"I've tried playing it cool, But when I'm looking at you, I can never be brave, Cause you make my heart race. Shot me out of the sky, You're my Kryptonite, You keep making me weak, Yeah, frozen and can't breathe. Some things gotta give now, Cause I'm dying just to make you see, That I need you here with me now, Cause you've got that one thing. So get out, get out, get out of my head, And fall into my arms instead, I don't, I don't, don't know what it is, But I need that one thing." I sing along with One Direction as I jump up and down in my room.

"Your good mood is really bringing me down even more, Spence." Madison says flatly as she lies on my bed watching me 'perform.' Her and Jade still haven't gotten back on speaking terms. I know that it's really killing Madison.

"Well I'm sorry." I say but start back singing. Turning the music up a little more. "So get out, get out, get out of my head, And fall into my arms instead, I don't, I don't, don't know what it is, But I need that one thing, And you've got that one thing." I sing louder and jump up and down on my bed.

"Spencer get your ass off that bed, and turn that music down." My mom opens my door and yells to me. I sigh and fall down on the bed next to a laughing Madison.

"That's what your ass gets." She says still laughing. At least that got her to smile, first time I've seen that in over a week. I suck my teeth and roll my eyes playfully at her, scooting off the bed to turn down my music. "Do you think-"

"No." I cut her off, already knowing what she was gonna say. She'd cut down on the amount of times she called Jade everyday but ten times was still way too much. Even at school, while in class she would text Jade and clearly Jade was ignoring her. Madison didn't care though, she just keep trying, even getting her phone taken at one point.

"But-"

"No Mads." I cut her off again. My phone buzzes and I practically fly across the bed to grab it from the nightstand.

"Ashley?" Madison questions.

"Sadly, no." I reply. But don't worry. We've talked regularly since she sent me all those wonderful gifts. It took the entire week to eat it all.

Yup. I'm a fatass.

So?

….

Thought so.

Madison phone buzzed and she looked at it and sighed. Guess it's not Jade. "You get this?" She looks up and asks, waving her phone for emphasis.

"Yup." I say putting my phone back down on my nightstand.

"You going?"

"Nah." I shake my head and sit on the bed.

"Why not?" Madison asks.

"Cause you're in this total funk and I'm not gonna leave you to go to some party. It'll probably be lame anyways." I say with a shrug.

"Spencer you love parties." Madison points out.

"It's fine, Mads." I assure her.

"Nope. I'm not letting you miss a party cause of me. We're going." Madison tells me matter of factly.

"Madison you know..." I trail off, but she gets it.

You know, that whole best friend I can tell what you're thinking thing we have going on.

"I know, and I promise I'll behave."

"Okay." I say dragging out the word. "If you're sure." I get up from the bed and walk to the door. "I'm hungry, lets go get my mom to cook us something to eat." I suggest but she doesn't move. "Mads?" I question.

"What hoe?" She asks raising brow.

"Get uuuup." I whine out to my friend who can't help but smile.

"Fine." She says with a small smile, rolling her eyes at me. We walk downstairs to the kitchen. My mom is cooking and Glen is sitting at the table playing his PS Vista.

"How are you mother on this fine Saturday afternoon?" I ask my mother in a cheery voice as Madison and I both take a seats at the bar.

"Whatever it is, no." My mom says.

Ugh!

I hate when she does that.

"But I didn't even..."

"The answer is still no Spencer." My mom cuts me off again, getting a laugh from both Glen and Madison.

"Where's dad?" I question, getting up from the stool and walking over to the fridge. I open it and grab a grape and pop it in my mouth.

"Out of town on business until next week." My mom tells me flipping over the burger in the pan.

"You making one of those for us?" I ask, pointing back between me and Madison, grabbing a handful of grapes and closing the fridge.

"No." My mother says simply.

"Some mom you are." I say and we both smile. I walk over and kiss her on the cheek. "Mads and I are going to a party tonight, so we're gonna head over to Taylor's to get ready." I tell my mom and she nods.

"Mmkay. Love you girls, be careful."

