A/N: Hey guys, how was your week? I'm trying to make my chapters longer as I have longer to write them now. I'm so sorry I can't update regularly, but just keep checking your updates because it will come soon. I hope you all enjoyed the last chapter! This one is…well I don't know what's gonna happen in it yet. Because I haven't written it yet. Let's just say it will be funny, sweet and more of the Edward/Bella relationship and revenge against Jacob…will he find out Bella knows?
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Chapter 9- Live, laugh, lie?
JPOV:
I can't believe I had admitted to Edward Cullen of all people that I cheated on Bella! I knew he wouldn't tell her, he wouldn't want Bella to break up with him…well I hoped he didn't tell her.
Cordelia asked me out! I always knew she liked me, and a plus would be that it would piss Edward off coz she is his agent.
I thought about where I would ask her out, then I knew. We were going to London next week, to advertise 'lightning'. I could take her to the Ritz! It's a really posh restaurant in London. She will love it! I went to the phone to book it.
"Hello, this is the Ritz , how may I help?"
"Hey, I would like to make a diner reservation for the 18th" I said
"Of course, sir. May I take a name?"
"Black. Jacob Black."
"Oh, Um. Of course Sir!" she said, slightly flustered.
I thanked her and hung up.
I couldn't wait, Cordelia would be all over me after this!
BPOV:
Cordelia had told us Jacob rung her saying he would take her to the Ritz in London! We were going there next week. As much as I love London, I'm gonna miss America. We are in London for 2 weeks, I think. Also to do some interviews. I can't wait to go shopping in Oxford street with Alice and Rose. I haven't seen Emmett in ages, it will be nice to hang out with him again in London.
I was waiting for Edward to come back with the Chinese food. I wanted us to have a romantic night with a movie tonight. It was like our 'date'.
I got changed into my tank top and boy shorts as it would be a relaxed and casual date.
I heard the hotel door open. Edward looked up and took me in.
He gulped then a big smile appeared on his face. I laughed.
"Hi" he breathed, walking over
"Hey" I whispered, smiling
He started unbuttoning his shirt getting comfortable on the bed. I reached for my Chinese that he had brought over
"Ouch! Hot!" I shrieked
"You okay? Let me help you" he offered, kindly
I smiled
"I love you" I blurted out, wow
He looked up, smiling. He looked really pleased
"I love you too" he admitted, thank god!
I jumped on him for a hug and he chuckled.
"I'm hungry" I laughed
"Here" he said, holding out the box
"Thanks"
"What movie do you wanna watch?" he asked
"Mean Girls!" I joked
He froze
"Cheaper by the dozen?"
"Sure" he smiled
I put it in and we laughed, eating our Chinese. Sometime through the movie I fell asleep and felt Edward wrapped me in a blanket in his arms.
I sighed in contentment.
EPOV:
I was still laughing when I realised that Bella had fallen asleep. I smiled. I got the blanket and wrapped it around her. I stood up and put the Chinese boxes in the bin and turned the movie off.
I got into my Pyjamas and lay down next to her. I tucked her into my arms and fell asleep.
I woke up and Bella was still by my side. I got up and went into the shower. She must have been really tired and I didn't want to wake her up. I had an interview today, with some magazine. I lose track of all the magazines and which ones I have to do. All i have to remember is to watch what I say so no rumours start.
I got dressed, sensible clothes for the interview even though when I get there I guarantee they will give me clothes but, eh well.
I got the gel out the cabinet and shook my hair roughly putting it in. Apparently it looks good…
I came out and Bella looked up, still in bed looking a bit confused. I couldn't help but chuckle.
"Hello, beautiful" I greeted her
"Hi" she blushed
I smiled over at her, I couldn't help but smile nearly all the time I looked at her. I went over to her.
"I have an interview today" I told her, hoping she wouldn't mind
"Oh CRAP!" she said
"What?" I wondered
"I have an interview with some magazine, 'Glamour' or something!" she panicked
"It will be fine, just get your agent to sort it out, they do you up there anyway" I calmed her.
I breathed deeply
"Thank you"
"No problem, do you wanna go get some breakfast?" I asked
"Oh yeah, sure. Let me get changed first though" she got up and went towards the bathroom, 5 minutes later she came out dressed.
"Let's go"
We walked down to the café and got some toast and coffee
"I have to go now, 9:30" I said, sadly
"It's okay, I'll be fine" she said
"Okay, but don't do anything I wouldn't do" I chuckled
"That's leaves a pretty wide range of stuff" she retorted
"Love you too" I chuckled as I went off to get in the car with Cordelia
"Edward" Cordelia said as I got in the car
"hello to you too" I smiled
"Just don't" she mumbled
She had her sunglasses on, I guess she had a pretty wild night including a hangover.
