IM VERY VERY LATE. D: all I do is work, work , work. BUT I had time to do this. Don;t mind all the spelling mistakes I was in a rush to get this to you guys
After you wake up it's like seeing the light for the first time. Usually when I wake up everything is not as calm as can be. Because he doesn't give me the chance to get my consicousness, I wake up because he's in me. Can you believe it ? Ogre of a man doesn;t even wait for me to wake up and then proceed to rape me but does it while I'm asleep.
A few more thrusts..
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He's done, 'GET OFF OF ME' is what I scream in my head. And like a blessing in disguise he does just that. I wait till I hear the snores to get up and do a mirror check. I have no idea why I do these things with myself when I know I'm going to hate the result. I tiptoe to the bathroom, years of getting beaten and sneaking away from a man who you hate the most makes you as quiet as a mouse pissing on a cotton ball. That's how the saying goes ? Well that's how I remember it. Seeing myself in that mirror makes me hate myself even more so. It's annoying how one can do the same thing over and over and still come backfor more. I know the bruises from last time are still there. Have you evesr een Willy Wonka and they had those little midget oompa loomaps ? How they were orange? I look just like that but yellow and purple.
I can't help but think of Jasper, he's the most beautifules thing I have ever laid my eyes on and I can't wait to see him again. Which happens sooner than I think.
Jake needs some shit like eractile enlargement, all those steroids he toopk as a kid got to him, well thats what I tell myself everytime I'm in the dietry supplement aisle lookking at the things he needs for his work out plan. I'm in the middle of picking up something from there when I hear the voice of the Gods it seems.
"Bella?"
I damn near the dropped the pill bottle I had in my hand. God his voice.
"Jasper" I whimper his name like I'm starring in a porn film. Whats wrong with me, I turn slowly so he doesn;t notice anything thats wrong with me.
"Hey" he says, he's looking straight at ne like he's looking into my soul.
"Um..hi" I say back, I'm sure my face is red as a tomato.
But then the unthinkable happens and a little Tinkerbell comes running up to him and links arms with him, of course he's taken. I can't help htat my mind is screaming "EVACUATE' what is not yours is not yours right. What is a nacho ?...a man that is not yours ! I know corny right. I take a step back because the last thing I need is for Jake to see me parlaying with people. Jasper's distracted smiling that dimple smile that he gives me. I'm sure by the time he finally acknowledges me I'm gone. Like a rat pissing on a cotton ball right ?