You ever get that feeling that your relationship is hanging in the balance if something drastic doesn't happen?
Well, lately I've had that feeling. It's been an entire week since the almost kiss and I haven't had the courage to tell Spencer. I mean, nothing happened so is it really necessary to tell her?
You'll be happy to know that I've given myself rides to and from school all week. Not that Emily and I aren't friends anymore, we still talk at school but I've decided that the spending the night and picking me up for school was too much after what happened.
I guess it's my fault really. I knew there was sexual tension there and I let it build up instead of stopping it as soon as it started.
Can you blame me though? Emily's not only hot, but she's a really great friend and I didn't want to lose her. Like I said, her and Katie and I guess now Jodi are the only friends I have here.
You'll also be happy to know I've made time to call Spencer and actually have conversations with her. Not that weak crap we'd been having prior to this week.
"Please mom." I beg for like the hundredth time. I've begged all week for her to let me go see Spencer for Thanksgiving break.
"I still think that's too far for you to be traveling by yourself, Ashley." She tells me for the hundredth time.
"I'm sixteen mom!" I say getting up from the stool. "I wish you would start treating me like it." I stomp off up to my room. I know you may say, oh how bratty of her. But if Spencer was your girlfriend you'd understand.
It's hard enough that we don't talk as much as I'd like to. Now my mom won't even let me go see her. I'm gonna lose my mind if I have to sit here all week and miss her. Currently, I'm steering clear of my friends outside of school. I know that Katie didn't do anything but you invite Katie and you get an Emily/Katie combo. So I'm gonna be bored and alone for a whole week.
Kill me now.
I grab my phone off my nightstand and text Spencer.
'What are you doing baby?'
'Besides missing you...nothing.' See how cute she is. Ugh!
'I miss you more.' I tell her honestly.
'I asked my mom if I could come see you.' I read and my heart jumps. 'She said no.' I get a few seconds later. Oh.
'I guess I can't blame her after what you did last time.' I send with a smiley face.
'I did it for you and I'd do it again.' She texts back and I can't help but smile. Maybe I should...who am I kidding? My dad would send the entire army to drag me back.
'I'm sorry my parents won't let me go there.' I tell her with a sad face.
'I don't really blame them.' Is all she text back. I sigh and toss my phone on the bed beside me. ye
"Mom!" I yell as I get up and make my way downstairs.
"Why are you yelling Ashley?" My mom asks coming out of the kitchen.
"Because I'm angry." I tell her as I make my way down the stairs.
"Okay." Is all she says before turning around and going back in the kitchen.
What the... I tell her I'm angry and she goes back to doing what ever she was doing.
Ugh! Parents.
"Mom seriously." I say as I walk into the kitchen.
"Seriously what Ashley?" She asks, turning from washing dishes to look at me.
"I need to go see Spencer." I stress the word need to her.
"Mhm." Is all she says.
"Mom." I whine out.
"You're sixteen Ashley and you want me to allow you to go all the way on the other side of the country alone. Put yourself in my shoes, how would you feel about it?" She asks then turns back around to the dishes.
I roll my eyes. She's right of course, as always.
"Fine." I say and get up. "But when I'm depressed this entire week, don't blame me." I throw over my shoulder as I leave the kitchen.
"Oh don't be so dramatic Ashley." My mother calls after me. I stomp up to my room again and flop down on my bed.
This Sunday officially sucks.
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"Ashley, Ashley." Some one shakes me awake. I open my eyes to see my mom and dad standing over me. I turn and look at the clock on my nightstand 7:30pm. How in the hell could it still be Sunday?
"How can I help you my wonderful parents?" I ask with a smile sitting up on my elbows.
"Sarcasm doesn't help you get to Spencer, Ashley." My dad says.
"Sorry." I mumble and sit up completely. "Did something happen?"
"We've been talking..." My mom starts and looks at my dad. You've been talking and...? Don't you hate when people do that. Just say it already you know? This isn't a movie, no need to build the suspense. "...we're going to allow you to go to California on two conditions." She finishes but I stopped listening after allow.
"Oh my God, seriously!?" I ask jumping up from the bed.
"Yes." They both nod and smile.
"Oh my God, I love you guys so much!" I say and pull them both into a hug.
"You haven't heard the conditions Ashley." My mother says as we pull back from the hug.
"I don't care, whatever they are I'll do them as long as I get to see Spencer." I tell them and they smile.
