"Can you not look at me like that?" Spencer tells me with a smile.
"I can't help it you look delicious." I tell her with a smirk.
"You did not just call me delicious." Spencer says, trying to make a serious face but failing.
"Don't pretend like you don't like." I lean over and whisper in her ear and I see Spencer visibly shiver.
"I think we should get out of here." Spencer tells me with a look in her eyes. One that says she wants to take me home right now and have her way with me.
"We just got here." I say before I can stop myself. Like what the fuck do I care for, Spencer wants to leave and have sex with me.
"You're right." She says rolling her eyes and sighing. "Be right back." She says before I can protest. Damn. I see her walk in Madison and Jade's direction and Frankie comes over after a second. This is her party. She throws one like every month or something. Apparently her parents are loaded so they can afford all this.
Wait.
Is she touching Spencer right now?
Really? I'm standing right here. It's no secret that Frankie has a crush Spencer. I mean have you seen Spencer? Almost everyone has a crush on her. I can accept that. What I can't accept is her touching my girlfriend. Right. In. Front. Of. Me. I make my way over to them and Frankie immediately drops her hand from Spencer's arm.
See.
She knew.
"Hey baby." Spencer says when she sees me.
"We can go." I say suddenly. Probably a little harsher than I intended.
"You ok?" Spencer asks confused. Cause just a few seconds ago I said we should stay. But that was before the hostess decided she wanted to fondle my girlfriend right in front of me.
Okay... fondle is a little much. But you get the point.
"I'm fine baby." I say in a softer tone. "I just really want you right now." I lean over and whisper in her ear but I'm guessing I didn't whisper soft enough cause Madison cleared her throat and smiled, Frankie is looking away trying to hold back a smile and Jade is looking directly at me smiling.
Oops.
"I'll see you guys at school." Spencer tells our friends, grabbing my hand and leading me out of the party.
–
"Wake up hoe." Is the first thing I hear early Sunday morning. I'm not sure if this is a dream or not. "If you don't wake up right now Ashley, I swear I'm gonna tickle the shit outta you." I can't help the smile that escapes my lips. I open my eyes to see Emily standing over me, hands at the ready to tickle me.
"I'm up, I'm up." I say sitting up.
"Damn." She says smiling and sits on the bed next to me.
I love over at my clock on the nightstand. "Why are you here so early?" I ask, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes.
"I couldn't sleep." She shrugs and lays down.
"So you decided to drive all the way to my house and bother me?" I ask, and get up from the bed. I can feel Emily's eyes boring a hole into my body. I only slept in my bra and panties. I hurriedly put on my robe.
"You love it." She says as I walk to the bathroom to freshen up.
"Not even." I yell back out to her. I hear her scoff as I shut the bathroom door.
"What are we doing today?" Emily asks as I come out of the bathroom.
"I don't know, can you give me a chance to wake up?" I ask going to my closet to pick out something to wear.
"Ew. Attitude check." Emily says and makes a face. We both laugh.
"Spencer called me last night and told me that she went to a party." I say grabbing and top and some shorts off hangers.
"And?" Emily asks, dragging out the word. "You don't sound pleased."
"I don't know." I say and shrug. "It was at this girl Frankie's house and I'm pretty sure she likes Spencer."
"Ah." Emily says and gets up, going to my closet.
"I'm probably just being stupid though." I say putting on my shorts.
"Give me that." Emily asks holding her hand out. I throw her my top and she throws me another one. "That one looks better on you." She says and smiles.
"Why does it matter?" I ask slipping the top on anyways.
"Cause we're going to a party."
"What, who's?" I ask confused. I didn't hear anything about a party at school.
"Mine." She says and I make a face. "What? It sounded like a great idea." She says and shrugs. "I'm gonna go call Katie so she can help. She loves planning parties. Can you be at my house by like five?" She asks and I nod and smile at my friend. "Okay." She says cheerily as we both leave and head downstairs. "Bye squirt!" She says to my brother who's in the living room playing the game.
"Aw man. I wanted to kick your butt in Call of Duty." He says.
"Gotta go plan a party." She tells him with a smile.
"Cool, can I come?" He asks and I decide to answer for Emily, cause knowing her she probably would have said yes.
"No." I say simply and he looks at Emily—I guess not believing me.
"Not this time buddy." She tells me and he rolls his eyes at me. "Bye Mr. and Mrs. Davies." She yells to my parents in the kitchen.
"Bye Emily." They yell back.
"Don't be late." She tells me before finally leaving. I walk in the kitchen where my mom is cooking breakfast and my dad is sitting at the breakfast table reading the Sunday paper.
"What's this party being talked about?" My dad asks me as I take a seat at the bar. I grab a piece of bacon from the tray stuffing it into my mouth, receiving a look from my mom. I shrug and smile as I chew the delicious meat.
