CHAPTER FIFTEEN – ROADSIDE RECOVERY
BELLA POV
I didn't know what time it was or even what day it was. I knew I was in my house and in my bed but I didn't remember how I got here. My pillows were damp from all the tears that had spilled out from my eyes. I don't even know why I was even crying anymore because it felt like a lifetime ago since Edward left. It was like everything was going on around me while I remained motionless. I was aware of Charlie's constant check up on me routine, but I didn't want to acknowledge him, I didn't care about anything anymore. It was almost as if I was that mellow all I wanted to do was just lie here forever and not be disturbed until I died. Was this what it was like being high? I could only wonder.
A lot of bizarre thoughts floated through my mind, everything to what my mother was doing right now to what came first the chicken or the egg. I was totally spaced out and I tried to think about everything and anything accept for Edward but nothing helped, I always managed to revert back to him somehow.
My mind was wondering and my heart was racing when he confessed his love for me. It was like being told that you won the lottery or you have cancer, but in my case it was like being told you have won the lottery but you have till the end of the week to spend it and by the way when the weeks up you will die from cancer anyway with a big fat 'HAHA' in your face. I didn't know if to cry, be happy, jump for joy, run around screaming or just simply laugh in his face, run for the hills and never look back.
I knew that I was strongly attracted to Edward and he made me feel safe and happy when I was around him but I truly didn't realise that I love him back until I pictured him not being with me anymore, even as a friend. I wanted for us to be together or at least try to be together but he didn't want it, he didn't want me and when that realisation set in, it was like my whole world flipped upside down. I didn't know what to think or do anymore, I have always had a clear head, I have always known what was right from wrong but from that moment I didn't. I didn't have a clue, nothing in my life made sence anymore and nothing mattered anymore. I didn't know how but Edward had became my whole life in that moment and when he said he didn't want me it was like being shot and being left to die.
I didn't blame Edward for leaving because deep down I agreed with near enough everything he said. I knew that he couldn't leave this place, I knew that he couldn't leave his gang and I knew that he would not let me join. I remembered back to the day in school when I fount out Rose was joining because of Emmett. I thought myself that she was a fool for joining but now I can clearly say that I understand her decision. Yesterday, even this morning I would have said no to the idea of joining for a guy but if you would ask me that same question now then I would say yes in a heartbeat.
I agreed on the reasons why we couldn't be together, but I didn't agree on his others reasons. Yes I wanted to leave Forks but I wanted to leave with him. Yes I wanted a safe and happy life but not with somebody else I wanted it with him. I didn't care who was after us, I didn't care if he had killed people because I loved him. I didn't know what Edward was like before he went into prison but I can see that his not that same person he once was. He may have killed people but he did it to survive, it was kill or be killed and I realise that now. Edward deserved happiness and something good to happen to him so why did he fight it? Why did he reject me? One minute he told me he loved me and then he said that we couldn't be together. I confessed my love for him and he said that he wanted me to be with somebody else but the thought of somebody else taking his place was killing him but then he left anyway, talk about mixed fucking signals.
So after all that I was back to square one, alone, depressed with no friends and on top of it my heart felt like it was shattered into a million pieces, I was drowning in tears and heartache and I hated my farther for starting this whole thing off in the first place. I wonder what else was on the agenda this evening. Loose my only friend, check. Loose my first real love which happened to be my only friend, check. Give my farther a piece of my mind, blank. So that was the next thing to do on my list.
I glanced at my alarm clock and groaned. It had not been days, week or even months it had only been a little over three hours since I last sin Edward and since my world collapsed around me. My father had crossed the line, big time. I didn't care if he would disown me or kick me out the house because I wouldn't give him the privilege. I wasn't going to live under his roof and lap in his luxuries anymore. I hated my farther for what he did, he had no right to pass judgement on Edward or myself and if he thought that Forks high school, the so called teaching staff, board meeting and paperwork was more important than me then so be it. He can have them and bury himself under all of it and die for all I care.
