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Chapter 19

Heartbreak

She knew it had been a bold, foolish move but how could she resist? He was looking at her with those eyes she loved so much. The more she watched him the more she wanted him. She had fought the inexplicable urge to lick and suck the thumb that had caressed her lips, taunting her. And when she saw his lips move and heard his voice deep and strangely erotic everything snapped. She lunged and followed the impulse to devour him with passion, right there and then.

She had her eyes closed tightly and tried to enjoy the few seconds with his lovely lips before he pushed her away and ignored her for the rest of her human life.

Surprised, unmoving and completely stunned by such ardor he could only stand there and gather his thoughts. He watched with half lidded eyes her closed ones, her expression of pure bliss. He never has felt such fire burning in his veins even when with the other many females he had sated his desires. He noted her pressure lessened as she slowed the rhythm and her desperate sucking and nipping turned shy and uncertain. He felt so torn.

He wanted to show her what she made him feel.

He wanted to feel it more.

But, by the kami, what if it ended up another disgrace?

We won't find out if we never try. Taste her! Have her! She's ours, other self!

Just when she was pulling away with heavy sadness and disappointment he growled deep in his throat and took her lips back. She gasped in surprise but quickly moaned and gladly parted her lips for his probing tongue with a little squeal and a blush.

Oh, it felt amazing!

Much better than her subconscious dreams, she concluded. Sesshomaru placed a hand on her neck and the other on her hip pressing her tightly against him and she moaned louder in his mouth at the feeling of his equally soaked body. She shyly raised her hands and dug them in the drenched haori to caress his muscled chest.

She felt something hard hit her back making her groan. The rough texture scratched deeply in her skin and she knew it was a tree. She forgot about the pain and nearly lost every ounce of reason when she swallowed a low moan of his.

It was getting harder to breathe and she made him know it by scraping her blunt nails across his chest and moaning louder, nipping his bottom lip. He released her lips and though it was what she asked she couldn't fight the needy whine. He gave her a devilish smirk and she bit her lip as his mouth trailed down to her neck and lavished it with hungry kisses, nips and licks. He gripped a smooth thigh peeking out from her slightly parted kimono and wrapped it around his waist. He relished in the sounds of her mewls and whimpers and couldn't help but thrust his hips against hers in a slow pace.

With a moan that almost came as a scream she arched her neck not knowing how much the gesture pleased the alpha dog holding her in his arms. He purred contented and nuzzled her neck.

-Rrrrin…

He muttered, sighing.

She frowned. The way he said her name was so familiar. She hummed in absolute happiness and hid her face in his neck. She breathed in his wonderful scent coated now with the rain. She inwardly giggled.

She was going to get a cold.

She moaned loudly as his clothed hardness rubbed against her clit.

This was definitely worth it.

Her blush intensified. She never thought the things she was doing with her lord were possible. She always thought he would never 'lower' himself to it. She nuzzled deeper into his neck seeking some comfort.

Oh please let this be real…

She whimpered as he raised his other hand and lifted her chin to kiss her lips once again.

Then she heard a loud gasp and as she opened her eyes and looked confused at Kohaku's heartbroken expression and teary eyes she knew then…

…that this was real.

He hummed a random tune as he strolled in the garden. His demon slayer's outfit and well…himself was completely soaked by the rain but he wasn't the least fazed by it. His thoughts kept drifting towards Rin and what made her so upset lately. If she would only tell him he was sure that he could help her somehow.

Even if it was for some comfort, damn it!

He sighed. The mystery that was women would forever remain unrevealed for him.

His eyebrow arched as he heard feminine moans and demonic growls. Frowning, he followed the noises and was surprised to see Lord Sesshomaru practically…ahem…humping some female. He couldn't see who it was for her face was hidden in his neck but his breath hitched in his throat for some reason.

And then…

The lord raised her chin and his heart sunk to see his love's big brown eyes close in pleasure as she kissed her own guardian. He couldn't help the loud gasp that escaped him nor his trembling lip.

H-how could she?

He saw her eyes opening to look directly at his and the rage bubbled deep as he took the gesture as a taunting. That she could never be his. That it was preposterous to even imagine such a thing. That he was the fool.

Lord Sesshomaru finally noted his presence and slowly as if painfully leaned away from her and arched an eyebrow at him.

Arrogant bastard!

Rin blinked at Kohaku in confusion.