"Emily's throwing a party." I tell my dad with my mouth full.
"Don't talk with your mouth full Ashley." My mother scolds me and my dad smiles.
"You know this is a school night so be home by eleven." He says and I nod.
"I will." I turn back to grab another piece of bacon but my mom had already moved the tray. Sneaky, sneaky woman.
"Ashley don't forget what I told you." My mom says as she flips the pancakes over on the griddle.
"Emily doesn't like me like that mom, we're just friends." I try to explain. I mean yeah, there's sexual tension there but duh! We're lesbians we always have sexual tension.
"I beg to differ." My father says behind me. Okay, he's never even here so how does he know.
"Really dad, it's nothing." I assure him.
"I've seen the way that girl looks at you Ashley. I'm not completely oblivious." He says and then chuckles to himself before going back to reading the newspaper.
Okaaaaay?...
"I just want you to be careful honey. I know how hard this distance is on you and Spencer and I don't want you making a mistake because of it."
Okay I am so not having this conversation with my parents.
"Nothing is going on with us." I say again, this time more firmly so maybe they'll get the picture.
"That's not true!" Ashton says running into the kitchen. "You guys totally love each other. I see it with my own eyes." He adds then runs off.
"Shut it, Ashton." I yell after him. Ugh, I hate my brother sometimes. My mom and dad both give me a look. "I'm gonna go upstairs, call me when breakfast is ready." I say, hoping off the stool and practically running up to my room.
I didn't want to have to endure another second of that conversation.
I mean really, it's only harmless flirting. It's not like I'm sleeping with her.
After breakfast I came back up to my room to call Spencer.
"Hey Ash." She answers the phone sweetly.
"Hey baby, what you up to?" I ask as I get more comfy on my bed. I had about two hours to kill before I headed over to Emily's. Not that I'm calling Spencer just to kill time or anything I'm just saying that...
Never mind.
Anyway.
"I'm just watching T.V with Madison." She tells me. "What are you doing baby?"
"I'm laying in bed, thinking about you." I say seductively, trying to hold back a laugh. I know how easy it is to make Spencer horny.
"Baaaaby." She whines and I can't hold back my laughter. "No fair." She adds. "You're an ass." She says.
"You love it." I counter.
"That I do." She says in the cutest voice. "So what are you really doing today?" She asks after a moment.
"I'm going to a party with Emily, Katie and her girlfriend."
"Girlfriend?" Spencer asks confused.
"Newly acquired." I tell her.
"Oh." Is all she says.
"Yeah." I say then the line goes silent. I don't know why lately I've felt like we haven't had much to say on the phone when we talk.
"Baby I'm gonna call you back." She tells me and I sigh inwardly.
"K, I love you."
"I love you too." She says then hangs up.
Sigh.
I guess I'll head to Emily's house early.
–
"No I don't want that hussy at my party!" Katie says as she goes through her phone to see who she's going to invite.
"You mean my party." Emily reminds Katie and gives her a look. "But you're right though, I don't want that whore here." She says going through her own phone.
"Right. She let's anyone fuck. Remember when we.." Katie caught herself and cringes when she realizes it's just not us in the room.
"When you what exactly, baby?" Jodi questions her girlfriend.
Jodi doesn't look mad though.
She looks more amused than anything.
Katie on the other hand looks like a deer caught in headlights.
"Um..." She glanced at Emily's direction but she was already laughing. "Uh nothing."
"That's what I thought." Jodi laughs. "Give me kisses."
Katie rolls her eyes and kisses her girlfriend. Then went back to her task of looking for people to invite.
Emily and Katie has been texting people for an hour now and I feel like I'm in the episode of the L Word when they had the lesbian phone tree.
Lucky for me I don't know anyone else here besides the people in this room.
"Aww aren't you guys cute." I say to the couple in front of me.
"I know right." Katie says trying to hide her blushing face when her girlfriend put her arm around her.
Seeing shit like that just makes me miss Spencer so much.
I sent her a text telling her just that.
I sighed when Spencer didn't text back right away.
Calm down Ashley, she's probably busy psycho.
"You want anything specific to drink tonight?" Emily asks me.
"No, I don't really drink so..."
"Jeez Ash. Your girl isn't here. Live a little." Katie says. "I won't tell and I know Emily most definitely won't tell." She continues as if she's insinuating something between me and Emily.
"Oh is that how you are when I'm not around?" Jodi again asks her girlfriend before I had a chance to respond to her. This time it seems like Jodi's actually serious even though she asks it in the same tone as before.
I saw Katie mouthing "Shit." to herself as she thinks of a way to answer her girlfriend.
"No, I would never baby." Katie says innocently, a little too innocently.
