Sorry it's taken so long... started school, yayy me (not)... anywayss this one is a little shorter than normal but I think it'll be alright cause of the content in the story *wiggles eye brows* hehe
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You had it all for a pretty little while
And some how you made me smile when I was sad
You took a chance on a bruised and beaten heart
Then you realized you wanted what you had
I guess I should've been more like that
I should have held on to my pride
I should have never let you lie
I guess you got what you deserved
I guess I should've been more like her
Forgiving you, she's stronger than I am
You don't look much like a man from where I'm at
It's plain to see desperation showed it's truth
You love her and she loves you with all she has
I guess I should've been more like that
~ "More Like Her" by Miranda Lambert
I hate how much I love him, I hate myself for being so weak… and I hate Jacob Black with everything inside of me. I hate him for making me love him, I hate him for making me feel like this, and I hate him for loving her. I felt so lonely, it's pathetic I know, but I have never felt this lonely in my life. I haven't seen Jacob in close to two weeks, the wedding was coming on quick and Paul was terrified I was going to pack my bags and get the hell out of there… and well I probably would have if I had the time. Paul made sure I was never alone. I love Paul, he's a great guy but gah sometimes I could strangle that man. He knew me better than I knew myself at times, he always seemed to know what I was thinking. Like right now, we are all at Emily's, except Jacob of course, I was sitting there pushing around my peas while Paul leaned in closer his arm over my chair as he whispered in my ear.
"You have to eat healthy Ami." I glared up at him, knowing what he meant I turned my death stare to my plate stabbing at the bastard peas. I hated peas… I knew this, Paul knew this, heck fire the whole pack knew this but yet here I am stuffing peas into my mouth. I looked up at Paul who was looking across the table talking to Sam, a little smirk came onto my lips as I picked up a pea getting ready to aim for Paul's over sized head.
"I wouldn't do that Amelia…" Paul said softly not even looking at me. Damn he was good… I sat back in my chair pouting as I looked up at the clock, I hadn't seen Jacob since the day Vampire Boy showed up on my door step. He was with Bella protecting her from Fangs… funny how that works no? The vampire is after me and yet he can't pull himself away from Bella dear long enough to make sure I was alright.
Hearing the door open I tensed looking over, saying I was on edge was an understatement. I was constantly lookin over my shoulder for the vampire, he scared me to death. What I saw there bothered me more than any blood sucking leech. I saw Bella standing proudly beside Jacob, he had the same satisfied smirk on his face. My head automatically tilted a little to the side taking in the scene in front of me, Bella was safely tucked under Jacob's arm as her eyes locked on mine. I smiled waving before turning back to my peas. I heard Leah chuckle, damn that bitch. Paul shot her a glare as his arm moved up to rest on my shoulders. Pretending like I didn't' notice anything out of the ordinary I sat there eating the dreaded peas. Sam stood up looking at Jacob and Bella.
"Jacob, do you need something?"
"Just coming for dinner." He said making their way over to the table, I rolled my eyes as Seth looked at Jacob then to me then back. Poor kid, he had no idea how unfair love could be.
"I don't think that's a good idea Jacob." I heard Emily quietly speak up, God love her. She was trying. I couldn't help but smile, that is until I heard Leah give her a warning growl I stared at Leah laying down my fork.
"Who let the bitch in?" I asked my eyes locking on Leah's, I felt Paul's hold on me tighten telling me to cool it but I didn't care I was pissed, I had to take it out on someone… even if it was a big hot headed shape-shifting wolf. Leah smirked standing up to lean over the table getting in my face I just sat there unphased as I looked up at her.
"What did you say?"
"I asked who let the bitch in… do I need to make an appointment to get you ears checked sweetheart?" I asked pretending to care about Leah's well being, she started to growl even more as I just smirked.
"Leah that's enough! Sit you ass down. Now." I looked up hearing Jacob's voice before turning my attention back to Leah.
"What the hell do you care Jacob? You have Bella, is she not enough that you have to keep fucking your mate on the side?" Gotta love how she stresses 'your mate'… nice way to rub it in there Leah. This time Paul stood up towering over me as he glared at Leah.
"Back off Leah, sit your ass down before I make you."
"Is that a threat dear Pauly?"
"No Leah, it's a warning. Leave Amelia alone, don't make me put you in your place." I saw something flash over Leah's face as she realized he wasn't kidding she sat down at the table quietly while I stood up. I wasn't going to sit there and watch Jacob swoon over Bella.
