Wrote this in the train yesterday, had to write about 3 more sentences to finish it, but I can't come up with them anymore (had to get out right before I could finish it...)

Oh and someone who isn't a member of with the name AkuRokuStalker sent me this review:
God, that is so sad. I dont know why but I have a feeling this has happend 2
someone u know. Could u tell us if it is true. Please finish this I want to
know how Axel escapes his hell hole... and IF he escapes.
As you're no member of I couldn't reply to you, so I'll try and reach you here. No, I don't know anyone who's been through something like this, my insiration comes from two stories here on , that are named below. You should check them out, they are way better than this story and were my biggest inspiration. As for the part where you want to know if/how Axel escapes, in the first chapter that's answered, he escapes. You'll have to wait some time before I get there with the story. The story will contain about 30 chapters (at least, I have the content for each chapter roughly thought out, but it could be that I'll make one chapter out of what I thought would be two...). I hope that was useful xD. Let me know, please.

Characters belong to Square Enix, story belongs to me.
Inspiration from"The other side isn't so green" and "Here at the other side" By Sammy-Dee.
For this chapter I was inspired by a song as well: Still alive by Negative.

Hope you enjoy!
~DSL

The evil behind two faces

Chapter 10:

"My relationship with Axel" by Demyx Yamanouchi

I witnessed Axel getting in and out of numerous relationships, but none of them lasted for very long. I witnessed Axel getting numerous jobs, legal, illegal, good payment, bad payment, fun, no fun. Those usually didn't last very long either.

The more people I saw walking in and out of Axel's life, the more I wanted to protect him from the outside world. From the evil that has many forms and shapes. I wanted to make him happy, make him smile. Make him feel safe and loved. The longer I waited, the stronger these feelings got, up to the point where they were unbearable. I hadn't told Zexion about this, even though he asked me all the time. He knew something was going on, he knows me about as good as Axel does and I was pretty troubled.

One night I stayed awake to wait for Axel, to finally tell him how I felt. He came, as I expected and I hugged him tightly, without asking. That wasn't normal, I knew that, but I couldn't help myself. There was too much love and caring inside me to keep under control, so it got out in the form of a tight hug. Even when he struggled, I couldn't let go. He had to listen to what I had to say first. As I told him about my feelings, the struggles got less. I told him I wanted to be close to him, hold him near, make him smile, laugh, make him happy. When I let go, to see what he'd say to my question if he'd give me a chance, I saw his eyes water. There were tears on the brink of escaping, but he wouldn't let them out. He couldn't get the words out, so he nodded. I hugged him again, and felt very happy.

We fell asleep side by side, still holding each other. Axel fell asleep rather quickly, he seemed to be exhausted. I couldn't sleep just yet. I lay there, wondering. Wondering about what would come, what time would bring us. A lot of questions were flying around in my head, some bigger than life itself. Questions that didn't need an answer, because whatever I'd try, I wouldn't get them answered anyway. Some questions scared me, a lot of "what if..." questions, that I didn't want to get answered.

I wouldn't give up on Axel. Whatever time may bring, I wouldn't give up. I would be by his side for the rest of our lives, one way or another.

Our relationship was very good. I tried my best to make him happy, and all he had to do to make me happy was be near me. We spent more and more time together, mostly at my house. In the hours we were with just the two of us, we'd talk about all kinds of things.

Zexion found out quite quickly. He was so close to me and I couldn't keep my happiness from him. He wished us all the good in the world and was happy for us. He gave us a beautiful gift, a genuine smile. I had never seen him smile like that, but it was the most beautiful smile I'd ever seen.

Riku found out after a while, being head over heals for some girl, he didn't pay a lot attention to us, or Zexion. He didn't really care, as long as we would make each other happy, it was fine by him.

The physical contact didn't go further than the occasional kisses and hugs. Axel couldn't really explain why. Something with him not wanting my purity to fade. Later, I found out it was because of the sexual abuse that he refused to have sex with me. I tried to make him change his mind sometimes, but always got the same answer: no. I didn't really agree with him, but I accepted it.

I loved Axel like I hadn't loved anyone before. I tried to make him feel like I felt about myself, accepting, and appreciating some aspects of myself. If I gave him a compliment, he wouldn't accept it, but I'd explain it to him ,and then he would shrug and move on. Sometimes he'd blush at my explanation, but that's it.

The ending of our relationship was sad, but right. I missed the pyshical contact. I wanted to be held close more than Axel could hold me close. He wouldn't give his principle of my purity up, and I wanted him to do so. I accepted that he wouldn't do so, but I would have loved to explore the sexual field with him. Not even just that, just find out which touches he liked, which made him ticklish would've been enough for me. Just find out more about him in a physical way. Unfortunately, that was something Axel couldn't give me. In the end we decided to break up and go on as friends. We soon found out it worked better for both of us that way and it still works today.