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You're My Savior: Chapter 15
AJ was driving home and the thoughts she had kept running through her mind. She kept blinking rapidly to hold back the tears. She couldn't show Joshua that she was weak. She had to be strong.
"Momma, who's my real daddy?" Joshua asked and AJ looked at the small child from her rearview mirror.
"Do you really want to know?" AJ asked and she glanced at the mirror again to see Joshua nodding. AJ sighed and kept her eyes on the highway.
"See your idol Punk?" AJ asked
"Yeah?" Joshua said and AJ inhaled deeply then exhaled.
"He's your dad, Josh." AJ said as she sighed then pulled into the driveway then got out and helped Joshua out of the car and grabbed the blanket and went inside the house. Joshua felt like he shouldn't talk anymore about it with his mom because he knew that she didn't even want him to find out until he was older.
He wondered why. He understood what was going on, but he wondered why his mom wouldn't tell him about his real father. He actually liked the idea of Punk being his father since he knew Daniel wasn't a great fiancé and father to them. At times, he wondered why his momma was with this bad man that didn't treat them right most of the time. At times, he just wanted to tell Daniel to leave and at times, he was actually ashamed of calling Daniel his daddy. When Joshua found out it was Punk, he wasn't against the idea of calling him daddy, though he would take it slowly.
He looked up and saw his mom go upstairs to her room then Joshua sighed and went into the living room and went to play for his toys to try and leave his mom to herself for a few hours.
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It was almost nine o'clock and Joshua was getting a bit worried since his mother didn't call him to come upstairs for sleep. He put his toys away and made his way up the stairs and was going into his room when he heard soft, but quiet crying coming from his mom's room. He saw the door was slightly ajar and slowly opened the door and walked inside to see his mom crying her eyes out on the ground sitting against the bed.
"Momma?" Joshua said softly and AJ looked up and saw Joshua then quickly wiped her eyes and looked at the clock and sighed.
"I'm sorry, Josh. I lost track of time." AJ said, her voice hoarse and sounding tired.
"Momma, why were you crying?" Joshua asked and AJ sighed and shook her head. AJ felt like it was wrong to continue lying to Joshua. She knew that she needed to be telling him the truth now because he had already found out her biggest lie.
"Sweetie, I just didn't want you to find out now." AJ said as she sat on her knees as Joshua went closer to her.
"Why not, momma?" Joshua asked as he looked into his mother's brown bloodshot eyes since she was crying.
"Because honey, I felt like if I told you. You wouldn't like me being your mother. I mean that's a big deal of me lying to you about who your father is. I shouldn't have done it, Josh. I'm a bad mother." AJ said and Joshua shook his head and wrapped his small arms around AJ's neck and hugged her tightly.
"Momma, you weren't as bad as Daniel." Joshua said quietly into her ear and AJ's eyes once again teared up and she cried silently into Joshua's shoulder as she returned the hug. Her little boy was already growing up and so fast as well.
"I love you, Joshua." AJ said as she choked out the words and Joshua pulled back and wiped his mother's eyes with his small fingers.
"I love you too, momma." Joshua said with a grin and hugged AJ again.
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He turned left after the traffic light had turned green and he kept his green eyes on the road as a million thoughts ran through his mind and the memory of what happened about six hours ago. He felt guilty and knew he shouldn't have told Joshua, but he had to. He had to because that was his son also. Joshua wasn't only AJ's.
Of course, he was angry when he found out Joshua was his after AJ had lied to him about Joshua being Daniel's. He didn't know how to take it so he just destroyed his hotel room he was staying at and left money on the TV set that was on the ground the next morning. He gave the maid an overly generous tip when she opened his hotel room and saw the room with her face just shocked and he told her to tell the manager that he already had paid and to not clean it. He walked away from that hotel room not getting any sleep that night because he was furious about AJ lying to him.
Punk turned a right and kept driving. He had lost track of how long he was driving, but he knew he needed gas since the small pointer was nearing the E. He pulled into a gas station and rolled down his window.
"Fill it up. Regular." Punk said.
"Cash or Credit?" The man asked.
"Cash." Punk replied as the man nodded and put in some numbers then put in the pump into his car and the gas started to fill his car.
He grabbed his phone and put the password and went to the contacts to find AJ's name in the first spot and he sighed. All those conversations he had with her and those weeks he had with her, and that one day when his son was conceived. He sighed and shook his head as he heard the gas stop filling his car and pushed the thoughts away.
"50.00 dollars, please." The man said and Punk handed him a fifty dollar bill.
"Thank you." The man said.
"Thank you." Punk replied and drove off.
He sighed as the thoughts came back and he glanced at his phone that was in the passenger seat and he looked back on the road as he gripped the wheel a bit tighter. He wasn't going to call her. She's angry at him so she wouldn't pick up, though he wanted to talk to her so they can work it out at least. So he can at least say one reason why he said it.
He stopped at a red light and grabbed his phone and put in the password and called AJ, but it went to voicemail after a few rings then he tried again and it went to voicemail once again and he started to get frustrated. He moved the car when it turned green light and he knew what he had to do. She wasn't going to talk to him so he needed to go to her to talk. He was going to her house. Once he got voicemail again, he made a sharp turn to the left to head to her house and soon enough, everything was pitch black…..