Chapter 5

Dean stood there in complete silence,shocked by this turn of events,it couldn't be true,his best friend,his soulmate,his one and only,how could he be dying he was too young to die.

Trying to remain calm he stood at the door way feeling like he was going to be sick "How? I mean...how is this happening?"

Castiel slowly sat himself down on the bed letting out a deflated sigh "I was getting these really intense headaches,I thought nothing of it until it gradually got worse."he took a deep breath "so I went to see a doctor."

Dean stood there completely numb as he listened to what Cas was telling him trying to process it.

"They offered me a brain scan,I got the results a few days ago,a-and they found something."

Dean gulped heading back over to him and sat beside him on the bed completely speechless.

"I don't really understand it but,it sounds to me like I dont have long left,I've tried telling my family but it's like they're in denial or something,they don't believe me,guess i've cried wolf that many times they kinda expect it from me."

Dean tried to stay strong for his friend struggling to hold it all together though "Cas i'm so sorry,I wish you would've just told me sooner,you know I would've been there for you."

Cas shifted away from him "I was scared...I am scared,I don't want you to see me this way."

"Like what,Cas you drop this bomb on me and now you expect me to leave,well im sorry but you're not kicking me out that easily,because i'm not giving up on you."

Cas pulled himself up now running his hands through his hair in frustration "Dean...no,you don't get it,you don't know what will happen to me."

"I've seen you at your worst Cas,your a drug addict for a start that can't be helping you,you know that right it'll kill you"

"Hey-"he said in defense "I am not an addict, I just...I just wanted it to take the edge off for a little while,I was a little stressed okay,I just found out I had cancer"he added "and my worst...come on Dean don't be so naive,you honestly think the other night is the worst i've been,whats to come-" his nostrils flared with rage "you have no idea."

Dean shook his head "so your just going to give up,Cas I know this is hard,but I believe in you,you're going to get through this,i'll be with you ever step of the way,for every appointment,every tumble and fall i'll be there to pick you back up again,you got that?"

Castiel's lips quivered trembling with fear,he loved Dean with all his heart but to have him watch him suffer and watch as he slowly fades into nothing,it terrified him more than dying alone. He simply nodded tilting his head down.

"Good,I won't lose you you got that I won't,you're going to fight this,and so help me if it kills me you are going to graduate."

"Okay Dean,I promise."

Dean forced himself to smile pulling him into a supportive hug and nodded "and another thing,stop with the drugs okay,I need you for as long as I can get you."

Castiel held Dean in a loving embrace,inhaling every scent of him tugging at his shirt"I will"he let out a small sigh of relief,feeling a huge weight being lifted off him now he had finally told him.

Dean didn't want to let him go "I'll come with you tomorrow to tell your family okay? We'll do it together."

Castiel smiled weakly pulling himself away now "Dean you don't have to,I don't need them,all I need right now is you."

Dean raised an eyebrow "Really? Cause not 5 minutes ago you were willing to kick me out,now all of a sudden you need me,make your mind up will ya?"he said jokingly.

"NO...no don't go,I didn't mean that,I don't want you to leave,please."he pleaded.

"Woaw dude calm down,i'm not leaving,I was joking."

"oh okay,don't scare me like that?"

Dean rolled his eyes a little "But seriously though Cas,you really should tell them,and properly,and we should probably tell the head maybe they'll give you special credit cause of your condition."

"I don't want special treatment cause I have a freeking timebomb in my head okay,I don't want to be treated any differently." he snapped.

Taking a deep breath Cas gritted his teeth trying to hold back the anger "I'm sorry"he breathed heavily "I need some air,will you walk with me?"

Dean nodded once holding his hand out for him to take.

A new day had risen,Dean and Cas were ready for a new day at college,despite knowing about Castiels' condition he still felt postive that they were going to have a future together,he had trashed Cas' stash so he wouldn't be tempted,he had been up all night researching,finding anything that could make it easier on them both and possibly ease their minds although alot of it scaring him,but he was mildly optimistic for a positive outcome.

Castiel groaned as he awoke from his slumber "Dean?"

Dean turned his head to face the bed "Morning" he chimed in cheerful tone.

"What are you doing?"he asked rubbing his eyes feeling his head pounding.

"Research,i've been looking into survival stories with people who have had brain tumors,many have long happy lives again."

Castiel licked his lips sitting up resting up against the headboard,he glanced at the time,he had a lecture in about an hour "Dean...I appreciate it but what can you really do,we don't even know if i'll survive this."

"It says 60% of all teens live on until their adulthood,well until their 40's I reckon." he smiled hopeful.

Castiel smiled sadly knowing Dean was freaking out inside. He breathed heavily pulling himself up wearing what he had on the day before slamming the lid of the laptop down. "Please stop okay,we don't know the full details yet,once I know then we can make decisions on where to go from here,alright?"

"I just want to know is all" he shrugged his shoulders "just cause-"

Castiel smiled weakly taking his hand "I know you're scared for me,I am too" he took a moment to let the reality of it sink in "I probably will die,sooner than you think...but I need you to be strong for me...okay, I need you too otherwise i'll just fall off the wagon again."

Dean gripped his hand tightly "I love you so much."

"I love you too...now come on we should get to class." he didn't want to talk about this right now,all he wanted was to just get on with the rest of the day without dwelling on the fact that his time was limited,it was true he didn't really care anymore,what was the point in all of this if it was all for nothing?

Dean slipped his hand away from him firmly "right..sure."he sighed,defeated grabbing a quick shower before he had his first lecture of the day.

Castiel tapped his foot on the floor vigourously,in a world of his own,it felt like he had blacked out but suddenly jolted up when one of his classmates tapped him on the shoulder.

He shot up rubbing his eyes "sorry-"he muttered quietly to the guy beside him "having a rough day."

"Don't sweat it buddy."

Castiel returned to his notes or lack there of,finding several doodles of what looked like black circles mimicing darkness,he crumbled up the piece of paper and tossed it on the floor.

He could hardly concentrate on anything.

An hour had passed and Castiel quickly scooped up his books scurring off to find somewhere to relax and get his head straight.

Dean strolled out of his lesson and smiled up at one of his friends "Seriously i'm okay,I got stuff on my mind but i'll be fine."

"You sure,cause you looked pretty distracted in class today,it's not like you,you know i'm here for you if you need someone to talk to."

Dean smiled up at her "thanks Lisa,but i'm good."he lied.

Lisa gave him a supportive smile "alright,if you insist,but it still stands,you know everyone missed you guys at the party the other night,it was a hell of a night."

Dean gave her a weak smile "yeah..erm something came up."

"Pity,hmm maybe next time,well I better dash off,got another class in 15 minutes."

Dean gave her a nod "cool well see ya later yeah?"

Lisa winked "sure thing cowboy"she hurried off leaving Dean alone with his thoughts.

Dean took a seat right outside campus letting out a small sigh,he had time to kill before his next class,removing his phone he typed his message.

Hey,are you free for coffee I miss you already,I hate the thought of not being able to see u. DW.

Castiel heard his message alert tone,about to step into the Deans' office, he glanced slightly at the message immediately shutting it off,not replying to it right away.

Castiel closed the door behind him taking a seat at the Dean's desk.

"Alright Mr Novak, you requested to see me,so tell me whats on your mind?"

Castiel put his hands against the mahogony desk,licking his dry lower lip,where to begin.

Be prepared for some more messed up teenage angst,it's going to get significantly worse from here,some more plot twists so be prepared,thanks to all who have favourited and reviewed.