Bella

7 days without Edward. One whole week since the last time I had spent with him; it felt a little better to have time thinking about the right decision. I was vulnerable with Mr. Masen and I didn't like it. I made a promise to myself to never get attached to a client, no matter the circumstances. Could he be an exception? He's fucktastic in bed. Inner B was going to seriously have consequences.

I sighed, turning on my TV and pressed my back into the sofa. A quiet evening at home watching Friends couldn't be so bad, could it? Edward never left my mind this whole week. He would constantly call my cell, leaving messages on the next time he wanted to see me. I had his money; I could have ended it that night. Edward thought I had...

His last message was around 1:30 and I had just settled down into bed for the night. My cell buzzed and buzzed. This man cannot take no for an answer!

"Ugh, Edward fucking Masen if you don't stop calling me at wee hours of the morning I will murder you!" At this point, I was so angry I didn't care how my words came across.

His chuckle rang through my ears and down into my heart. I sighed, closing my eyes and sat down on the bed. This wasn't going to get any easier if he was trying to hard.

"I'm glad I finally got you to answer your phone. We haven't spoken in a week, B. It's making me a little nervous." He sighed.

What was I suppose to tell him? I wanted to keep seeing him every night for as long as he wanted me. Give up my confidence to own up to what he wanted? No, I had to stay strong in this.

"Look... I told you before, Ed. I need time, okay?"

There was a brief silence at the other end of the line and for a moment I thought he'd hung up. His sigh broke the silence, giving him some time before he spoke.

"Alright. Whatever you feel is best for you."

I didn't like the sound of that. He was just letting me off that easy? Throwing me to the fucking curb with his money while he was probably fucking every whore in Seattle! No!

"What's best for me? I told you before Ed; just give me some time before I see you again. I promise you will." Don't promise anything you can't keep, Bella...

"Okay, no problem. Just give me a call when you're okay again."

We said our good-byes and the line went dead. This wasn't going to be easy.

~0~

2 fucking weeks. Another week without giving Edward any sign I was going to jump right back on his bones. Something about him made that pull connects even stronger, bringing me to him without hesitation. It was nerve-racking to think a man could do that to me.

Buzz. Buzz. Buzz.

Caller ID stated that it was Edward again. Oh shit. I set down my cup of joe and flipped open the screen to hit the 'end' button, again. Yeah, so I was blowing him off.

I couldn't think of anything to do at this point anymore. I knew that if I continued to see him, it would end badly. He could hurt me, in every shape and form and I could easily hurt him. We just wouldn't be good together, no matter how hard we'd try. I tried not to think about that.

How could I allow myself to be so engrossed in a human being? I wanted to crawl right back over to the phone and tell him to come see me. But, I couldn't and I wasn't sure if I'd last any longer.

Three days later.

I told Edward I'd arrive at his house around seven. Did I know what I was getting myself into? Yes. Did I know I'd end up miserable for three weeks straight? No. For some odd reason, his pull brought me to his front door.

"B, you made it." His smile greeted me and I swore I melted right on the front porch.

"Of course. I told you I needed time." Three weeks of it? That was bullshit Bella.

His hand caressed the small of my back, preceding me towards his kitchen. As usual, there were two cups of tea waiting on the counter. I don't know why the media claimed he was such an arrogant asshole. He was a gentleman at times. His hand cascaded down my back; finding their way at my hips to bring me closer to him. There was that pull again. My back rested into his chest, head tilting to the side when he placed his lips across my shoulder. This man was going to be the death of me.

His nose traveled along the curve of my neck, kissing softly as he went and my fingers curled around the cup in the midst of pouring my heart out right in his arms. Speaking of his arms, they were wrapped around me, keeping me tight up against his chest and it made me feel vulnerable all of a sudden. This is why I didn't want to see him.

"You look beautiful tonight." His words caused a slight blush to rise to my cheeks.

Humming began from his throat, placing kiss after kiss on my neck while his friend continued nuzzling my ass. God, I had missed that guy.

"B, I'm sorry if I had pushed you into something that scared you away. I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable, I just wanted you here. And seeing you tonight...quite possibly the greatest view I could have all day." His lips curled up at the corner. God, that smile.

"Edward...I'm sorry to have kept you waiting like this, it was just not the best time for me to be around you. I had a lot going on and I just felt it was best to give us both space. I hope you understand?"

Those green eyes looked down at me with a warm glow, his fingers coming up to caress my face and his lips were suddenly inches from mine. Oh lordy lord! Don't kiss me, please I can't take it. My mind was suddenly in a frenzy as his lips drew closer to mine. I had wanted to kiss him, the first night we spent together. If I let him kiss me now, it meant something personal... it would mean I'm allowing him to become vulnerable with me.

"You can tell me no anytime you want me to stop, but B, I'm going to kiss you." His voice sang in my ears, his breath hitting my lips every time he spoke.

My chest was now rising and falling with a rapid breath, eyes closed and mouth parted. He wrapped his arm around my waist to pull me closer to him and seal the space between us, his head cocking to the side and I felt the most heated warmth I could have ever felt in the three years of prostitution.

His mouth invaded mine, moving our lips carefully into his kiss. Edward moaned, pulling my body in closer to his while his tongue tried to sneak past my lips and into my mouth; I allowed my mouth to open. When I felt his tongue travel across mine, it sent a nerve of electricity throughout my entire body, sending me into abyss each time it glided against mine. I had never experienced something so sensual in my entire life, so enduring.

Our tongues wound together, fighting for dominance while his left hand caressed the back of my head; fingers curling into my hair to kiss me deeper. God, this man could possibly be the one thing in my life to kill me. His chest was pressed against mine, lips molded into our kiss and the sounds coming from his throat couldn't have made me wetter.

"Let's go upstairs."

A panic feeling suddenly washed over me, and I pulled away from him. The kiss left me breathless, so I closed my eyes to regain composure. This man knew exactly how to push my buttons. I had just let him into my mouth; something so personal that I wouldn't have shared a kiss with anyone else and he wants to fuck me? I was angry.

"You want to fuck me? After I just let you kiss me! I just let you invade a wall of personal feelings Edward! How dare you even think about fucking me when I shared feelings? No, I want to go. This was a mistake..." I shook my head several times, grabbing my jacket and turned my body away from him so I could leave.

"B! Wait please!"

His hand reached out to grab my arm and I jerked it away, reaching for the door. Every emotion had come to my face, wiping it away with the back of my hand; I opened the door and made my path towards the street to call a cab. Edward's trail was right behind me, grabbing at my hands and arms to stop me. I didn't want to look at him, even think about his intentions had meant tonight.

You're a call girl Bella... an escort. Do you possibly think the man had feelings? You were being paid to fuck him. Inner B was right. His intentions for the past three weeks were to sleep with me, why would tonight be any different? I was hurt.

"Just leave me alone, Edward. I don't want to continue seeing you, its enough!" My words came out like venom, seething through my teeth.

He stood outside the cab, watching me through the window until it drove off down the street. I forced myself not to look back.