So... I don't think this one makes much sense, but I'm not really the kind that writes a lot of dialogues and stuff... Or the kind that can think of funny things...

When you finally get that feeling, it'll be as clear as the air you're breathing. ~ Gareth Gates

Blaine had already had a few boyfriends before he even met Kurt.

There weren't many, just two, but both of them had been complete assholes in their sort relationships.

The first one was called Scott.

He tended to belittle Blaine, always pointing out his flaws, the subjects he wasn't good at, at school.
He always pointed out that Blaine wasn't the tallest of all guys. That was a point that had always bothered Blaine. But he had no idea how to break it off with Scott. He wanted to. He wanted to break up with the guy.

He just hadn't known how.

It had taken a family dinner, another rude comment of Scott about how Blaine always failed to grab the books on the top shelf in school, which meant he had to do it.

It had also taken Blaine finally bursting out in tears at dinner itself, feeling so incredibly bothered and horrible about himself that he couldn't take it anymore.

And it had taken both Blaine's father and mother, but most of al, Cooper, Blaine's brother all yelling at Scott, screaming at him to get the hell out of their house and stay away from Blaine, for Blaine to give up his relationship with Scott.

He had told Scott they were over as the guy, angry at the fact he was yelled at, walked over to his car.

'You're breaking up with me? Fine. I don't need such a pathetic cry baby like you anyway.'

That had hurt Blaine back then. Especially when Scott had another boyfriend not a week after their break-up, smirking at Blaine.

That had left Blaine hurt for a long time, until he met Gary.

He seemed like a sweet guy at first, stumbling over his words as he had asked Blaine out on a date, which soon turned into another (also short-lived) relationship.

The problem was that he got angry very, very fast. Another problem was that, while his relationship with Scott was before he went to Dalton, before the Sadie Hawkins dance, even, his relationship with Gary was at Dalton itself.

The reason that this was a problem, was the fact that Gary wasn't the only one with an anger management issue.

Thanks to his getting beaten up, Blaine got angry very fast. Honestly, he wasn't sure why, but his shrink told him it was a combination of self defence and trauma. The reason he even had a shrink to go to was because he'd gotten angry and slightly aggressive at home and it had scared his parents.

Either way, because they both had anger management issues, they fought a lot. Eventually, they broke up, knowing it was no use to keep on fighting, but honestly getting a little sick of the other because of the fighting.

And while they had sat with each other and talked it through calmly, it was still a pretty bad break-up, even if they just liked each other, but never loved each other.

And then Blaine met Kurt.

And if he was very honest with himself, Blaine could admit to himself the exact moment he fell in love.

'Excuse me…'

He'd just turned around, ready to help whoever was behind him, most likely about to ask for Blaine's help.

And then he saw an angel.

Which later turned out to have a name. Kurt.

But he wouldn't let himself be honest, not for months.

But of course, his not being honest with himself only led to dramas like the dating with Rachel thing, or the Jeremiah thing. Blaine still cringed when either of them were so much as offhandedly mentioned.

Either way, unlike the others had done, Kurt gave him a whole new feeling. A good one, though.

The feeling was so obvious to him, yet he noticed it over and over again. A bit like when you suddenly start paying attention to your breathing. You're suddenly aware of everything you're capable of thanks to the breathing.

For Blaine, that was how it felt when he was with Kurt. Even though he still felt horrible about the fact that it took him a few months to find this out, he was glad he noticed.

Every time he was with Kurt, he felt capable of catching the sun and the moon at the same time, among with all the stars, only for this boy.

Kurt was also the only boy he had told everything about the beating and about his past boyfriends, about how he ended up with the Warblers, and other things like secrets he'd never told anyone.

He trusted Kurt and Kurt trusted him. They were completely honest with each other and while they'd both had their moments they kept things from the other, hurting each other immensely in the process, they managed to fight for their relationship, which was an accomplishment if you looked at the rest of the New Directions.

They learned from their mistakes and made sure to hold on to each other. They kept learning new things about the other they hadn't known before and to Blaine, that was the greatest joy there was in life.

Yes, to him, Kurt was certainly like the air he was breathing. He could never, ever get enough.

Yay. Reviews are very cute things. Most of them, at least. I like cute things.