Chapter 8

They arrived back on campus pretty quickly,Dean parked the car,got out and helped Castiel out to much frustration of the teenager.

"Dean i'm not a child...back off will you." his anger getting the better of him.

Dean raised his hands up in defense "you sure cause you look like you're having trouble there?"he raised an eyebrow.

Castiel shot a glare at him,if looks could kill then this would be it "dont get cocky."he pulled himself out slamming the door.

Dean sighed heavily rolling his eyes at him "I'm just trying to help you Cas,just...ugh you are impossible lately."

"I don't need your help"he shot back pushing him aside,acting like a teenage girl on her period,turning himself away he headed towards their dorm room.

Dean gritted his teeth,trying to badly to be patient,he knew deep down this wasn't Cas,but he couldnt handle this torture anymore,Castiel was slipping away from him and he couldn't stop it "Cas don't walk away from me...Castiel LOOK AT ME."

Castiel came to a halt,stopping in his tracks as they caught the attention of their classmates,he kept himself calm and reserved as he turned round,facing Dean "What do you want from me Dean?"he asked,keeping his distance.

For the first time Dean was speechless,he curled his bottom lip up tipping his head down to the ground "I just want you...I want you back." he muttered almost in a whisper.

Castiel swallowed hard and frowned "you can't have me,not now,not ever."

Deans' lips quivered,he choked it back shaking his head "please,you were fine until we got back here."

Castiel sighed heavily shrugging his shoulder"I'm tired Dean,I don't want to argue,I gotta try and finish this essay before tomorrow,and would really appreciate you helping me out,oh and another thing quit being a damn cry baby,you're turning into a little girl."he turned away from him towards the dorm.

The hallway of stevenson hall was like zombieland,everyone must be at their several classes,Cas was aware of Dean following him but he was in no mood for an arguement,which is all they seemed to do lately.

"Cas talk to me,tell me what thinking,how your feeling?"

Castiel unlocked the door not even making eye contact with him,he reached over switching on the lightswitch,glancing down to the bed,the invitation too strong to resist "I'm tired."he curled up on the mattress,letting out a small groan.

"Fine,I'll just let you sleep,I should go to atleast one of my classes I suppose...I love you."he muttered desperately.

He was looking for some sort of response,an I love you too Dean,but instead all that came from the teens mouth was soft whimpers"stop-"

"Cas-?"

"Don't say you love me",he muttered,his eyes closed.

Dean frowned looking down at his lover "its the truth...I promised you I wasn't going anywhere and I intend to keep that promise dammit."he sighed heavily.

Castiel pulled the duet over his skinny weak body every part of him ached,his head pounding "No...no please-"he sobbed "I can't,go...please,go to your class,go be normal and have a life,i'm a burden,you don't need me ruining your life just cause mine is-"

Dean stared down at his boyfriend,hating to see how vunerable he had become,how weak and frail he was but the fact he was giving up,that annoyed him "Open your eyes Cas...i've been with you every step of the way,you honestly think i'm going to give up now...4 months Cas...you have potentially 4 month left before that ticker goes off inside that head of yours...and I can't"he voice broke,his body quaking with every word,his face burning up with anger.

Castiel simply looked up at Dean not saying a word.

"I can't just walk away knowing you'll be entirely alone...dont you see,you and me,we're all that we've got,we're in this together,so DON'T you dare give up on me."

Castiel turned himself away from him.

Dean threw his hands up "you know what fine,do what you want-"

Opening the room door he groaned grabbing his bag off the hook beside the door swinging it over his shoulder heading right out the door.

"Dean-"he called out to him,turning towards the door the fear of losing the only person in his life finally setting in.

"DEAN" he tried to move,go after him,tell him he made a mistake,anything but it was as if he was no longer in control of his body,he frowned squinting his eyes until they were almost closed trying to regain control"Dean...come back...please...come back"he called out,wheezing as he felt he chest tighten."Dean-" he forced himself off the bed stumbling to the floor,he screamed out every fiber of his being in agony,it felt as though was hammering away at his skeleton breaking every single bone.

