Minawa: I'm so late with this, sorrysorrysorry!
Mika: Yeah...you are. Never mind, please enjoy.
I sighed and looked up into the high ceiling. Sitting like this and just staring was calming but it wouldn't help me in any way. I raised my head and looked at the woman who'd just pronounced herself to be my mother.
She really did look like me; curly hair and blue eyes. She reminded me unconsciously of myself in a strange way. I sighed and sat up properly.
"So you are one of the members of the Fate Council?" I said. Alina nodded.
"You are in control of the weather and natural disasters?" I confirmed. Alina nodded.
"And you're my mother?" I asked as I sweat dropped.
"Yup!" she said in a cheerful voice.
I was quiet for a while.
"Argh! I don't get any of this!" I yelled as I scratched my head.
Alec and Alina just smiled at each other as I calmed down. I looked back at Alina.
"So, If you are like you say my mother then who is my father?" I asked. Alina nodded.
"His name is Shanks Souhrada, captain of the Red-haired pirates." She said and if I'm not completely wrong I could tell a small pride in her words. I smiled a bit.
"Did you love him?" I asked her. She looked a bit surprised at the question but quickly smiled a warm smile.
"Still do." She said. I nodded and thought for a while.
"What does he look like?" I asked. Both Alec and Alina looked thoughtful for a moment.
"Well, we don't really have any pictures…" Alec said. Alina nodded.
"But he's easy to recognize." Alina said holding up one finger "he's got red hair and three scars covering his left eye. He also lost his left arm." She said. I thought about it and finally put the pieces together. The CP9's words, the ragdoll… it all was about that pirate.
I looked up.
"My mom, back home… she knew, didn't she?" I asked in a serious voice. Alina nodded.
"I left you in another world because it was dangerous here. I left a letter and a photo I asked her to show you when you'd be older. But I guess you haven't seen it." She said in a slightly sad voice.
Mom knew. She understood who I was and why I never felt like I belonged. And yet she never told me!
Alina laid her hand on my shoulder trying to sooth me.
"Don't blame her, Mika. She probably loved you too dearly to tell you the truth. You see, a mothers greatest fear is that their child will leave home and grow up." She said as she smiled a smile only a mother could give. A smile my mom had shown me many times.
I nodded but suddenly felt weird.
The pain I'd forgotten was slowly coming back and the room started to spin slightly. I closed my eyes and grabbed my head. Alina grabbed my shoulders.
"Mika, you have to go back now. You need to save your friends and yourself." She said in a serious voice. I looked at her.
"Will I see you again?" I asked. She just nodded.
"I will watch over you and help you if I can. But you have to fight with your own strength, Mika." She said as the pain came too fast. I smiled a weak smile.
"I'm weak… I couldn't do anything." I said.
"Look into yourself Mika. Find your own strength." She said before I once again lost consciousness and got lost in darkness and pain.
I opened my eyes, this time not as comfortable. I took a breath but stopped as the pain came. I felt the tears burn behind my eyes as I smiled. This was just great, huh… I'd just stop breathing then? `Stupid ribs´ I thought as I heard voices close.
As I looked around I found myself lying on one of the seats inside one of the train cars. The sight of the white hall was long gone.
Had it been a dream? A small hope of finding out the truth?
No. It made to much sense to be a lie or my imagination. It had felt too real to not be.
Once again I heard the voices and without knowing what they said I could tell whom they belonged to. Robin and Franky was in the same car. That means we failed I realized.
I didn't really know how to react to that thought. Sadness? Guilt?
I could only feel anger towards the matter. Towards the CP9 and the marines, towards my crewmates and Robin but mostly towards myself. Towards my own weakness.
What strength? What did my heart know about it, how was I supposed to find it inside myself? It didn't make any sense to me!
With tears running down my face and the pain in my ribcage I screamed.
I screamed as hard as I could putting all my emotions into it, letting them loose. I screamed until my voice broke and my lungs had no air left. I screamed at my weakness and then stopped. I stopped screaming and laughed instead. I laughed at my behavior and myself. At my own madness.
I laughed until I passed out from pain.
Minawa: ... oh my.
Mika: That's all you can say? You drove me mad!
Minawa: ...until next time *bows*