My Happy Ending

Avril Lavigne

Chapter 13

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Jake saw how Clare looked at Eli…and Eli looked at Clare during school. She tried to hide the fact that she hung with him. If it were innocent…why try to hide it.

Clare knew he knew…he didn't know exactly but he guessed. Why were her morals so high? Guilt was all she could feel. Once, all she wanted to do was kiss him. Now all she wanted to do was run away.

Run away from something that she should have never started in the first place. Now they were sitting here at the dinner table. Pretending that everything was ok…when it wasn't.

"Clare….Jake….how is school" Glen asked eating some peas.

"Great…I'm on the newspaper staff…." Clare avoided Jake's eyes.

"Since it's the beginning of the year…I know you guys are excited. Jake you are a senior…are there any gatherings…dances….." Helen drank her wine happily.

"If there were I'd just go with friends or Jake." Clare stated.

"…or Eli…." He glared at Clare who dropped her fork on her plate.

"Umm may I please be excused?"

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They were both doing something they should have done before summer….before Alli became obsessed with poker…before she almost put their lives in danger. They both made mistakes. But at this moment, they were fixing them.

Dave's fingers were itching to touch her as he took off her shirt.

"Alli are you sure?" He asked laying her on the bed as he played in her hair as she kissed his hand.

"Yes….I want you" She took off his shirt as they kissed. "…please be gentle…"

"I will." He kissed her….bruising her lips. They were both nervous. They always pictured their first time with eachother like this.

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"Maya come on. We need to go out. I know you are worried about Katie, but you need some fun to. I'll do your make up and hair. We can sneak…..well your parents are gone…I can sneak out." Tori said as they drank their milkshakes.

"Ummmm, I don't know." She said as she put her head down as Drew came inside the eatery.

"Well hello Drew Torres." Tori said as Maya rolled her eyes as she saw that he saw her.

"O great….please don't come…please don't come…..great he's coming."

"Hey Maya….how's Katie…" Drew stood at their table as Maya ignored her.

"Why don't you ask her yourself?" Tori took up for her friend.

"I know it ended badly, but I do care for your sister…I hope you know that."

"In your own way." Maya said sarcastically.

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"We are so going to win." Katie said as they looked at their work. "This is definitely going to win."

"Stop it….." Julian said as they cleaned up the kitchen.

"…" She played with her fingers.

"You don't have to win everything….." He smiled handing her the satchel.

"I'm sorry…."

"Don't worry….its just a habit I'm going to break you out of." He stated as they walked out the house.

"Lets go to the Dot…"

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"I love you….." Dave removed himself from her.

"I love you too…." She said breathing hard. Smiling brightly as he took her in her arms. This moment was theirs. No one could take it away from them. Even if her parents came in the room. They couldn't make her take it back…because she didn't want to…not now….not ever.

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"I'm not going to discuss me and Katie's relationship with you…" Drew stated turning around to see Katie walk in with Julian. What the hell?

"Julian I can't face him…."

"Yes you can…you have to….." Julian went to the bar to order something as Drew made his way toward her.

"I didn't want to start anything. I just wanted to say that I am sorry for how this ended…."

"Drew thank you for that but at times you can be so egotistical…."

"Excuse me?" He asked.

"You think everything is about you. I will survive without you. I am surviving without you. You don't give me purpose…." She said as Julian smiled.

"Well I hope you and Julian's project turns out good." He walked outside.

"I got you this." She looked at the double cheeseburger with mushrooms. It smelled so good. Could her body take it?

"You got to take a bit out of it…" She nodded. Why did she do what he told her….and she didn't want to put it down?

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"Why didn't you tell me….." Jake came into her room minutes after her.

"I….." She began as she held a pillow to her chest/.

"You tell me you want a stable relationship. I give it to you…and this is what you do?" Jake lowered his voice so their parents wouldn't hear.

"O please…as if our relationship was so solid. Why did you kiss Alli….."

"I didn't kiss her…"

"Yes you did. You didn't push her off….and if I hadn't come…you wouldn't have stopped. This isn't love….but we want it so badly to be…its not there….." She shook her head.

