SAVING ME

CHAPTER 10 – SUPERMARKET

Walking down the aisles of the Supermarket Rin bit her lip, picking up various items and dropping them into the cart which Sesshomaru was pushing.

"How like a woman to be great a shopping!" he exclaimed and Rin giggled then frowned as she realized they had wandered into the section which sold baby foods. Rin bit her lip, her hand instinctively moving to her abdomen and her face took on a guarded, spaced look. A hand to her shoulder brought her back to reality and she realized that tears had filled her eyes, making her vision cloudy.

"I can't keep this baby…" Rin whispered, turning to look at Sesshomaru who was frowning as he looked at her, "…but I want too." She finished and sighed, leaving the aisle and moving to the meat section while he remained where they had stopped.

Sesshomaru took out the flask he kept in his coat pocket and took a long drink while Rin's back was turned, hissing from the pleasure he received from feeling the burning trail that ran down his throat. Since he had met Rin, it had been the first in a long time that he'd been remotely sober. He let out a sigh, noting the involuntary shaking of his hand. He looked up to see Rin had walked a great deal ahead of him. He pushed the Shopping Cart to catch up; he had begun to pray that he would not have an episode, at least not around Rin. Rin's trust was very fragile and he feared that in that moment when he was caught between the throes of insanity reaped from drinking and his grief, he might intentionally hurt her.

He was felt the flask in his pocket as though it was burning him for the first time in a very long time, he had been dependent on liquor for so long now that it was next to impossible for him to live without it and during his moment's of drunken stupor, his body craved a woman in extremes, many times he'd had to curb his own appetites. He had not taken a woman since his wife, and the ardent demands of his body called to him almost as loudly as the pull of liquor.

He watched as Rin ordered various pounds of chicken parts, lamb, pork, fish, shrimp and beef and his mouth watered at the thought, his stomach growling low in response. He hoped that she was a great cook for he longed to have real meals and he hoped he wasn't spending all the money on groceries for no reason. Watching her smiling face, he figured, it was worth it and then he thought, Why have you recovered from your trauma so quickly Rin?

The question seemed to lodge in his mind and he watched her for the rest of the trip; surely, Rin was much too trusting at such a stage especially for one who had been so reluctant to trust?

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Yup, there you have it…Sesshomaru is an Alcoholic, is Rin really safe around him? Will he do something to break the frail trust she has placed in him? Sooon all will be revealed.

Thank you everyone for reviewing, I appreciate them all and take them all to heart, I have really have some of the best reviewers, I never get flames, just words of encouragement, good advice and well wishes and that amazing. Thanks you guys *super hug*

Jolie Luv: It makes me so happy that you review each chapter, *hands you a plaque of honour* lol. And thank you dear for all your warm comments and words of encouragement, your one of the best reviewers anyone could ever hope to have, *hugs* it was worth the cost to finally update lol.

Anonymous Reviewer: thank you very much for reviewing, lol. I know it's not a flame and I appreciate your advice. Honestly, I do recognize I make a lot of mistakes and I try to fix them on my own but honestly I'm too hyper-active to sit down, take the time and actually read them through even though I been working really hard to limit my mistakes. I'm actually in the process of getting a beta so pretty soon, the work will be up to standards for everyone to enjoy ^_^.

Smalltea: I'm sorry I get you confused lol. And I still haven't decided on who the father is yet *don't kill me*. However, pretty soon the situation will be revealed stating how she got pregnant and how Kohaku comes into it, *Spoiler* I know for certain though, Kohaku is not the father.

Chouran: I hope I can start answering your questions sooner rather than later because I have some really pressing ideas that need to be released lol. I will work hard on trying to bring the drama and some excitement ^_^

Dear reviewers, I have 3 new ideas for an upcoming story, I wish to know which one you would like me to start:

(Yazuka Beginning's) Rin and Sesshomaru met in an orphanage where he saved her from being abused. 15 years later, Sesshomaru is the head of a gang and Rin is his right hand man, well woman. They live a life of crime, death and drugs and into the mix. Rin wants to leave their life behind now she must convince Sesshomaru to do the same before it's too late. (ONESHOT)

(Teen Mom) When her mother and step-father die in an accident, she goes to live her step brother Sesshomaru and his fiancé. It's awkward to say the least, because at almost 18, Rin is already the mother of a 7 month old baby, the result of a drunken night with Sesshomaru that he can't even remember! And to make matters worse, he hates her for having a bastard child, not knowing the child is his…(Possible 2 shot)

(I fell in love with a Merman) The day after breaking up with her Ex, Rin goes to a party on an island with some friends. On the way there, she's knocked off the boat and no-one realizes. She's about to become shark food when out of nowhere, a handsome stranger saves her in the water. It's love at first sight until she sees his tail. She is rescued and he disappeared, until she saw him outside her house with his dog and two legs!