EDIT: See chapter 1
They spent the morning on Blaine's living room couch watching sappy movies. Kurt flinched initially when they sat down but pulled Blaine to him to hide the reaction. Somewhere in the middle of the first movie Kurt ended up with his legs draped over Blaine's lap and an arm over his boyfriend's shoulders. Blaine snuggled into his arm and Kurt sighed.
This was nice and comfortable, the ideal morning really. He pressed a kiss to Blaine's temple. Blaine was such a good boyfriend, he was so lucky to have gotten him. "I love you," he whispered into Blaine's ear.
"I love you too," Blaine answered. They fell silent after that, watching the movie through and not moving to stop thee credits from rolling up the screen. Kurt got up to change the movie and settled back into his spot mostly on top of Blaine when he was done. Blaine accepted him with open arms, sighing happily and grinning an exaggeratedly dopey grin as he pulled Kurt back down. He nuzzled his head into Kurt's shoulder. "That's better," he said almost too quietly for Kurt to hear.
This movie was one Blaine liked more than Kurt did, and so Kurt got bored. He took one of Blaine's hands between his and started tracing patterns and shapes. "So we're alright?" Blaine asked after a while.
Kurt stopped tracing his name on Blaine's palm. "What?"
"Us?" Blaine asked and Kurt lifted an eyebrow. "Last night, it didn't… it didn't mess US up did it? We're alright?"
Kurt opened his mouth and then closed it, let out a breath. "Blaine…" The younger boy's eyes turned away. "We're fine," Kurt said quickly. "I just… why would you think we weren't?" Why would he think that? Did he NOT think they were okay?
"No, I don't!" Blaine said quickly. "I was just making sure YOU agree with me."
"Oh…" Kurt nodded, but now an idea he hadn't even considered before was festering in his head. "Okay." He knew he sounded unsure.
"Yeah, I just… we messed up this time and we'll have another chance to… to make it right." Now Blaine sounded unsure.
"Yeah." Kurt nodded quickly, proud when his voice sounded surer than he felt. "We will."
"Okay… okay, so… so we're fine." Blaine nodded and reached up to kiss Kurt's lips.
Despite the easy atmosphere from before, and the way Blaine was relaxing beneath him, Kurt couldn't help but stay a little tense. They were going to try again, but what if it hurt just the same and didn't get any better?
At eleven Blaine's cell phone started blowing up with anxious and annoying calls from his costar. Rachel demanded that he show up at the theatre a full hour early and Blaine wasn't really in the mood to fight her. He kissed Kurt goodbye and went to face the tiny music maker.
"I did it," she announced when he got to their makeup table. "Not for my part of course, I tried that before and it failed. It really was the wrong way to go about it and I'm much happier it happened this way, more organically if you'd like to call it that. Anyway, I just wanted to let you know. I hope my not being a virgin anymore won't intimidate you, I'm sure it will help my performance immensely. Just think, we were so good last night, and now I'll be even better. I've got the love of my life, AND we've done the deed. My Maria will be absolutely PERFECT today. I'm willing to help coach you if you think you'll need it."
Blaine just blinked at her. "Um, so good night?" he asked.
"Very good." She nodded sagely. "Though I was surprised it didn't hurt more, everything I've read said it would hurt more."
Blaine felt sick suddenly. "I'm… I need to use the bathroom." He ran.
Guilty tears were blocking up his eyes when he got to the bathroom. He tipped his head back and tried to imagine his eyes sucking the moisture back up. He couldn't cry about this again, if Kurt found out he'd probably start crying too. And as much as Blaine thought Kurt was beautiful when he cried, he HATED when the other boy did so. It meant he was too sad to hold it in anymore.