Kendall's POV

I paced back and forth. Waiting for Emily to wake up. Every agonizing hour that had passed by…I started to lose hope. But I told myself not to think about it. She had lost a lot of blood. Almost four pints. I thought about why she'd do this to herself. Engrave that word into herself. I sat down next to James. He had his face in his hands. I sighed.

"I'm sorry."

He looked at me. His eyes were puffy and red. He sniffled. "It's not your fault." He was barely audible.

I sighed. "No…it is."

He looked at me. "Excuse me?"

I sighed. "Guys, can you leave us alone?"I asked the three boys standing by the window. Logan, Drew, and Carlos nodded. They left. I didn't want them to. I was pretty sure he'd get mad and punch me.

I stood in front of him. "Look, I'm really sorry."

"What did you do?"He asked standing."Did you hurt her?"He asked raising his voice.

I stepped back a little. "No. I'd never want to do that."

"Then what did you do that caused this?"

"I-I kissed her."

At first he had no emotion. Then he had an angry look on his face.

"James…look I don't want any-"Before I could finish he punched me in the jaw. I fell to the floor.

"You son of a bitch!"He yelled. Carlos and Logan came in and pulled him off. Logan helped me up.

"You okay?"

I nodded holding my jaw.

Emily's POV

My eyes fluttered open. I saw Selena hovering over me.

"Guys she's awake!"Selena shouted to Demi and Miley.

"I'll go get the doctor."Demi said.

"I'll get the guys."Miley said leaving behind her.

Selena smiled down at me. "I'm so glad you're awake, Em."She said hugging me. I plastered on a smile. It was weak but it was a smile.

"The girls won't be back for a while. So. Why did you write that on your arm?"She had a serious look on her face. I thought she was the dumb one.

"Sel, I don't-"

"Emily. You're going to have to have this conversation whether you like it or not."

"We can either talk BFF to BFF or in front of everybody else."

I sighed. "I wrote because…I betrayed Drew. And I thought, I'm just like John. He lied to my mother on her death bed. He said he'd take care of us. But instead he…"

She didn't need to hear more. She pulled me into a hug. She let go and looked at me.

"You have to stop blaming yourself for something that jackass did. You are not like him." I saw a tear roll down her face. "You are my best friend. And I never want to see you hurt. But when it's you that's doing the hurting to your own body? Now that…I can't take that."

I felt tears cascade down my face. I hugged her. "I love you, Sel."

A few minutes after Selena's talk with me, everyone came in. But I didn't see Drew or Kendall. And I really needed to talk to him.

"Hey, Em." Logan said kissing my forehead.

Carlos hugged me and I smiled.

"H-Hi James." I said trying to get his attention.

"Hey."

Selena whispered in my ear. Kendall had told him and that he left after James had punched him. I looked at everyone else. They all nodded. They knew.

"That's why Drew is gone isn't it?"

Selena nodded. "He said it's over."

I looked down."Can you guys leave me alone with James?"

"Wow, looks like I'm getting all the attention today."

They left closing the door.

"Why are you acting like such an jackass?"

"You kissed my best friend!"

"I-I didn't kiss him, okay! He kissed me."

"Like I'm going to believe that bullshit, Emily."

"You know what, you're just like dad."

"I am nothing like that man. Hell, he's not even a man. More of a coward in my eyes. And if anything you're like him."

His words stung. But I didn't let them get to me.

"Do you see it now James? I thought I was like him. I was betraying Drew like he did to mom. Do you see how the pieces fit? I've been cutting myself since we first got here. That's why I always wore that jacket mom gave me. I hated myself. I wanted something to make me feel better. I tried drugs, that wasn't my kind of thing. Acting out, I thought you'd understand that it was a cry out for help. This…destroying my body was the only way for you to understand that I need your help? What kind of brother are you?"

I saw tears streaming down his face like a river. I leaned back breathless. I just wanted to breathe.

"A really terrible one."I looked at him. He was walking towards me. "I'm so sorry, Em. I'm so sorry."He hugged me. I hugged back crying in his arms.

Three Hours Later

The doctor said that I needed to rest up and that everyone could come get me in a little while. But I couldn't sleep. I desperately needed to talk to him.

When James came to pick me up there was complete silence in the car.

"James?"

"Yea?"

"I don't think you're a terrible brother. And you're nothing like John. You actually care about me. You're always there and I love you."

He smiled at me and took my hand. He turned back to the road."I love you too, sis. And remember…I'll sacrifice anything for you."

I smiled."I've always missed that."

"Missed what?"

"How you'd say things like that. Whenever you told me that…I felt loved. And that's why I took a break. From cutting myself. I thought that maybe I had something to live for."I said looking out the window.

We stopped at a red light."You'll always have something to live for."He said kissing my forehead.

I smiled."Yea, I know that now."

We walked in and I saw Kendall sleeping on the couch. I smiled.

"Can I talk to him?"

"No. He made this happen. And I don't want it to happen again."

"He didn't make this happen. I did it to myself. Just please."

He glanced at Kendall. He looked back at me."Two minutes."

"Two minutes?"

"You're wasting your time."

