Chapter 15
Gabriel pulled outside the clinc and sighed "do you mind if I don't go in,hopsitals kind of give me the heebies"he shuddered just thinking about it.
"No it's fine,thanks Gabe for everything, and for showing me the light."he grinned.
Gabriel smirked "happy to be of service,I hope things work out for you,and that you both get the ending you deserve."
Dean opened the car door pulling himself out "thanks,I appreciate that."
"Good luck"he flashed him a friendly smile reversing out and drove off leaving Dean alone.
Dean stepped inside keeping his head down the hangover still lingering in the back of his mind,he approached the young blonde reception,offering her a weak smile.
"Well hello again,have you calmed down now?"she wondered tapping her pen on the desk.
Dean licked his lips "honestly no,but I promise I won't cause a fuss,umm,I take it theres no change?"
"I'm not sure,i'll try buzzing the doctor if he's free,just sit tight for a moment."
Dean did as instructed,not having to wait to long,half an hour at the most.
"Mr Winchester,welcome back,why don't you come on through,i'll brief you on his situation."
Dean strolled down the small corridor with him,listening in absorbing it all in. "So you think he's going to pull through?"
"His vitals improved overnight,which meant we could take him off life support,its a miracle if you ask me,whatever he's holding onto its definately paying off,but like I warned you,he may not be the same as he was before."
"I understand that,i'm just glad things are looking up."
The nurse came rushing down the corridor "Sir...-"
"What is it Mary?"he questioned raising an eyebrow keeping a calm stance.
The nurse turned to Dean,happy that he was here for this "Sir the novak child..he's woke up."
Deans eyes widened rushing down the corridor in flash,skidding as he reached Castiels' room,he hurried inside stopping in his tracks as he stood at the edge of his bed.
Castiels's eyes flickered opened his eyes fixed on the boy standing opposite him slowly moving his head to follow his movement,breathing in heavily and quick through the oxygen mask around his mouth.
Dean gulped standing there silently not making a sound.
He looked him up and down,panting heavily removing the mask slowly squinting his eyes,a confused expression on his face as he tried to but a name to his face, a single tear rolling down his face, beginning to speak.
"D-D-"he stuttered choking back his tears, his eyes a little wide as the nurse followed by the doctor came in.
He tried once more,determined to get it out "Dean-"
Dean stood there every part of him shaking, he breathed in deep as he spoke his name "I'm here Cas...i'm right here." Dean stepped back letting the doctor examine him,feeling like a huge weight had been lifted.
"It's incredible,its almost like-"he frowned astonished looking back to Dean,like Deans' presence had awoken him from his sleep?
Dean gulped a little concerned at the professionals staring at him "so its okay,he's going to be okay?"
"It appears so...we'll leave you two to get reacquainted."
Dean rubbed his lips together nervously approaching him again,silence beckoning him once more,happy,terrified and confused all at once,it certainly wasn't doing his hangover any favours.
Castiel stared into space removing the mask again trying to speak but no words would escape his lips.
"Shh it's okay Cas,don't try and talk,just get your strength back."he beamed completely over the moon that things seemed to be looking up,he smiled taking a seat beside his bed side,grasping his hand gently.
Castiel let out a little moan turning his head to the side slowly getting lost inside Deans' piercing eyes trying to curve his lips into a smile,his face numb.
"I...I thou..I..lost..yew"he closed his eyes tightly,his speech impairment getting him worked up.
"Hey...shh,relax its okay i'm not going anywhere...I promise its okay",he lifted his arm up giving each finger little kisses.
Cas put the mask over his mouth again breathing into it his lungs expanding in rapid movements as he breathed in and out,his eyes becoming hazy.
"You're going to be okay Cas...i'll be here waiting for you when your better."
"Promis-?"he slurred.
Dean nodded simply planting another kiss on his hand "I promise."
3 weeks later
Dean stared at the mirror,adjusting his tie,his eyes dead and pale undertones of his features indicating that he hadn't slept for days.
"We're ready for you son,when you're ready." came the familar sound of his professor Bobby Singer poking his head through the door.
Dean cleared his throat brushing off his suit grabbing hold of his notes by the side of the table a photo of Castiel catching his eye,he looked down at his feet"be right out."
He took another look in the mirror,following Bobby out being surrounded by a crowd full of people,it was almost unbelievable just how many people cared.
He approached the podium clearing his throat before speaking into the mike. "Erm..Thank you all for coming"he mumbled nervously.
