Chapter 4

Saying Goodbye

BPOV

I woke up thinking about the changes my life would be taking in the next couple of months and I could not help but smile. Living in New York was definitely going to be different than anything I had ever experienced and I pray I will not have to depend on Edward too much in the beginning. Alice would definitely be supportive of this move since she has always encouraged me to "explore & travel" as much as possible before settling down and starting a family, however I do not think Emmett and Jake will be as supportive. I would definitely have to get Rosalie to help me with this one. A light tapping on the bedroom door pulled me from my thoughts and a second later Edward stepped in and I was looking into those green eyes that made my insides do flips. Then he spoke in that velvety voice that almost sent me into a trance whenever I heard it.

"Good morning, I took the liberty of getting breakfast for us this morning so we could relax a little before your flight this evening."

"Okay, just let me freshen up and I will be right out."

"I left fresh towels in the bathroom for you."

"Thanks" how could Tanya not want to settle down and have his babies?

After taking a quick shower, washing my hair and brushing my teeth I headed to the kitchen to see what Edward had bought us for breakfast. There were cranberry & cinnamon muffins and a fresh pot of coffee sitting on the counter.

"French Vanilla or Hazelnut" Edward asked holding up 2 bottles of coffee creamer.

"Hazelnut"

"Good choice" he said winking at me with that crooked grin I've now grown to love so much, and then he went to the counter to prepare the 2 cups of coffee. My body temperature rose a few degrees and I could feel the heat again rising from neck to my face. Why does he keep having this affect on me?

"You know I actually hate that you're leaving today, I've really enjoyed having you here. It's nice to have someone around that I can so easily talk to." he said while walking to the table with our cups of coffee in hand.

"Me too I've really enjoyed my stay and thank you for all you've done to make this not so pleasant trip bearable."

He reached over and placed his hand over mine "Bella you don't have to thank me for that it was nothing." I froze not knowing how to react to his touch but my body certainly knew and again my body temperature went up a few more degrees and I could feel my face burning. When I looked up at Edward he had a knowing smirk on his face which just intensified the burning. After what seemed like forever, but was actually just a few seconds he removed his hand from the top of mine leaving a tingling sensation on my skin and reached for the plate of muffins. I immediately longed for his touch again and while I daydreamed about what it would feel like to be in his arms the doorbell sounded interrupting my fantasizing.

"Excuse me Bella." Edward walked over to his intercom system and pressed the talk button "yes Franklin"

"Sir I have Ms. Denali at the desk, shall I send her up?

"Yes of course Franklin, thank you."

Ms. Denali? Maybe she's his cleaning woman or someone. Edward opened his front door and the next voice I heard I would recognize anywhere, because it was the only voice that has ever made me green with envy.

"Edward honey you're not dressed yet? The tailor is expecting us in an hour for your final fitting."

"Tanya baby, I am so sorry it completely slipped my mind. Give me 10 minutes and I'll be ready."

He walked back in the kitchen with Tanya in tow and when she saw me sitting at the kitchen table a look of surprise covered her features.

"Bella I have to run out to get a final fitting done for my Tux for a charity dinner next weekend, but I will return shortly, will you be okay?

"Sure, I'll be fine."

I'm really sorry to have to interrupt our breakfast like this." he looked at me with pleading eyes, so I gave a small smile and a slight nod of my head and he quickly exited the kitchen.

"Bella, Edward failed to mention that you guys were still here. I was under the impression you and Emmett left yesterday."

"Emmett did leave yesterday and I will be leaving this evening."

"Oh, I see... well did you enjoy New York?"

"As much as one could enjoy it under the circumstances surrounding."

"Yes I certainly understand that and again I am very sorry for your loss."

"Thanks."

I wonder why Edward had not told Tanya I was still here and though she was polite enough I could tell she was not pleased with me staying here without Emmett. Just then Edward came back into the kitchen.

"Okay baby, I'm ready." Edward was wearing a pair of navy blue jogging pants with a fitted light blue t- shirt that showed off his muscular arms and chest and toned stomach. I looked away quickly praying my body did not react to him at that very moment.

