Holding On & Letting Go

Christian awoke to the sound of Teddy who was nestled in between him and Ana who was fast asleep. He smiled as his son babbled away occasionally calling him. He had started calling 'da' only two days beforehand.

"Come on Teddy. Let mama sleep" he scooped his son up in his arms. He awoke during the night and was more than happy to sleep between the pair who were on the edge of the bed all night with no duvet, they were afraid he would smoother with the duvet so only Teddy had a baby blanket covering him. "Let's get you a bottle and make mama some breakfast" he tiptoed out into the hall and closed the door quietly behind him as Ana slept peacefully. "Right little guy where does mama keep your bottles?" Christian eyed the kitchen and as he held Teddy upright in his arms facing outwards. "Ah here we go. Now you sit here and be really quiet while I heat this up" he kissed his son's forehead and placed him in the cushioned play mat on the floor. He kicked his legs happily as Christian worked away in the kitchen. As the bottle was heating he got a head start on the breakfast. He had been taking cooking lessons from Gail and she started him off with the easy things like bacon and eggs for breakfast with pancakes and maple syrup. The first time he tried it he was wearing his expensive Armani suit and splashed grease all over it from the pan, Gail was expecting an out burst but she was shocked when he just shrugged his shoulders and continued to work away at the stove.

"da" he heard a strangled cry on the floor when he seen Teddy face down on the mat, he managed to roll himself over. "hey hey hey" he picked him up in his arms and rocked him gently. "Come on buddy and we get your bottle" he went towards the cooker and turned it off, he could start the breakfast after he fed Teddy. "Here" he placed the heated bottle of breast milk near his mouth when Teddy latched on and sucked greedily "I guess you were hungry huh?" he smirked

"I am too Mr Grey" he turned around to find Ana wearing the shirt he thought he lost but soon discovered Ana was keeping it the whole time "I believe I heard you were attempting to make breakfast" he smirked at her words

"Well ask Gail how good of a cook I am. I've been practising" he sounded almost childlike as he sat with Teddy in his arms and Ana made her way around to sit beside him. She watched smiling as Christian bottle fed their son with a huge grin plastered on his face as he spoke lowly enough only for his son to hear him.

"I'll help you make breakfast, just come and help when you're done" Ana kissed his head as she got up and went towards the counter top with the stove. "You want coffee?" she asked as her back was to him as she worked away

"sure, make it black though" he sat Teddy upright as he burped him. "Alright little guy let's get you changed and dressed" he patted his tummy as Teddy cooed up at him. "Right let's see what surprise daddy has to change in this diaper" his nose crinkled as Teddy kicked away as he opened his diaper. "buddy you gotta stay easy" Teddy gave him a toothless grin still kicking his legs "Thank god it's only pee this time" he said as placed a clean diaper on his son. Christian sat Teddy up slightly as he took his vest off. "Okay what does mommy want you to wear ?" Christian placed Teddy in the middle of the bed as he pulled out a pile of clothes from his wardrobe. "Uhm.." he looked at them and shouted out to Ana "What is he wearing today?"

"Christian you're a grown man who can dress himself in the best of clothes and you can't even pick out an outfit for your four month old son?"

"Uhm... Yeah.."

"Hold on" Ana turned the stove on low as she ran into the bedroom "You go finish up out there I'll sort Teddy out" she grinned at his confusion as he held up the tiny outfits in his hands as Ana snatched them away with humour. "Christian are you coming to Jose & Jade's engagement announcement today?" Ana shouted out to him as she dressed Teddy in a white t-shirt and black jeans with a pair of high tops Elliot had bought him. She carried him in her arms and sat him in the cushioned high chair that attached to the kitchen counter. Christian was already sitting with the plates laid out full of food and a cup of tea for Ana while he had coffee.

"Do I have to ?" he asked sounding like a child

"Christian" she sighed rolling her eyes trying not to laugh

"What?"

"He's my best friend Christian and he's getting married, please come with me and Teddy?" she smiled at him and he caved "Fine" he grumbled as he finished off his bacon and eggs.

