Bela's Condo. Queens

It was 3 hours later when Bela walked through the door with Dean behind her. She still wasn't saying anything, and hadn't said any more than necessary since the doctor had came back in with the final results an hour ago.

She walked straight for the couch and fell down onto it, leaning back against the cusions. Dean wasn't sure what to say her. The doctor had told them the options, guess it was mandatory of her. Dean felt his heart flinch at the mention of Bela stopping the pregnancy now. He had to say it was a sigh of relief for him when Bela practically yelled at the doctor for suggesting it, in which the woman replied that she was under obligation to tell Bela these things. Dean was a little surprised at Bela's outburst, he had been a little worried she'd be angry and want to end it. She was far too quiet though. The doctor had mentioned adoption as well if she wasn't wanting to keep the child. Dean wasn't sure what to think or do. He didn't know what Bela was thinking other than she looked completely freaked.

"Bela." Dean tried.

She brought her knees up to her chest. Bela didn't look like herself, she was casual with her hair pulled up and a few strands fell in her face. If she hadn't looked so tired and pale Dean thought she looked adorable.

"Hey." he tried again. Dean walked over to her and squatted down in front of her trying to get her to look at him. "I can't tell you what to do you know...your choice."

She nodded. At least it was a sign she was hearing him. "I don't know." she finally said. "This was the last thing I ever expected to happen, and at the worst time possible."

He nodded in agreement. "I'm sorry...I mean I get it, takes two and all, but I can take my share of responsibility. You can be angry if you want." Anger right now was better than her silence. He could deal with bitchy Bela.

"I'm not angry, I just don't know what to do, what to think. Dean look at me, I'm a mess of a person. I made a demon deal, went to hell, and am now helping you guys figure out how to stop the devil from ending the world. That's not normal Dean. I've done things, things I can't take back. I'm not the motherly type. And that's if we all don't die before this kid is born. What kind of world is this to bring a child into Dean?"

"I know. Hey, look at me. I'm not exactly that good a role model either. I went to hell too, you know that. Thing is though, you're not a bad person Bela. I know you, the real you that no one else gets to see. I agree, not great timing. And that's why if we even make it that far...I won't stop you from giving this kid up, giving it to someone who can give him or her a normal life. I'm not saying that's what I would want, but it's up to you."

Bela stared at him. "What...what exactly is it that you want Dean? I mean, I half figured you would be far more freaked out than you are right now."

"What I want isn't the point. I can't be selfish here. I know I come off as a guy who slept around and it's true. But you also know that lately the only person I want to sleep with is you. I used to never picture normal, at all. That was Sam's thing. Lately though...Sam's the one who wants to hunt and I...I agree with my mother. I don't think a kid should have to grow up in this life. A part of me wants this all to be over and for us to go live some normal happy life...I just don't think that's going to happen."

"Neither do I. You didn't answer me, about what you wanted."

"I met a woman over a year ago again after 8 years, and she had a kid. First I thought he was mine...turns out he wasn't. Thing is though...I was honestly disappointed he wasn't. I thought for the first time ever that it'd be nice to have someone to care about like that, to leave something on this Earth when I go that wasn't just my car, or Sam. So yeah...if I had the choice, if I'm being selfish then I'd say I want kid."

She nodded. Bela's eyes were watering too, and Dean had never seen her like this.

"What do you want?" He whispered.

"I don't know. I mean, I had a cat because they take care of themselves. I would have killed a dog, I couldn't even keep a house plant alive Dean."

He laughed a little at that. That's what she was worried about?

She continued. "Again, I'm not the motherly type, you know my history with my parents. You know what happened to me...what if I'm no better?"

"Hey stop it. That's not you, you're not a pyschopath for starters. You're dad may not have been a demon, but he was a monster. You said that you loved your real mom, she loved you so much she tried to get you out of there. That's what you look at, you look at your mom...not your dad. I think if you decide to do this...you'll be just fine. I'm not going anywhere either you know."

"You said it was my decision." She stated.

"I don't want to decide for you."

"You're not. I need you to decide with me."

He nodded. "I'm not sure where this feeling comes from okay? I feel like somehow I knew this was going to happen...I mean I obviously didn't, but now that it has I have this sudden feeling like I know it'll be okay, that you guys will be okay. So if this is selfish I'm sorry...but I want this. I want this baby with you."

Dean sat next to her on the couch. She leaned into him, wrapping her arms around him and crying alittle. Damn hormones. Dean let out a breath.

"Okay." she whispered. "I'm terrified. I shouldn't want this right now, but I do. I'm scared though."

"Me too."

Dean took a hold of her hand and held her a little tighter.

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Bela had fallen asleep that afternoon and Dean heard a knock on the door. He slowly got up and went too look. He noticed Sam and opened the door.

"Hey."

"We have a case. Please tell me you're ready to go."

"How big a case?"

"What? Why? Does this have to do with you taking Bela to the doctor? Is something wrong with her?"

"She'll be okay, just...do you need me for this?"

"Ghost problem."

"Okay, can you check it out, and if you need me I'll head straight there."

"Dean...seriously what is going on?"

Dean sighed. He didn't want to just blurt it out...but this was Sam and they were supposed to be trusting each other again.

"She's not sick." Dean said. Sam looked at him strangely. "She's uh...pregnant." Dean said the last word so quietly Sam almost didn't hear. Almost.

"She's what? Oh...Dean tell me you guys...wow."

"Sam."

"No...I mean, you got her pregnant? Now?"

"Hey not like we planned it."