"Bella call my cell if you need me for anything and I will get back as soon as I can."

"Edward, Bella's a big girl I'm sure she can handle being alone for a few hours."

"I'll be fine Edward, I'm just going to pack up my things and maybe do some reading."

"If you get hungry don't forget the tacos we made last night are in the fridge." he gave me that crooked smile I loved ad I nodded my head. Tanya looked between the two of us with a curious look on her face but did not say anything.

I nodded my head again and gave him a small smile. "Tanya it was nice seeing you again" and then I turned and went into the bedroom.

EPOV

"Okay baby, I'm ready." I said looking at Tanya and she looked back at me with a not so pleased expression on her face. Wonder what's that about, I'll have to ask her later.

"Bella call my cell if you need me for anything and I will get back as soon as I can."

"Edward, Bella's a big girl I'm sure she can handle being alone for a few hours."

Bella looked a little annoyed also when she looked at me. Was I missing something?

"I'll be fine Edward, I'm just going to pack up my things and maybe do some reading," she quipped.

Ooookay, I definitely must be missing something.

"If you get hungry don't forget the tacos we made last night are in the fridge." I tried to give her a small smile hoping it would brighten her mood. She seemed to be agitated about something. I made a mental note to make sure she was okay before she returns to Washington this evening. Hopefully this fitting won't take long and I can hurry back to her. Wait, okay that's totally backwards Edward you're going out with your girlfriend, but you want to hurry back to Bella? Oh brother, I really need to get Bella home and my priorities in order!

"Tanya it was nice seeing you again." Bella said before turning and going into her bedroom.

I turned to Tanya "ready to go?"

"Whatever Edward!" Tanya said as she headed out the front door. What the hell was going on with these two?

When the elevator doors opened to my parking garage Tanya stormed off ahead of me to my car. I opened her door to let her in and before I could close it for her she had grabbed the handle and slammed it closed. After getting in the car I pulled out the parking space while putting on my seat belt and headed out of the garage. Neither of us spoke for the first five minutes of the ride and then I just could not take the silence anymore.

"Tanya, did I do something to upset you?"

"What do you think Edward? You know, I didn't get the memo that said its okay for members of the opposite sex to stay overnight with us without informing the other person and why is she the only one who stayed, Edward? "

"Tanya, Bella is Alice's best friend. She's like family and considering you know why she is in town I did not think I had to tell you she was staying an additional day in order to fly back with her parents. Besides you've been in Miami for the last two days on a photo shoot and I didn't want to bother you just to tell you that."

"Well you should have bothered me."

It was silent in the car for what seemed like hours but were actually just a couple of minutes.

"I'm sorry Tanya, I really didn't think you would mind and the next time I'll be sure..."

"The next time?" Tanya said cutting me off "Are you planning on there being a next time?"

"Well no but I'm just saying it will never happen again without you knowing."

She did not respond she just stared out her window and I left her to it.

After getting my final fitting done Tanya and I had lunch together in downtown Manhattan and then I attempted to make plans to meet up later that night, but I just could not stay off Tanya's bad side today.

"I have a meeting with my agent at 5:00 0 clock to sign my new contract with Victoria's Secret, but I should be free after 7:00 o clock. What time is your friend leaving?"

"Her flight leaves at 6:00 o clock maybe you could meet me back at my house and we could cook dinner or grab some take out and watch a movie."

"Cook dinner, grab some take out and watch a movie? What are we in college again Edward? My idea of spending some real adult time together is not cooking tacos or grabbing take out and sitting in your living room watching TV."

"Tanya I just thought it would be nice to relax and spend a quiet evening at home."

"Like you and Bella did last night? You call me when you get yourself together Edward!"

With that she stormed off and grabbed a cab. How had I managed to get her so upset at me? I returned home at about 1:30 to find Bella still in her room. Huh, funny how I thought of it as her room. I was hesitant to knock because if she was napping I did not want to disturb her, but I needed to make sure she was okay. Tapping lightly on the door I waited for her response.

