in love with him. I melted into his arms, almost leaning against him. "S... professor..." I sputtered out. That was about all I could say. Much of the potion went on in similar ways. Anything I thought I couldn't quite do myself, he was right behind me, helping. He was opening up to me! That's what I'd wanted all along, right? Of course. But I couldn't help but feel that something was missing. Like I didn't know everything about him yet. Like I almost knew nothing. And so, the end of the potion.
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~NiceGirl