"Just watch what you say, don't give them the rumours they want to start and DON'T talk about you and Bella" she ordered me
"Okay…"
We got there and I went into the building, them giving me clothes to get changed into in the dressing rooms.
I went up to a guy who looked like a laugh and a women looking at me flirtatiously…great.
"Hello Edward!" the guy said as I sat down
"Hello Sam" I smiled
"So, Edward. What's it like on the set of Lighting, post filming at the moment?" he asked
"It's been really great, honestly. Every movie, it just gets better and better. It's really interesting working with different directors, moulding to their different styles." I told them
"Is there any action in the film we should be looking forward too?" Angela, the woman, asked.
"Yeah ,of course. Obviously in the book there is a huge disagreement and fight. It's been really fun but exhausting training for that. There is a lot of wolf action as well" I informed
"Wow, it sure sounds fun! Who has been the greatest to work with on set?" Angela asked me
I knew she was trying to get something out of me
"Emmett and Jasper have been really fun, we joked around on set a lot. But seriously, I spent the most time filming with Bella, she is a really great actress to work with" I said truthfully
"Any on-set gossip you want to share?" she persisted
"Jacob sure mucked around a lot, but it all worked out in the end and some great scenes to be seen"
"Sure, sure. Bella and Jacob have drifted apart recently, what's up with that?" Angela eyed me
Cordelia banged on the glass giving me a look
"I'm really not involved in Bella and Jacob's love life. You spend so much time on set with people, sometimes it just gets too much, I guess." I answered cleverly
"In the tabloids, you and Bella have been pictured a lot together, want to clear anything up?" Sam asked
Cordelia banged on the glass again and they both turned to look. They looked back at me with raised eyebrows.
"Um, I mean…the tabloids blow things way out of proportion, we just hang around together a lot, as our characters do" I said trying to get back to the movie side of things
Sam interjected "Do you think the movie is like the books, or big changes made?"
I silently thanked him "I mean, of course. The writers made it as close to the book as possible, especially everything with the wolves. They sure worked hard. From what I have read of the book they have kept it as close as they can"
"Well that's our time up, it was nice to meet you Edward" Sam finished up, receiving a glare from Cordelia.
"You too, Sam"
I kind of avoided the awkwardness of saying goodbye to Angela.
I was soon back at the hotel, but Bella was still out doing her interview. I realized how much I needed her and missed her. We both agreed that we wouldn't say anything about our relationship till the whole thing with Jacob was over and when we were ready.
Speaking of Jacob, we had finally planned our revenge. Cordelia would get pictured with him in London then announce their relationship to the tabloids, then get another girl on his arm, snogging him and get it pictured.
I know it doesn't sound much, but when you're in a position which Jacob is in, starting tabloid gossip is hell for you. He would get pestered about it for MONTHS! He would be beyond pissed, and he would know it was us once Bella told him she knew.
BPOV:
The last day before we went to London….and I had a plan. I knew that we were meant to wait to London to tell Jacob I knew, but this is a conversation I needed to have and couldn't wait for. Answers, that's what I needed. It still hurt me when I thought of our whole relationship, and what he had been doing.
I was on my way to his room.
I breathed deeply and knocked on his door. It took a couple of seconds for him to answer.
"Bella, what's up?"
I elbowed him out the way and went into the room.
"Okay then…do come in"
I turned round to look at him
"I know"
"What?"
"I know what you did"
"Did what…Oh" he said looking down
"Oh, indeed" I replied curtly
He looked back up at me; I couldn't even read his expression
I breathed heavily
"How many times?" I asked bluntly
"Bella, I-"
"We had been going out for 8 months Jacob. How many times?" I burst out
I looked him in the eye
"8 months" I repeated slowly
"just tell me" I pleaded
Silence
" 8 months of my life I was happy, but happy with a lie. I loved you Jacob…maybe I still do." I looked back up and him, his eyes were in a state of pain and shock.
"But it doesn't matter, I'm happy now. With someone who cares for me, someone I can trust. I trusted you, Jake. Then I see you getting off with those girls. Then now, I find out all this time…you'd be cheating on me." I realized I was crying now.
"I thought you were different" I said slowly
I got eye contact from him; he started to step closer, but then thought better of it.
"The least you owe me"
"How many times?" I shut my eyes, bracing myself
He coughed "I don't know" he said softly
"How can you not know? What you lost count?" I lost my temper "I Know you Know!"