I didn't know what the hell I was going to do or where I was going to go but if Edward wanted me gone and away from Forks then why not give him what he wanted. He didn't want me so why should I wait around for something to happen or stay and fight for something that will never be. I could sleep in my car until I found some money, find a job then stay in a motel or rent a room somewhere. I could save up enough money to get my own place at least I will be away from this town, away from Edward, my father and most of all mutant killer teachers. If I moved away from Forks I wouldn't be obliged to go to school so I didn't have to worry about the police coming after me and besides going back to school next week and finishing my education was not worth my life, I knew that the teachers would come for me and Edward sooner or later and with Edward now gone I was as good as dead anyway so why not get the fuck out of here.
I pulled myself up out of bed and dragged my feet across to my wardrobe. I stripped out of my sweats and my baggy shirt and replaced it with a black tracksuit. I zipped up the jacket and pulled my hair out from the back of it and over my hood. I received a duffle bag out of one of my draws and stuffed it with the first clothes I put my hands on. I didn't see the point of taking anything sentimental like photos and stuff because my mother abandoned me when I was young and my father had betrayed me so he was as good as dead to me so now I was unofficially a orphan.
I retreated back into my bedroom and into the bathroom. I threw my toiletry bag as well as my hairbrush into my bag and closed it up. I glanced at my reflection and I must admit I've seen corpses on the CSI better looking than me. I had no life and not a care in the world behind my eyelids. My cheeks were puffy and my eyes and cheekbones looked like they had sunken into my face. The slap from Jacob this morning had now turned a deep shape of purple as the bruise settled in on my cheekbone. I was a complete and utter mess no wonder Edward didn't want me I felt physically sick just looking at me.
I stormed out of my room and down the hallway as I was about to descend the stairs my eyes quickly flickered to Charlie's bedroom. I froze as I heard the TV on downstairs and before I could think my legs were already ahead of me and I was in his room. I dropped my bag to the floor and walked over to his closet. I pulled the door open and knelt down and pulled the rug back. I didn't know the combination to his safe but I guess it wouldn't be hard for me to figure out. I didn't even know if there was any money in it but if there was then I couldn't see no reason why I shouldn't take it, it's not like he needed it anyway. I fumbled with the control panel punching in random digits and every time I was met by a red flashing light telling me I failed.
His social security number, I thought to myself then punched in the date and the red light came on. His birthday, I punched it in and again the red light came on. I knew it was a long shot but I tried Mom and dad's anniversary, again red light. I groaned inwards and tried one last time then I was amazed when the little red light flashed green.
"Well at least my farther will never forget my birthday" I sarcastically spat.
I opened up the safe and pulled out two rolls of money. There must have been well over a thousand bucks in here so that would help me out a lot. If I spent it wisely I would be alright and it would keep me going until I found a job. I put the money in my jacket pocket and zipped it up then proceeded to look inside the safe. There were some pieces of jewellery which were grandma Swan's and some notes inside but I couldn't help ignore a brown envelope with the words Confidential spread across it. I sat there for a minute and listened to some footsteps downstairs. They didn't come up the stairs so I continued to pull out the envelope. I pulled out a bunch of letters which looked like contracts to me. The only things that made sense of were the logo Megatech that Edward and I came across last week and my father's signature on all off the documents.
"Bella are you up!" Charlie shouted.
I quickly slipped the letter back into the envelope and shut the safe. If only I had more time to look over them but what was the point I was leaving so whatever was on the documents didn't matter anyway.
I walked back to my bag and left his room. Charlie was standing at the bottom of the stairs waiting for me, as soon as he sin my duffle bag his expression changed immediately.
"Where do you think you're going?"
"I'm leaving"
"Leaving?" He questioned.
"Yes, now move!" I ordered him.
"You're not going anywhere!" He glared at me.
He backed up to the front door and blocked it using his arms.