"Love you too." Madison and I say in unison. We run upstairs and grab our things.

"So where's this party gonna be?" Glen stops us as we were headed out the door.

"None of your business." I tell him and make a disgusted face. "Glen how many times do I have to tell you that you're ancient, and I don't want to be seen in public with you." I add then walk away.

"Love you to little sis." Glen yells at my retreating figure.

–

"I think that top looks better with those shorts." Taylor tells me as I try on yet another outfit.

"Ugh!" I yell out in frustration. "It's been like two hours, I'm tired of trying on clothes." I mean, how many people are really gonna come to a last minute basement house party anyways?

"You're the one that keeps changing. I liked your first outfit." Taylor shrugs and walks away to go help her girlfriend.

"Thanks so much, friend." I yell after her, putting emphasis on the word friend.

"Madison, what do you think?" I ask, turning to her and twirling a bit.

"It's nice." She says distracted. She doesn't have to say a word for me to know what she's thinking.

"Madison, we don't have to go." I tell her. Frankie isn't really a good friend of ours anyways. I mean, we hang out with her from time to time, but we've only known her since sophomore year when she transferred. What we do know is that her parents are loaded, which is one of the reasons she can throw last minute parties and still probably have it catered and a DJ and shit.

"No, I wanna go." Madison tells me, snapping out of her thoughts.

"She's gonna be there, I guarantee it. I don't want you feeling shitty if she doesn't talk to you." I say and take off my top, putting on another one.

"I'm fine." Madison tries to assure me, but I know she's not. But, when she sets her mind to doing something, there's hardly anything you can ever do to stop her. "I like that top." She tells me with a forced smile.

"You look hot Spence!" Taylor yells from the bathroom unnecessarily. I can see Gabby slap her on the arm before shutting the bathroom door.

Really?

There gonna have sex with me and Madison right here?

After we all got dressed...two hours later...we headed to the party.

–

Have you ever been to a basement party and as soon as you walk in you get smacked in the face by the heat, the smell of liquor, and that nasty smell of sweat?

Ew.

Picture that and that's exactly what we're feeling and smelling right now!

"Cause I am a survivor.. survivor.. I'm a survivor.. survivor.." The whole party sang as they dance to the Movado song.

"Cause I am a survivor.. survivor.. I'm a survivor.. survivor.." I join along with my hand up of course. I put my hands on Madison's shoulders, who's walking in front of me, and gave her a little shake. "Cause I am a survivor.. survivor.. I'm a survivor.. survivor.."

She's been intense since we left Taylor's house.
I sent out a silent prayer that tonight will just be a normal ol' party and everyone has fun.

But I can sense Madison already looking for Jade.

"Let's go get something to drink." I yell slash whisper in her ear.

Madison nods and taps Taylor and gestures to the "bar" area.

Once we get there we all look for our favorite beverages.

Taylor and her girlfriend both get Coronas.

Madison reaches for the bottle of Hennessy.

And me, I just finish pouring some Coke in my cup now.. "Where the fuck is the Cro..."

"Looking for this?" Frankie says with a smirk as she holds up the bottle of Crown Royal.

"Hey Frankie!" I say hugging her. "Fill me up, Ma'am."

Frankie fills the rest of my cup with Crown and says hi to the rest of my friends.

"You guys just get here?" She asks us leaning against the table.

"Yeah and you know we had to get our drinks first." I say tipping my drink to her before taking a sip. I wince as I swallow and my friends laugh. I'm no stranger to liquor but fuck, this is strong.

"Strong enough for you?" Frankie jokes.

I gave her the finger and took another sip just to say no bitch its not strong.

I manage to keep a straight face this time and ended it with a smile.

Taylor and Frankie talk about something I have no interest in and I focus my attention on my friend who is still busy looking for her ex.

"Suck my cockiness.. Lick my persuasion.. Eat my words and then.. Swallow your pride down, down.." Rihanna's song starts playing from the speakers and I know for a fact that Madison loves this song.