"It's a non formal wear party so just dress casual. I have a plain black suit jacket to put over Teddy's outfit"

"That kid has a better fashion sense than me and he's only four months old" he smiled as Teddy was getting comfortable in the chair as he rested his head to the side closing his eyes but stirring when they spoke.

"Well he does have a very sexy and fashionable daddy" she grinned over at him as she took a bite of her pancakes. They sat and ate in a comfortable silence but at the back of Ana's mind their conversation from last night well tears was still floating around, she knew they still needed to talk about it but decided for today she would leave it. Christian was in a great mood and his eyes regained that sparkle in them.

"What time is it starting at ?" he checked his blackberry, sent a few emails in the process and managed to give Taylor a call.

"2pm"

"Okay well since Teddy is asleep, you go get showered and dressed and when you're ready we will stop by my place to get changed and we will pick up some sort of an engagement gift?" he looked up

"That sounds good" she leaned over and pecked him on the lips when he grasped her face gently between his hands and held her there for a few moments longer "Christian if we are to get there on time you need to let me go get ready"

"I know" he smirked and sneakly swatted her butt as she walked away, she squealed not expecting that and he grinned "Christian Grey" she mock scolded him and he shrugged his shoulders "As Kate always tells you 'Your cards are marked Grey'"

Ana shook her head laughing as she stepped into the warm shower. It relaxed her muscles and like as if it washed away her worries. She got out feeling refreshed as she wrapped a fuzzy towel around her as she made her way back to her bedroom to find a dress similar to the one Kate loaned her when she went to Jose's photography exhibition, the night Christian couldn't keep his hands off her. There was even matching shoes and jewellery, she smiled as she read the little note that was left on the top

My dearest Ana,

now I can shower you with gifts again,

please don't refuse it you know you it will look great on you.

I took Teddy over to my place while you could get ready.

Pick you up in an hour,

Love Christian x

"Sneaky and charming" she laughed as she picked the dress up and began to slip into it. It fit her womanly curves beautifully. She stepped into her new Louboutin matching pumps. She applied a small bit of makeup and began to dry her hair and catching it up in an elegant up style. She checked herself over in the mirror when she heard the door bell. She opened the door to find Taylor waiting for her "Mrs Grey" he winked at her

"So Christian told you ?"

"Yes" he laughed "Ana don't let Mr Grey know I said this but you're one fine looking momma" she laughed at him "Don't worry Taylor, our secret" she winked back at him grinning

"Well lets get going, Mr Grey and Teddy is waiting in the car. He's a stylish little fella with his suit jacket, t-shirt and jeans and then those chunky runner type shoes all the kids are wearing, what are they called?"

"Hightops, Elliot bought them for him but Christian just laughed he said Elliot had some fascination with them even though he's 30 years old" Taylor laughed at her comment as they reached the car

"I do too Mrs Grey" he held the door for her as she got inside and sat next to her husband "Wow" he looked her up and down "You look beautiful Ana"

"You don't look so bad yourself Christian" she lightly placed her hand in his as she leaned in to peck him on the lips and sat back into her seat "You're gonna be the most sexiest woman there and the sexiest momma" he grinned

"Right back at you Grey only you're the most sexiest man and daddy there" he smiled shyly at her

"Taylor take us to my mothers place, she and Kate have the place set up"

"They are having it at your mom's place?"

"Yeah Kate and Elliot intervened plus the back garden is huge, all set up and ready for a party"

"Does Jose know?" she raised her eyebrow looking at him curiously.

"Yeah Elliot called him and told him to keep it a surprise for his 'lady' as Elliot says" he chuckled

"You really don't like him much huh?" she grinned

"Ana"

"Christian what is it?" she was worried at why he was avoiding the question

"Can we not fight? I haven't got much left in me for fighting for over a year" he put his head down slightly as he just watched his hands in his lap

"Okay baby" she leaned over and kissed his cheek letting it be. She still couldn't figure out why Christian and Jose were at it neck and neck lately, they seemed fine before. What she didn't know about was their conversation they had at the airport the day before or would Christian even tell her?