Chapter Three: Caged Fury
L was alone again. For the two days since his last visit to Light, he'd waited for the time that he'd be alone again. Unfortunately, it seemed Task Force didn't want L to be alone again since someone always ended up staying the night, or calling to come back because they'd forgotten something. All excuses, L knew, to not leave him alone.
He was aware of the fact that someone had witnessed the last time he'd visited his Light; the monitor being turned on proved that. But he wasn't sure who it had been. Not that it mattered, cause it seemed that all of Task Force knew now. He could tell by the way that they looked at him. He saw all the judgmental glances they threw his way. He knew how conversation would halt when he walked in the room and would start again when they thought he wasn't listening. L saw all of this, and he bared their judgment in silence. He could have just been paranoid, these things could have been because they all disapproved of the way he was handling the case, but his guilty conscience couldn't figure out any other reason why they wouldn't leave him alone unless they all knew. It was the only logical explanation.
But he was alone now. And since there was no telling when he would be again, he had to take this opportunity. Glancing at the three monitors in front of him, he switched off the one showing the boy he suspected of being the serial killer known as Kira. Smiling, he headed downstairs; he was going to see his Light again.
"What brings you here, Ryuuzaki?" Light Yagami asked the moment he saw the pale skinned, sugar addict standing outside his cell.
L smiled. "It's good to see you too, Light."
Light grunted and looked away.
"Why so cranky, Light-kun?" L asked, letting himself into the boy' s cell and sitting down on his cot.
"I don't know, Ryuuzaki," Light said sarcastically, "What reason do I have to be cranky? I've only been locked in this cell and watched twenty-four hours a day for almost a week now." There was venom in Light's voice as he continued, "I should be perfectly fine. There's no reason for me to be cranky at all."
"I feel a wave of deja-vu coming on. Need I remind you again that you volunteered for this?"
Light opened his mouth to speak, changed his mind, and closed it again. "You know what, Ryuuzaki," he finally said, "I don't even want to start it today. Arguing with you would just be a waste of time."
"I agree 98.32%, Light," L said. "Besides, I can think of something else that I would much more prefer doing than fighting with you, Light."
"And what would that be?" Light asked.
L slipped to his knees in front of him, without looking up at Light he said, "I was hoping I could do something for you, Light." There was a slight blush gracing itself upon L's pale cheeks. "Like last time, but different." L had been thinking for a while of a way to express his feelings to Light. Words could only take him so far, and he'd already been allowed to pleasure Light in one way. There was one more service he was willing to give to his love. Some may find it shameful, and L did admit it was a little embarrassing, but he wanted to do this. For Light.
Before Light could respond, L's hands were already set to removing his pants. "Ryuuzaki," Light hissed.
L pulled Light's pants down so that they were around his ankles, but it wasn't until he had his hands around the other boy's slightly hard nether regions, did he gain the courage to look up at him. "Light?" he asked hesitantly upon seeing the young Yagami's boy's face.
Light was sending him a look of pure venom, his eyes were clouded in anger, his jaw set, and he was hissing through his teeth. "Did I do something wrong?" L inquired. When Light only turned his head away, L realized he had misinterpreted the boy's features, it wasn't anger that had his eyes clouded and his jaw set, it was him trying to disguise his want. Gaining a little more courage from this, L looked down and tentatively licked the tip of Light's now fully engorged length. He was rewarded with the sound of Light once again hissing through his teeth. All hesitation went out the window after that.
L greedily took Light into his mouth as if it was his favorite treat. Then he pulled back with the sound of a lollipop being pulled out a child's mouth. Light rewarded him with a low moan, and L set about covering the boy's pulsing heat with light kisses and teasing licks, gaining more courage with each pleasure filled sound that Light let slip.
Meanwhile, L's own erection was in dire need of attention. Without thought, L slipped one hand down and began to pleasure himself, all the while sucking hard on Light's erection. Soon his hesitant actions began to form a pattern, bobbing his head down and taking as much of Light as he possible could, and coming up sliding his lower teeth along the vein that traveled the length of the boy's erection. As L's actions became more rhythmical, Light's moans became more loud and carefree, which prompted L to suck faster and faster, all the while pleasuring himself with his hand.
A loud moan vibrated trough L's throat, as he came all over his own hand, and at that same moment, Light spilled his seed in his mouth. L greedily swallowed the bitter protein, enjoying it as he enjoyed his extra sugary cups of tea, not at all surprised by its bitterly sour taste. After milking Light of every drop of his milky white semen, L looked up at the boy and was granted with a look of pure undisguised pleasure. L felt that he needed one more thing from the boy before he had to leave.
Light raised an eyebrow and L climbed on his lap, straddling him. "What are you doing Ryuuzaki?" he asked.
L smiled shyly. "I was hoping that we could... um." L seemed to be at an uncharacteristic lost for words.
"I get it," Light said tauntingly. "You were hoping for another make-out secession." He took L's blush as a sign that he was right and L couldn't deny that was exactly what the had wanted. "What makes you think that I have any desire kiss you?" Light asked, a little menace dripping into his voice. "You're pathetic, Ryuuzaki," he stated. "First you assume that I'm Kira and lock me up here so you could watch me. Then you declare your love for me. Now you do this, and have the audacity to believe I would ever let your lips touch mine. You're disgusting and pathetic."
Every word Light said was like a knife trough L's heart. Any lust filled illusion that he might have had about him being with Light shattering with each verbal blow. "Light," he said with tangible hurt in his voice, "Do you really mean that?"
"Would I have said it if I didn't mean it?"
L tried to swallow down the lump forming in his throat. "Why?" he asked, "Why is it so hard for you to believe that I love you? Why is it so hard for you to love me back?"
Light's glare bore holes into L's heart. "As if I would ever love someone as pitiful as you. Don't insult me."
L tried not to wince at those words and had to fight to hold back tears. Nothing and no one had ever effected L so much that it moved him to tears, and he'd be damned if he awarded Light that power. No, he wasn't going to cry... at least not right now where Light would see.
"I understand, Light," he said climbing off the boy's lap and on to his feet. "I'm sorry. I guess I should be going now."
L left the cell without looking back.
L trudged back up to Task Force Headquarters, feeling completely shattered. Questioning himself on how he could still feel love for the boy who just so expertly took a hammer to his heart. But he was soon faced with a much bigger problem, as he discover the monitor showing the cell he was just in once again turned on and upon further investigation he found a message typed in big bold print on his computer: "You Disgust Me."
With a loud sob, L fell into his chair and cried, no longer strong enough to hold back the tears. Things were quickly going down hill for him. His heart was broken into a million pieces, and now this. He sobbed again. When had he become so weak? When had be invested so much emotion into a person he knew was more that capable of hurting him? What had he done to deserve such pain? Why was he being punished?
Why couldn't his Light love him back?