"Right, so why would you tell Ashley that?"
Again Katie looks at Emily for help but Emily was busy texting on her phone. When she looked at me I just sat back with a smug look on my face, my eyebrow up and everything—waiting for her to answer.
"I was just fucking with her." Katie says playing it off.
"Sure you were." Jodi says.
"OK, times up. The guest list is closed." Emily announces as she puts her phone down not noticing the weird tension in the room radiating from the couple in front of us. "What did I miss?" She directs the question at me.
I shrug and stand up. "Let's start setting up."
–
The party is in full swing.
Who knew they were acquainted with so many people...
I've meet a few new people that attend our school and other than that I've just been people watching.
And dancing with Emily here and there.
Right now she left me to go dance with some girl.
I grab another Red Bull from the cooler and sent a quick I love you text to my bitch cause I does that.
"Whoa Ashley slow down on the Red Bulls, you party animal." Emily says out of breath as she mixes herself another drink.
"Shut up. I'm perfectly fine with my drink."
"Yeah and cracked out." She shoots back.
I shrug and take another sip.
"You seen Katie around?" Emily asks me as she looks around the room.
"Not since I saw them practically fucking by the wall." I say like its the norm.
"Jealous? Cause you know I can totally..."
"Don't even finish that." I say with my hand up, downing some more of my Red Bull.
"Just saying." My friend says innocently as she pours us both a shot of Jameson.
Gag.
"I know you're not about to make me drink that." I say with a face as she slides the shot towards me.
"Yes." She says holding it up to me. "Now drink up."
I grab the shot from Emily and she clinks our glasses together before taking the shot like it was nothing.
Me, on the other hand held my breath as I shoot the shot jumping from foot to foot as the liquor burns my lips down to my throat.
"Oh you fucking bitch!" I yell at my friend after chasing the shot with my Red Bull.
Ugh, whiskey and red bull don't even taste right together.
I glare at my friend and poured myself some coke.
"I fucking hate you. You know that right?" I say at my friend who is busy laughing at my expense.
"As long as you love me... As long as you love me... As long as you love me..."
"Ah!" Emily sequels as she grabs my hand. "The Biebs!"
"We're under pressure, Seven billion people in the world trying to fit in. Keep it together, Smile on your face even though your heart is frowning. But hey now, you know, girl, We both know it's a cruel world. But I will take my chances. As long as you love me. We could be starving, we could be homeless, we could be broke. As long as you love me. I'll be your platinum, I'll be your silver, I'll be your gold. As long as you love, love, love, love me.."
We sing and dance jumping around like assholes.
But as usual things with me and Emily get... heated.
Our hands ended up on each others waists.
Emily pulls our bodies closer as her hand snaked under my shirt.
"I'll be your soldier, Fighting every second of the day for your dreams, girl I'll be your Hova You can be my Destiny's Child on the scene girl. So don't stress, don't cry, we don't need no wings to fly Just take my hand."
I hate to admit that it gave me the chills and when we make eye contact we both stop moving.
Emily kept eye contact with me as she brushes the hair out of my face—her hand travel down to my neck.
It's as if she was hypnotizing me because I can feel our faces moving towards each other.
Then common sense kicks in and I push her away lightly while shaking my head no.
I walk away from my friend and head outside to get some air to clear my head.
"Ash, I'm sorry.." Emily says running after me. "Shit. I didn't mean for that to happen."
I gave her a look that clearly says that I don't believe the shit coming out of her mouth.
"OK.. so maybe I did." My friend says with a nervous laugh. "Can you blame me though?"
"Em, you're my friend. You know I'm with Spencer and I would never do that to her you know that right? I would never cheat on her."
"Yeah, I know and I'm really sorry... Like seriously..." She says sounding frustrated
"Maybe we should just-"
"No." She cuts me off, shaking her head. I guess she already knew what I was gonna say.
"Em, this is too much." I shake my head and look down. I think I've been so oblivious to it before because I didn't want to see it. I didn't want to not be Emily's friend. I mean, her and Katie, they're the only friends I have here.
"I'm sorry Ashley." She moves closer to me and on reflex I move back. Just the thought of what could have happened just now, it makes me sick to my stomach. I would never do that to Spencer, especially after what Madison did to Jade.
"I just need some space." I tell her and start to back away towards my car.
"Ash, don't." She pleads with me, walking forward and I walk backwards.
"Just..." I pause as I reach my car. "I need time." I reiterate.
"Ashley, I swear I'll back off..." She pauses and sighs. "I'm sorry." She repeats but it doesn't change what almost happened. What I said would never happen.
Sorry doesn't change anything.
I shake my head but don't say anything as I get in my car and drive away.
I guess everyone was right about us...