"Well that makes it better." Sam said sarcastically.

"Sam don't."

"Sorry...sorry. I just..."

"I know man, i know. I get it."

"She mad?"

"No...scared. Makes two of us."

"You guys really going to do this?"

Dean nodded. "We can't not do this. It's not the best idea we've ever had, and maybe it's not the smart choice but for some reason we both can't let this baby go."

"Huh."

"That's it?"

"Well yeah, I mean...I'm just surprised. You're going to be a dad now."

"Well if it makes you feel any better, I'll try to make sure the kid doesn't call you Uncle Sam."

Sam laughed a little. "Alright, I'll find a car...head down to Virginia. I'll call you tomorrow if I need help."

Dean nodded. "Thanks. I'll meet up with you after the case if not."

"Yeah." Sam said, and headed out the door. "You gonna tell Bobby?" Sam asked him from outside the door.

"Uhh...do I have a choice?"

Sam grinned. "Good luck man."

Dean shut the door.

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Bela woke up not too long after Sam left. Dean walked over to the couch.

"Welcome back. You feel up for food?"

Bela groaned a little. "I'm starving...just afraid to try anything. I really hate getting sick, it's disgusting."

He smiled. "Well we both know you need some food. So you can try the soup again tonight and a few crackers...and tomorrow you get to buy more food."

"I do huh?"

"Yes. I'll even be nice and take you to the store and help."

"Alright then...I'm feeling a little better."

"Good."

Bela got up from the couch and followed Dean to her kitchen. She watched as he got everything ready...he really was being far to nice. Bela didn't know what to make of that.

"Don't you think you should be going? What will Sam think?"

"Sam went to Virginia on a case. I told him to go by himself for now and I'll meet up with him after."

"What exactly did you tell him?" she asked, wroried.

"The trugh."

"He knows?"

"Yeah...I tried not to but you know Sam, wouldn't let me out of just asking him to go without me. Had to tell him."

"Great, he already doesn't like me."

"That ain't true."

"Yes Dean, it is."

"No, I think he's finally getting used to you. No, he was just concerned about the timing."

"Timing? You act like this was going to happen eventually no matter what."

Dean shrugged. "I'm not into fate or anything but for some reason yeah, I think this was supposed to happen."

Bela sighed. "Sorry." she said. "I'm just...I'm not sure what to make of all this. This is you, and me...and I just now let you talk me into admitting we had something more than just a sexual attraction.. Now I'm...you know...and it's a lot to take in."

"I know that. I'm sorry too, if I'm freakig you out about this. I just...I never thought I'd have kids. So yeah, there's this tiny part of me that likes it, and I can't really hide that as well as I should."

Bela smiled for the first time that day. He was kinda cute when he got all sweet and nervous. She didn't know he liked kids that much either, granted it was never brought up. Bela didn't really think she was a children lover...but the way he talked made her think it was possible.

"You don't have to hide that you like it...well maybe from the demons and other creatures you face...might be for the best no one else but our little circle know about this. I mean obviously Bobby, we can't hide it from him."

"Which means you don't need to go hunting with us, at all." Dean said firmly.

"Well...I'm not even close to showing, and if you need me to go in with you to get information, what's wrong with that? As long as you don't put me in the same room as a demon, or whatever else. I can take care of myself."

"Yeah, I know you can. Still, if you can sit it out I think you should. I don't want to have to worry. Normally I don't worry with you...if it was anyone else, I'd be supernatural proofing your home right now and putting traps everywhere. I know you know what you're doing though."

"Well for what it's worth I have a rod on top of the door entrance filled with salt, window sills have salt around them when I'm home, a gun around every corner and under my bed, amongst many other things."

Dean laughed. "Well that certainly helps." He said, reaching over and kissing the top of her head. She smiled.

"And if the world goes to hell? If what you saw in the future comes true, what then?" Bela asked suddenly.

"I don't know...people are still having kids every day, they don't know about all this. I guess we can't stop people from living their lives, so why should we?"

"Guess not. I can't believe I'm actually okay with all this."

"Honestly, neither can I. I figured you'd have kicked me out already." Dean commented.

"Mmm I probably should have 6 weeks ago and we wouldn't be in this situation."

He gave her an apologetic look.

"Relax...I'm kidding. Well sort of. I mean, I don't take that moment back you know, it was what we both needed, both wanted. I didn't expect this, but it happened. So now we deal with it like adults."

Dean nodded. They ate in comfortable silence and then Dean convinced Bela to go back to bed. She had crossed her fingers all evening she would make it through without getting sick, so far it seemed to be working.

They both went up and and got ready for bed, and once under the covers Dean pulled her back against the front of his body and held her as she fell asleep. He finally dozed off, his hand subconciously resting on her flat stomach. He wasn't expecting the dreams though, or were they memories?

Dean looked at Bela standing next to his future self, and saw the sleeping little girl in her arms. In Dean's sleep his mind kept playing Bela's words to him.

"I'm taking her to bed.", and "I wouldn't change anything even if we die tomorrow."

He watched Bela walk away from his future self, both smiling at each other as Bela carried the beautiful girl away.

"You ever tell him, how totally in love you are?" and her answer. "Fine, yes, I have."

Dean shot up in bed. His dreams were so weird sometimes...but why did they feel so damn real. He'd recognized some of it, the future he'd seen. But the rest of it...seeing Bela and his child, was that real too?

Bela turned around to face him, having woken up. "Dean? You alright?"

"Yeah, I'm okay. Sorry, just go back to sleep."

So she did, and Dean did as well shortly after.

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