"Ka…gome," Inuyasha whispered trying to think of how to start off. But then as he pondered it further it would all probably sound the same and just as bad no matter how he put it in words.

"Look Kagome I have to be honest. "

She paused for a moment her head looking down, not able to look him in the face.

"That night…I'm not saying I regret it but…you weren't the one I was originally planning to…originally planning to…Damn it Kagome I was waiting for Kikyo last night! I wanted to and I still want to be with her!"

Her eyes grew wide . She couldn't believe what she was hearing from him. After all that occurred he still wanted to be with Kikyo over her.

"I'm sorry. I never meant to do what we did it's just something came over me. That's why I didn't mark you , I truly want to claim Kikyo…..again I'm sorry."

He lowered his head down as well, he was ashamed that he didn't correct her that night. He was ashamed that he didn't speak out and tell her that she wasn't the one. He was saddened by the fact that he let her go on thinking that she was what he wanted.

"Goodbye Inuyasha ." She slightly mumbled.

He knew she would say that. She knew it was over, and she knew he knew what she was going to say before the words even escaped her lips.

"Kagome?"

"No, I have to go. And I have to go NOW!"

She didn't look back at him, she couldn't. Instead she just turned around and jumped down the bone eaters well with a broken heart and hastily.

"Kagome wait!" Inuyasha shouted as he ran toward the well and looked down it ,but he seen no trace of her."

Maybe its better this way he thought. Maybe this is how it should end.

Kikyo awoke to find herself looking directly into the eyes of the young woman demon slayer Songo.

"Good, you're awake." She said as she stood up and walked over toward the entrance of the hut.

"Inuyasha will be pleased." Was the last thing she said before leaving.

Kikyo hardly had time to yell after her thank you. She noticed that the demon slayer had tended to her wounds with great care ..At least the ones you could see.

She wondered if songo had token off her lower garments and seen her blood stained thighs and guessed what had happened to her. Out of fear she removed what covered her and looked down thankful and relived that Songo only treated her upper half of her body.

She was just about to lay back and get comfortable when Inuyasha walked in and graced her with his presence.

"Inuyasha."

"Yea," he asked as he sat down beside her.

"Why did you bring me here."

He thought for a moment, "Because.. You needed help."

Their eyes meet and she understood without him saying anything, he cared for her. She knew that now in some part of Inuyasha he still loved her. Loved her enough to help her even if it meant hurting Kagome.

"So tell me, " He began. "What happened and why do I smell the scent of Sesshomaru all of you?"

Yes it was true Inuyasha hadn't noticed it then when he found her, but now…..now he could. The smell of him was intoxicating he was wondering how him and Kikyo crossed paths, and how the fight initiated .

I know he can smell that Demon on me. Maybe I should tell him the truth. The truth about how Sesshomaru forced me to…..no, I won't, I can't.

"Me and Sesshomaru we got in a fight." Was all she said in return.

"I'll kill him," Inuyasha growled lowly. "How dare he attack you!"

"Don't worry, I'm fine. It was stupid, and was entirely my fault I thought I was strong enough to challenge him." She lied

"Why Kikyo, why would you do something so stupid?"

"Please Inuyasha, I wish not to talk on the matter any longer. "

He thought for a moment. He desperately wanted to know what happened but, sensing her uneasiness, he decided it best he let the matter go. For now.

So instead of continuing on he just leaned down and kissed her lips softly, showing every sign of compassion, and love for her.

True she felt bad for lying to him, but she thought somehow maybe it was all better this way. She didn't want to hurt Inuyasha anymore then she already had. She could live with knowing what Sesshomaru did to her, if her keeping it to herself would protect Inuyasha from confronting him.

"Hey, listen up I want you to stay with me tonight."

"What," She asked confused. "What about Kagome? "

"Don't worry, she went home."

Kikyo didn't fully understand the situation. She figured that Kagome just went home for a while until Inuyasha came for her after she left the group. Little did she know that Inuyasha meant she left for good.

"So will you stay with me for one night, just so I can make sure you're ok?"

