For Christmas I got a laptop so I'm now writing more often on both of my ff stories and my other and I'm starting a book I would like to get published someday.
Oh and sorry for the mix up last chapter I uploaded the wrong chapter.
And I still don't own twilight.
Two weeks later
Bella pov
It had been about two weeks since my first appointment with Cris, and boy had we been busy. The house was ready a day after I got the call from tony ( ;) if you watch NCIS you'll get it.) and I was able to move in to my new house. So Leah and I met up with Lori and got the payment worked out and as of three days before the house I completely mine.
But I had to buy just about everything I need so to save on money I was going to good will, and yard sales since I was told I could move in. Leah thought I was crazy with how much money I 'borrowed' from the Cullens, I could go out and but brand new everything.
But after the baby was born I was planning on going to college and getting a degree. That way I could actually support my family without the help of anyone.
Leah was going through the radio stations as we were on our way to one of these yard sales and she stopped on radio Disney, saying that I need to get used to listing to kid music if I'm going to be a mom, and we had heard the perfect song to help make my point.
When I was just a little girl,
My mama used to tuck me into bed,
And she'd read me a story.
It always was about a princess in distress
And how a guy would save her
And end up with the glory.
I'd lie in bed
And think about
The person that I wanted to be,
Then one day I realized
The fairy tale life wasn't for me.
I don't wanna be like Cinderella,
Sitting in a dark, cold, dusty cellar,
Waiting for somebody to come and set me free (Come and set me free)
I don't wanna be like someone waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On I will survive
Unless somebody's on my side
Don't wanna depend on no one else.
I'd rather rescue myself.
Someday I'm gonna find Someone
Who wants my soul, heart and mind
Who's not afraid to show that he loves me
Somebody who will understand I'm happy just the way i am
Don't need nobody taking care of me
(i will be there)I will be there for him just as strong as he will be there for me
when i give myself then it has got to be an equal this
I don't wanna be like Cinderella,
Sitting in a dark, cold, dusty cellar,
Waiting for somebody to come and set me free (Come and set me free)
I don't wanna be like someone waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On I will survive
Unless somebody's on my side
Don't wanna depend on no one else.
I'd rather rescue myself.
I can slay (I can slay) my own dragons. (My own dragons)
I can dream my own dreams. (My own dreams)
My knight in shining armor (shining armor) is me.
So I'm gonna set me free.
I don't wanna be like Cinderella,
Sitting in a dark, cold, dusty cellar,
Waiting for somebody to come and set me free.
I don't wanna be like someone waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On I will survive
Unless somebody's on my side
I don't wanna be like Cinderella,
Sitting in a dark, cold, dusty cellar,
Waiting for somebody (oh - Oh) to come and set me free.
I don't wanna be like someone waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On I will survive
Unless somebody's on my side
Don't wanna depend on no one else.
I'd rather rescue myself.
I don't wanna be like Cinderella,
Sitting in a dark, cold, dusty cellar,
Waiting for somebody (oh -Oh)to come and set me free.
I don't wanna be like someone waiting
For a handsome prince to come and save me
On I will survive
Unless somebody's on my side
Don't wanna depend on no one else.
I'd rather rescue myself.
But back to the point, Leah wouldn't let me lift a finger, and said we had to get everything even remotely heavy before she left so I don't hurt myself or the baby. And we almost had, all we needed were a few odds and end for my new home not including the baby stuff, I was going to wait until I found out the sex.
The day before we had gone back to the Dr. office, and found out I was in fact infected with chlamydia, and I got the 'good' news and 'bad' news. "Good news is we can treat this with some medications. But Is chances are you won't be able to have any more children. I'm so sorry." Cris told me. "And Is, I really think it would be a good idea for you to see a psychiatrist, here's a card to dr. Todd. She's a friend and she's good at what she does, please call her." She gave me the card. And I just nodded and put it in my pocket.
I hadn't told Leah about the psychiatrist and she was going to the bathroom when dr. walker had given me the card. At first I thought it was a stupid idea, but I need something to talk about, to someone. Because Leah will be leaving soon and I wasn't sure if my sleeping patterns were good for my baby.
At night I couldn't get to sleep, and once I did I would have the same nightmare. Were I'm with Jacob, then Edward, then mike. But they were different every time, like I would be with Edward in his Volvo, or house. And with Jake in the forest, or garage. But always with mike on the beach.
Sometimes in these dreams Angela, Ben, and others would look for me but couldn't see me when I was in front of them. Or victoria would be laughing at me as I struggled against mike. I was lucky to get two or three hours of sleep each night and even I could tell I looked dead. Almost like a vampire but without the beauty and blood lust of it.
So when Leah came back into the house I was going to ask her what she thought I should do, I looked out the window to see her opening the mail box and talking out a magazine, as she turns around she starts to talk to one of my neighbors.
I went back to thinking and as always my thoughts revolved around Edward, and how horrid I was with myself for leaving him after I made him swear not to leave me. Mike and what happened on the beach and how it has and will affect the rest of my life, which is now without any of the people I love including my soul mate. And the baby witch is the only good thing that has happened from all of this witch brings me back to Edward again and what he would say if he knew I had cheated on him with mike.
I heard the front door open and Leah came in saying something about how the neighbor was nice but she talked too much, but when she saw me trying to wipe away the tears she stopped and came over to me kneeling in front of the chair I was sitting in. "What's the matter." She said in her soft voice that she only used for this kind of thing.
"I'm okay I was just thinking, and my mind keeps drifting to sad things." I try to give her a smile but it seems really watery.
"um… yesterday at the doctors, when you went to the bathroom dr. walker gave me this." I handed her the car I'd been looking at for a while now.
She looks down and reads it and freezes up for just a second thinking of what to say "I think maybe you should go, talk about thing, just don't say anything about your best friend being a giant wolf or your boyfriend being a blood sucking myth. That might get you sent to the loony bin. So then your kid would live with me and end up all screwed up." She smiles trying to lighten the mood and for the most part it works.
I nod and she continues "And it might help you sleep, you know, if you talk about it." She said seriously looking down at the floor.
"And I thought I had you fooled." I told her as I got up and went back to looking at a good paint color for the living room like I was before I started thinking again.
Okay this is more of a filler chapter but I'd still like the reviews please *insert cheesy smile*