It hurts.
Pain has began to wrack my body, I know not what sort of treatments have been done to me, but my skin seems to crack as if in the grips of terrible sun burn and my insides wrench. I am unable to intake any food right now as eating sends my stomach into severe convulsions. I haven't seen Muller sense our last meeting, but I have no doubt that he is there under the masks of those doctors as they do their work upon us.
I'm not but I think some of the others have already succumbed to the tests. I heard some of doctors talking about over virulence of the strain being higher than they thought.
I have to be careful as I write this; my skin has become so brittle that I bleed very easily at the slightest prick. I am grasping at straws it seems these days. I struggle to hold onto hope but there doesn't seem to be any hope. Not for me, not for anyone.
I'm very tired so I think will end this entry here for the day. I seem to have less and less energy these days perhaps I will write more after I rest.
Yes……….. some rest……….
July 15, 2017
Subject: Summary of the first level of Tests
We are nearing the end of the batch of testing. Of the 50 subjects I started with, 17 have died already. The frustration of this is compounded by the fact that not only am I unable to figure out why their bodies reacted so violently to C.C.'s cells, I can't even say for sure I know how the reaction will kill them. Some of them bleed out as if they are contracted Ebola, some went utterly mad and killed themselves, others seemed to just languish away as if consumed by apathy. Of those that remain, all are having severe reactions to the cells of varying degrees. On a personal note, while I had high hopes for Subject 4479, it seems he is fated to join those who perished before him. His physical health is rapidly deteriorating. It is quite the shame; he is one of the few who I feel could make use of the gifts that might gleaned from C.C.'s cells. I must make sure to ask Prince Clovis for more subjects soon. With each test, I can feel it getting closer, an understanding of the truth behind the code.