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Haha but seriously, welcome to Chapter 4.

I know a few certain people were happy with Dei and Hika smooch time *coughcoughkirachancoughcough*!

Trust me, there will be plenty more where that came from ;p after allllll this isss a ratteeddd MMMMMMMMMM stoooorrrryyyyy

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Haha, I'm sorry… It's three o'clock in the morning as I'm doing this, and I haven't slept in four days, so I'm over-tired x3

This chapter is a filler chapter. After that Little smoochysmoochness I hadda write the after math. :D

Please enjoy this next chapter that is written in the first few paragraphs Hika's POV, and then it jumps to Dei.

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Chapter 4

Jounetsou

My lips were red hot, burning with the desire to kiss him again. He had felt so gentle…his lips were smooth…not chapped as I had expected them to be, simply because of his status as a ninja—I don't exactly know why I tied being a hard core shinobi with chapped lips…I just did. He was the exact opposite of what I expected. There was almost no force in the kiss. It was perfectly passionate and delicate. I had never imagined in my wildest dreams—and let me tell you, I sure as hell had some wild dreams about him—that Deidara would be…no could be a passionate lover. It just didn't fit him. He had always come off as the fleeting fling type of guy, what with his art is fleeting and shit. He seemed more like a one night stand, rough sex, and no kissing kinda dude. Everybody knows you don't kiss someone unless they hold a certain special spot in your heart—because otherwise you're leading them on even more. That's a no-no.

But if that was the case… Why had I kissed him back? Why did I press myself closer—if only slightly. Why did I crave more when he broke away. His touch left a burning sensation on my skin, butterflies dancing across my skin with small sighs of content. I liked being in his arms. Granted, the position wasn't all that comfortable, nor graceful, or romantic, but it felt nice to be in his arms. Tch, what am I saying. We're fucking shinobi for Christ's sakes! No emotions. At all.

We were also only human.

Tempted by desires that run rampant courses through our veins, through our souls causing us to throw away all caution to the wind. Tempted by desires that can either make or break you, and almost always end up being the latter of the two. It makes your vision blurred—your sight temporarily gone for those few moments when you're in the presence of that one weakness. You try your hardest to clear your mind, your thoughts, but there's nothing you can do to stop it. Like a disease with no cure, it will tear you apart bit by bit, until you can't take it anymore. Until you finally break—when the sickness has killed off the last cell in your body. When it ends, you fall apart. You die a little on the inside at first, not realizing the magnitude of the issue, and then you suffer slowly, waiting for that bomb to go off in the back of you subconscious. The sickness seems to go away for a bit… it seems a cure has been found… but it's like cancer. You can never be sure if it's gone for good. The want—the virus—will come back and eat you again. Then you snap. All regrets pushed aside for later. You take what you want again and again, until you're completely satisfied, but even then you want more. So much more.

I had never ever been tempted like that before in my life. I had never wanted someone anymore than I wanted Deidara. I never experienced feelings like I had for him. They weren't acceptable. They needed to go away and stay locked away. It wouldn't be easy—sending that damn sickness into remission—but I had to do it. To protect both Deidara and myself…

The question was…would I have the strength to push him away? Would I have the strength to push my feelings aside.

My fingers were still tracing my lips. I could still feel his breath fanning over my cheeks, making them hot. Making me hot. My heart fluttered. The hair on my arms stood up as a cold draft hit me. I was so...alert. It was as if I had just popped a pill of ecstasy. Every part of my body responded to even the most subtle of touches. Fire brewed deep within in me when my hair tickled my skin, causing me to gasp. What did you do to me Dei-kun? My breath was ragged. All I saw was him. All I felt was him. I could feel his lips pressing against mine again…so softly…

Closing my eyes quickly, and shoving off the wall I had leaned against to regain composure—I shook my head to clear any remaining thoughts. I slowly made my way back to the kitchen where I was to get the glass of water I had forgotten for Tsuki. My legs felt like they had been replaced with putty, but I pressed onwards, trying to ignore it…But dammit it was so hard. It took a little longer than what it should have, to get to the kitchen, and when I arrived, I wish I had just forgotten the drink again. Upon opening the refrigerator, a cold rush of air hit me, and everything last inch of my body reacted with a shuddering I was sure would break a bone or something.

