A/N OMFG I just went to see Magic Mike today and can I say Matt Bomer is just WOW. I thought my eyes were gonna pop outta my head during that move and well I can't explain man is just too good looking to be gay, it's so not fair. His partner is one lucky man...
Sorry enough fangirling so I read through more of the reviews and I am really liking it so far. I really do need to sit around for a couple of hours before I actually write something. Other days I get an idea and I can write it down straight away but not with this. I really thank those who are coping with me and the updates at this moment.
Just a quick note, I use Open Office and the spell check doesn't work. My microsoft word doesn't work either so does anyone know a substitute for these that has a working spell check because it's damn annoying having to go through this several times looking for mistakes.
So with nothing else to say on the matter here is the 3rd Chapter.
Hope you like it
Holding On & Letting Go
"Ana are you sure you don't need anything else? I can call in sick to work and Elliot even offered to to help out too" Ana wasn't used to Kate being this calm and caring. This was Kate 'I'd beat the crap out of you, no bullshit' Kavanagh. She doesn't do well nice, unless her version is rearranging someone's face if they mess with you. "Ana are you okay?"
"Sorry I'm miles away Kate" she laughed it off but Kate wasn't convinced "Kate I will be fine, I am on maternity leave, I can work from home too and look after Teddy, if I need you I will call you" Kate eventually gave in but wore a skeptical look.
"Okay but if you need me please call I will be here before you know it" she said as she picked up her car keys heading for the door "Oh Ana I forgot to tell you Carrick and Grace are dropping over in a while" Ana thought her heart was going to jump out of her chest
"Ana I'm sorry I forgot to tell you but they want to see both you and Teddy" she shrugged her shoulders apologetically. Ana just sat barely listening to Kate, she hadn't seen either Grace or Carrick since the Wedding, what would she say to them? She liked them both but she was terrified they would side with Christian especially Carrick, sure he wanted to do up a prenup for their marriage. "Ana? I think I should stay you don't look so good" Kate moved towards her but she stood up faking a smile "Kate everything is fine I just haven't seen them in so long just a bit of a shock but I'm fine" she hugged Kate and saw her out before coming back in to feed Teddy.
"Where's my baby boy?" she cooed at her four day old son who was very alert for his age he moved his head to the sound of her voice, his eyes wide open. "Hi little guy" she rocked him gently in her arms before settling back into the sofa when her phone bleeped. Her she was just after setting Teddy against her chest when the phone went off, her face went white. She had turned her phone off upon sending that reply to Christian three days beforehand. "Please, please,please" she prayed silently as Teddy drank away hungrily. She waited for him to finish, she didn't want to disturb him when he was relaxed and quite peaceful laying there feeding. She lay him in the moses basket Jose and his father had bought for her and covered him with his new blanket, Christian had it made and it had his full name, weight and date of birth on it with a small yellow duck in the right hand corner. She had to admit she did really did like the gesture, it pained her to think of him now with his recent check ups which considered of emails or a visit from Taylor, though she didn't mind Taylor, she really missed Mrs Jones and her cooking.
Ana stood looking at her blackberry and refused to pick it up several times, she just held it for a moment and placed it back on the kitchen table. Her curiosity was getting the better of her and she had to open up her emails.
From: Christian Grey
Subject: Poor Excuse for A Husband
Date: 10th July 2012 18:00
To:Anastastia Grey ?
I see you and little Teddy have checked out of the hospital this evening, I was hoping to come and give you both a ride home but it looks like Kate got there first. I have recieved your previous email, Ana baby please don't say this is for good, I need you in my life you make me a better person, you were helping me overcome my fears, it wasn't Dr Flynn or my family, it was you my wife and my only bestfriend. I just want you to keep in mind I won't give up, I refuse to let you go,although it may seem like that months ago, Ana I was scared, more than you will ever know. My own parents are disgusted with me, Carrick was mad when he found out you were gone, at first he thought it was about the money but when I told him it wasn't that it was about the baby he changed his tune. Grace well what can I say about my mother she is horrified with the whole situation. Mia glares at me everyday and you know how she used to throw herself at me when I came to visit she doesn't want to look at me, I am starting to miss is well as you say she's Kate. She didn't for once let me off lightly, I now know what the Katherine Kavanagh Experiance is. I think Elliot is the only one who will speak to me and let me now how my son, 'OUR SON' is doing. I know it's going to be harder for you to trust me but I need you to, I want to work things out between us for the sake of what we used to have and for Teddy.
Ana please think about it, I can't let you slip through my fingers for good
Christian Grey
Idiotic Arse of a Husband & CEO, Grey Enterprise Holdings Inc.
"Why is he making this harder? It's not fair" Ana read the email again when the doorbell chimed. She put her blackberry away and went to answer the door, she looked to the peep hole to find Carrick and Grace waiting on the other side. She took a deep breath to calm herself before opening the door. They stood in silence for a moment, taking in Ana's appearance before Carrick spoke up "Ana is it okay if we see Teddy? Elliot told us about him, would it be okay?" he looked to a stunned Ana who seemed a million miles away before she snapped out of it "Carrick, Grace please come in" she said barely smiling
"Ana it's been so long since we've seen you dear" Grace pulled her into a hug "I am not here to give you excuses for my son's behaviour, I just wish to see my grandson today" she shed a few tears. Carrick came to her side and held her as Ana went to fetch a sleeping Teddy who was wrapped in the blanket Christian had bought for him
"Grace, Carrick I would like you to meet Theodore Raymond Grey, Teddy for short" she smiled as she handed Grace the sleeping infant.