"Come on!" I say grabbing her hand as I try to find a place for us to dance. I vaguely hear her saying no but I just ignore it. "Dance!" I yell as I start jumping around. "Damn maybe Rihanna gay!" I sing the wrong words on purpose and saw Madison finally laugh and dances along with me.

"No one can do ya.. The way that I do.. Boy I waaaaant.. you. I love it, I love it I love it when you eat it I love it, I love it I love it when you eat it." We both sing along as we continue dancing like assholes careful not to spill our drink.

This is not our first time at the rodeo.

Wait.. is that how the saying goes?

Rihanna's song starts blending to a new song and all you can hear is "Don't fuck with me.. Don't fuck with me.. Don't fuck with me.. Don't fuck with me.." over the Cockiness beat. Suddenly, "Come take my hand
I won't let you go.. I'll be your friend.. I will love you so deeply. I will be the one to kiss you at night. I will love you until the end of time.."

..and this is where you lose me.

Beyonce is playing.

The rest of our friends joined us and we all just have a good ol time just like I prayed for.

They played three more Beyonce songs after End of Time and we had to dance to all of them..

"And it feels like I am just too close to love you, There's nothing I can really say. I can't lie no more, I can't hide no more, Got to be true to myself. And it feels like I am just too close to love you, So I'll be on my way..."Alex Clare's voice replaces Beyonce.

I somehow got separated from my friends and now I'm stuck between the wall and Frankie who is dancing on me. I don't stop her I just held my red cup in the air and danced along with her.

She turned around facing me and my breath hitches when I felt grab my waist pulling me closer to her.

I know for a fact she's smirking and confirms it when she looks up at me.

I roll my eyes at her and we continue dancing.

Frankie turns back around and I use this opportunity to look for Madison.

Not that Frankie isn't a good dancer or anything.

I just really don't wanna get too into it, you know what I'm saying.

I already feel half way guilty about dancing with her knowing how Ashley feels about her.

"You gave me more than I can return. Yet there's so much that you deserve. Nothing to say, nothing to do. I've nothing to give. I must leave with out you. I know we're headed separate ways." Alex Clare continues to sing. I absolutely love this song.

Sigh.
I wish Ashley was here.

I can't find Madison anywhere.

"You can at least act like you're into it." Frankie says after turning back around.

"Sorry." I apologize as we stop dancing. "I'm trying to look for Madison."

"Oh.. You want me to help?" Frankie says putting her hand on my waist.

See that shit is so unnecessary.

Whatever, let me go look for my friend.

"No, it's ok. I'll see you later."

–

I found Madison at the bar area.

I shoulda known.

I feel like sucha shitty friend for leaving her.

"Henny and apple juice is just..." Madison slurs slightly drunk as she pours herself another cup. She takes another sip. "..heavenly."

We can safely say that Madison isn't thinking about Jade... for now anyway.

"I'm not about that life but this Crown is..." I take a sip of my what? Third cup of the night? "...deeelish." I pour more Crown Royal in my cup and I add a splash of Coke to it. "It's like the more you drink it the more it gets sweeter." I take another sip. "See... yum.. I don't even need a to add Coke to it.. but I'm going to anyway cause I'm a laaad..." I look up from my rant and see that Madison clearly checked out of my rant and her attentions somewhere else. "..lady." I follow her gaze and.. shit! Jade's here.

Jade's standing across from us talking to Frankie. She laughs at something Frankie says and touches her arm affectionately.

Uh-Oh.

I'm suddenly sober and put my drink down on the table as I watch my best friends next move.

Oh fuck she's fast.

"Madison! Stop!" I call out to my friend who is storming off towards Jade and Frankie's direction.

"Oh it's like that huh?" Madison says menacingly.

Jade looks up with a shocked expression.

She obviously didn't think Madison's was here.

"I see you move on fast..." She continues in the same tone.

"Maddy, let's go." I say grabbing her arm.

Please don't make a scene.

"No, let go Spence." She says shrugging my hand off her.

"You're drunk." Jade says. "and we... " She points to Frankie and herself "..were just talking. Not that I owe you an explanation."

Frankie mouths an apology to me and I just shake my head.

You know those people who just naturally flirty?