"Fine. Two minutes."I stuck my tongue out at him.

He stuck out his tongue and made a face. I laughed and watched as he left into his room.

I sat on the couch next to Kendall. I pushed him lightly."Kendall? Get up."

He groaned.

I sighed."Kendall?"He was always the hardest to get to wake up. So…I sat on him.

"God you're fat!"He said pushing me off.

"Thanks for wasting a minute of my time."

"What?"

"Look…I really need to talk to you."

He sighed and sat up making room for me. I sat next to him. "Begin."

"Ok…? Well I just wanted to thank you for telling James and taking a punch for me."

"Continue."He said nodding.

I rolled my eyes. "And…I wanted to say that…I-I like you two."

He smiled at me. He leaned in for a kiss.

"NO!" James shouted throwing a pillow at Kendall's head.

"Ow!"Kendall said looking at him.

"You can't kiss her again."

I looked at him."If you don't I'll break your entire stash of hair brushes."

"Ahh! Never!"He said running back into his room.

Kendall and I laughed. We kissed for what seemed like hours and then we went to bed.

I looked at the clock. "2:07?" I mumbled to myself. I sighed. I couldn't sleep. I didn't know why but I just felt like being in someone's arms. Carlos and Selena are spending the night at Carlos' mom's house and Logan and Demi were out. So I went to James.

I opened the door.

"James?"I turned on the light. He turned to me."Em?"

"James I can't Sleep and-"I saw Miley sleeping next to him.

"Oh, that's gross!"I yelled. I saw Miley wake up."I can take you guys hugging and kissing but I cannot take you guys banging each other."

I turned back about to close the door."Gross."I said .I popped my head back in."And don't expect me to come in here ever again. Because I won't."I said finally closing the door.

I sighed. I walked by Kendall's room. I sighed again peeking in. He was playing his mini piano. And writing down lyrics. I smiled.

"Well look who's up at 2:00 in the morning."

He jumped holding his chest."God Emily, you scared me."

"That was the point."I said lying on his bed."What's that?"I asked pointing to the notebook.

"Uh nothing."He said covering it up.

"Just tell me. I don't bite…sometimes"

He laughed."You're right. You're practically my girlfriend now."

I looked down blushing. "Just give me the notebook."I said looking at him.

I read the lyrics.

"The situation turns around, enough to figure out, that someone has let you down. So many times I don't know why. But I know we can make it, as long as you say it. Kendall this is really good. You've been writing a lot of songs lately."

"I guess I have a lot of inspiration."He said smiling at me."And Gustavo wants me to record a new love song. Thinking on making it a duet?"

I smiled."I'd love that."

He smiled."Then we better rest up."

I smiled at him and turned off the light. He kissed my forehead.

At The Studio

Tell Me That You Love Me by Victoria Justice feat. Leon Thomas lll

Emily, Kendall, Both

The situation turns around enough to figure out
That someone else has let you down
So many times I don't know why
But I know we can make it as long as you say it

So tell me that you love me
And tell me that I take your breath away
And maybe if you take one more than I would know for sure
There's nothing left to say
Tell me that you love me anyway
Tell me that you love me anyway

Waking up beside yourself and what you feel inside
Is being shared with someone else
Nowhere to hide I don't know why
But I know we can make it
As long as you say it
So tell me that you love me yeah
And tell me that I take your breath away
And maybe if you take one more then I would know for sure
There's nothing left to say
Tell me that you love me anyway

Show me look what we found turn it around everyday
I can hear what you say
Now I know why know we can make it
If you tell me that you love me
And tell me that I take your breath away
And maybe if you take one more
So tell me that you love me yeah
And tell me that I take your breath away
Maybe if you take one more than I would know for sure
There's nothing left to say
Tell me that you love me anyway

I smiled at Kendall."That was amazing."Gustavo said through the microphone.

"I told you she was amazing."Kendall said.

I turned to him."Thanks for bringing me here."

"No problem."He kissed me."I love you."

I smiled."Prove it. Shout it to the world."

He looked at me with a snug smile on his face. He whispered in my ear."I love you."

"Why'd you whisper it to me?"

"Because…you are my world."

I smiled wrapping my arms around his neck. "You passed. Now you get your prize."

"And what would that be?"

"They get to meet mine."

"I think my lips will enjoy meeting your lips."

I smiled."O f course they will. I leaned in and our lips had a very nice meeting.

"Aww, adorable. Now stop kissing my sister!"James yelled. Carlos and Logan hit him on his shoulder.

I smiled."Thanks guys."We got out of the recording studio to listen to the song.

"Get off me! I'm telling you! I know Big Time Rush!"We all went outside to see what was going on. The voice sounded familiar.

"Jo?"The boys said in unison.

She smiled."See I told you."She said and they let go.

"Oh yeah I remember you."I said. She had gone to do a movie in New Zealand like three years ago. She was Kendall's old girlfriend.

She smiled at me."Kendall! I missed you so much babe!" She said kissing him. I stood there shocked. Letting this go on. I t hurt but I had to test Kendall. Hoping that he'd pull away. But he didn't. And that's when I punched her.