Cammie's P.O.V

I've started going back to school. Attempting to get through my classes without sobbing because everything reminds me of Him. Everyone is giving me so much sympathy, 'I'm so sorry' 'he was a great guy' or 'you two were just so perfect together! I can't believe he's gone...'. But what kind of spy does it make me if I can't even get over my boyfriend who has been dead for over a month? This is exactly why they tell us not to get attached to people. We lose them and it's like the whole world falls apart.

But I am kind of getting better, I guess. One time I went five minutes without thinking about him, a new record. Everyone is telling me to 'move on' but I just...I don't want to. I don't want to love another, ever. I don't want this to happen again. I just...I can't. I can't attempt to be with someone else when I'm still in love with Zach. It just wouldn't be fair to that other person.

"Hey Cam, so uh, we're going into town today and we were wondering if you wanted to come?" Macey asks, standing in the doorway of our room with a concerned look. "Yeah, sure," I say, standing up to get my shoes. "Are you wearing Zach's hoodie again?" Macey asks softly, walking to me carefully. I look down, wrapping my arms around myself. The soft fabric of Zach's old hoodie gives me a comforting feeling.

"Sweetie," Macey says now wrapping her arms around me. "You can't do this to yourself, Cammie! You're just hurting yourself even more, Zach wouldn't want that," she says. "We don't know what he would want," I say into Macey's shoulder, "because he's dead." Macey stays silent.

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Zach's P.O.V

I walk alongside Cammie, saying things to her every once and a while, annoyed when she never hears me. How can she not see me? I'm right here! I've always been right here, and I always will be. I don't know why I'm still here, maybe this is what happens when you die? You just continue to walk the earth all alone? But what about heaven? Or hell?

I watch from the side as Cammie and Macey go through clothes at some store Macey loves. "What do you think about this?" Cammie asks, holding up a black lace long-sleeve T shirt. It would look amazing on her. Macey smiles, "I love it!" The girls look around a little while longer before deciding to go meet up with Liz and Bex, who are probably with Grant, Jonas and Eric. Usually I'd be with them, watching some sports game from a diner. Or looking at hats and jerseys in that one sport store Grant loves. And then we'd meet up with the girls for lunch before walking back to Gallagher.

I suddenly feel really sad that I can't do that anymore, can't sit around Gallagher with Cam, her hair in a messy bun and some random sweats, while we do our homework. Well, it's more like she does her homework and I stare at her in amazement, amazed that she was mine. Why did I have to die? I wasn't ready! I still had so much to live for, so why did I have to die? I look up and realize that Cammie and Macey left the store, dammit, where did they go?

I hurry to walk out to them, they've meet up with the boys and Bex and Liz and they're now walking towards Bo's Diner. When we walk in they're all tempted to walk back to the booth in the back right corner, but they all decide not to. That's where we always sat, the back right corner. They walk over to an empty booth and sit down.

They make random small talk before ordering. I can't help but smile when they all order the same thing they always do. Guess we've all got favorites from here. Things were going perfectly fine until Dillion, Josh and Dee Dee walk in. "Just get up and leave!" I urge Cammie, but she stays exactly where she is, trying to pretend they're not even there. Dillion realizes they're here and smiles a bright, evil smile.

"Look what we've got over here! The rich kids!" he calls. He walks over to us and I want to get up and push him away, tell him not to bug them. But of course I can't do anything. "Hey, isn't someone missing from here?" Dillion says, still smiling. "Dillion, stop," Grant says. Dillion shakes his head and continues talking, "Hey Gallagher Girl," he says to Cammie.

I watch Cammie flinch at the nickname. I want to do something! Anything to make him stop hurting my friends, but nothing works! "Wasn't the dead boy you're boyfriend? Yeah, he was, right?" Dillion goes on. "Shut up Dillion," Eric says this time. Again Eric ignores him and goes on to continue to talk to Cammie.

"That must suck. What is it like to have the boy you loved die? How does it feel to know you'll never see him again? Guess there is only so much money can do," Dillion goes on. Cammie looks in the verge of tears now and I just want to wrap my arms around her. "But I guess I get it. I mean, if you were my girlfriend, I'd want to die too," Dillion says. That pushes Cammie too far an she jumps from her seat, pushing Dillion back and running through the door.

"Cammie!" Liz and Bex yell running after her, but she's too far ahead and going too fast. Eric jumps up as well, walking towards Dillion instead of going after Cammie. "What the fuck is your problem? Huh? What in the world would make you think it was okay to do that? Someone she loved is dead, died very recently, and you're mocking her about it! Are you kidding me!" Eric yells at Dillion, pushing him back with every word. Dillion goes to say something, but Eric doesn't give him the chance. Eric punches Dillion, something that shocked the whole diner.

A waitress jumps up and runs between them, putting herself between them. "Whoa!" she yells. She must have seen the whole thing, like everyone else in the diner, because instead of throwing Eric out like she would have normally, she turned to Dillion. "I'm going to have to ask you to leave," she says. Dillion gapes at her, "He hit me and you're asking me to leave? Are you serious?" The waitress speaks to Dillion in a calm but angry voice, its rather scary, "He had all rights to hit you, after what you said to his friend. God you're a sick human being. You make me sick and I want you out of my sight."

Dillion sighs, glaring at Eric and the waitress before he turns to go. "Please tell Cammie I'm sorry," Dee Dee says softly to Eric before pulling Josh outside with Dillion, Dillion was sure to get yelled at again by her. Eric sighs before turning back to our friends. I headed back to Cammie's moms apartment then. Bex and Liz had figured that she went to Gallagher, but I know she didn't. When I reach it, I concentrate really hard on making myself just a presence so I can walk through the walls.

I find Cammie sitting in her room crying. "Stupid Zach! You don't have to go through this," Cammie sobs. "You don't have to miss me every day! You don't have to see constant reminders of me! You don't have to miss my hugs or the way we used to say goodnight!" Cammie yells, now angry. "That's not true," I whisper. Cammie screams, a loud scream. Full of tears and anger from everything she's had to go through. "Why did you leave me?" Cammie sobs. She slides down to the floor, pulling her legs up to her chest and resting her head on her knees.

"It's not like I chose to leave you!" I yell back suddenly. "It's not like this was what I wanted!" my voice gets louder and louder as I yell. "And I do miss you, all the time! I miss you even through I'm right here! I'm right here!" I yell. Cammie looks up, her eyes wide and surprised, "Zach?" she asks softly. My eyes widen as well, can she really here me?

I focus on making myself viewable to her, maybe if I focus on making myself solid she'll see me. "Oh my God! Why am I haunted with you?" Cammie cries. "You can see me! I'm right here!" I yell. Cammie shakes her head, "This is impossible!" she cries, "You're dead!" another sob escapes her lips, her body trembling.