There was no way in hell that I was going to be able to hold back. Even if I tried.

*Deidara's POV*

She was so delicate. It was hard to believe that she had actually kissed me back at all. But it happened, hence the smug smirk etched into my lips. I doubted it would leave anytime soon, so I just let it make a nice home on my face.

Comfortable, buddy? Good.

So, yeah, maybe it was a little cheesy for me to make her fall into me, so I could steal a kiss, but in all honesty that's all could think of at the time...and I had been staring at her luscious pale pink lips all day. They had looked so kissable…so soft like the rest of her, and god was her skin soft. Sometimes, I wondered if she was secretly an angel… She was too perfect.

I wanted more of her now. Once she had left the infirmary, I had gone into my room to sit with my back against my window, allowing the cool pane to chill my body. I was so hot all over. Certain areas needed attention, but I wouldn't fulfill their wishes. Not after I had been in such close proximity to my white haired goddess. Doing things myself would definitely not satisfy me in anyway.

I ran a hand through my long blonde locks of hair pulling on a strand lazily. My mind was still refusing to let images of Hikari escape into the stuffy air about me—and now it was just plain annoying. I quickly scanned my room—going over the black walls that had been painted sloppily and in a rush—and landed on the shelf right above my bed, with completed sculptures—my favourite works of art. Every single one of them was carve to perfection and completed. All except for one.

No matter how hard I tried, I could never quite finish it. I had attempted to carve Hikari's beautiful frame numerous times, and no matter how hard I tried, it just wasn't the same. And let me say, I could not live with a mediocre version of that gorgeous woman that I had very possibly fallen in love with. No matter how…impossible it seemed, I found myself questioning it every day. I definitely did not want to grow attached like I had to Sasori-no-danna, and yet…without realizing it, I already had.

"This is ridiculous, hmm." I murmured to no one in particular. Standing slowly from the window sill, I took one last glance outside, noting the white haired woman's stressed out look as she made her way agitatedly down the cold wet streets of Amegakure. It looked as if she was heading down to the store…but it was in the opposite direction/ Curious, I decided to say fuck the door, and made my way out the rather high window to follow her.

Yeah, yeah, I know, a little stalker-esque. It was also partially for her safety… there were plenty a creeper who made their ways through alleyways in drunken stupors, waiting for the innocent girl to pass by—with no knowledge of the threat. Hikari was a strong girl—I wouldn't doubt if she was jumped she could handle herself—but sometimes, you couldn't be too sure.

With the urge to catch up to her and question what she was doing, I picked up the pace, my ninja-sandals making a sloshing sound on the wet ground, and occasionally kicking up water where the puddle was large enough for me to do so.

My brain was a muddled mess. I still was unsure what I would tell her—knowing all too well she would question my motive for finding her in this crowd of people—when I noticed something…

She had disappeared.

I had lost her, which was hard to do, considering the fact that I was pretty sure she was the only young woman with white hair… Not to mention the length…Oh how I wished I could run my hair through it every night… how I wished I could wrap my fingers in her hair, to roughly pull her closer into a passionate…

I had to calm down. Getting hard in public wasn't exactly attractive…

Frantically, I began to search for her. Where could she possibly have gone? Panic settled into the depths of my stomach. What if someone had grabbed her? Drugged her even? Sure, she was a medic-nin, but still…

It took me another fifteen minutes to find her. She was in an herb shop—one that I hadn't known existed—with a wicker basket slung carelessly over her forearm. Her normally full hair seemed flat, from being drenched in the rain and pieces stuck to her face that was moist with water as well.

I bet she'd look just as hot in my shower…Damn she's hot when she's wet… (*snicker*)

I shook my head. Not here. Not now. I watched as she brushed stringy strands of her hair behind her ear, and picked up a bundle of…something—I was never good with greenery or plants or any of that—inspecting it with disdain.

I saw her muscles tense and relax. Her brow was pulled tight in a concentrated look. Her defenses were down. She wasn't even paying attention to anything that was going on around her. She definitely was stressed. I could fix that…

No, no, not with sex… tch… you perverts!

