Hope you enjoy this chapter. Again I apologize for the delay, very busy at work at the mo; also I apologize if the standard isn't great. Please continue to leave comments, they are the fuel that keeps me writing. Cleo x
A couple of hours later Jen emerges in search of Ky, leaving Tilly in the bedroom to dry her hair and pack. She finds the enigmatic artist, lost in art, in her studio.
"Any hot water left?" ky jests, looking up from her canvas. Jen smiles and walks towards her friend to admire the unfinished creation. She stands behind her and rests her chin on the artist shoulder.
"How was the party?" She asks in a cute voice.
"Orgasmic" Ky replies, turning in the embrace and thrusting into Jen's hips playfully.
"Oh dear...whats his name?" Jen quizzes, giggling at her friend.
"Ricco...barely spoke a word of English. I fell completely head over heels in bed with him." Ky responds, putting her paint brush down and wiping her paint covered hands."Anyway enough about my night. spill. how was it?" ky adds.
"Bitter sweet." Jen replies with a sigh, there is no other way to describe her relationship with Tilly; with every ounce of pleasure...comes an ounce of pain.
"Pull not our heart-strings thus; they crack, they break. For never was a story of more woe than this of Juliet and her Romeo." ky quotes Shakespeare in ode to the star-crossed lovers. Jen hugs her "I'm scared" she says still tight in the embrace.
"Whatever happens. I'm here always." ky replies breaking from the embrace and winking at the brunette "Well...not literally here. I mean who ever knows where ill fucking be." she adds laughing.
"Well modern technology bridges the gap these days" Jen replies with a smile "Thank you." she adds with sincere eyes; truly grateful for all her friend has done. Tilly arrives before ky can reply.
"I'm packed" Tilly announces as she enters, she spots ky's new work in progress "Whats this?" she ask admiring the new emotion forming across the canvas.
"Ricco!" ky replies with a smile. Tilly looks at Jen and raises one eyebrow.
"Don't ask" Jen replies laughing and shaking her head.
The two women pack up the car, say their heart-felt goodbyes; then promise to visit Ky soon; where ever that may be. The artist waves enthusiastically as the jeep heads off down the road, she is genuinely sad to see the couple leave; and deeply concerned about their future.
Despite Her excitement Tilly had not questioned their direction, however, logic told her she is being whisked back to the Gormleys high tide; her face lights up as she sees the first sign for Crosby beach. She squeals at Jen, who smiles warmly back; internally as excited as her younger lover. Neither had revisited the beach since their time here together; those month before; as perfect strangers.
Tilly rushes across the beach full of energy, Jen follows walking slowly, wanting to take in the view of her lover with the scenic back drop; adorned with Antony Gormley's cast iron figures. She watches the teen dance with the waves; as if Tilly is teasing them; like the title of the art work, this had become another place for Jen entirely. Coming together now, after a return to the place of their first kiss, heightened the evolution of their relationship. She has gone beyond any chance of turning around, there is no going back for her; the innocence of their encounter that day had been washed away and lost at sea.
Jen remembers reading that the piece is thought to represent the sadness of emigration, leaving your homeland, yet looking forward to the horizon for a new start in a new place; this is further symbolization of the desperate need she felt to separate from her current world. However, she could not leave without Tilly; watching her now just made her want her lover more.
Her thoughts led to a yearning to be intimate with the teen. However, with nowhere to go, her mind drifted back to teenage hood. Home belonged to your parents and money was not being earned, like most teenagers who dated, Jen's memory consists of park hangouts and walking aimlessly through town holding hands. Her mind slips back to Jimmy Ellroy.
Jimmy had been her first real boyfriend, she had just turned fourteen, he was sixteen. She remembers coming to meet him friday nights,to sit on the stone wall of the local pub; you were too young to get in but could hear the music from the car park. A bottle of 20/20 or White lightning would get passed around, the boys getting more disruptive as the night went on; the girls faking drunkenness to catch their eyes.
Jimmy had bad acne and a train tracked mouth full of metal, but he had older brothers which meant he was cool; it also meant he often had alcohol and cigarettes. Jen hated his B&H breath, heightened by the fact he thought kissing was shoving his tongue down her throat in a saliva induced frenzy. It was strange to think that her own, extremely experienced lover, is only a year older than he was then.
"What you thinking about?" Tilly interrupts, returning to Jen's side.
"Jimmy Ellroy" Jen answers not fully focused.
"Oh really?" Tilly jokes in mock jealousy. "Do I need to fight him for you?" she adds giggling.
"Actually , you should probably thank him." Jen replies laughing. "I think he may have turned me." she adds, smiling at Tilly and Kissing her. The teen turns into her body and massages the brunette's lips gently with her own; reminding Jen how someone should be kissed. It lacked the anticipation of their first kiss here, the passion and love now far greater exceeding the act. The beach visit has been a nice de-tour, yet, in their current embrace it disappeared; It no longer mattered where they were. Jen realising that having nowhere to go is irrelevant, when they come together, everything else simply fades; the nowhere becoming now here.