"Look, Isabella I'm sorry for what happened but,"
"Save it" I snapped.
I knew he was tiring to talk serious with me because he used my full name. I walked into the hallway and stopped in front of him.
"Isabella please let me just explain"
"What, like you gave me and Edward a chance to explain" I snapped.
"Isabella that boy was nothing but trouble, his a gang member for fuck sake, He just came out of prison and he was only using you"
I shook my head and laughed.
"Your full of shit you know that" I laughed. "His not like that anymore"
"His a killer Isabella, people like that don't change and you will have to kill me before I let you step out of this door and go running to him"
Oh my god, he knew absolutely nothing. He assumed earlier that I wanted to tell him that Edward and I were together and now he assumes that I'm going to run away to live with him or something. I couldn't help the laugh that exploded out of me.
"What's so funny?" he asked crossing his arms.
"You, you're a fucking joke" I spat. "Edward and I are not even together, and I'm not leaving to be with him I'm leaving to get away from you" I spat.
"What, why?" He paused and squeezed the bridge of his nose with his fingers "Look I don't know what the fuck is going on are you two together or not?"
"No and thanks to you we will never be!" I screamed.
"I take full pleasure in knowing that I took part in this big charade and I'm grateful that I jumped in just in time to save you from a life or misery"
I was fuming, no tell a lie I was more than fuming I was enraged right to the tips of my toes to the top of my head. How fucking dare he!
"A life of misery, that's fucking rich coming from you after all you're the one who fucking dragged me to this town in the first place. They must have paid you a shit load of money for you to come here. Tell me dad did they pay you extra to keep your mouth shut about the teachers and the killings or did you do that for free."
I sin the colour drain from his face and by his sudden loss for words it was then I knew that he knew about it. My farther, my own fucking farther was in on it. The teachers despite if there human or not were killing people for no reason and he just stood there and let happen. Did he have no heart, no conscience, and no guilt?
"What did you say?" He hissed.
"You heard, obviously you had a part in it because you're not defending yourself. How long has it been going for? How many have they killed? Was I next?" I shouted.
"Isabella you have got this all wrong, you don't understand"
"Your right I don't understand so please explain?" I sarcastically spat.
"It's not that simple" he said using his authority voice.
"Oh I think is it that simple, you're teaching staff are killing people and you, the school, everybody at your secret board meetings, and I bet even the fucking dinner ladies are in on it"
"No there not" he paused squeezing his eyes shut again "Look, the teachers are not killing people, I don't no where you got this crazy idea from" He paused again "Its him isn't it, he has been filling your head with stupid ideas and stuff hasn't he?"
I could tell that he was lying about the killings and he was tiring to hide it very well, but not well enough because I knew the truth. I knew the teachers were killing and I knew he knew about it, about everything.
"Don't change the subject, this has nothing to do with Edward" I snapped.
"Of course it has" He snapped back "His got you wrapped around his little finger, fuck sake Isabella wake up, how can you be so gullible. His filled your head with nonsense about killer teachers, I mean seriously killer teachers Isabella come on. I bet his told you that he loves you and you are his world and shit as well" He mocked.
I knew that he hated the idea of Edward and I being together so why not rub it in a bit more.
"Actually he has and guess what dad I love him too" I hissed.
"No, you think you do but you don't. How can you even think about loving a manipulative, violent, good for nothing, useless lowlife?"
"That lowlife saved me this morning, don't you remember" I snapped.
"He saved you to make himself look good. It wouldn't surprise me if he had set the whole thing up" he countered.
"You're fucking unbelievable and deluded you know that?"
"No Isabella you're deluded, what do you think is going to happen once you walk out this door? Do you think that you and Edward are going to sit down, hold hands and sing 'Kum ba yah'. Edward has spent his whole life around violence and being manipulative and it's only going to be a matter of time before you get pulled into it. I am not going to stand by and watch you throw your life away just because you think you're in love with a fucking gang banger!" He shouted.