"Come in" Bella was sitting cross legged on her bed wearing a pair of back yoga pants and a yellow tank top with thin straps. She looked up at me when I walked in and when I looked into her beautiful brown eyes my breath caught in my throat. She looked back down and continued to read her book.

"Hey, what are you reading?" I asked trying to make conversation.

"Water for Elephants." She said but she never looked away from her book.

"Wasn't there a movie out about that with that vampire guy in it?"

"Yup." she said popping the p, but she still never looked up.

"Did you eat anything after I left?"

"Not hungry" it was killing me not knowing what she was thinking and she would not look up so I couldn't even read her expressions.

"Did you finish packing all of..."

"Look Edward you didn't have to cut your day short with Tanya just to come back and check on me. Tanya's right I'm a big girl, I can catch a cab to the airport and I'll leave your keys with Franklin. So you can go one with whatever else you need to do, I'm sorry I interrupted your week." She said cutting me off and her face held no expression.

"Bella I did not come back home out of obligation, I came back because... because..."

"Because of what Edward to make sure I hadn't fallen apart without you here?"

"No Bella!" I said running my fingers through my hair. Was she always this stubborn?"

"Then what Edward?"

Should I even risk being honest with her and telling her because the entire time I was out all I thought about was her and how I could hardly wait to get back to her. That in the last 48 hours it was not Tanya whom had consumed my thoughts nor was she the one that I desired to spend my time with. That I am probably more excited about her moving to New York than she is because I'll get to spend more time hanging out with her. Bella's sweet voice pulled me from my thoughts.

"Well?"

"I just thought it would be fun if we could hang out before you left I've really enjoyed your company, that's all Bella."

Bella's expression softened and she sat her book on the bed and swung her leg over the side.

"I apologize Edward." she took a deep breath in and let it out heavily before looking up at me. "You've been nothing but kind since I've been here and I've enjoyed your company also."

"Have I made you uncomfortable in any way?"

"No not at all you've been great Edward... I've just had a very overwhelming week and... and ..."

Bella's eyes filled up with tears and my heart broke and before I realized what I was doing I was sitting next to her on the bed with her wrapped in my arms and her face buried in my chest.

"And there's still just so much to do and I haven't even been able to look at my parents yet so how do I begin to say goodbye to them?" Bella continued to sob soaking my shirt as I rocked her back and forth rubbing soothing circles on her back.

"It's okay Bella, let it out sweetheart. I'm here for you and I will always be here for you, I promise."

"I've been trying to be so strong, but I can't anymore." she said in between her sobs.

"Bella you don't have to be strong right now that will come in time. Right now let us be here for you, let me be here for you." I pleaded with her just wanting nothing more than to take her pain away.

I held her until her sobs subsided and then she pulled away and looked at me with red puffy eyes but still as beautiful as ever. I inhaled the wonderful strawberry scent coming from her hair and while placing a piece of lose hair behind her ear I gently placed a kiss on her forehead and then pulled back and looked her in the eyes.

"Are you okay?"

She nodded giving me a small smile while biting her bottom lip.

"Yeah, I'm OK."

"So what do you say, how about we watch one of those vampire movies since you are obviously a fan of his and we can eat left over tacos?"

"Sounds good just let me wash my face and I'll be right out."

"No problem I'll heat up the chicken and get the condiments out."

Bella and I spent the afternoon eating left over tacos, talking, and laughing at all the comments I made about the vampire movie and how ridiculous it is for a vampire to fall in love with a human and vice versa. Far too soon it was time to take Bella to the airport and I just wasn't ready for her to go, but I knew she had to. After loading her luggage into the trunk we drove to the airport in a comfortable silence. I parked in the garage of the airport so I could walk her in. Once she had checked her luggage and received her boarding passes I walked her to the security check point where we said our goodbyes.

"Well this is as far as I can go without a ticket." I said turning to face her.

"Yeah, I know. Edward thank you again for everything, I don't think I would have made it through theses last couple of days without you."