"I'm going to take you for a meal." Jen announces to her lover smiling. Tilly looks at her questioningly, knowing they cannot afford such a luxury. "It's extremely posh and the seats are already booked." Jen continues, she grabs Tilly's hand and drags her up the sand dune towards the seafront shops; they finally stop and Jen passes the teen a menu.
"Wow this is posh" Tilly responds with dry wit to her lover.
"Only the best for my girl" Jen replies continuing the role play. Tilly blushes as the weather aged woman serving pulls an unimpressed pout to her colleague. Tilly is unsure if the waitress is responding negatively to their relationship or their shameless sarcasm. Besides Jen has just called her 'my girl' and in public, it would take a lot to knock the smile from her face.
Tilly cocks her shoulder back to show her confidence and continues the game "My french is a little rusty." she jest reading the laminated menu. "I think I'll have...the cornet de frites à la sauce tomate" she adds.
"Excellent choice. I think ill have the same." replies Jen with a grin. She turns to the waitress "Two cones of chips and tomato sauce please." she asks politely.
"une bouteille d'eau." Tilly interrupts.
"oh and a bottle of water please" Jen asks to the unimpressed women.
"Four pound please Love" The cashier asks, as her colleague hands Tilly the cones. "Sauce is on the table to the left." she adds pointing to a silver fold out table, with plastic bottles of sauce, sugar sachets and a carton of UHT milk.
Jen leads Tilly to a near by bench, that looks upon the beach "Best seats in the house, with a sea view." she adds, before snuggling up to the giggling teen. They link arms, Tilly leans her head on Jen's shoulder.
"Thank you. This is perfect." Tilly says after a moment of contented silence.
"So are you." Jen replies with a warm closed mouth smile, before kissing the top of Tilly's head.
After they have finished their food, the pair walk hand in hand along the beach, the sun is lower now and it casts a beautiful glow across the shore.
"You know, you said you would talk about quitting college." Jen states to Tilly, the teen sighs. "I just want you to clearly think about this, I don't want you to give up your dreams of becoming a Doctor." She adds.
"That's the thing Jen. I don't know what I want anymore. I'm not saying I won't do my A levels, I just need a break to think." Tilly answers.
"What is there to think about?" Jen responds.
"For one my sciences. You know I have been unhappy with it for a while but without that I might as well say goodbye to being a Doctor." Tilly replies, a pensive look spreading across her face. She knew she had quit on a spontaneous romantic whim, however, her future plans and aims in life had become so unclear and blurred recently.
"Sometimes you get an idea in your head and you spend so long focusing on it...that you forget what is really important." Tilly continues.
"Whats more important than your dream?" Jen replies.
"Working out if it is my dream or my parents. Then finding out what would truly make me happy." the teen had not really voiced these concerns to anyone before. Her parents had never forced her into anything, however, she wonders how much of her pursuit of medicine had been about her trying to please them.
"Do you still want to be a Doctor?" Jen quizzes.
"Potentially. But like I said I need to think it through. Or ill be unhappy and fail my science." she replies. Jen decides to not push the subject any further; she had worried Tilly was making decision based solely on their relationship, however, she can see the teen is having a personal struggle with her future plans. It is something she can relate too, she has not always wanted to teach; like most teachers she had simple fell into the profession not knowing what to do with her degree.
Reaching the Jeep, they turn to take in one last look of the memory filled beach; kissing each other in a warm embrace before setting off home to Hollyoaks. Neither of the women are in a rush to return home, Jen drives slowly; with traffic light kisses becoming her new favorite game of the day.
"Take me somewhere." Tilly finally announces. Her thought pattern had closely mimicked her lovers on the beach earlier. She wants to be with Jen, before they arrive back home; the pending separation fueling her passion. Jen understands the teens desire for intimacy, it matched her own; heightened always when they neared a time of forced abstinence. "maybe the shack or the car park you took me to once" Tilly adds, remembering the day the two had come together in a violent frenzy.
"O.k, I'll meet you in the Shack, half an hour after I drop you off; it should be dark then." Tilly nods and places her hand on Jen's thigh; as they drive in pent up silence.
Tilly had gone straight to the shack, deciding to wait there; she wanted to avoid having to explain to her parents why she is going back out again. She had draped a dust sheet over the cabin window, they had never been interrupted there, however, she wanted Jen to be safe. It did not feel like she has been waiting long, when she hears the familiar clinking of Jen's bangles approach the shack. She stands to open the door and ushers her lover inside, she had been using her phone as a torch, Jen had brought a thick waxed candle anticipating the darkness; she lights it and places it in the center.
Tilly is standing with her back to Jen at the door, she wedges a piece of wood into the handle; so the door will not open from the outside. She feels Jen press up against her back, her arms wrapping around her waist; she tilts her head as Jen begins to Kiss her neck.
"You're nervous?" Jen whispers into her lovers ear.