Yeah, Frankie's one of them.

Ashley doesn't like Frankie after seeing her interacting with me.

Even though she flirts with Ashley too.

My girlfriend just ignores her whole existence when we go to Frankie's parties.

Sigh, I miss Ashley.

But there's more important issue here.

I just really want to get Madison out of here before shit gets worse.

"No, Apparently you just don't give a fuck anymore.."

"..and why should I? You didn't." Jade cuts Madison off and starts to walk away.

"You don't mean that." Madison voice quivers as she blocks Jade's path.

"Madison, please just leave me alone." Jade pleads with her and she quickly wipes a tear that fell from eyes. She walks past my friend and disappears in the crowd.

My best friend looks heartbroken as she watches her ex girlfriend walking away from her.

I feel so helpless.

"I'm gonna go." Madison says not looking at me. She's still looking at the spot where Jade disappeared from.

"Ok, lets go." I tell her simply.

"No, Spence." Madison finally looks at me and she looks like she's two seconds away from crying. "Stay.. I'll be fine." Just like Jade she quickly wipes a tear that escapes from her eyes.

"Don't be stupid." I say putting my arm around her. "Let's go. You're sleeping over."

–

I finally got Madison comfortable on couch, as comfortable as I can get her anyway.

She passed out in Glen's car.

I didn't drive of course so I called my brother.

He was kind enough to pick us up.

I place a blanket over Madison and I head up stairs.

I love my friend but I can't carry her up these stairs.

I can still feel the effects of liquor from earlier.

I change into my pajamas as soon as I got in my room and got in bed.

I grab my phone and call my girlfriend not even caring to check the time.

"Baby.." Ashley picks up sleepily.

Her voice.. ugh. It does something to me.

"Hey baby."

"You've been drinking." My girlfriend says laughing a little.

"Mhm." I say undressing and getting in to bed. "We went to a party at Frankie's house." I tell her, getting more comfortable.

"Oh." Is all she says.

"How was your day?" I ask, changing the subject.

"Long. I helped my dad clean out the garage then I played basketball with Ashton and Emily." She tells me timidly, like she thinks that by her saying Emily was there my mood would change.

Don't get me wrong, I still don't trust Emily. But I trust Ashley, and she's never given me a reason not to.

"Sounds fun." I say laughing a little. I think that crown is starting to catch back up to me again.

"Spencer..." Oh my God, I love the way she says my name. Especially when I have a little liquor in me. It just does things to me.

"Hmm?" I say, trying to sound seductive.

"It's three in the morning, you know that right?" Ashley asks, and I can tell that she was in a deep sleep before I called.

"I missed you though." I whine, still trying to keep my sexy voice.

"And I missed you too." She tells me and I can hear her moving in the background. She moans and it sends shivers through my body.

"Baby." I whine.

"Oh sorry." She says and stifles a laugh. She knows she did that on purpose.

"Ash." I say softly, turning over on my back.

"Hmm baby?" She asks.

"I'm gonna touch myself kay?" I say and I can hear her breath hitch. I guess she wasn't expecting that. It could be the mixture of the alcohol with Ashley's sexy sleepy voice, plus I haven't gotten any in like forever, but I'm really horny.

"Spence." She says in a pleading tone, like she doesn't want me to do it but at the same time she does.

"Hmm?" I say as my hand makes its way into my pajama shorts.

"Don't do that." She says but I can tell she means the opposite.

"But my hand is already there." I tell her in a seductive tone. Well, at least I intended for it to be seductive.

I'm already wet.

See, what she does to me.

"Mmm.." I moan and follow it up with a yawn.

"Baby..." Ashley laughs on the phone.

"Mhmm?" I say closing my eyes.

I'm really about to fall asleep right now.

"Go to sleep."

"But I'm horny." I say in my sleepy voice. Clearly I need to take my ass to sleep.

"We can finish this tomorrow night." She tells me and I'm too tired to object.

"Kay baby. Night. I love you. Stay on the phone til I fall asleep." I mumble into the phone, closing my eyes. It wasn't long before I drifted off to sleep.