Free of the medical bay I spent most of my time drawing in the security of my level of coarse leaving every now and then to socialize with everyone. I was currently out on the balcony with Black Eyed Peas 'Pump It' on repeat as I drew Thor raising his hammer summoning lightning to strike down some random bad guy that I threw in there, I was working on inking it when I jumped out my skin {hypothetically of coarse} at a touch to my shoulder, I looked back to see Thor "Jarvis mute the music please" "I did not mean to frighten you Lady Sparrow" Thor smiled "it okay." I smiled back setting down the pen that I was working with "may I sit with you?" Thor asked "of coarse" I replied, "Captain Rodgers has told me that you had the gift of the arts, he did not say you were so talented" "I wouldn't say I'm talented. But thank you for the complement" I smiled closing the sketch pad "may I look?" I hesitated before handing the pad to Thor, I watched as he smiled studying each drawing before turning the page. Thor's smiled disappeared and was replaced with a look of pain I moved over to look at what drawing had caused this, seeing a drawing that I did of Loki after a nightmare "oh, I forgot about that one" I said quietly turning my gaze to the setting sun "what did my brother do to you; Lady Sparrow?" Thor turned my head to face him; perhaps it would help to talk I just wasn't sure. I bit my lower lip "it stays between you and me right?" I asked, "if that is what you wish" Thor said reassuringly; I let out a shaky breath just thinking about it made my skin crawl "he, uh. He looked into my memories making me remember things from my past; he called me his Little Sparrow; that's why I asked you to change it. He said that everyone hated me; he knew that I have a strong fear of someone. When he opened the scars and re-broke everything. . . he did it as them" I said pulling my knees up and hugging them a tear trickled down my cheek. I was pulled into Thor's warm embrace "He couldn't be more wrong," Thor said softly "we do not hate you, in the short time that you have been here we came to respect you and to care for you" he pulled away brushing the tears from my cheeks "you are a strong woman Lady Sparrow" he got up "and do not worry I will not inform Doctor Banner of the many extravagant drawings you have done of him" Thor left me with a blush.
After my ribs and hand healed I decided to go out and get some air Thor had offered to accompany me but I declined. I sat in a small Starbucks enjoying a Strawberry Crème Frap with a slice of lemon cake, I looked up from my snack when a man sat down at my table I looked around there was a mother and her young child ordering and a teenage couple cuddling on one of the couches but there were plenty of free tables I turned my gaze back to the stranger raising a questioning eye brow. "Fancy seeing you out and about alone, Little Sparrow" he smirked my stomach lurched I swallowed the bile down pushing my food away no longer interested, I leaned back in my chair and crossed my arms "fancy seeing you in normal clothing" I replied dryly "what's wrong get tired of the ridiculous getup you always wear?" Loki glared at me "it would appear you have yet to learn how to act in my presence Little Sparrow" he said only loud enough for me to hear "I'm a slow learner" I shrugged; that was of coarse a lie, "perhaps I was too lenient the last time," he tapped his fingers on the table lazily before taking a bite of the lemon cake "if you want to call that lenient" I said "obviously it was, seeing as you still have not learned." "Perhaps I should destroy this little shop and all it's patrons as punishment, make you watch as they burn" he smirked, my eyes went to the small child and back to Loki "this is between you and me Loki. Keep it that way" I snarled "how noble. Putting others before yourself" Loki chuckled "it's called a heart, you should look into getting one" Loki stood straightening his clothes before extending his hand to me silently telling me to fallow, I smacked his hand away and walked toward the back exit of the Starbucks.
