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Santana doesn't think she's ever spent so much time with her dad. Throughout her childhood her father was always at work. Just because he worked a lot didn't make him a bad guy or a bad father. He had his moments where he would take her and her mother out on the town or just stay at home and be with them. He might not be the ideal father. But he is her father. And he had lost his wife.

So she spends the next couple of weeks crying with him while sorting through her mother's belongings. They would share sad smiles when they came across something that would trigger a memory.

On Tuesday she gave her dad a long hug before getting in her car to go back to school. She might not be attending any classes right now but her stuff is there. She needs to register for next school quarter and find a job somewhere on campus or close to it. Her dad didn't say it but Santana knows that her mother medical expenses are going to set her father back a bit. He can still afford her tuition but he won't be able to just give her money to blow anymore. If she wants spring break trips with her friends and shopping trips then she needs to make getting a job a priority. Her father can only give her money for school and food. He can only provide what she needs. She has to work for what she wants.

Once on campus she proceeds to spend the next three days held up in her room. Ignoring the phone calls and telling anyone who shows up at her door to go away. Quinn doesn't even have people over or try to bother her. They have always been good at knowing what the other one needs.

When she was at home Quinn and Mike were the only ones she'd talked to. Rachel, Tina and Puck gave up trying to reach her once they found out that she was only returning calls from Quinn and Mike. She knew that her best friends would explain to Rachel, Tina and Puck that she wasn't trying to push them away but she could only handle so much. Quinn and Mike had always been there. Maria Lopez was like their mother too. While they can't truly feel her lose, they are pretty close to understanding it.

So being the good friend that she is, Quinn is now helping her fill out applications online for some of the stores on and close to the University campus. They are sitting next to each other at their shared desk in their dorm room.

"So…Puck wants to have movie night tonight. We haven't done that in awhile," Quinn starts.

Santana looks over at her friend. Quinn is biting her lower lip. A clear sign she has something she wants to say.

"Just spit it out, Q."

"We should go. You've been spending a lot of time alone and I think spending time with friends will help…" Quinn is startled when Santana slams the laptop case down.

"Nothing will help." She glares at Quinn while standing up from her chair at the desk.

"San…you know that's not what I mean." Santana sighs. She knows that Quinn doesn't think spending time with friends will make her forget that her mom is gone.

"I know." She walks, and flops down onto her bed. "I don't think it's going to get easier."

"It will in time." Quinn comes and lies down besides Santana. "I've…I've never lost a parent." Quinn rolls her eyes at herself. Of course Santana knows that. "But I have lost close people to me. My grandparents for example," Santana remembers them being twelve and Quinn missing school because her grandparents had been in a car accident. "It's hard. And you think that they'll never be a day that you don't cry." Quinn says with a dazed look on her face. Quinn stays quiet for a moment. Santana knows she's thinking about her grandparents. "But it does get easier. I'm telling you this because I love you San. You're like my sister and if you start going crazy then I don't know what I will do. I understand that you need time and space. But please don't leave me."

Santana doesn't even remember when the tears started. But she now has a flushed face and wet cheeks.

"Okay…I'll go."

"Great."

"But I refuse to watch The Hangover one more time." Quinn laughs and sends Puck a text letting him know that they are on for tonight.

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After spending five minutes arguing about what genre of movies to watch, they settled on one comedy and one action flick. Half the time everyone is either sleep or on their way to sleep somewhere in the middle of the second film.

They started Friday movie nights their freshman year of college. It's their way of staying close and spending time together. Their schedules can get crazy during the school year. Everyone has different classes and everyone but Santana and Tina has a job. Puck and Rachel got an apartment off campus after the first quarter of school. And it quickly became the place to throw parties and host movie night at.

"Be my cuddle buddy?" Mike takes the spot next to Santana with a pout on his face. Santana roll her eyes but still leans into his side. They are sitting on the couch watching Puck and Tina argue about which movie they are going to watch first; the romantic comedy or the loud action movie.

"Guys, seriously flip a fucking coin and shut up." Rachel says walking into the room with a bowl of pop corn. She ignores the looks everyone is giving her and sits in the lazy boy chair to the right of the couch Mike and Santana are on.

"Okay…um wow." Quinn says eyeing Rachel. Just like everyone else she is shocked because its rear that Rachel curses. While Rachel can be square sometimes, she also has a bad girl side. But cussing is something she limits. And tonight it works for her because Puck pushes the comedy DVD into Tina's hand and take the empty spot on the floor next to the leg Santana has hanging off the couch.

Tina quickly put the movie in and takes the spot on the other side of Mike on the couch. Quinn has stretched out as much as she can on the loveseat.

Three hours later when Puck has started snoring, Tina gets up and turns the TV off.

"Are you guys staying?" Rachel asks getting up and stretching.

"Mike has to be at work in the morning so we're just going to go back to his place." Tina replies while getting up to go to the bathroom. Santana look to Quinn to see what she wants to do.

"I think we'll crash here." After Tina comes back from the bathroom and she and Mike go around the room hugging everyone goodnight. "Texted me when you guys make it back to the dorms." Quinn encourages.

Santana moves to stretch out on the couch. She knows that Quinn will mostly likely be sharing the bed with Puck. They might not be together but they do know how to share space without reading into anything. That's the kind of friendship they all have with each other.

"You okay out here?" Quinn directs the question towards Santana.