"Whatever I choose to do in life, has fuck all to do with you! It's my life and I do whatever and go out with whomever I like. I'm not going to stand here another minuet and listen to relationship advice from a man who couldn't satisfy his own wife and drove her into the arms of another man!" I screamed.
I didn't even see it coming until my jaw started to sting. I could already taste the blood on my tongue as it slowly dripped out the corner of my mouth and ran down my chin. I was in total shock had my own farther really just hit me? I could see the anger behind his eyes which slowly turned apologetic.
"Isabella, I'm so sorry" he whispered coming towards me.
"Don't fucking touch me!" I spat taking a step backwards.
He backed away to the door again with shock still on his face and sorrow in his eyes. I moved my bag off my shoulder and held it in my hand. I walked into the kitchen and out to the pantry. I opened the window and threw my bag outside and proceeded to climb out of it.
"Isabella!" Charlie shouted.
I landed on my feet and picked my bag up and ran around the side of my house.
"Isabella!" Charlie shouted again.
He burst out of the front door and I took off running to my car as he flew down the steps. He was much quicker than I was. My bag fell to the ground as Charlie's arms locked around my arms. He picked me up effortless and turned me around and started walking back to the house.
"Get off me!" I screamed.
I tried to wiggle my way free but his grip only became tighter. As we came to the foot of the porch steps I heard a growl of despair erupt from somewhere.
"Get the fuck off her!" I heard a growl.
I knew exactly who the owner of that voice was and it sent butterflies the size of pterodactyls to my stomach. Charlie spun us both around and I was greeted by a very pissed off Edward. There was no chance of me melting into his eyes this time because they were filled with rage.
"Walk away Cullen, this doesn't concern you!" Charlie shouted.
"Maybe not, but the blood pissing out her lip concerns me very fucking much!" Edward growled back.
Edward was tensed up and his fists were in balls I could see that he was just seconds away from pouncing on my farther and even though my farther deserved whatever he had coming to him I couldn't see Edward go to prison for assaulting him, although it didn't stop me.
I relaxed in Charlie's arms so that made him relax and loosen his grip on me. I spun around in his arms and lifted my knee up hitting him right in-between his legs. He groaned in pain and dropped my arms. I spun back around and bolted towards Edward. He met me half way and wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to him. I didn't know why he came back or what he was doing here but I just wanted to see him one last time, to touch him on last time before I left.
"Isabella!" Charlie groaned.
Edward tensed back up and took my hand. He pulled me to his side and stepped in front of me making himself a barricade. I peeked out from behind him to see Charlie on his knees gripping at his crotch. Had I hit him that hard or were male parts really that sensitive?
Edward dropped my hand and began walking, before I could say anything he stopped and picked up my bag and returned to me.
"Climb on" he ordered me in an authority voice.
I complied and followed him to his bike. I took the bag off him and put it on my shoulder as he took off down my driveway. I gripped at his waist as he drove us to where I did not know. What the hell was I doing? Where were we even going?
"Stop" I finally said after five minutes of silence.
He waited for a few seconds then eventually pulled up at the side of the road. I climbed off and walked to the side of the road then let my bag fall off my shoulder. I held my head in my hands and tried to hold the tears back. I wiped the blood from my mouth away with my sleeve and spat the blood out till my saliva ran clear.
"Are you alright?" came a faint whisper.
I looked up to see Edward standing next to me. What the hell was going on with him I though he didn't want to be my friend or my lover?
"What the hell is going on? Why the fuck were you even at my house?" I snapped as I began to shake.
There was a moment of silence and I could see that he was debating with himself.
"Bella, I'm so sorry" He whispered.
"Sorry, for what?"
"I was wrong Bella, so wrong!" He whispered.
He tried to wrap his arms around me but I pulled away. I had to know for sure what was going on before I let him touch me because it would only be harder for me to say goodbye.
"Wrong about what?"
