Thank you for all your comments...'to get well soon'...really appreciated it all. The next chapter is nearly complete, so you'll get it very soon x Cleo

The Aftermath Part 2 - Jen

Jen had returned home following the fight, she had been crying and wanted to be alone; a shower and a change of outfit had finally helped her calm down. Alone in the house, she felt trapped in her own head, so had gone for a walk to get some air; her legs had carried her aimlessly to college coffee. She had not cried since leaving the house, however, her eyes were puffy; had anyone paid any closer inspection they could have easily seen the teachers upset.

She slightly envies Tilly's youthful prioritisation, she had long forgotten how to rationalize a decision based on how good it made her feel; a skill only possessed by the young and the free. People like her made it possible for people like Ky and Tilly to act on instinct and throw responsibility to the wind; a world could not exist without the worker bees. society needed order to survive, otherwise chaos would ensue; the free were only free within the safe compound of structure.

Yet, on the other hand, it is her younger lover who is able to control and suppress her desires. Jen's lust for Tilly is insatiable and she has struggled from the start to keep her hands, eyes, lips and mind from wandering desperately all over the teens body. Tilly is like a drug to her, logic tells her to stay clear from something so detrimental to her life and health; yet, the more she abstains the more she yearns for her.

Only an hour before she had stood in the shower, her tears swirling into the steaming warm water; they had only been a few hours apart. However, she knew that this time Tilly would not be back, the thought had provoked such a longing in the brunette; her hand had slide slowly down her stomach.

She brought her forehead resting on the cold bathroom wall tiles, the water falling onto her neck, cascading down her back; the rest falling over her shoulders. The liquid flowed over her breast, adding even further lubrication as the teacher slid her finders hard across her swallow clitoris; until plunging them deep inside herself. She thrusts in rough movements, in a metaphorical act of self harm, the unnecessary force to physicalize her emotional suffering; her body releasing in unison with her inner turmoil. She had cum fast and hard, her free hand shooting to the wall for support; it had not helped. She slid helplessly down the slippery wall, far too emotionally weak to fight gravity; she curled up into a ball and let the water fall heavily upon her knees.

Back here in the present, she is nursing a cup of coffee, that has long since gone cold. When she is finally interrupted, she does not even hear her brother arrive and sit down opposite her.

"Cheer up it might never happy" he states sarcastically at her sullen face not realizing she is actually deeply hurting. Jen raises her eyes briefly, however, cannot attempt a smile. When she does not to join in his laughter, Liam moves in closer; seeing the tear tracks down her cheeks. "oh god!" he announces sympathetically moving round the table to sit next to his sister. "Whats up?" he questions.

"Nothing" Jen states, suddenly placing a hand on her shoulder in a body language move to protect her self, the other hand reaches to her mouth to subconsciously stop herself from telling the truth. Liam had made clear his feelings on the student/teacher relationship; he is also under a false impression that Jen had ended things.

"Well, I'm not going anywhere until you tell me." he announces. Jen tries desperately to fight back tears. He might not like the truth, however, she had no doubt that he would still support her; his objection to Tilly came from a place of protection not malice. She needed someone to talk to she could trust, she did not expect a positive response, she just needed to get it out of her head. She swallows down hard.

"I think I might of upset Tilly." she says, tryng to censor the truth, to hide the intensity of her true feelings 'I think ive just successfully broke the heart of the women I'm in love with' hardly seemed the appropriate thing to say, even if she trusted Liam; it would not be worth the resorting argument. "I don't think...I know." she adds.

"and why would you have done that." he responds unimpressed and sinking back into the chair. 'Jen what are you doing still with her?' he adds in his head annoyed and his sisters recklessness.

"Just a disagreement." she replies, sighing.

"and why would a disagreement with a student..." he says and turns to look at her, making it obvious he is being pedantic "...upset you."

Jen looks at him and swiftly away, however, does not speak, she does not need to; Liam can read her. She knows he has already worked it out anyway, it is clear enough in her upset, that this means more to Jen than she is openly admitting; that Tilly means more to her than she is allowed to admit.

"I knew it" he states annoyed and leans back again, this time frustrated at her lies; plus even more concerned about her self disruptive spiral. 'why is she gambling her life away on this stupid infatuation'

Jen cannot help but feel patronized "You don't get it." she states, wanting to defend herself.

"Yeah too right I don't." he turns more serious now moving back into her and speaking in a stern audible whisper "What are you playing at!?...your her teacher"

"I know" Jen announces with an annoyed head shake. 'I'm not as stupid as you clearly think I am. I may have messed this all up...but I'm doing the right thing now...which is why I am hurting so much...because despite all of your oppositions Liam...I'm fucking in love with her...which is why I've been taking all these stupid risks.' she breathes deeply to stop her mind rant. It is not his fault, he is trying to protect her, any loving brother would. A hug, however, would have been a nicer gesture than stating the obvious.

"You can't have a relationship with her...you'll get banged up!" he continues in a serious tone.

"Yeah well. there's nothing to worry about anymore." she replies. Stage one is complete, I've successfully broken her heart and she now hates me. Jen sighs and leans back "Trust me...this time it's really over." she adds.

On top of everything that had happened, Tilly had warned her at Ky's, one more time and she would leave; she would not fight for the relationship anymore. All she had left was to cling to the hope that ky is right; and ky rarely is wrong. Tilly would get mad, then even; eventually she would calm down and forgive her... 'She will forgive me, right?'