His voice sounded dry and couldn't even transmit the hurt he was feeling as his heart was stabbed mercilessly.

-How could you?

She whimpered, her confusion increasing and feeling miserable at the despair in her dear friend's eyes.

-Kohaku-kun?

His fists tightened and he couldn't take it anymore. He yelled.

-How could you? I love you, you demon whore!

Rin gasped and covered her mouth with her hands as tears welled up in her eyes. Sesshomaru growled warningly at Kohaku's stupid insult.

Kohaku looked at the strange pair and felt even more betrayed. Sesshomaru didn't deserve her! He abandoned her for TEN years! He was never there for her! And now he just takes her away from the only person that cared! The tears rolled down his face and he wiped them with his arm, frustrated. He couldn't avoid his loud sob that made Rin's tears break free from her eyes too. He then said with his voice strained and broken.

-I wish you fucking happiness!

He turned around and ran towards the forest. He couldn't bear to enter that castle so soon.

She remained in the same position. Still sobbing and mumbling incoherent things.

Urgh…

They weren't even together and already things weren't going well. Emotions were frustrating and complicated.

Sesshomaru sighed and tried to think of anything to stop her crying. He spoke softly not to scare her.

-Rin?

She looked at him but her tears didn't cease. He sighed again and reluctantly, awkwardly opened his arms.

-Come here.

She all but fell in his arms, clutching fiercely his haori. Her sobs got louder and her mumbles turned erratic, panicked. He remembered his mother used to brush his hair when he was upset or scared as a little pup and he thought that maybe humans liked it too. So he slowly raised his hand and passed it in her wet hair. She quieted down and nuzzled his chest. He sighed in relief.

-Oh, Rin…cease your crying, little one.

She nodded frantically and tried her best to oblige his bidding. He brushed her hair once again.

-We should get inside.

She nodded again and pulled away from him. He wiped the tears from her puffed, red eyes and placing gently a hand on the small of her back, led her inside the castle towards her bedroom.

-Understand what I'm saying, Takeru?

The general gulped. Oh, he understood it alright. Still, it looked like a suicide mission.

-Are you sure this is going to work?

His lord grinned showing once again all his fang like teeth that made him shudder.

-Believe me, it's fail proof.

Taker sighed and tried to sink it all in. So with the help of a spy he would infiltrate the castle, keep Sesshomaru busy for a few minutes and wait for the back up to help him escape as soon as that blasted Naomi and human ward were captured by the other secret units. Then he would retake his position on the army that would be invading the western castle and poof!

His lord would kill the dog demon and his vassals by blackmail, have his prized whore and the western lands at his disposal.

And he would have a big, fat bonus.

It all looked very nice but he didn't know if he would be able to distract Sesshomaru for that much time. He was much more powerful than him after all.

Takeru sighed in defeat and his lord's grin widened if that was possible.

-Whatever you wish, my lord.

He was going to die.

-KOHAKU?

Sango yelled at the top of her lungs, worried. She couldn't find her little brother anywhere. She had asked everyone if they had seen him and much to her displeasure Sesshomaru too and the demon lord between annoyed grunts and a low growl said that he fled towards the forest.

Whatever made his little brother flee she didn't know but Sesshomaru didn't bother to tell her either.

So now she found herself yelling for him in the middle of the forest.

She was starting to get really worried. She didn't know what dangers lurked in this forest and it was getting late.

She stopped dead in his tracks when she heard whimpers and sobs and followed them. She gasped as she saw her little brother sitting in a fallen trunk, his hands covering his face and sobbing.

She looked at him finally understanding.

That damn Sesshomaru and that silly girl!

She knelt in front of him and tried to comfort him the best she could.

He looked up and sniffled.

-S-Sango?

She hugged him tightly.

-Shh. I'm right here, my brother.

He returned the hug and sobbed.

-I l-lost her, sis.

Sango sighed and raised his head between her hands.

-It was her choice. It's her loss.

His hands tightened its grip in her sister's back.

-That's the p-problem! S-she's too innocent! He's a freaking m-monster and she's the only one t-that doesn't see it!

Sango only shushed him and buried his face in the crook of her neck, letting him cry and scream all his heartbreak and frustration.

And with all the 'it's not fair!' and 'she was mine!' she let her own tears fall, joining silently in his little brother's pain.

Author's Note: *sniff* There! It is done! Freaking Kohaku! *being a major drama queen right now*