Kikyo smiled softly relishing in the fact that Inuyasha actually wanted her to stay. She knew it was wrong for her to stay since she thought he had chosen Kagome over her but, she also couldn't help but be selfish. At least for just one night.

Sango, Miroku, Shippo, Inuyasha, and Kikyo, left the village for the night. Miroku had found a wealthy lord just a village away that was in need of some help to rid a demon. And of course the monk graciously accepted in exchange for room and board for the evening.

And even though they were upset about Kagome not being with them they didn't dare speak a word of it to Inuyasha. They figured just what kikyo had thought. Kagome left until Kikyo was gone, then Inuyasha would go retrieve her and things would be back to normal. Just goes to show how little they knew about what had happened.

"Miroku, " Songo spoke to him softly so the others wouldn't hear. "How long do you think she will be staying with us?"

"Hmmm," Miroku silently observed the situation and whispered back, "Well, I suspect not to long considering how strange she is acting."

"Strange,…what do you mean?"

"You can't see it? She is acting very distant from Inuyasha."

"I suppose you are right."

They both cast glances over at the odd couple and noticed that they weren't really speaking. Both wondered silently if it was because of Kikyo's resent defeat by Sesshomaru, or if they didn't want to speak to one another in their presence.

Since Kikyo had obtained her own room in the mansion separate from the group due to the fact she was a priestess she drew herself up a baht. She had been waiting for this moment to be alone so she could scrub of any trace her body carried of Sesshomaru.

She slowly undressed taking care to not to disturb any bruises on her body. She stared at herself once naked, and could see every scratch and mark he had left on her. And the dried up blood on her creamy thighs that was once her purity.

She almost cried then, but being the strong woman she was, she held it in. She refused to shed anymore tears over what had happened to her. She would place that memory along with other ones she had wished to forget. Such as the day she had pinned her beloved Inuyasha to the sacred tree. She would just banish it from her mind, until it was slowly forgotten by time.

She placed one foot in the tub and then the other, the water was warm against her delicate skin. It took her a moment to get used to it so she continued to stand for a bit longer. She was so fixated on how comfortable she was getting that she never noticed Inuyasha peaking in at her from behind a sliding door.

What is that…blood he thought to himself.

Then it registered, Sesshomaru didn't just attack Kikyo, he raped her. The blood in between her smooth porcelain limbs was where he had broken through her Innocents.

No, Inuyasha told himself. No, Sesshomaru wouldn't stoop so low as to lower himself to touch a human. That has to be from something else. Whatever it is, Ill figure it out tonight.

And with that finale thought he left her to cleanse herself in peace.

Miroku sat outside on the mansions porch Inuyasha sat down beside him , both of them looking out into the wilderness that surrounding them.

"Miroku?"

"Yes Inuyasha?"

"I saw blood on Kikyo."

Miroku looked at him slightly confused . "Well she did battle against Sesshomaru I suspect she would be covered in a little blood."

"No, that's not it."

Inuyasha lowered his gaze to the floor.

Miroku didn't really know what Inuyasha was talking about at first, but after some time had passed between them, and he noticed Inuyasha's disheartened expression he soon realized what he meant.

"Oh, you mean Sesshomaru had sex with her!"

Inuyasha nodded his head in response. "Yes I think so. But I'm not for certain, I could be wrong. I can't just come out and ask her…can I?"

"Huh, what of course not. Not unless she gives you reason herself to."

"What do you mean."

"Well, there is only one way to tell for sure if she has been defiled in any way by someone else?"

"Yea, how's that?"

Miroku grinned deviously.

Inuyasha knew exactly what he was hinting at. "You're really something you know that monk?"

"I'm not sure I know what you mean. You said you wanted to find out didn't you without having to ask her?"

"Yes but…"

"Well trust me Inuyasha if you do what I am suggesting you either will see she is still intact for yourself or she isn't. It's very simple."

"You're a perv you know that? And besides, if Sesshomaru did …then she might not want even me to touch her."

"Nonsense," Miroku said, as he placed his hand apun Inuyasha's shoulder. "She loves you so it's different."

