"Wake the fuck up it's Christmas!" Ashton whispers loudly, jumping on my bed.
Hence I said whispered.
Yeah, he's knows better than to curse loud enough for my parents to hear.
He swears he's a G though.
Right.
This is my unimpressed face.
Real G's wouldn't be afraid of getting their ass beat for cursing in font of their parents.
I don't claim to be a real G. Not by a long shot.
Okay...moving on..
"Get out of my room, Ashton." I tell him trying to kick him off the bed.
"Ow." He shrieks when my foot makes contact with his legs and he hits the floor. "Moooooom." He screams.
What a pussy.
"I told you to stop jumping on my bed." I tell him, not even bothering to see if he was okay.
"I hate you." He says, not getting up from the floor.
"Mhm." I say unaffected by his words.
"What are you two doing?" My dad peeks his head in my room.
"Ashley kicked me off the bed." Ashton says finally getting up from the floor.
"Ashley-" My dad starts.
"He came in my room and was jumping on my bed dad." I say in my most innocent voice. "I asked him to stop nicely, but he wouldn't. So I politely kicked him off the bed." I tell my dad, complete with smile and head tilt.
"Ashton, leave your sister alone. She'll come down when she's ready." He tells my brother.
Ha!
That's the best thing about being my dad's only daughter.
I pretty much always get my way.
"But daaaaad." Ashton whines out.
"No buts, son." My dad says giving me a smile as he ruffles my brother's hair. "Come down when you're ready honey." He tells me and shuts my door.
I've never been a big fan of Christmas.
I guess it's because we've moved so much that I've never really had time to make friends and family hardly ever comes to visit.
Oh shit! My friends.
They don't know I'm leaving yet.
I've been meaning to tell them but I haven't had the chance.
I grab my phone off the nightstand.
"Merry Christmas." The sweetest voice I have ever heard, answers the phone.
"Merry Christmas baby." I tell my girlfriend as I stretch the length of my bed.
"Got lots of presents?" She asks and I can hear a bunch of ruckus in the background. All her friends and family are probably together.
"I don't know." I say getting out of bed. "I literally just got out of bed."
"Baaaaby. You're so lazy. It's Christmas. You were supposed to get up at some ridiculous hour and sneak downstairs to see what presents you have." She says in a cute voice causing me to giggle.
"Maybe when I was ten." I say through giggles.
"We'll I've been up since like five a.m. I've gotten lots of presents too." She says and I can hear the smile in her voice.
"Can you tell me all about them later baby? I probably should go make an appearance." I tell her.
"Boooo don't leave me." She whines.
"I promise to call you back later." I tell her and can't help but smile at her extreme cuteness.
"Okay. I love you." She says and I can hear Madison vaguely in the background yelling something.
"Tell Madison I said hi and I love you more Spence." I tell her and we hang up. I get freshened up then head downstairs to join my family.
"Hello my lovely family." I greet them as I walk into the living room.
"Morning sweetie." My mother greets me.
"Lame." Ashton says and goes back to playing his Xbox. I'm guessing he got new games.
"I'm really gonna miss you little bro." I tell him sarcastically and his head shoots to me.
"Where you going?" He asks raising a brow and I look at my parents who avoid my gaze.
Really?
They didn't tell him?
"Mom, dad?" I question and they look at me with sad eyes.
I guess this isn't really something they wanna talk about.
"We didn't..." My mom trails off and looks at my dad while Ashton just looks back and forth between us.
"We thought you should tell him." My dad answers for her as my mom gets up and leaves the living room.
Totally not how I wanted this day to start.
"What the heck is going on right now?" Ashton asks looking between me and my dad.
"Ashley?" My dad asks and I nod, knowing what he's asking. He gets up and leaves the living room.
"Ashton buddy..." I start, taking a seat on the couch.
"Why the hell is everyone being so weird?" He asks in a whisper.
"You know I love you." I tell him.
"Ash, gross." He shakes his head and smiles as he unpauses his game and starts back playing.
"Halo four?" I ask him and he nods excitedly.
"Mind if I..." I start but the look he gives me stops my sentence.
"What's really going on right now? You never wanna play the game with me? Are you dying or something?" He asks seriously.
"No." I shake my head and laugh at him.
Leave it to Ashton to think something like that.
"Then what's up?"
"I'm leaving, Ashton." I tell him and guage his reaction. He looks confused.
"Okay?" He drawls out.
"I'm moving...to California." I say and his eyes go wide.
Ashton and I aren't closest siblings in the world but I love him nonetheless and I know he feels the same about me.
He almost came to me about advice concerning a girl he was interested in but I guess he chickened out cause he only got through one sentence before saying never mind and bolting out my room.