"Oh Carrick he's just like Christian with the exception for his hair, that's Ana's" she smiled at Ana who was sitting across from them on the sofa smiling. Teddy stirred in his sleep making noises as he yawned and stretched slowly opening those grey eyes that would pierce you. "It's like looking at a mini version of Christian" Carrick could not believe the resemblance the infant had to his father at only four days old.
"Ana has Christian seen him?" Grace asked hopefully
"No, not yet" she bowed her head staring at her lapt fidgeting with her hands.
"He is allowed to see him right?" Ana's head shot up and she felt disgusted that they would think so low of her
"Grace, Carrick with all due respect, I have been in contact with Christian these past few days and I told him I will sort out when he can see him, just because he made a wrong decision and I am angry doesn't mean I am going to deny him any rights to see his own child nor will I deny Teddy any right to be with his father no matter how hurtful it is that he is only taking an interest now. Do you really think that low of me? That I would refuse Christian any visitations?" Ana was fuming, it must be the hormones and that email she had recieved just before both Carrick and Grace arrived
"Ana I am sorry if it came out that way but no dear we do not think low of you. Quite the oposite actually, you were and still are the best thing that happened to our son and from what I have heard through Elliot and Kate you already a wonderful mother, we just want Christian to be involved with Teddy, I wont allow him to say he will show up one week and not another, I know he is busy running a business but I will personally make sure he makes time for Teddy. Both of us are sorry for the way it has all turned out, we were hoping you two would have worked things out by now" Carrick said, he had over looked Ana's outburst, he didn't mean to upset her. Grace just sat by Carrick listening but never once taking her eyes from the infant in her arms until she spoke up
"Ana we just don't want to lose contact with us, or see you like this. I know myself that you are hurting, Christian is even hurting but we were hoping you could come and stay with us when Teddy was visiting on weekends or whenever you allow us to see him, we want to see you too Ana, as far as I'm concerned you are still married, even though you are seperated from my son. Your my daughter in law, you're family too"
"Grace I don't think I could stay if I knew Christian where there. I just don't know how I'd handle being around Christian again, I don't think I face him just yet. As for Teddy you are both more than welcome to visit as often as you like even Mia can see him too. Christian just can't be around when you come, he can still see his son but you would have to take him too him or I could arrange for Taylor to come and pick him up" Ana said as she went to hold her son in her arms, she was not in the mood to be talking legal right now she just wanted to shut everything out now.
"Of course Ana, we understand that and we will respect your decisions. We just want to see little Teddy" Grace nodded towards the bundle in Ana's arms. She stroked his tiny face before kissing Ana's cheek and hugging her "Ana please visit us it's been so long and it would make us happy if you did"
"Grace I think it's time for us to go" Carrick addressed his wife with a small smile as he hugged Ana minding the child in her arms and kissing Teddy's forehead "Ana we hope to see you again soon" he said as he waited for Grace who was very reluctant to go "I'll see you soon then dear?" she asked looking hopefully into Ana's eyes
"I'll see you soon" she walked them to the door and felt like her heart were to tear in two. She closed the door and cried again. She didn't mean to raise her voice at them, it's not their fault Christian decided to leave she doesn't want to punish them for his actions especially since they have been so nice to her in the past. "Christian why is it you anger me to the point where I take it out on others?" she sighed as she placed Teddy back into his moses basket. She looked proudly at her sleeping son and remembered the email. She fetched her blackberry again, reading his email for the third time and hit reply not caring how late it was
From: Anastasia Steele (Grey)
Subject: Idiotic Arse Of A Husband
Date: 10th July 2012 20:30
To:Christian Grey
To be quite honest Christian you are idiotic and you are an arse who drives me to the point of insanity. I just spent the past two and a half hours explaining the whole situation with your parents. They have every right to be mad at you. You walked away from your pregnant wife and your unborn child and you know what I am glad you recieved the Katherine Kavanagh Experiance, it was well overdue Mr Grey !
Christian I have already told you I can't go back down that road with you, I don't think I can ever fully trust you again. You hurt me too much, I wish you would just understand that I can't go back to you. It would break me if I were to give you another chance, I wouldn't be able to cope if you were to walk away on us again. As for trying to collect me from the hospital you really are pushing it, just respect my wishes Christian, I am not your sub I won't let you order me around. I am the mother of your child and a grown woman so do not try and tell me what way I should raise our child Christian, it's quite hypocritical to give advice on how to raise Teddy when you were the one who wanted nothing to do with him in the first place.
Christian you let me slip through your fingers when you told me to leave.
Anastasia Steele (Grey)
Ana fought back the tears as she hit send. Christian was making it harder for her over the past few days especially with Teddy's arrival. She sat in the quiet apartment listening to the still breathing of her son just hoping when the time came to face Christian she would be able to hold her own.