"Nearly every other weekend" he looked down now
A huge sob escaped my chest and I sunk down to the floor, clutching myself smaller.
How could he? I didn't know I would react like this, I didn't think I cared anymore. I couldn't seem to make myself get up, or to stop crying, or to even look at him.
How did I not know this? I paused. The thing was I did know this. Every other weekend he went to the "bar" with his "friends"….what a line that was.
I knew it all along, I just didn't want to bring myself to believe it, telling myself he loved me and he never would.
But now, accepting the truth hurt like you had be beaten up, kicked in the stomach for hours continuously , stabbed in the heart and in torn up and vital limbs broken.
Heartbreak
I'd never had it before, but it was soo much more than just your heart. It hurt, more than you could imagine. Something you would have gone back and never done if you knew the pain it could cause you. Something you never thought would happen to you.
I carried on sobbing, letting it all go. How much more could be left? How long does this go on for? Forever? I couldn't deal with that. Please, please just make it stop!
I could make out shuffling, then shouting, a crash then passing footsteps getting louder and louder each second. Suddenly I felt warm and supportive arms wrap around me shoulders. I flinched
"NO!" I shouted, he couldn't see me like this
"Bella, it's me, Edward. It's going to be okay. Let's get you out of here" the velvety voice soothed
I wasn't in control of my body, I couldn't feel anything, it had been ripped out by him.
I knew Edward would make me feel better, but I had do to this on my own, I didn't want him to see me like this, I didn't want him to think that I didn't like him anymore, or that I was too much to handle.
If I didn't have Edward, I didn't have anything or anyone. I don't know what I'd do without him, especially in a time like this. I just hoped to God that he would stay with me.
"Let's go, Bella" I heard him say
I felt him pick me up, It wasn't that I didn't want to move, it was that I couldn't. I couldn't think straight, I couldn't move, and I felt like I wouldn't be able to eat. I felt like I was about to throw up when I pictured him with those girls. I didn't want to, but I couldn't help it.
If he did this to me, what was saying any other guy was different? I love Edward…but I loved Jacob as well. I think there was always going to be a small part of me that always would love Jacob, I didn't want it to be there, but It was.
This conversation was meant to make him feel bad, make him feel hurt. But it just made me realize a lot of things. One of which Jacob was a scumbag.
I felt myself being set down on a mattress and gently pushed down to lay down. I guess he wanted to try and get me to sleep, I was more than willing…if only I could.
I shut my eyes and pretended to be, I didn't want him to have to suffer with me. I thought a lot, about how much he had hurt me, and how I wanted to hurt him 10 times worse. He shared me all this time. Was that all I was to him? A toy? He never thought he would get caught out…but he did. Never thought I would find out. Well I did.
And I can't even say he will pay, I can't even say I will get him back. Nothing in the world could hurt more than what he had done to me. I was helpless, nothing to do, nothing to say.
The only one word that stuck to me like glue, ringing through my mind was the word
Regret.
I woke up lying next to Edward, who was still asleep. I gently got up, careful not to wake him. I went to get up.
When I looked in the mirror, I didn't even recognize myself
I got the heart of a winner, but looking back at me is someone else
No regrets, no regrets
No point in crying over yesterday
No regrets
I realized then, staring at my tear stained face, I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of seeing me hurt. I would prove him wrong by showing him I didn't care, but working towards that stage would be the hill layered with glowing hot thorns.
I didn't recognize the person in the mirror, I used to be strong, loved, myself, maybe even pretty. This person looked broken, sad, depressed, lonely. This wasn'tme, and it isn't going to be. Jacob hurt me, for sure. But whatever breaks you, makes you stronger. He made me realize life isn't all friendly and loving. I was thankful for that; it had made me a stronger person….right in this moment is where I became the stronger person. I just need to forget about Jacob…pretend it never even happened. Act like the whole last 8 months of my life never existed, nothing happened. And focus on that I am happy with Edward, he is my future now.
We were on the plane, going to London. This would be a long trip, and I didn't feel like going to London now, but at least it was a new place. A new start, some where I could pretend I was a new person, where my past didn't matter…for the time we were there.
We walked downstairs and I carried my bag down, I saw Jacob there, next to him was Cordelia. A pang of jealously hit me, and I don't know why. I know I still loved Jacob, butit wasn't a relationship sort of love anymore, it was a 'we have been through so much and I used to love you with my whole life so I can't hate you' sort of love.
After the films had finished, I don't think I will ever see him again. He will be out of my life.
