Chapter 6

Castiel stepped out of the Deans' officer shaking the mans hand "thank you for your understanding."

"Anything we can do to help you,just let us know,i'll inform your professors immediately."

Castiel turned standing in the doorway "I appreciate it." he gave him a nod walking away letting out a small sigh,feeling emotionally drained,pouring his heart out to the Dean really took it out of him.

Finally being able to respond to Deans' text he sent a quick reply.

I'm too tired,take a raincheck ok? Love you. C

He pushed the reply button,slipping his phone back into his pocket and carried on down the corridor.

2 weeks later

Castiel gripping Deans' hand tightly,he had survived a week of normalcy at school and even though his grades were average he was still coping.

"Dean I think I'm going to throw up."

Dean stroked his hand and smiled up at him "look whatever happens,we'll get through it,i'm here for you."

Castiel laughed nervously gripping his hand tightly not really wanting to know the full details of his results,fearing the worst.

"Sorry to keep you two waiting"came the doctor as he strolled into the room holding Castiels file. He cleared his throat.

Dean gulped looking to his boyfriend feeling Castiel trembling "no problem." he responded.

The doctor opened up the file,exhaling deeply "I'm afraid I have some bad news."

Castiel held his breath the grip on Deans hand becoming tighter,every fibre of his body shaking.

"I'll put it to you kids simply,the cancer is spreading, and rapidly."he pulled out the brain scan image trying to explain to the couple,the consequences.

"Tell me Cas,how are feeling at this current moment?"

Castiel stared down at the floor"right now? Erm well I have a headache,its bright,the light it kinda hurts my eyes,and erm I kinda feel sick."

Dean glanced over at his boyfriend sadly giving him a supportive smile "what can be done doc,I mean is there anything that can slow it down at least?"

The doctor gave Dean a nod "there's surgery,its risky but we could attempy remove the tumor,plus there chemo and radiotherapy,but of ofcourse this is your decision Cas?"

"Would it help? What are the chances I survive?"

The doctor closed the file up putting it on the table beside him "I'm going to be honest with you,the chances aren't good."

Castiel choked back looking up at the doctor now "how long?"

The doctor slipped his hands his white coat pockets shaking his head "at best I'd say 6 months,a year,maybe longer."he shrugged.

"6 months?" Dean blurted out,horrified. "No..no thats not possible."

The doctor gave them both a sympathetic smile "well judging by these tests,it's likely it will get worse,your motor functions will start to shut down,possible blindness,memory loss,your brain will shut down."

"DO IT...get it out of me."Cas muttered,his voice breaking with every syllable. "get it out of me...please."

This was all too much for Dean to take,he couldn't bear the thought of watching Cas fall apart,he turned to face him scared pulling him into a hug.

The doctor gave them a nod "I am very sorry,you'll be hearing from us in the next few weeks regarding your op,i'd advise you to take it easy."

Hearing this news sent jolts of pain through the couples hearts,Deans was breaking for the fact Castiel was probably going to suffer. Cas on the other hand was breaking knowing he was going to die and there was probably nothing he could do about it.

Cas pulled himself away from Dean slamming his fist against the glass walls "this isn't fair,I don't deserve this...why am I being punished huh?"

"Cas...maybe you need to calm down."

Castiel pushed himself away from the barrier,he gritted his teeth glancing up at Dean,he exchanged looks finding the words to say now,finding himself speechless,walking away he left Dean alone.

Dean hurried after him "Cas hold on...please...lets talk about this."he pushed through the double doors,outside the hospital now.

"whats there to talk about,I was right."

Dean continued to walk after him "Cas stop please...slow down,you need to calm down."

"HOW CAN I CALM DOWN...YOU HEARD THE DOCTOR DEAN...ITS OVER."

"No it's not,we can't lose faith."

Castiel stopped in his tracks stumbling over falling up against a tree, he rested against it for a moment sobbing quietly to himself.

Dean stood back,keeping his distance letting Cas just get it off his chest. Giving him his moment he slowly walked over to him putting a hand on his shoulder.

Castiel pulled himself away needing a moment to himself "Leave me alone..I just..I need to be alone."

"Cas..please."

Castiel shot a glare at Dean "LEAVE ME ALONE."he snapped.

Dean didn't want to leave it like this "Cas?"he called out to him "CAS-" he ran his hands through his hair a shot of panic rushing through him as Cas dissapeared in a flash.

"Shit-"he thought to himself,this isn't good.

Yeah okay so i'm officially a horrible person. This chapter was officially the death of me and I haven't even gotten to the itty gritty majorly angsty stuff yet. Short chapter again,but there will be more backstory,i'm sorry I know this is dragging on but it'll get bettter I promise (okay maybe not) :) anyways thanks to those reviewing,nice to know your still sticking around. Will try update soon.