"Forever?" He asks in a whisper.
"Until graduation and then I'll probably stay there for college." I nod.
"Oh." Is all he says before turning back to his game.
"Ash..." I call his name but he ignores me. "Talk to me." I tell him.
"For what?" He says, getting up and throwing his Xbox controller down. "It's not gonna change anything." He shrugs and starts to leave.
"Ashton." I call after him but he doesn't stop walking.
Ugh!
Not really how I pictured my day starting at all.
"He's gonna be fine." My dad comes back in the living room and says.
"I really thought you guys had told him already. I wouldn't have waited so long." I tell my dad as he sits down next to me.
"He's your brother and he loves you. It doesn't matter if you told him weeks ago, he still would be upset." My dad assures me. "I love you kiddo." He says and kisses my forehead.
"I love you too, dad." I say and hug him. "I'm gonna go talk to Em and Katie. I haven't really told them yet either." I tell them and he nods.
"Be back before dinner." He says.
"Of course." I say and get up. I glance in the kitchen and see my mother crying as she checks the turkey in the over.
Sigh.
I really didn't want to hurt my family this much. I just wanted to be with the girl I love.
–
I rang the bell at Emily's house and before I can even take my hand off the doorbell she opens the door.
"Oh thank God." She says pulling me into the house. "Going to my room!" Emily announces to everyone who can hear.
"Hi!" I quickly say to everyone while Emily drags me up stairs.
"Jesus! Did you see that ruckus down there?" Emily says throwing herself on her bed. "The holidays are so fucking exhausting." She continues to say, throwing an arm over her eyes.
"Um.. more questions about your non-existent boyfriend?" I made my way to her bed with presents in tow.
"As always." She says propping herself up on her elbows. "It's not like the don't know I'm gay. And who I choose to have between my fucking legs is none of their business."
"Sometimes I really see why you and Katie are friends." I say laughing.
"What about me?" Katie suddenly appears at the door with a plate of food. "Ho. Ho. Merry Christmas." She says looking at me and Emily before she shoves a fork full of food into her mouth.
"That's like your third plate. I'm gonna have to roll your ass outta here." Emily tells Katie.
"Does your family not feed you?" I ask watching her stuffing her face.
"We're not really into this kinda shit." She makes her way to Emily's desk. She puts her plate on the table and continues to eat. "Ugh your mom makes the best Platanos Maduros in life! And by the way your Tia asked me if she should set you up with this boy from church." She says laughing.
"And you said?"
"I told her sure why not." Katie says with a shrug. "Ahh!" She screams when a pillow connects with the back of her head making her drop her fork on the table.
"You're making a mess!"
I'm really gonna miss them.
"And fuck you think I said?" Katie asks rolling her eyes.
"Um why don't you just tell them you're gay." I tell Emily
"I did! And it was the gayest thing I ever did in my whole life. Anyways what you get me? What you get me?" She says bouncing up and down.
I guess that's the end of that conversation.
"Here." I hand her a bag.
"Oh my god! You did not just get me this!" She says laughing when she looks at the shirt I got her.
"What's it say?" Katie asks finally forgetting about her food. "And where's mine hoe?" She asks looking at me expectantly. "Enjoy vagina! Oh that's fucking great! Wear that shit downstairs." She says laughing.
I hand her a gift bag and she tares into it with so much enthusiasm.
"Don't be a pussy. Eat one!" She says reading the shirt. "Aww cute thanks. Em, give her our gift!"
Emily reaches under her bed and pulls out a similar gift bag.
Katie and Emily let out an evil laugh simultaneously which made me kinda...weary when she hands me the bag.
And why would it be under her bed?
"Oh I see you saw the same sale at Walmart as me." I say side eying the bag. I pulled out a nondescript box and I look up at both of them. They are both looking at me with so much excitement.
"Bitch just open it! It's not gonna bite!" Katie says already wearing the shirt I got her. When the fuck did she change?
I open the box and pull out a rubber ducky in bondage attire. "The fuck... Oh my God!" And threw it at Katie.
Katie catches it laughing. "What's with you bitches throwing things at me today? We know it must suck without your girl here so..." She says dragging the last word out and she throws the rubber ducky back at me. "Oooo Emily tell Ashley your big news." Katie say clapping her hands together excitedly.
"Big news?" I turn to Emily and ask with a raised brow.
"I met a girl."
"She met a girl!" Katie says loudly, barely letting Emily finish her sentence.
"Way to let me tell her, Kate." Emily says turning to our friend with a shy smile.
"A girl?" I question cause come on, let's face it. Us hoes are always together, when does Emily have time to go and meet girls. Emily turns back to me and nods shyly. Aw. "That's good Em." I nod and tell her.
