Losing At A Winner's Game Chapter 2, a death note fanfic

Mello

It took a few minutes for the robot's words to sink in. Did he actually say sorry? And with emotions...? That's not possible. The robot didn't have emotions. He was soul-less. He took everything I worked for. Everything that I strove for. And he didn't even fucking care. His face was blank of emotions. The only thing that showed he was human was the way he softly breathed in and out. And even that didn't do much for evidence.

"Whatever...Just...Go away, robot." I muttered the words unhappily, and I stormed out of the playroom, running towards my room upstairs. I wasn't going to forgive Near for what he's done. He made my life worthless. He made me feel like a loser. A fool. He humiliated me and he didn't even have emotions for what he's done.

He didn't even care that he just ruined my life.

"Mihael, take a seat." L says, motioning with his hand to sit across him. Which is what I did, in ten seconds flat. I was bouncing with excitement inside. I couldn't believe it. L wanted a meeting...With me, Mello. This had to mean something! Hopefully this means, what I think it does. Near isn't here...So that has to be something.

Because, unfortunately, Near is one of the successors too. And if there was one thing I hated more, was having to work together on a mission with Near. It was agonizing and troubling. For myself. And the people around me. That example...Matt. Matt was spotting a black eye the last time Near and I were forced to work together.

So for the safety of others...Roger didn't put us together as partners for school projects or missions, ever again. Which pleased me very much. Because I couldn't work with a robotic child like him.

"Miheal...You are here today, because I have made my decision for my successor. I'm sorry, Miheal. But you are unfit to be the successor. Nate will be my sole successor now."

The memory was fresh. It destroyed every piece of my soul. Hundreds of sleepless nights. Hundreds of pages wrote. I worked until my fingers bled. I wanted to be the best. I wanted to be L's favorite. And now look at me? I wasn't his favorite. I wasn't the best. I was just a loser...I was worthless.

I was unfit. Because I wasn't abnormally calm, like that fucking Near. I was human, and I was unfit because of it. While Near was number one for being a robot. If-

"Mello...? You okay?" My head snapped to the side, only to reveal Matt standing in the doorway of our room. His hands, as always, is full with his PSP. His favorite and prized possession. The geek he is. But that's why I love the geek. But right now, I didn't want to deal with anyone. Not him, and especially not fuckin' Near.

So I did what any pissed off loner would do, I pushed past Matt. Rather roughly, but I wouldn't admit it to anyone. Once that happened, I pushed Matt out of the doorway and I slammed the door. Locking it right after. I didn't want to deal with anyone. And I made sure, I made it known. To not only Matt, but everyone else up in the hallway.

"Mello!" I heard Matt shout from outside the door, but I just ignored his voice. I then made my way over to where the stereo was sitting on the dresser, and I put the Mayday Parade CD I got for Christmas, in the CD compartment. I than waited for it to start spinning, which took too damn long, and I pushed play.

Once the song started to play, I made my way over to my bed and flopped onto it. I then closed my eyes, and let myself fall into the beat of the music.

It's time I said this, but I'm so choked up

And I need my sanity
I'm scared, believe me
You can see me smile
If you let me just stick around

Well this is bye, bye baby
It ended like a sudden stop on a freight train
If you're not happy and you hurt this much
Then let me just stick around

Can I have one second of your time?
If I don't it'll drive me crazy
As I drop to my knees
And scream "I hate you more than you could know"

I hope you fall into the ocean
And the current leaves you helpless swimming around
As the waves crash over you until you drown and float away
And hold a funeral for nothing
And celebrate how empty love can be broken
It takes the sea to put you six feet happily underground

Now it's back to reality
I'm left in shambles but I guess that's how I should be
I knew the wedding bells were ringing loud
But my bride was missing
No, it's not supposed to hurt this much
But when someone slowly breaks it off
It tends to leave a bitter taste
A scar, that slowly rips apart
Can I have one second of your time?
If I don't it'll drive me crazy
As I drop to my knees
And scream "I hate you more than you could know"

I've had enough but it's all for the best
I need to get a few things off my chest
There's got to be another way I can say it
But to get it right, I have to get straight
I hope he tasted like the way I used to taste
I can't believe I'd even say this to you now
When you won't listen at all

I hope you fall into the ocean
And the current leaves you helpless swimming around
As the waves crash over you, and over you until you drown
And we'll hold a funeral for nothing
And celebrate how empty love can be broken
It takes the sea to put you six feet happily underground
It takes the sea to put you six feet happily underground

Each word spurred my anger towards Near...

I just figured out how I'm going to get back at Near. It was pure genius and it would teach him that no one takes, what is rightfully mine. If I lost all that was my life...Well, he will have to, too. Because it wouldn't be fair...If I was the only one. Since I actually worked for it.

"Watch out, Robot..." I muttered darkly, as I looked up at the ceiling. Yes, Near wouldn't know what hit him.

I was going to break his heart.

Perfectly.

Shatter.

It.

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