"A little." Tilly responds, placing her own hands over Jen's "I just want you to be safe." she adds. Jen knows the risks and tonight she is prepared to take it, her love filled lust is mixing with the dusk air; she has wanted Tilly since the beach. She has no idea when they will get a chance to be together again; she also worries Tilly will not want to after she confesses to the job offer.
She turns Tilly around swiftly and pushes her back into the door, finding the teens mouth in the process, theirs lips and tongues fuse in a breathless fever. Jen finally stops and pushes her forehead to Tilly's.
"Sorry" she says panting, noting the forcefulness of her arousal. "I didn't mean to be rough." She adds.
"I want you to be a little rough with me." Tilly announces in a breathless whisper. "I don't know how long it will be till we are together again." she adds, Jen now realises that Tilly had come to the same conclusion as her. "I want to be able to still feel you, over the next few day...to still feel your lips on mine." the teen adds "To still feel you inside me."
Jen cannot wait any longer, she reaches up Tilly's skirt and gently pulls her underwear to her knees; then slowly strokes back up her inner thigh. Tilly's own wondering hands stop suddenly, as she feel Jen penetrate her; she gasps and looks at her lover.
Jen looks back at Tilly, with her free hand she strokes the teens face "Have I hurt you?" she asks, she is afraid she has lost herself in the passion. Tilly shakes her head and swallows, she is panting too hard to speak. "Do you want me to stop?" Jen asks, wanting to make sure. Tilly shakes her head again, and once her breath is steady she kisses Jen. The brunette kisses her deeply back and re-positions her body pressed up against the teens.
"Wow. Is that your heart beat or mine." Tilly whispers to the brunette, as their chests rise and fall together.
"I can rarely tell anymore." Jen answers honestly. She closes her eyes, exhales slowly releasing both her breath and her restraint; giving in to the lust fully. Tilly tilts her head back against the door, she stares at the ceiling as sound less breaths pump from her mouth as her body is thrust repeatedly into ecstasy.
Jen nibbles gently on Tilly's jaw line and neck, her own breathing heavy, the women both alive with mutual arousal. Jen takes a sharp intake of breath, as her lover's body clenches around her fingers, she feels Tilly cum on her hand; the teens orgasm triggers her own body to release.
Jen shuffles them both to the sofa and falls upon it heavily; she lays Tilly's exhausted body on top of her and holds her tight. They lie still together for a few moments, enjoying the closeness, both allowing their bodies to relax .
Jen strokes her lovers hair and wishes she could hold her through the night like at Ky's apartment.
"I wish we were anywhere else in the world right now." Tilly finally announces, not moving from resting her head on Jen's chest.
"You know...this is going to get harder before it gets easier." The brunette replies.
"I don't care, I'm strong, I won't get lost." Tilly responds, shifting her body around; so she can face the teacher.
"What if im the one who gets lost?" Jen replies, she knows she does not have the teens strength.
"Then I'll jump down the rabbit hole and find you...I will always find you." Tilly says with a reassuring smile. Jen leans forward and kisses her, 'That's what I'm afraid of.' she replies in her head.
Tilly unfastens the top two buttons on Jen's dress, pulling the material down; exposing her right breast. She leans down and sucks hard on the skin just above the bra cup, after several minutes she sits back up.
"This will take a week to fade...by then I will be in your arms again." she adds to the movement. Jen smiles warmly and hopes the teen is right.
Tilly stands from the sofa and pulls her underwear up from half way down her legs. "Please excuse me while I adjust my clothes. My lustful lover slightly disheveled me" she giggles and straddles Jen, kissing her passionately on the lips. The brunette shifts her weight to get into a more comfortable position, however slips; hitting her elbow.
"Oow, my funny bone!" she calls out, as her opposite hand clutches her elbow. Tilly climbs off Jen laughing at the injury. "It's not funny" the brunette shout playfully.
"I think it very Humerus." Tilly mocks with an anatomy pun. Jen rolls her eyes and giggles. "let me kiss it better" the teen states with a smile. Tilly kisses Jen's nose.
"That's not my elbow Tilly?. Jen states. Tilly moves down and kisses her nipple. "that's not my elbow either" Jen adds laughing.
"hmmm Now I know it's around her somewhere. If only I had paid more attention in my biology class." Tilly jests. Moving down the sofa and Jen's body. She pushes up the brunette's dress and pulls down her underwear. Leaning back down she begins to lightly caress Jen with little sucking kisses.
"Tilly that is definitely not my elbow." Jen states, giggling and reaching out for the teens head, Tilly does not respond and simply continues to kiss her intimately. "Miss Evans my elbow is up here?" She continues. This time Tilly looks up.
"I have to disagree. You maybe a teacher but I'm the potential Doctor. I think I should know my anatomy. I am 100% sure it is here." Tilly says with a cheeky smirk.
"I think you were right on the beach...you are going to fail science." Jen says smirking back, She feels Tilly's tongue gently touch her and begin to search.
"um...on further...consideration...oh wow...I think...you...are maybe...ohhh..right Dr Evans. Jen announces, relaxing into the chair; her head thrown back resting on the cushions. her eyes close as their environment once again fades into oblivion.