"….."jake only left her room.

"You know it's true…." She said.

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"Mind if I join…." Katie asked Maya and Tori.

"Sure….did you enjoy the burger?" Maya smiled as Katie smiled.

"Why did Julian have to leave?" Tori asked. "He's so hot." Maya saw Katie shrug. Did she like Julian?

"He had other matters to handle." Katie tried to cut her off.

"He can handle me any day." Tori bit her lip. "I wonder if he is…."

"Tori is it just me or do you always talk about boys." Katie snapped.

"…"Tori held her head down and sipped her drink.

"Sorry Tori…I just am having a stressful day."

Yes she did like Julian.

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"So how is the project coming?" Drew asked Julian as they suited up for practice.

"Good…we are done…."He stated.

"So there is no need for you to be around her." Drew stated. He didn't beat around the bush at all.

"We are just friends." Julian said. "Someone jealous…I thought you wanted Bianca."

"Look I do want Bianca…but that doesn't mean I want to see Katie get hurt."

"…because you didn't hurt her….look we are just friends…paranoid much."

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"Fiona shut up…"Imogen laughed as they sat in the park. They were both playing the guessing game.

"Your turn." Fiona's eyes glowed.

"Ok….that couple just met….off….of…..…she doesn't know that he just got out of a bitter divorce. He doesn't know that she left her soon to be husband at the altar."

"Good one Moreno…" the prissy girl flipped your hair. "I think I'm gonna go back curly." She laughed.

"I like it either way…" Imogen blushed.

"….."They both looked at each other with an uncertainty…and something else.

"Fi….you've become one of my closet friends."

"you too…"Fiona bit her lip.

"I…..never mind…it can wait." Imogen smiled. She would not rush this. She would let it happen.

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Like Julian would admit that he had feelings for Katie…she did too. Katie was just too stubborn to realize it. He saw the way her eyes glowed as she touched him…or how she held her breath when he was near her.

Katie found herself thinking about Julian too…but she didn't know where these emotions came from still. It really irritated. She found herself liking how he took care of her. This had to stop. His lips…muscles…ughhhhh.

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Clare had to take a walk. She had to get her break-up off her mind. But is it a break-up when you two were both letting go? Well in her case, she let go. At the cabin, she actually thought they had a chance. They didn't have a chance because she didn't want them to…it was because they weren't meant to be.

Why was Eli always there? He always knew where to find her…and deep down, she didn't want it to stop. When he found her in the woods, that night….she was relieved. She felt something…saw something in those eyes.

Why did Eli always have to find her? He saw her sitting on their bench…with her head hung down. She regretted it and he pushed himself on her again….he could never get it right…NEVER!

Looking up, the world stopped…she saw him…he saw her.

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Jake knew this was happening right under his nose. He didn't want to see it…or believe it. He thought he saw love in her eyes as she read the bible scripture at the wedding. He thought….

He didn't know what to think now.

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Katie went back to school. She had to make sure everything was being handled properly. Picking up the vanilla folder entitled "Battle of the Brawns" she rolled her eyes…but this time playfully. It was really a good idea. She shouldn't have chopped Julian down like that.

She knew what being chopped down felt like. Everyday her pleas were ignored. That's why she accomplished so much at school...at least in school, she didn't have to focus on home.

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Drew didn't want Katie to think that he was being cocky. He just wanted to makes amends…but he realized. The best thing to do was to move on. He had what he wanted…Bianca. He knew that sounded selfish….but Bianca was better for him.

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Julian saw her in the office on his way from practice. Should he speak to her….no…..he didn't want to smother her space…but she looked up.

"Hey…Drew around you?" she asked as he came inside.

"No…..but he did try to get in my face…"Julian moved a chair beside her. Katie noticed his muscular arms….. Julian noticed she was looking at his arms…his shoulder in particular. He had a tattoo.

"It's my grandmother's name…."Julian stated. "Macey…."

"O…. I didn't mean to stare…I just….nothing." She found herself wanting to touch it.

"It's ok…want me to walk you home…."

"….yeah." she couldn't hide here forever.