You Lost Me

Part 2

Chapter 8

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Clare didn't know how to approach Alli. How could she admit that she was wrong? She chose wrong…and she regretted it after she drove off that day in Jake's truck. How could she admit to Eli that she wanted him back?

Adam went out of his way to do this for them…and as stubborn as they were acting…they knew they needed to face each other. Clare still had butterflies in her stomach every time Eli stared at her. Nothing was changed between them.

"I'll just leave…because I don't you to feel uncomfortable." Dave got up reaching for the doorknob. It was over between them. He was just going to have to accept it.

Alli watched his hand touch the door. She was angry but not angry enough to try again….not angry enough to forget.

"Don't…please don't leave me." Alli stopped him running to him.

"I don't want you to stay but…. I don't want you to leave me anymore." She said grabbing his hand. This was all he needed to hear as they went upstairs.

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"Drew….I can't watch this movie…." Bianca said as they sat on his couch. She couldn't let him do this unintentionally to her. She couldn't do this to herself.

"I can get another movie…" Drew said sitting the popcorn down.

"No…I mean…this…us hanging out…..I cant…." Bianca stated.

"Why?" Drew asked with hurt. "I like us hanging out."

"But you know I have feelings for you…."She stood up. "Just admit it."

"…You're right. I do know….but I can't let you go either." He approached Bianca…gently pushing her against the wall….

"Drew…." They looked into each other's eyes…..

"I cant pretend as if I don't feel it too….when I do…." He kissed her gently.

"I love you so much." Bianca rested her hands on his chest as he played in her hair. Her lips…soft…like he remembered them.

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Clare looked at Alli as she went with Dave. How she wanted to apologize. How she wanted to take back everything she did wrong last semester. But you couldn't turn back time….

Eli watched her as she watched Alli and Dave go into another room. He needed to talk to her to. Grabbing her hand, Eli squeezed it gently.

"I know you are with Jake…and if that is what you want I will be fine with it. I want what's best for you….but it is breaking my heart that we can't even be friends." He did really care for her. She could see it in his eyes.

He didn't need her right now. Not when he was getting healthy like this. She saw change in him. For now, she would be his friend.

"It would break my heart if I couldn't be your friend either." Clare said as Adam looked at him through the kitchen. All four of them owed him a huge favor.

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"Grandpa….where are you?" Julian walked inside the house. He became scared when he didn't see him. What if he had fallen?

"I'm in here son." He yelled from the bedroom. Julian sat down on the bed looking at his grandfather….his hair grey with wrinkles on his forehead.

"I was just looking at my album….you know Macey left me three years ago tomorrow."

"Yeah I know…." Julian tried to keep tears from shedding. He missed his grandmother…but her death was expected.

"She would be so proud of you…she always did like wrestling and boxing." His granddad laughed.

"Yeah she did….lets get you to bed."

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Dave sat her down on bed as he looked at her face. God did he miss her. Her skin was flawless….but he needed to talk. He needed to tell her the whole truth.

"My first time….I was drunk…..and I don't even remember it." Dave stated. "I know that doesn't make it any better. I should have never put myself in that position. But I regret it. I didn't even know her name. She told me the whole time I was calling your name."

"I know you would not intentionally hurt me…but how can we get over this. As much as I hate you…I love you."

"I love you…..you don't have to do anything….just let me show you." Dave kissed her.

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Drew sat on his bed, remembering what he just shared with Bianca. How was he going to tell Katie…better yet…break up with her. It was selfish of him to do that. Obviously, she needed him…..but on the hand….Drew couldn't give her what she needed.

He was even afraid of the situation himself. Why can't he get over Bianca? Katie was the good girl….reliable…smart. Bianca was the bad girl…who had a big heart….ugh.

Her lips…..her hair….her everything. He was a coward.

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Dave sat Alli in his lap as he rubbed her back. She tried to stop him….tried to keep her guard up, but she couldn't. Her body missed his touch.

Dave gently lifted her chin as he kissed her again. They were both getting used to each others lips again. They were testing each other. Soon, Dave laid them on the bed….raising Alli's shirt…to see her stomach. He kissed it…..hearing her moan.

Alli turned them over…kissing his neck. Leaving bite marks here and there.

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"You were right Julian…." Drew said on their way to practice.

"About what…." Julian replayed Katie's breakdown in his mind. He didn't realize she had dealt with so much…the way her tears plastered her porcelain face. How could Drew overlook her like that? How could Drew…..

"I kissed Bianca…" Drew said. "I made the move. I wanted to…"

Usually, he wouldn't be mad, but for some reason he was.

"What are you going to do about it?"

"I'm going to break up with Katie. It's the right thing to do…..or is it? I know she needs me but I'm still in love with Bianca.

Should Julian tell him now about her? He wanted to but a relationship shouldn't be based on sympathy…but how was she going to take it. That was a rhetorical question.

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Katie flushed the toilet….throwing up her pain. She was weak. How could she just tell Julian everything like that….but she knew she needed to tell someone. And it felt good doing so. Having someone there to listen to her.

He didn't press her. He just let her vent. But it wasn't enough to stop the insecurities and pressure she felt. She didn't want to Maya to worry about her….this wasn't her responsibility. She was the eldest. It was her job to protect her.

She was going to make sure that Maya always felt good enough. She was going to make sure Maya never felt insignificant. This just her curse that she had to live with.

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"Guys how about we play Dance Evolution?" Adam asked as Dave and Alli came down stairs holding hands. Clare envied them both…..El did too.

"Sure…." They all said but Adam noticed they were still separated Eli and Clare on one side….Dave and Alli on the other. At least he got them to admit their feelings for each other. He would be happy with this.

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Why was Drew ignoring her calls? He had been out of practice for about an hour now. Katie knew why. She always did.