Although, not a bad idea at all…

"Hikari-chan, hmm." Her head snapped up, and she grasped at her chest, snapping out of her trance-like state with a jump.

In a sense, it was kinda cute.

"Ohayo, Dei-kun." She muttered through her ragged breath—trying to regain the air she had lost. I loved my name when it came off her lips. The way she said it…AGGH! I wanted her so bad. "What are you doing here?" She glanced up at me through her eyelashes that had water droplets weighing them down, giving her a sort of sexual appeal—not that she needed much help in that area.

"I saw you through my window, hmm. You looked stressed, and I know when you're upset about something, you normally don't pay attention, yeah." I gave her a pointed look, and she blushed, her cheeks burning a bright red. She was embarrassed from before. "I wanted to make sure you were safe, basically, hmm." I saw her eyes soften at this, her muscles relaxed—almost completely—and she smiled that beautiful smile of hers at me.

"Thank you Dei-Dei. I'm glad you came along for the ride. I shouldn't be long; I just need to grab a few things to make as a dietary supplement for Tsuki to eat in between meals. It'll help her gain weight faster, without killing her." I wanted to growl. I didn't like Tsuki one bit. She hurt my Hikari and that didn't sit well with me.

"Can we not talk about Tsuki, hmm? I just wanna talk to you…about you." I tried to sound sincere, because in all honesty, I really did just want to talk about her. "We…can make it like a date, yeah?" I heard her laugh a little, and my heart sunk to the floor…I shouldn't have let it though. I should have known she didn't like me the way I had dreamed she would.

"I wouldn't exactly call herb shopping a romantic date, nor a very appealing one, but if that's what you want, sure." Her eyes seemed to spark a bit, and all her stress seemed to disappear for the rest of the time we spent together.

I didn't expect shopping for four different plants would take a half hour… but then again, for me, it'd probably take four hours—and by that time I would have given up and picked the wrong ones shouting fuck it.

Hikari was different. She took her time, inspecting each of the herbs for certain characteristics, then she very carefully studied the condition of each. If there was even a small little withering leaf, she would put the bundle back, and look for another.

I didn't mind waiting. It was calming to watch her in her own little world. She was so cute when she concentrated, and some of the faces she made, actually made me laugh. I was genuinely happy for the first time in a long time.

I was shocked with my own thoughts, but now, I was too far gone to go back.

"Dei-chan?" She glanced at me through the corner of her eyes, and I nodded in acknowledgment. "About before…" She paused looking up to the sky. The ice cold rain fell onto my face, but I couldn't feel it. My cheeks were to warm with a flush that very well could have boiled the water.

"I'm sorry, hmm. If you didn't li—"

"That's the problem, Deidara. I loved it. I don't understand…I mean, I do, but I don't want to believe it." She stopped and stood in front of me, looking into my azure eyes with her own golden orbs. My heart almost stopped for a moment. "We're shinobi, Dei-kun, so why is it that I feel the way I do? You do things to me that I don't even understand, and it bothers me. I love it, but at the same time, I hate it. I want it to go away, but I want more. I know it's wrong, but at this point, I could care less. Dammit Deidara, what the hell did you do to me?

I could only chuckle at her, and snake my hands around her waist, and pull her flush against me. A small yelp left her lips, only to be swallowed with my mouth over hers again.

It felt so right. I didn't care if we were rogue ninja. I didn't care anything but the fact that she felt so good, so right in my arms.

I pulled her closer, if that was possible, deepening the kiss. I felt her breath get ragged, I felt her desperation for an answer—an answer I couldn't give her because I didn't even know myself. Her arms went around my neck, and she tugged me down. I nibbled on her lower lip softly, before slowly pulling away, leaving her breathless. Her eyes were glazed over, she was shocked that I had been so bold, but hell, that was me.

Every thing I did was a bang-explosive. Especially when it came to dealing with my Hikari, and loving her.

Alright guys!

Soooo did you like the cheesy ending?

I thought it was cute…

Like I said before, this was just a filler chapter!

I was trying to figure out a good way to transition some stuff *'dbeaspoiler!*

In any case, I hope you enjoyed, and I'm sorry it took so long -3-

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