"You, me, us" He said pulling at his hair.
"You said you didn't want me"
"I lied Bella, I want nothing more than to be with you, I just said that to make you go away. To make you want to go away and leave me. I have no right to take your life away and I certainly don't deserve your love. I know what it's like growing up in a town like this and I didn't want you to have to go through what I do every day"
The tears I tried to hold back came flooding out then one at a time.
"What changed" I whispered.
"Nothing's changed I still want that for you, but I just come to realise something. I am nothing without you, if I'm not with you then what's the point, if I'm not with you I'm just going to be looking for something or someone to put me out of my misery. Bella I have been going crazy this last three hours, all I was thinking about was you and trying to come up with a way for us to be together. I though I was strong enough to stay away from you but I'm not" he whispered.
He took my hand into his and kissed the top of it.
"I love you so much Bella, I understand if you cannot forgive me for my behaviour and I understand if you choose to leave but"
Before he could finish I slammed myself into his lips. He dropped my hand instantly and wrapped his arms around my waist. I snaked my hands around the back of his neck and began twirling his hair around my fingertips. Our tongues found each other as eclectic currents surged through my veins. The butterflies in my stomach were going mad flying all over the place. I didn't have to think about it my movements they just flowed as my legs automatically lifted off the ground and locked around his waist. He placed his hands under my ass to balance me and I pulled more forcefully on his hair. We moaned into each other's mouths for a moment then we both pulled back for much needed air. We rested our foreheads on each other's for another moment to allow the panting to subside. I pulled back after that then melted into his eyes. I smiled against his huge grin and he planted a soft kiss on the tip of my nose.
"I love you" I whispered.
"And I love you, always" He smiled.
We stayed there for what felt like ages just planting kisses on each other, I felt the need to do it because I felt like he was going to disappear any moment.
"May I ask where you are going" He said nodding to my bag on the floor.
"I don't know, I" I paused "I just had to get out of there" I whispered.
I tried to force myself down but he kept his arms locked. He carried me to the bike and placed me down on the seat. He picked up my bag and handed it to me.
"Where we going?" I asked as he climbed on the bike.
He revved the bike up and I wrapped my arms around his waist again.
"Home" He whispered before we took off.
About ten minutes later we pulled up outside a two story house. The white wood on the outside had decayed and turned a dirty brown colour with graffiti plastered all over it. The downstairs windows were boarded up and debris was sprayed all over the front yard. I tried to imagine this place before if fell under the wrath of gangs but I couldn't. I was only outside his house and the guilt crept up on me. I have only seen houses like this on the TV or in movies but once you see somebody live like this in real life it really makes your grateful for what you do have.
"Welcome to my humble abode" He sarcastically said climbing off.
He took my bag from me and I climbed off. I held his hand as he walked me up the footpath and paused when we got to the front door.
"Maybe this wasn't such a good idea"
"Edward its fine, please I want to see" I reassured him.
"Do you know how much I hate myself right now for dragging you into this shithole" He whispered.
"Edward, I have chosen to be with you. I have accepted everything about you and therefore where you live and your life style. I want to see and share your life with you, from your bed to your closet space now open the door"
He was silent for a moment then quickly planted a kiss on my lips. He pulled back and grinned widely then opened the door. I must admit it wasn't that bad, the whole downstairs was basically open planned, living room and dining room either side with a kitchen in the back. It was filled with garbage and had a funny smell to the place but nothing I couldn't handle. He walked me into the living room and placed my bag down next to the sofa.
"Be right back" he said kissing the top of my head.
