Bring Me Back to Life

Dr. Dre ft. Eminem

Chapter 9

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Julian hated this day. The feelings were still raw. His grandmother died. The mother he had only known. His parents abandoned him at birth….no where to be found. Why didn't they want him? They didn't even show at up at the funeral.

He was angry at God for a long time, for taking her away from him. Why did Macey have to leave?

Katie saw him in the Zen Garden. She knew that saddened expression. He needed someone…but she didn't know what to say. It's not like he would have acknowledged her after what she told him. He did the biggest favor by listening to her, and she shoved it back in his face. Why couldn't she ever do one right thing?

Julian saw her looking at him through the glass walls. She wanted to talk to him…but she didn't. He didn't want her too…then he would be obligated to tell her about Bianca. He didn't want to compound too much on her. He laughed to himself. When did he care about how she felt?

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Alli was glad they were working things out. She needed him….he needed her. She smiled as they laced their fingers together. He smiled walking her to her locker. What made her a little unwilled was to see Clare standing there.

"I'll let you go girl." Dave kissed her walking off.

"Clare I don't want fight. Every time we get around each other, we talk in circles." Alli said.

"I just wanted to say that I am happy for you and Dave….and that I miss you…..I"

"I was out of line for kissing Jake….but you believed him over me when he told you I kissed him..he leaned in too…and I regret it…because when I get upset….I get impulsive "

"Als….I….."

"There's nothing more to say here….enjoy Jake." Alli slammed her locker.

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"What is this for?" Imogen said looking up from her book. "Kipling…good choice." She smiled taking the book from Fiona's hand.

"Leave it to you to be in the library." Fiona teased. "I just wanted to get you something for yesterday. I was out of line…and I'm sorry."

"….." Imogen smiled at the girl brightly who surprisingly blushed.

"Now that we got that out of the way…" Fiona sat beside her. "Is this seat taken?"

"No…" Imogen smiled trying to calm her nerves. "Eli is thinking of a play and he….."

Thump

Both girls turned their heads as they heard a couple of books hit the ground. Fiona turned her head back around.

"…..wanted me to be the star." Imogen returned to the conversation…knowingly as they heard voices coming from the same direction. They both knew what was going on in the back of the library. The two tried to keep it down…but it obviously wasn't working.

"What's that noise." THE eccentric teenager asked the pristine beauty.

"I don't know….but I don't want to be noisy." Fiona whispered as she saw Imogen get up from her seat.

"Where is your adventure…..what if it's a secret relationship….."Imogen grabbed her hand as they hid behind a book shelf.

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Drew and Bianca tried to keep it down in the library…but they couldn't keep their hands off of each other. They were making up for time they had loss. They see Fiona and Imogen. All they cared about was the feel of each other's lips….tongues finding places….hands pulling each other's shirt.

Bianca closed her eyes enjoying Drew licking her neck….her hands made their way under his shirt…..feeling his back.

"You want me to stop." He asked huskily…not even caring about Katie. The two were just talking. He was reassuring Bianca that everything was ok. He wasn't going to let anything happen to her.

He was going to tell Katie…..but how.

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"Omg….." Fiona and Imogen had the same expression on her face.

"I knew it…I knew it." Fiona said as they walked out the library.

"Poor Katie….."Imogen held her head down. "I can't believe….scratch that….I can believe he did that…."

"What about Kaite…" Imogen fixed her glasses.

"Can we just stay out of it…what's done in the dark will defiantly come in the light…besides Bianca is your friend" Fiona said.

"Yeah…..sad that is I wish I could hate her for it but she truly loves him….and…..some light is about to be shed…because here she comes."

Since Katie had some free time, she decided to check out another book for her science project. Of course Julian wouldn't be here. She rolled her eyes thinking about his nonchalantness.

"He is just so….." She said underneath her breath….but seeing another side of him yesterday .made her realize he wasn't so bad…

"Hey…Fiona said interrupting her train of thought.

"ummmm hi…." She said looking at the two brunette oddly.

"We have a proposition for you…." Imogen said. They couldn't let her see the two like that. Fiona decided to walk back inside and ruin the moment.

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"Ummmm Fiona…" Drew and Bianca broke apart…seeing the girl fold her arms. She said nothing….just shook her head accusingly. Luckily they walled out the other exit.

What if it was Katie who had caught them? Could he really be evil and say that he was in love with someone else? Would he play both sides and say he cared for her but wanted more with another.

"Where's the fire?" Jake walked by him as he saw Bianca speed off.

"Let's just say that….I lost myself….."

"You kissed B…."

"Twice…..I want to be with her….but I don't know how to brake up with Katie…and if I do…I'm going to be a jerk because I know she's going through something she wont tell me. I need to…"

"You need to do what your heart says." Jake says waving at Clare as they passed the newpaper room.

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Clare was glad that he didn't notice Eli. Not that she was cheating on him. Technickally she was cheating…but emotionally cheating. They both made sure there was enough distance between them. She thought being apart from him was hard…but being near him was even harder.

The two just sat there….chatting…eating lunch.

"So how is your new dad and bother/boyfriend." Eli drank his juice.

"Good…a little awkward. I think they know about us…but they can't stop us." She shrugged.

"As long as your happy…."Eli said. The old him would have told her to leave him….come back to him…the one who would never kiss her best friends. The one who would never think of her as "another woman."

Clare was waiting for him to speak…tell her what they both wanted to hear…but she had all the time in the world. As long as he was there for her….thats all that mattered.

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"Guys I don't have time…..I'll just talk to you two later." Katie dismissed them walking in the non-fiction section. She shook her head. They were acting stranger than usual. Imogen was the epitome of strange. It was hard to believe she and Fiona were friends.

Walking in the aisle, she saw Julian searching as well.

"What….surprised that I know where the library is?" He acknowledged her presence without looking at her.

"No…..well….maybe…..I mean Drew….." Katie began.

"I'm not Drew." He cut her off. "Besides you need a break." He shrugged.

"Thanks…." She smiled…realizing she hadn't had a real smile in a while. Sometimes the littlest things can be the kindest gestures.

"Don't go soft on me Matlin." He looked down at her handing her the book. Julian wasn't that bad. He was just rough around the edges.

"You wish….." Katie said with a little attitude as her phone vibrated.

"Great another text from mom…..probably about college scouts….." She rubbed her head. He wanted to reassure her, but he didn't know how.

Katie looked at her phone, letting out a breath of relief.

"Its nothing big, my parents are remodeling. Can we finish the project at your house? Katie noticed the alarm on his face. He didn't want anyone to know about his life. He wasn't ashamed of his grandfather. He just wasn't ready to talk about his life yet….but if he saw at her worst….maybe it didn't matter.

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Fiona had to admit that Imogen was actually kind of cool. She wished she didn't care what others thought about her. She wished she could be more rebellious. She remembered the first day she saw Imogen walking down the hall with tampons in her nose. She was crazy and/or needed attention.

"We make a great team….we are like the dynamic duo." Imogen teased as they walked the halls together.

"OMG Imogen…" Fiona rolled her eyes giggling."You are definatlely different than anyone else I have ever met."

"That's what I hope." She smiled as Fiona found herself blushing.

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Julian's mind kept wandering as he walked home. He knew Katie would judge coming from her background. They lived in a different world than him. They were all going to go off and accomplish great deeds….explore the world. He was going to go to school at Toronto University. But that was his responsibility. Families make sacrifices all the time.

Walking inside, he began to tidy up. His grandfather went to the grocery store. He shook his head laughing as he set the letter down on the table. He hated how his dad would try to be independent…he refused any help offered to him.

He wished things were a little different…but this was his life.