"What's her name, where is she from, what's her social?" I fire off questions to my friend causing her to giggle.
"Is someone jealous?" Katie asks with a smirk.
"Shut up, Katie!" Emily screams and throws a pillow at our friend.
"Ahh!" Katie screams when the pillow hits her in the face. "Seriously?!"
"What's her name though?" I ask, turning my attention back to Emily.
"Riley." She tells me and blushes.
So cute.
"Does she go to our school?" I ask and she shakes her head.
"Prep." She answers.
"How'd you-"
"Church." She says cutting me off.
"Hallelujah!" Katie says raising her hands in the air.
Sometimes I just don't know about that girl.
"I'm happy for you Ems." I tell her truthfully.
I really am.
I guess I should tell them my news now.
I guess this is as good as time as any.
"Um, I also have news to tell you guys..." I start.
"What happen?" Emily stops smiling and asks looking very concerned.
"Umm.. I'm...I'm moving back."
"Shit about time! Pay up!" Katie says breaking the silence.
"What?" I ask them confused looking at both of them.
Emily rolls her eyes and hands Katie some money.
"Merry Christmas indeed." She says stuffing the money in her back pocket.
"Katie bet me that you wouldn't make it through the rest of the school year.." She says with a forced smile.
Sigh.
This is the part I hate about moving so much.
Saying goodbye.
"Oh." I say looking at Emily.
"So, did you tell Spencer yet? She must have gone crazy!" She says trying to change the vibe in the room.
"No, I haven't told her yet."
"She's gonna pee on herself when she finds out." Katie says getting up. "We're gonna fucking miss you I know that's for sure." She sits next to me giving me a one arm hug.
"Yeah we motherfucking are." Emily says hugging me from my other side. "You should be with your girl though. It's depressing seeing you sad as fuck everyday."
"Oh god yes! Deeeeepressing. Ain't nobody got time for that." Katie says agreeing with Emily.
"I fucking hate you guys." I say laughing. " But I am gonna miss you hoes too. You bitches made being here bearable."
"So since you're leaving and all how about we have a three some." Katie says turning the rubber ducky on.
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"Mom, dad I'm home." I yell out as I enter the house.
"Kitchen honey." My mom answers.
"Where's Ashton?" I ask when I enter the kitchen and see only my mom and dad. My dad points upstairs.
I guess this is really hitting Ashton hard.
"He's been in there all day, Ashley. He's not taking you leaving so well." My mother says and her voice cracks. I know this is hard on her too.
"Go talk to your brother." My dad tells me. I nod and take off upstairs.
"Ashton." I knock and open his door. He's laying on his bed looking at the ceiling. "Ashton." I say his name again as I take a seat next to him on his bed. He turns to his side so he's facing away from me. "I'm sorry that you're just now hearing about this Ashton. I thought mom and dad had told you already." He moves further away from me and I let out a sigh. "Ashton could you just look at me?" I ask him but he doesn't move. "Asht-"
"You're being selfish." He says suddenly, cutting me off.
"I don't-"
"Mom and dad." He says turning around to face me. His eyes are puffy red. I seriously didn't think this would affect him this much. I thought he would be happy actually. He would be getting the bigger room, no big sister to jump down his throat all the time. "You didn't think how this would affect them...me... it's selfish." He tells me.
"I'm not trying to be selfish, Ashton. I love Spencer more than words could ever express." I pause and stare intently at my little brother. I've honestly never seen him like this.
"And I get that, but what about your family?"
"Spencer is also my family, Ash. I love her and I can't take being away from her this much. I don't mean to seem selfish. It's...It huts so much to not be around her." I tell him and I can feel the tears building in my eyes. I'm surprised when Ashton reaches up and wipes them away.
I love my little brother.
"I get it." He nods. "I guess I just couldn't picture my big sister not being here. Or I didn't want to." He shrugs.
"I promise to come back and visit...as often as I can." I tell him.
A small smile escapes his lips. "I know."
"I love you little brother." I say and ruffle his hair.
"Asssshleeeeeey." He whines out, fixing his hair back. He has the Justin Bieber hair going for him.
The old Justin Bieber.
The sweet one.
You know what I'm talking about.
Pre- Selena Gomez.
Not that there's anything remotely wrong with Selena Gomez cause I mean...my goodness.
It just seems like since he gotten a little pussy he's turned into a douche.
Ew douche.
Okay I'm done.
"Come on let's go eat." I say getting up from the bed.
"Ash." He calls to me as I'm exiting his room.
"Yeah?" I ask, turning around to face him.
He gives me a thoughtful look before saying, "I love you too."