"Man I don't even know where to begin,Cas was...I mean how do I even begin to describe him."he pursed his lips together "He was my best friend,my soulmate someone who I could count on no matter how I was feeling,he had a pure soul, and I loved him for it." he breathed in,taking a moment to compose himself"He shouldn't of gone yet,it wasn't his time,but I want him to know that-"he continued.
The Casket suddenly being carried away to it's resting place,suddenly Dean and everyone present fell into fits of silent sobs.
"Cas,you are my hero,you inspire me every day and you will forever live on inside me"he tilted his head down "I will never forget you...I'll find you"he gulped whispering the last part to himself."thank you."he ended his speech leaving it short and sweet.
After Castiel came out of his coma he had 5 days left with his boyfriend,and those precious moments were the most intimate that the couple had felt for a long time,it just wasn't enough to save him,the 5th day Castiel slipped away in his sleep this time never to wake up.
He died at peace and thats more than Dean could ever ask for.
Once the service was over,Dean slipped away quietly wanting to avoid all the sympathys,theres only enough times you can hear 'Sorry for your loss' without cracking.
In the end,he decided to mourn alone,in his own way,the way Castiel would've wanted him to.
Having already planned this ahead,he headed up the stairs to Bobbys(where the after service party was being held) bathroom locking the door behind.
There was suddenly a tap on the door "Dean..Dean are you in there?"
Dammit Bobby why do you have to ruin it now,just when i'm so close,he muttered to himself in thought.
"Erm...give me a minute"he replied panicked pulling out a small black medi pack from the inside pockets of his suit.
The door handle turned. "Dean unlock the door" Bobby Singer surely wasn't an idiot he had figured out his game. Dean had suffered,the weight of watching the only living human to love him slip away in front of him would definately cause anyone to lose all hope and Bobby knew that day by day it was sending him over the edge.
"I can't...Bobby I physically can't...i'm sorry."
Bobby rested his head against the door "Come on Dean...don't be stupid, he wouldn't want this,he would've wanted you to carry on."
Dean smiled weakly glancing down at the pack turning his attention to the bathtub,turning on the tap on."but thats just it,I know what he wants...he wants me,I can hear him calling me,everything i've done has lead me here and it's time for me to find him again."
Bobby frowned not understanding a word he was saying "Boy you're not making a lick of sense,open the door,lets talk about this, I mean you just buried him,just give yourself time to grieve please."
"Tell my family I love them okay,especially Sammy."he took the needle out filling the syringe up with the toxin,removing his shirt stepping into the bathtub.
"DEAN...DEAN OPEN the door"he banged on the wooden barrier,using all his might to kick it down.
Water was overflowing now causing the bathroom to flood,Deans pale lifeless body floating on top,one hand draped so eloquantly over the bathtub the syringe on the floor beside it.
"GOD DAMMIT"the older man cursed pulling him out immediately. He slapped his cheeks trying to wake him,cradling him on his lap "Wake up...Dean...wake up." He gave him one final slap on the cheek.
Dean gasped for breath being bathed in a beautiful pearly white light,hearing waves crashing against some cliffs, he frowned laying flat on his stomach being washed up ashore,the bitter taste of saltwater forcing Dean to turn onto his back,he was disorientated and confused,unsure of what just happened,was this all a dream,the effect of the drug causing him to hallucinate? Nothing making sense to him at first.
A shadow appeared beside him,he squinted his eyes as the beaming sun blinded him,he reached out a hand for whoever it was to help him up.
"Cas?"he mused.
Castiel was glowing,he looked more beautiful almost heavenly in appearence "You found me my love,I knew you would."
Dean didn't speak,wrapping his arms around his lovers waist,he pulled him into a deep passionate kiss,their tongues colliding together.
Their hands connected together,they had found each other finally,the siren song ringing in their ears.
Hear me sing: "Swim to me, swim to me, let me enfold you."
"Here I am. Here I am, waiting to hold you."
Bobby held Deans' lifeless body in his arms "Come on Dean...don't do this,come back to us."he called to him,unaware now,but his soul had been set free.
Gabriel was right they did get the ending they deserved,their happy ending. They were together in their heaven,and they were in love,at peace and honestly whats so wrong about that?
THE END.
Umm so yeah i've killed Castiel twice now in my fics,and saying that Cas is probably my favourite character in spn,I find myself willing to torture him lol. Anyways there you have,the end,hope I didn't break your hearts too much. I want to thank you all for favouriting,for reviewing and leaving me feedback,without it I wouldn't of finished this. Here's hoping my next storys a little more light hearted :P
The story itself if anyones interested is based around the 1983 song, Song of the siren by this mortal coil.