We entered the alleyway closed off from the streets and I was pushed against the brick wall my hands held above my head Loki traced a finger across one of my newly healed ribs breaking it again "damn it" I breathed the clinched teeth "no new material Loki? This is so predictable" I chuckled, another rib Loki smashed our lips together his tongue fighting to gain entrance the last rib I gasped his tongue invaded my mouth twisting around mine roughly. I felt my stretch pants and underwear gone and closed my eyes "new enough Little Sparrow" the familiar voice chuckled before attacking my neck biting and licking, my eyes flew open as I felt his hand reach up my skirt, I tightened my legs "what are you doing?" I gasped, "teaching you a lesson" Loki-Bruce smirked licking his lips "then teach it as yourself damn it!" I snarled "that would mean I'm teaching with softness again" he growled pushing past my legs and rubbed me "you desire this man, and so I shall make that every time you look at him you will only think of me. You will grow to hate this man with every fiber of your being" he pulled my leg up, the force making it pop "no," I gasped closing my eyes again a tear trickled down my cheek he began licking at my neck again biting hard enough to draw blood "are you a virgin Little Sparrow?" he whispered in my ear, he entered with a rough thrust silencing my scream by crushing our lips together again. He pushed me against the wall with each thrust I kept my eyes closed and bit my lip to the point where it was bleeding as he assaulted me "open your eyes Little Sparrow" he grunted with a thrust, I locked on to that chocolate brown gaze filled with hate; it wasn't really him he would never do this, he was too kind and shy "p-please d-don't" I breathed "don't what Little Sparrow?" he began biting my neck again "d-don't come in me. Please" the bile in the pit of my stomach raised once more "my king" the thrusting stopped and I fell to my knees panting; perhaps this truly was my natural state. "Finish me" he ordered I looked up meeting his gaze again, I gulped leaning forward wrapping my lips around him moving slowly; too slow for his liking. He grabbed a fist full of my hair forcing my head forward, I fought against my gag reflex as he moved my head at a pace that suited him. He let out a groan as he released in my mouth he kept a tight hold on my head "swallow" he ordered; I forced it down nearly throwing up right there, he pulled out of my mouth and I began coughing "Good Little Sparrow" he chuckled before leaving, I felt clothed again but so utterly disgusted I couldn't hold it down any longer I heaved the contents of my stomach.
I walked with a limp grasping my side back to the tower, I had contemplated just flying back but I didn't have the strength or any dignity left to deal with people starring at me pointing their fingers at the freak. The elevator dinged and I walked out just wanting to take a shower and scrub the filth off, I didn't even realize I got off on the wrong level I looked up to see everyone except for Clint sitting down and Fury was here I slowly lowered the arm that was cradling my ribs "sorry," I smiled "wrong floor" I went to leave but Clint stopped me by grabbing my arm and pulling the sleeve to my shirt up "did Barney do this to you?" he asked looking a mix of angry and sad, my eyes scanned the room before landing on Tony who in turn pointed at Fury; I glared at Fury "we apprehended Trickshot A.K.A Barney Barton this morning. He asked how his little birdie was doing," he said coldly; I pulled my arm from Clint's grasp ignoring the pain in my ribs "you want to know fine, I'll tell you" I snarled "my father murdered the Greene's, he took me trained me to be a killer and each time I disappointed him he would cut me. A total of three-hundred disappointments; but when I refused to kill a mother and her child well the punishment was more severe three broken ribs and a broken hand for not completing an assignment; after four years of his violent abuse I escaped." I breathed falling to my knees with a painful sob grasping my side again. Clint's angry/sad demeanor disappeared and was replaced with worry he knelt before me "Toni?" he whispered reaching forward "don't touch me Clint" I gasped I felt someone kneel beside me and carefully move my hand aside slowly lifting my shirt "her ribs are broken again" it was Bruce I looked at his gaze not filled with hate like Loki-Bruce but concern silently asking the question "Loki" I finally said "what did he do?" Clint sounded angry again, I looked up meeting the worried gazed of everyone Thor's was a mix of worry and anger, I sucked in a breath wincing again I panted letting out another painful sob "what did he do Toni?" Clint asked again "he raped me." I said quietly "using the face of the person I love" I felt myself fall forward as my world went black.