He took his jacket off and ran upstairs. I walked over to the sofa by the window and moved some food wrappers to the side and sat down. My eyes scanned the room and a family portrait hanging above the mantel piece caught my eye. There was a woman with a small child standing next to her and she had another child balancing on her lap. The woman was very beautiful she had long flowing brown hair that looked almost bronze and she had a heart shaped face with piecing green eyes. I looked at the boy standing next to her and he also shared the same colour hair with the same green eyes so I knew that was Edward. The other boy had the same facial features as Edward but the boys hair was a much darker colour and his eyes were also green but they were much less powerful then Edward and I presumed his mothers. Who was the other child? Edward never mentioned he had a brother, well actually he never even mentioned his parents or anything to do with family accept of course for Emmett. It could have been Emmett but then again I never got close enough to Emmett to even smell him let alone find out what colour his eyes were. Where was his mother and considering that the farther isn't in the family portrait then where was his farther as well? Was he an orphan like me? I would make a mental note and ask him about it.
I sat there for another ten minutes scanning the entire room listening to movements upstairs, what the hell was Edward doing? Just then there was a knock on the front door I didn't know if to answer it of not so I just sat there. I couldn't look out the window to see who it was because it was boarded up. I got up after the second knock and walked out of the hallway and opened the door. I was greeted by a middle aged man with scabs and cuts on his face, his clothes were dirty and they hung off him like they were three sizes too big. I could see through his rugged beard and moustache that a few teeth were missing. If I could have put a faster description then I would have said that he looked liked like Beetlejuice but worse.
"Tell Esme I'm here" He coughed.
"Excuse me"
"Esme, is she here?" His voice sounded so rugged.
He sounded like a sixty year old man who had smoked forty cigarettes a day.
"Sorry I don't know who you're talking about" I answered weakly.
"She's not here!" Edward snarled.
I spun around as he skipped down the stairs and stood next to me.
"But I told her I was coming at 9.00 o'clock!" The man hissed.
"Yeah well she not here so fuck off" Edward sarcastically spat.
"What about her" The man pointed to me "She will do"
Edward was out the front door before I could blink. He punched the man in the face and dragged him out the front yard. He threw him in the middle of the road and kicked him in his stomach before turning back around. His jaw was locked and his fists were at his sides as he stormed back up the footpath and into the house. He threw the front door shut before taking me into his arms.
"Sorry about that" He whispered planting a kiss on my head.
"What was that all about, who's Esme?"
"It doesn't matter" he said letting me go.
He swiped my bag off the floor and came back to me.
"Shall we" he said taking my hand.
He guided me up the stairs and down a long hallway and stopped at a door. He let go of my hand and opened the door. I followed him in to what I guessed was his bedroom. This room was spotless, no food wrappers, no papers, no dirty clothes, nothing. I think I gathered what he was doing up here so long.
"Thank you but you didn't have to clean up for my expense" I smiled.
"I know, but I just wanted you to feel comfortable that's all" He smirked back.
He had a double bed pushed up against the wall, his wardrobe was at the other side with a bench and weights neatly stacked up at the side. There was a T.V unit on the other wall with a small stereo unit by the side of the T.V. It wasn't much but it was nice, it felt cosy like it's our own little space, our haven if you like.
I sat down cross legged on his bed as he put my bag down next to the wardrobe.
"I noticed the picture downstairs, the one above the mantel"
"Yes" He said putting the last of the trash in the bin.
"Who is the child on the woman's lap?"
"Oh that's Jasper" he informed me.
"Jasper?"
"Yeah you know" he paused "I never told you did I" He smirked.
"Nope" I said popping out the letter P with my lips.
He walked over to the bed and sat on the edge of it.
"Jaspers my brother"
"And Esme?" I asked.
He looked down and paused for a moment I could tell that he was having a hard time discussing who this Esme was maybe it was his former girlfriend or somebody who he just wanted to forget.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to pry" I whispered.
He took my hand into his and kissed it.
"Don't apologize love, I want to tell you everything but first sleep. I have a big day" He paused and suddenly became nervous.
"What?" I asked.
His jaw locked and he became rigid like he just remembered something.
"What's wrong?"
He was silent for another minute then finally exhaled a deep breathe.
"Remember this morning at school?" He asked not meeting my gaze.