"Go away, Quinn." Santana says rolling her eyes. A wet kiss lands on her cheek and Puck stands up straight and grins at her.

"Goodnight ladies." He calls over his shoulder, following Quinn down the hall, into his bedroom.

Now once again she's left in a room with Rachel.

"You feeling better?" Rachel raises an eyebrow at the question. "You seemed a little upset when you came in. Anything you want to talk about."

"I'm fine." Rachel takes her time getting up from the chair she's been lounging on.

Santana can't stop her eyes from roaming over the little figure that makes up Rachel. Rachel has on a little top that rises when she stretches. She licks her lips when she gets a glimpse at the toned stomach the shirt is hiding.

"Perv." Rachel giggles when she catches Santana eyeing her stomach.

"Whatever." Santana mutters with a blush.

"You know," She watches as Rachel move closer to the hallway. "We've shared a bed before…" She knows this is not Rachel inviting her into the room for sex. Knowing Rachel she just wants somewhere more private for them to talk. Talk about the kiss they shared and the looks they are currently giving each other. But she's not ready to talk. She would prefer sex but this is Rachel. Rachel will want to talk.

"I'm comfortable here." Santana bits her lip to keep from apologizing when she sees the wounded look on Rachel's face. Santana feels bad because she's barely spoken to Rachel in the last month and a half and now that they have time she's clearly avoiding her.

"Fine." And when Rachel throws her the only cover that was in the room and walks out, she knows that she's just made things that more complicated between them.

She doesn't know how much time has passed since she's been left alone in the living room with her thoughts. She's wrapped the cover that smells like Rachel tightly around her body. All her thoughts keep going back to her mom. She's thinking about how her mom was so excited when she told her about their movie nights. Maria Lopez always said that Santana did well with picking her friends. She told Santana to never let that group of friends go. They are the true friends that only come once in a lifetime. Maria adored Quinn and Mike. And thought Tina, Mike and Rachel complimented the three best friends perfectly. She smiles thinking about how right her mom is.

"I miss you so much mom." She says into the empty room.

After sitting in silence filled with nothing but thoughts of her mom, Santana decides she's done with crying for the night and gets up to head to Rachel's room. She needs a distraction.

First thing she sees when she pushes the door open is Rachel's bed with her little body curled up on one side of the bed. Like she was waiting for someone to join her. Waiting on Santana to join her.

Quietly she tip toes onto the empty side of the bed. When her knee makes contact with the bed Rachel groans and rolls over.

"What are you doing?" Rachel looks at her with half opened eyes.

"What does it look like?" Now that Rachel's aware that she's here, Santana just flops onto the bed. "Gosh…I still don't understand why you have so many pillows on your bed." She grabs one pillow for herself and tosses the other four to the end of Rachel's queen sized bed.

"It's three in the morning." Rachel notes. "Have you been up this whole time?" Rachel turns around in the bed so she's on her side facing Santana.

"Maybe." Santana says watching as Rachel struggles to keep her eyes open. "Go back to sleep." When Rachel eyes close again and stay closed for longer than a couple of seconds she allows her hand to reach out and run her finger over Rachel lips. "You still awake?"

"Yeah," Rachel eyes flutter open.

"Okay." And then before she can stop herself, she's pressing her lips against Rachel's.

At first they just stay with their lips pressed together. Santana notes that Rachel's lips are softer then she remembers. Then she feels Rachel starting to move her lips against hers. The kiss deepens. Rachel hand is clutching onto the back of her neck, pulling her closer. Santana takes it as a sign that it's okay to let her hands roam. Her hands grab onto Rachel's sides. She pushes on Rachel's shoulder to get her to roll over onto her back. She wants…no she needs to be in a better position to touch Rachel like she really wants to.

Within seconds Santana has Rachel's legs pushed apart, her own body between the little brunette's legs.

"You taste good." She breathes out into Rachel's neck. Rachel just moans when Santana bits down on a spot on her neck. Santana can't stop herself from getting worked up. She doesn't know what's going on with them, but she does know she wants Rachel. Does she want more than just sex? She doesn't know, but right now she wants Rachel's body. So with that thought in mind she lets her hand that's been rubbing the little bit of skin right below Rachel's belly button move up.

"Hey," She pauses when Rachel breaks the heated kiss they were just sharing.

"What?" Santana moves her mouth back to Rachel's neck, getting a moan out of the girl under her.

"Santana." Rachel pushes against her shoulder when Santana finger tips graze her bra. "That's enough for tonight."

She lets a frustrated sigh escape her lips before she can stop it. She feels Rachel tense under her. She quickly removes her hand from under the shirt and roll off of Rachel.

"I'm sorry I got carried away." She whispers. "I can go back into the living room if you want." She forces herself to look at Rachel.

Rachel just stares at her for minutes before moving closer. Her front pressed into Santana's side.

"If…if you feel like you can't handle just being here with me, than fine," Rachel walk her fingers up Santana's arm. "…go back into the living room. But if you can handle it, I would like you to stay."

Their eyes lock.

She's confused. She doesn't know what these butterflies in her stomach actually mean. Is she just looking for a distraction? Does she have real feelings for Rachel or is she just turned on?

She doesn't know. Maybe she should leave Rachel alone until she figures it out.

But she doesn't.

She doesn't think she can.

So she chooses to stay.

"Promise not to hog the covers." Santana sighs out.

"I can try."

TBC

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