"Okay." My dad says.
"You make sure you call us everyday and if you try to stay longer than next Sunday your father will send the army after you Ashley. We're not joking." My mother says firmly and I smile and nod. Happy to agree to the terms.
"Your plane leaves at eight thirty, so you might want to pack now." My dad says with a smile and I can't help but hug them both again. They leave out and immediately grab my phone off the bed. Shit. I have ten missed calls and eight texts.
Calls and text from both Katie and Emily asking me to hang out today. I shake my head and smile. I'll deal with those two when I get back. Right now all I care about is getting to Spencer.
'I love you.' I text to Spencer. Not even a second later she texts back.
'I love you more. Were you sleeping?' She asks.
'Mhm. I'm sorry, I see you called and texted baby' I text back.
'It's okay. I was just seeing what you were doing. I'm bored. Madison and I just went to the movies. And we're going over to Taylor's house to swim in a bit.' I read then put my phone down and go to my closet to grab my suitcase. I put it on the bed and text her back.
'That sounds fun baby. Her and Jade doing better?' I ask making small talk. Anything to keep me from blurting out that I'm going there. I'm bad at keeping secrets when I'm excited.
'They're getting there. Jade is at least talking to Madison again. They're not back together though.' I read as I throw things into my suitcase.
'That's good.' I text back. I need to make up an excuse to disappear for the next seven hours. 'Baby we're about to go to this thing on the base for my dad then I'll probably be pretty tired when we get back. Can we talk tomorrow?' I text her with a smile. I can't wait to surprise her. I know it's only three something there right now so I should get to her around nine tonight Pacific Time.
"Sure baby.' She texts back. And I'm about to text her I love her when my phone rings. It's Spencer calling. What the fuck? Okay, keep it together Ashley. Don't blurt it out.
Don't blurt it out!
"Baby we're about to-"
"I know." She cuts me off. "I just wanted to hear your voice and tell you that I loved you." She says sweetly and I can't help but smile.
"I love you more." I tell her and we say a goodbye before hanging up.
See how incredible cute my girlfriend is?
Jealous?
I know...
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I'm in L.A now and I can't tell you how happy I am. My dad dropped me off at the airport and gave me two hundred dollars for the week. Awesome isn't he? He told me that he'd already spoken to Ms. Carlin so she knows I'm coming. I just hope she didn't tell Spencer cause that would totally ruin the surprise.
I take a taxi from the airport to Spencer's house. Ms. Carlin tells me that Spencer is still over at Taylor's house so I put my things up in her room and Ms. Carlin let me borrow her car to drive over there.
I pull up and ring the door bell.
"Ashley!" Taylor answers the door, surprised.
"Shh!" I tell her putting a finger up to my lip with a smile. "I'm surprising Spencer." I tell her and she has a look of worry on her face instead of joy. It's like I pick the worst possible time to show up or something. "She's still here right?" I ask Taylor who's still just standing in the door staring at me.
"Oh yeah!" She snaps out of it and moves out-of-the-way. "She's out back." She points in the direction that I start walking.
When I reach the back door I immediately realize two things: The reason Taylor was caught so off guard and that Spencer... my Spencer was sitting on the edge of the pool with her feet in the water while Frankie was in the pool in between her legs with her arms resting on Spencer's legs; laughing and smiling. The same Frankie I can't fucking stand. The same Frankie who I told her last year asked to have a threesome with us and that when I told her no she kept trying to kiss me anyway.
That Frankie.
I wanna say something.
I wanna yell for Frankie to get her hands off my girlfriend.
But I can't talk.
Like my vocal chords literally won't work right now.
"Spencer." I hear Taylor say beside me. The look on Spencer's face when she saw me... Panic and surprise bottled up in one. She hurriedly got up from the edge of the pool and started walking towards me.
"Don't." I tell her when she reaches me and opens her mouth to speak. I guess I know how it feels now when she sees me with Emily. I take another look at Frankie who fucking smiles and waves at me before I shake my head at Spencer and run out of Taylor's house faster than I think I've ever moved in my life. I know Spencer is chasing after me but I don't dare stop. I get in Paula's car and drive back to the Carlin residence.
I just got here and I'm already ready to go home.
Hello lovely fans. :) I wanna get this story done within the next week because I have another one I wanna start working on before school starts back on October 9th. I already have the next two chapters written and I can have them up as early as tonight and tomorrow if that's something you guys want. Let me know.