Song: Someday

Artist: Nickleback

Characters: Gil Grissom/Sara Sidle

How the hell'd we wind up like this?

Why weren't we able

To see the signs that we missed

And try an' turn the tables?

I wish you'd unclench your fists

And unpack your suitcase

Lately there's been too much of this

But don't think it's too late

Of The Heart

The lights of Las Vegas ignited the sky, the colors melting together in a mural that washed over Sara, intensifying the melancholy feeling in her stomach. She was walking, but if you asked her she couldn't tell you where, all she knew was she wanted to get away. She wanted to escape the thoughts that assaulted her mind and the memories that seemed forever etched it her brain.

She could still feel her husband's hands on her, the way they tried so hard to hold her close even though they both knew that by the next morning he'd be gone, jetting off to some other country that had once again knocked her off his list. And she'd be lying if she said she wasn't pissed, because all she wanted was to be able to wake up beside him and know they had more than a few hours. She wanted to feel him against her and know she wasn't missing those precious seconds as they dwindled the more they slept.

She asked him to stay for her but when she was met with silence something in her mind snapped and she found herself walking out the door, listening to him call her name as she refused to look back. That had been hours ago, and she'd long since lost the feeling in her legs, relying on her anger and overall stubbornness to keep her going. For the first twenty minutes she contemplated going to a bar and drinking until she could no longer see straight but the thought of Grissom's disappointed gaze when he finally found her was enough to keep her walking.

It's sometime later that he finally did find her, his car slowing down as he caught up to her. She knew it would happen, and maybe that's what she was thriving on right now; the fact that he would have to step up and be the knight in shining armor, saving her from herself because right now that was the only enemy she had. She looked through the window at him and saw the worry clouding his blue eyes, feeling justified and hoping he realized just how fragile her love was. And finally she stopped walking.

"Will you get in?" he asked, hands gripping the steering wheel so tight his knuckles are white. She contemplated for a minute, because she wasn't too sure if she was ready to go back to the messy life she had just attempted to escape, but there's something in his voice that has her yanking the door open and throwing herself in the seat. She kept her jaw clenched tight and her arms folded across her chest; she refused to be the one to break first.

"Sara look at me," he said, his tone pleading with her. With a little hesitance she did, and she couldn't stop the smile that slid onto her face when she saw how relieved he looked.

"I'm sorry you think I don't care, I do really. But it's hard trying to decide between the two things you love most in life, and you really can't blame me for having a hard time can you?" she thought for a moment, somewhat disappointed when she realized that no, she couldn't blame him.

"I know that work always came before anything… I should have known that when I came here but… I thought maybe I could be the one that changes your mind.." the truth hurt more than she thought, maybe because she was admitting that she was wrong; it was never something she did well. Then again, feelings weren't something he did well either.

"You have opened my eyes more than you know Sara," his voice quavered a little and she knew she had broken him. For some damn reason though she couldn't bring herself to feel the satisfaction she had been hoping for. "Before you I never would have dreamed of feeling for someone the way I do you. It may not be the way you want it now, but I swear I'll make it better."

And she laughed, not because she didn't believe him but because for once in her life she actually trusted someone to keep their promise. Drawing in a breath she looked at him and saw the integrity in his eyes and she knew there was no way she could run from him, from her home and everything she had worked so hard for. If he could do this than so could she.