"Leaving so soon?" Bella's sticky sweet voice sounded, gah how I hated her. I turned around to face her and smiled.
"I don't eat with trash sitting at the table… you know makes me lose my appetite and all." With that I turned to head to the door. Jacob glared at me starting to say something until Paul glared at him.
"Shut the fuck up Black. Don't you say a word." Paul said in a tone that made Jacob think twice about saying anything. He got up and followed me to the door as I grabbed my jacket. I looked up at Paul and smiled.
"Paul, I'm just going home. I'll be alright, go talk with the guys."
He looked at me for a minute before I gave his shoulders a slight push.
"Go on, I'll be alright." He stood there a second longer before I smiled leaning up I placed a soft kiss on his cheek. "Go on." With that I turned walking out of the house, I didn't see the death glare Jacob was giving Paul or how he had started to shake… I wouldn't of cared if I did.
As I started walking down the small road to my house, I smiled taking in a deep breath. I loved when it had just rained, the air smelled so nice and clean afterwards. Stuffing my hands in my pockets I started to walk kicking pebbles here and there. La Push really is a great place to live, it would be an amazing place to raise children but I wasn't going to think about that, I would raise my baby somewhere in the mountains in a state far far away from here. I was too wrapped up in my thoughts to pay attention to my surroundings, that was until I felt a cold hand wrap around my shoulder pulling me off the road and back into the woods. I didn't have time to scream before the hand wrap it's self around my mouth. I found myself pinned against a hard oak and the vampire, Mr. Tall, Cold and Scary. I looked up at him with wide eyes and the vampire looked down at me with a satisfied smirk on his lips.
"Hello Love." Shit. I am a dead woman. He leaned in kissing the space under my ear, I couldn't believe this. How could he get in La Push with out the guys noticing? As if reading my thoughts the vampire smiled letting his free hand run through my hair.
"Because I don't want them too… you see being an elder has it's perks love. I have learned many tricks over the years. I have been searching for someone like you Amelia, and now that I have found you I am not letting you go any time soon." He said softly leaning in kissing on my neck softly, I tensed trying to move away from him.
"Come on Amelia, we have talked about this…." I turned my face away when he tried to kiss my lips, hell no I don't feel like kissing something that felt like a dead fish… The vampire wrapped his fingers around my throat slamming my head back against a tree he glared down at me.
"Amelia. I do not appreciate being compared to a fish… you are going to start respecting me Love or it will not turn out well for you. Just because you are the one I have chosen to live the rest of my life with, does not mean that I wont put you in your place like I do anyone else." Hearing his words I couldn't help but close my eyes and think of Jacob. I pictured him, the old Jacob, my Jacob. I remembered the good times we had, the fun times, the times when I felt like he loved me. The night we first made love… and also the night when he gave me the best gift anyone could. I thought of Jacob as a tear slipped out of the corner of my eye.
I could almost feel Mr. Fangs smirk as I felt his cold breath against my neck, I never thought I would die this way… at the hands of some cold monster, I took a deep breath before looking up at him.
"Fuck. You." Amelia Young doesn't go out with out a fight. I heard the vampire let out something that sounded strangely like a hissing noise, he moved back baring his fangs to me, he looked like a snake on steroids. I stood there staring at him, knowing this would probably be the last breath I took.
Out of no where I saw my russet colored wolf jump out of the trees colliding hard with the vampire, they both went tumbling to the ground as Paul, Sam, Embry and Seth ran out after Jacob… can someone sing Hallelujah? I slumped back against the oak tree watching as Jacob pinned down the vampire, who just smirked looking up at Jacob before he disappeared again. Jacob and the pack looked around trying to figure out where the vampire had went, I felt a cool breeze to my left and looked around just in time to see him standing beside me. I tried to move away from him, he caught my arm in a steel grip staring at me he smirked. His eyes were blood red, his fangs were still out. I knew for sure I was going to die.
"Until we meet again, my little dragon." With that he was gone. I stumbled back away from where the vampire had been only to fall onto a big patch of black fur as Sam moved forward to protect.
This wasn't good… wasn't good at all. I had never been so terrified in my entire life. I stood there, staring off into the woods in a daze. I didn't care what the guys were saying, I had to get out of here. I had to get away, I had to protect my unborn child.
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