"GET UP..GET UP"he grabbed hold of the wall gripping the corners of the rough plaster using every bit of energy he had in him to pull himself up and too the door,Dean was probably long gone by now,but he didn't care,he had to try. This was his stresser,the thought of losing Dean,dying completely alone,this was his doing,he turned him away and now it might be too late,or was he just being paranoid?

He cried out,a hurricane errupting inside his mind,poking his head out the door,the halls were empty "No"

Dean decided,fuck it i'm ditching class,why did it matter anymore anyways,he had pretty much missed all of this semester anyways taking care of Cas so missing one more wouldn't make much of a difference. He pulled up outside what looked like a friendly surburbian neighbourhood,the house in question displaying a highly maintained law,a little too stepford for his liking,stepping up the drive he reached the front door ringing the doorbell.

He stood there maybe a few minutes seeing movement coming from the corner of his frowned banging on the door now.

"I know you're in there,come on out or I will break the damn door down."

The door lock quickly clicked open,the door opening slightly, Castiels' sister greeted him "you can't be here."

"Let me in...we need to talk."he said forcefully.

"What,about Cas,we've heard all the lies before Dean,and it kinda sickens me that he's sent you hear to be his messenger,he wants to talk to us,tell him to come face us himself."she snapped about to slam the door in his face when Dean intervened.

"He can't,your brother is dying,why would any of us lie about that?"

"Because I know him,now get out of our lives Dean before I call the cops."

Dean slammed his fist against the wall "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE,ARE YOU ALL THAT FUCKED UP IN THE HEAD THAT YOU CAN'T ACCEPT THE FACT THAT THIS IS REAL,IT'S REAL,ITS ALL REAL."

Anna stepped outside closing the door behind getting right in Deans' face "I know when i'm being fooled Dean,you don't think i've been through this before,watching him manipulate and play us,his lies drove our father to suicide." her eyes filled up with rage as she gazed upon the green eyed man "so whatever game you two are trying to play,it won't work,so back the hell off."

Dean stood there motionless,shaking his head revealing his vunerable side now "You don't understand"he mumbled.

Taking a breath,Dean composed himself wiping the build up of tears surrounding the corners of his eyes "Please...I'm begging you,he's doesnt have long,I just know he's not going to pull through this."

Anna watched him pour his heart out,the sound in his voice almost sounding genuine,licking her lips she folded her arms leaning against the door.

"He needs his family right now,so he knows that someone else cares,because right now i'm all he's got and...I'm not enough"he paused before continuing "I am not making this up,please im begging you."

Anna licked her lips and frowned shaking her head "okay...you better come inside then,tell us everything."

Mission accomplished,Dean had finally gotten the Novaks convinced,setting up a meeting against Castiels will was probably going ot piss him off but he knew it needed to be done.

"thank you so much,he'll really appreciate this."he turned to face the redheaded sister with a small smile"i'll see you tomorrow morning then?"

Anna wrapped her cardigan around her and nodded "I just don't want to believe it,but yeah i'll see you guys here in the morning"she smiled weakly.

Dean drove back to campus,knowing Castiel will be pissed for leaving him alone like that but he was hoping a nice greasy lunch would make up for that,whistling away to himself he pulled in the carpark,grabbing the paper bag with their food in it heading towards their halls he attention became distracted by the ambulance pulled up outside No,he thought to himself.

Running towards it he saw exactly what he didn't want to see,Cas bloody on a stretcher. Was this,the final countdown?

"What happened?"he asked one of the paramedics as they wheeled him into the ambulance.

"Sir stand back,let us do our jo-"

Dean interrupted clearly angry and upset "I'm his boyfriend,what happened?"

The female paramedic sighed "get in we'll explain on the way."

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