"Bella it was my pleasure, I have to admit out of the handful of house guest I have had you were my favorite, but don't tell anyone especially Alice."

We both laughed and then I pulled Bella into a warm embrace.

"Take care of yourself and remember if you need me just pick up the phone." I whispered as I kissed the top of her hair."

"I will." she said giving me a small smile when I looked down at her and then just like that she was out of my arms and as I watched her retreating body I felt like a part of me was leaving with her. I watched until she was through security and no longer in my line of vision and then I headed back to the parking garage.

As I slid into my car my cell phone chimed with a text message. When I pulled out my phone from my pocket and looked at the screen I couldn't help the big smile that covered my face when I saw the message was from Bella.

"While u were out I marinated and cooked those chicken breast for u and I also prepared u a salad in a bowl. Both are in the fridge hope u enjoy, Bella. :)"

I quickly typed a message back:

"That sounds delicious wish you could enjoy dinner with me. :( Thank u and please call when u land in Port Angeles so that I'll know you are safe! Miss u already, Edward. :)

I closed my phone and I could not wipe the grin off my face. Bella could not move to New York fast enough even if we could only be friends, I would be the best one I could to her.

Once I was back home I decided to call Tanya and try to patch things up, but her cell phone went straight to voice mail and there was no answer on her home phone. I repeated this action three more times in thirty minute increments, first calling her cell and then her home. Finally on the fourth try I left a message on both phones and decided I would not try anymore at least not tonight. After eating the chicken and salad Bella had repaired for me, which by the way was absolutely delicious the chicken was so tender and juicy it melted in my mouth, I decided to call it a night.

Bella called about ten minutes after I laid down.

"Hello"

"Hey Edward it's Bella I made it to Port Angeles and Jake and I are getting ready to head to Forks as soon as I get my luggage."

Jake! I had completely forgotten about him.

"Alright, well do you want me to call Alice to come stay with you tonight or is Emmett coming?"

"No it's fine, Jacob will be staying with me tonight so I'll be alright."

I opened my mouth to speak but no sound came out.

"Edward are you still there?"

"Yes I'm here, are you sure you don't want Alice to come over?"

"I'm positive Edward, get some rest you sound tired and I'll talk to you soon, bye."

And just like that the call ended and the feeling in the pit of my stomach was making me sick. Jake was staying with her. Why him and where exactly would he be sleeping? I tossed and turned for the next three hours not knowing if Bella was being properly cared for. I felt very protective of her and just wanted to make sure she would be ok at least until after she got through her parents funeral. Then an idea hit me, I could go to Forks. I could stay at my parent's house, since they complain about me not visiting enough anyway, and I could be there to help Bella get all the arrangements together for her parent's funeral on Saturday morning and then I could take a late flight out Saturday night and be back in New York for my afternoon shift at the hospital on Sunday. This way I could make sure Bella was okay and getting the emotional support she needs and my family and Emmett would not have to disrupt their daily routines if I were there to help.

Edward, this is ridiculous, why would Bella need you to be there when you already know neither your family nor Emmett would ever leave her alone at this difficult time.

But somehow I still managed to convince myself she would be better off if I were there to help out. So after another hour or so of debating the pros and cons with myself I resolved that I would fly to Forks to make sure Bella makes it through this very difficult time and then I would leave the rest to my family and hers. Since I knew at this point I would not be getting any sleep anyway I got up and bought my ticket online for a 7:00 am flight which gave me a little over three and a half hours to pack and get to the airport. Once I had boarded the plane I sent Alice a quick text message before take-off to let her know I would need a ride from the airport and then I closed my eyes and prepared to let sleep over take me on my five hour flight to Forks.

A/N: okay guys here is chapter 4 hope you guys enjoy. I want to thank those who added me to their favorite story/favorite author list. I was a little disappointed that I did not receive any reviews from the 3rd chapter. If you are following my story and like what you have read so far please leave a review they mean a lot to any writer, thanks again and I am working on chapter 5.