I quickly turned around, hoping they didn't see me looking. Edward was right behind me, I gave him a small smile and he held my hand, leading me out. We went outside, and there was a limo waiting for us. Great.
I got in, Edward following. I sat down near the end and took his hand again. Right then I saw Jacob, Rose and Alice come in. Both the girls giving him deathly glares. Rose and Alice sat next to me and Jacob sat across.
I swallowed uncomfortably.
"So Bella, Edward, how are you?" Alice asked easing the tension
I smiled at her gratefully " Good thanks" I said
She gave me a 'really?' look and I turned my head to the side, knowing she would know I was saying 'no'
I gave her an 'I'll tell you later' look and she nodded
The limo went forward and we were on our way to the airport. I glanced around at everybody, purposely missing one set of eyes.
I rest my head against Edward chest and sighed deeply.
He stroked my head and whispered "I love you, Bella"
I looked into his eyes with a big grin plastered on my face and gave him a kiss "Me too"
I heard a low cough from the other side and turned to look. Jacob….
"Excuse me…" he said sternly
"Can I help you?" I replied scarcely
"Bella I'm sorry" he said
I turned to look at the others
I frowned "What should you be sorry for?" I asked
He looked confused
"For, you know-"
"You have nothing to be sorry for, Jacob. Nothing happened" I said slowly and warningly.
He stuck his tongue to the back of his top teeth "Sure" he replied
"That's what I thought" I replied coldly.
He nodded his head slowly and I turned back to Edward smiling again. He looked uncomfortable. Crap.
I sighed and leaned away from him puffing out breath as I sat a seat down.
"Bella-" he started
"Forget it" I said, putting my earphones in.
I know I shouldn't of acted like that but I was really pissed at the moment and just needed some quite.
This was my way of telling Jacob I was done with him.
I sneaked a glance up at him and he was looking directly at me smirking, then I looked over at Edward, he looked really upset.
Screw Jacob!
I edge a centimetre over towards Edward. Nothing, then another. I kept doing this until I was right back next to him. Pretending I was asleep I laid down resting my head on his leg, wrapping my arms around him. I waited. He stroked me and held me closer. I smiled.
I loved him so much!
I opened my eyes and winked at Jacob who was looking very angry.
He made a noise in the back of his throat that sounded like an unspoken cough.
I felt Edward move me slightly then, and I went back to my act. I groaned slightly, stretching my arms in the process, slowly opening my eyes.
"Mmmm" I sighed
"You finally woke up, baby?" Edward asked sweetly
"Yep" I smiled sweetly
I bent over to hug him and he wrapped his arms round me. Jacob looked at him in confusion obviously thinking 'how the hell did he fall for that?'
I smirked and raised my eyebrows at him in challenge, he turned his head away.
Before I knew it we were at the airport, on our way to the check in desk, the driver telling us our luggage was sorted. I held Edwards hand on the way there and I heard a snap.
Paparazzi.
Oh crap! This will start talk, well we have lasted this long without being found out, quite an achievement actually.
I carried on walking, this time through security there was no distress as the beeper door didn't bloody beep!
I got on the plane, I swear all we did was travel. We would be acting soon though, in England.
I wasn't looking forward to the fact I might have to kiss Jacob again. It would be 10 times more awkward than it was the first time.
I brushed it off because I knew I would have fun shopping and hanging out with Alice and Rose.
We got told to put our seatbelts on and prepare for the flight.
I watched a movie on the plane and then listened to some music, it was boring other than that though. We finally got to London and I was really excited. I practically pulled Edward out the plane and into the cab. He laughed at me all the way. We were driven to a really posh hotel and went to the checkout room to get our key cards.
Edward flashed a credit or membership card the eager looking woman behind the desk. She smiled at him appreciatively. I frowned.
"I will just check your booking .Mr...Cullen?" she said in an obviously flirty manner
"Yes, thank you" Edward replied politely, annoyance crossed his features.
"That's room 204 for you, Sir" she battered her eyelids.
She only suddenly seemed aware then of Edwards arm around my shoulder, and looked slightly disappointed, then become aware of the rest of the waiting group of us. She gave the room card back to Edward.
"This will work on your room now...Oh! Of course!" she scrambled in the desk drawer.
"Room 205, 206 and 207 are for the rest" she gave the cards out quickly, suddenly self-conscious.
Edward smiled and headed off with me holding his hand.
"She was very….friendly" I commented
"oh god, don't even start Bella" he laughed
"Might have to make up for her friendliness later…" I smirked at him
I brought his lips to mine and went up to the room.
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