Inuyasha huffed and stood up. Not wanting anymore advice from his lecherous friend. But then again he couldn't help but think maybe Mirokus way was the only way. For he feared Kikyo would never tell him the truth. Even if he did ask, why would she when he had no proof that it even ever happened.

That night after Kikyo had finished bathing and was ready to retire for the night, she noticed she was no longer alone Inuyasha was in the room. She could sense him.

"Inuyasha, what are you doing in here?"

"Kikyo," he spoke her name as he stepped out of the shadows and into the candle light of the room. "KIkyo, I wanted to…I wanted to lay beside you and watch over you. If that's ok."

He blushed a little a bit embarrassed that he asked to lay beside her.

She in return just simply nodded and before she knew it she was laying down with Inuyashas arms wrapped protectively around her.

She loved that feeling .

Inuyasha knew better then to just blurt out and ask her if she was raped. He figured he would find out his own way. The Miroku way.

He turned her on her back , at first she was shocked by his initial gesture. But she didn't say anything. He stared into her eyes. Love and desire mixed in to those beautiful golden orbs of his. She knew what he wanted without him having to say anything. And even though she was still in pain from Sesshomaru's harsh entrance into her, she figured that maybe she could pretend Inuyasha was her first tonight. Even though she was still a little upset that he made love to Kagome, she couldn't help but want to surrender to him. She felt like she owed him that for helping her.

She noticed he didn't rush, but he also wasn't speaking. He slowly opened her top to reveal her round perfectly shaped breast and caressed them gently. Hi molded them into his hand causing a small moan to escape from her.

This was nothing like how it felt when Seshomaru had touched her. He was rough and callous. Inuyasha was kind and passionate. His touch made her shiver, and her body grow weak.

Inuyasha could tell she had been wanting him for long time. He was already starting to smell her arousal. He wanted to just rip off her clothes and enter her immediately and find the answer to his question, but Kikyo deserved so much more than that.

He moved his head down slowly licking at her nipples and sucking them to small pink peaks. He loved hearing her moan and pant heavily. It drove him wild.

It was in that moment he wanted to know that instant could she still be his.

To her surprise Inuyasha quickly finished undressing her, and himself, and without warning or further lavished attention he slid himself into her. Stopping as soon as he noticed that there was nothing there to stop him from venturing further.

He pulled out completely dumbfounded.

"What is it what's wrong Inuyasha." Fear started to arise within her.

Does he know…could he know?

"Kikyo." He looked away from her.

"What, what is it?"

"Sesshomaru he…." But Inuyasha didn't have time to finish his sentence. For to his dismay Kikyo's hair had fallen back behind her shoulders making the bite mark visible to Inuyasha and the gut-wrenching scent of his brother radiated off of her once again.

Rage spread through him like a disease. He snatched her up by her wrist, and dragged her close to him making her face to face with him.

"Why didn't you tell me Sesshomaru raped you?"

"What I don't know what you mean?" Her heart began to pound faster and faster into her chest.

"Don't play this game with me, I know you're not a virgin I could feel for myself. "

Kikyo said nothing, it was as though her words were caught in her throat and she couldn't speak.

"Well, was it rape or did you want it." He asked throwing her away from him, causing her to land sideways on the wooden floor.

He was disgusted by his brother. He wanted to kill him, and yet he was also somewhat disgusted with Kikyo. He didn't know why he was, perhaps it was his built up astonishment and fury that made him feel like part of it was her fault. He didn't know, all he knew was he had to leave her and quick before he snapped. He was hurt that he let this happen to her; a part of him blamed himself.

If he had met up with her like he was supposed to he would have been the one to be with Kikyo. He couldn't even look at her now. He was tormented by just hearing her voice; his guilt was engulfing him entirely.

"Inuyasha, let me explain."

"No, I'm sorry Kikyo…I can't talk to you right now. I have to get out of here."

Here mind screamed for her to say something to stop him. To even apologies for not telling him.

"Inuyasha wait please don't leave me alone."

He dressed quickly and then walked toward the sliding doors. He paused for only a brief moment and mumbled the words "I'm sorry ," before he took off into the blackness of the sky.

Sorry i was a little rushed so it might be a little crappy :( but anyway please R&R thanks!