How could I forget that incident with Jacob?
"Yes"
"His, um, dead" he whispered.
"That's a good thing right?"
I knew I must have sounded harsh but Jacob deserved whatever he got. At least this way no other girl would be in danger of being abused and raped.
"No because James and Razor Heads want our blood now"
"I don't understand, you didn't kill him, did you?"
"Of course not" He said dropping my hand.
He ran his fingers through his hair and stood up.
"This whole thing is fucked up, somebody slit his throat in the hospital and everybody thinks I did it or another black heart did it so now James has"
"Whose James" I interrupted.
"The leader of the Razor Heads, his made a call out and we all have to go" He whispered.
What the hell was a call out? Whatever it was didn't sound good.
"So what are you tiring to tell me?"
He rubbed his face with his hands and walked around in circles.
"Edward tell me what's going on?" I ordered.
"He wants us all to fight to the death" he whispered.
I just sat there frozen, the thought of somebody even hurting Edward made me feel sick.
"What? When?" I choked.
"Tomorrow" he whispered.
"What!" I screamed jumping off the bed.
Tomorrow, he was going to have to fight tomorrow?
"Are you fucking kidding me!" I shouted.
"Bella, I"
"What the fuck Edward, was this whole thing just another way to crush my hopes!" I interrupted.
"What, Bella of course it wasn't" He said tiring to pull me into a hug.
"Don't touch me!" I shouted.
"Bella please let me just explain"
"Explain what, we finally managed to sort things out, were finally together and now you're saying that I have got a time limit"
"I'm sorry Bella, I don't want to go, I don't want to fight but I have to"
"Why?"
"Because if I don't then the black hearts will just kill me anyway"
I couldn't believe what I was hearing, I had finally got him, finally got what I wanted and now his telling me that he could most possible die tomorrow. The thought of losing him so soon brought tears to my eyes once again.
"Please don't leave me" I whispered.
He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him.
"I'm not leaving Bella, I will never leave you. I will be alright"
"How do you know that?" I cried in his chest.
"Because as long as you are alive and we are together my heart will keep beating, I will not give up"
"I've only just got you" I wept "I don't want to lose you"
He pulled his hand away from my waist and cupped the side of my face. He brought my face up to his and wiped my tears away with his thumb.
"You're not going to lose me" he whispered.
Our lips were then on each others, I kissed him with all the love I had inside of me and he returned it more urgently like this was going to be our last kiss. I snaked my arms around the back of his neck and he pulled me close. His tongue brushed my bottom lip and I opened my mouth and met his tongue. I pulled at his hair and he moaned against my lips. His hands cupped under my ass and he lifted my legs up. I locked them around his waist then his hands wondered up the back of my jacket. He began kissing by cheek then along my jaw line. His lips trailed down to my neck and he began kissing the top of my chest. I scraped my teeth along his ear lobe and moaned quietly in it.
I began moving as he slowly walked us over to the bed. He lowered me gently and climbed on top of me. Our lips met again as I gently trailed my fingers up the side of his body. His lips trailed off down my neck again then onto my collar bone. He used his tongue to flick the pulley from my jacket into his mouth and he unzipped my jacket all the way down with his teeth. My jacket slid open and revealed my top underneath. He used the tip of his nose to move my top up and he began kissing my bare stomach. I slipped my arms out of my jacket and threw it on the floor then my hands caressed his hair again and trailed down to the top of his shoulders. I gripped at his top and pulled it so it slipped off over his head. I threw it off the bed as he made his way to my face again. His left hand wrapped around my back making me arch into him. My arms came up as he lifted my top up over my head. The top stopped just above my nose so I couldn't see anything.
"I love you" he whispered.
"I love you too" I replied.
In that moment nothing existed outside this room, not the town, not the teachers, not my farther and not even the fight tomorrow. All that existed right now was me, Edward and our happiness even though it could all possibly end tomorrow.