It's Memorial Day! It's not really a happy day for me since my dog died two years ago on this day, but it should be a happy day for you!

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Disclaimer- I don't own iCarly or Victorious or any characters from either show, I don't own the song Daughters, that belongs to John Mayer, and I also don't own Facebook.

Oh and this chapter has alot of fluff, so brace yourself.

~Jade POV~

"Is something bothering you?" T-Bo asked me.

It was Saturday so I had work. I tried to focus on what I was doing but my mind was somewhere else. I kept thinking about Sam and the Library.

I shook my head.

"You can take the rest of the day off Jade, go out and find your muse." He said to me as he walked away with that same stick of bagels in his hand.

Find my muse? What did he mean? Whatever, He was giving me the rest of the day off. I couldn't say no to that. I ran up the stairs and quickly changed out of my orange shirt.

I put on my dark blue jeans, brown boots, and my green belted vest. I tied my hair and put on the biggest smile. I grabbed my guitar case, and was down the steps and out the front door of the Groovy Smoothie in seconds.

Slowly and slowly I was breaking out of my shell. I wasn't scared anymore. It was time someone heard my voice.

I stopped in front of a club called "Mary Jane Blues." There was a huge sign that said Karaoke so I said why not. I walked in.

A girl with cropped brown hair was at the mic and singing the words to Taylor Swifts "You Belong With Me."

Everyone was clapping to the beat of the sound, and I could feel the rush of adrenaline racing through me.

"Are you gonna sing or just stand there with my mouth the floor?" I heard someone ask me from behind.

I turned around. It was Riley. It was the same hott as hell Riley, but his hair wasn't the same. It was shorter and didn't look like he had just gotten out of the shower like how it did when I first met him. It wasn't straight.

"Don't worry about it." I shot back.

"Ouch." He said. " What? I don't answers to questions anymore?"

I just stared at him.

He started to laugh.

"What?" I asked. Why was he laughing? What was so funny?

"Nothing. It's just that after the whole thing with Diana, you've been giving me this really nasty attitude." He explained.

I shook my head.

"No. I just don't like you." I replied.

"You sure?" He smirked.

I walked away.

"Okay anyone else want to take the mic?" A man called out from the stage.

This was my chance. I started to walk up, but I felt someone walk past me.

"I will." Riley said as he stepped onto the stage.

"Okay guys looks like Riley's going to take the stage again." The man said into the microphone.

The crowd went wild.

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world

I didn't know he could sing like that.

He wouldn't stop staring at me. It was as if he was singing the song to me.

That's when I started to really hear the lyrics.

But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change

I knew he was singing to me when I felt everyone's eyes in the crowd make there way to me. They were all staring at me, but that wasn't the part that was getting to me though.

It was the lyrics.

And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands

What did he mean? I didn't understand.

Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

What didn't have anything to do with him?

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers

My heart was starting to hurt. Was he talking about my father? Did he know? How did he know?

So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Did he have to say that? My mom wasn't given the chance to be anything to me. She died before she could even try.

The tears were falling. I couldn't stop them. They were already here.

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away

It was the way he was looking at me. Like I was some kind of book.

Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

I wiped my face repeatedly. I just had so many emotions. I couldn't take it anymore. I needed to leave.

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

If only the man who made me could hear this song. I refuse to call him my dad or father anymore. He lost that.

So mothers, be good to your daughters too

He was done and the crowd cheered.

He was walking towards me now. I didn't want him to see me like this.

So I did what I did best. I ran.

"Jade wait!" He called out behind me.

"What do you want from me Riley?" I yelled back.

We were down the street from the club so I don't think anyone could ease drop without being seen.

"Jade calm down." He replied.

"No!" I yelled. "Tell me why you were looking at me like that."

He didn't say anything.

"RILEY!" I screamed. "Can't you see? I'm crazy. I cry for the most stupidest things, I get mad for the most stupidest things, and I'm a bitch for no reason."

"It's because you're broken." He said softly.

"What?" I asked him.

"Something horrible happened to you and I can tell by the way you act." He explained. "You pretend to be this bad ass chick, but it's just your way of protecting yourself."

He was right, and that's what infuriated me.

"I just want it go away! I don't want to hurt anymore. " I sobbed.

"I know, and I'm sorry." He said as he put his arms around me and pulled me into a crushing embrace.

He smelled like strawberries and grapes.

"Riley why are you doing this? I mean what about Diana?" I asked him as I sniffled.

"I broke up with her." He replied as she kissed my hair. " And besides, I've never met a girl like you. You're extraordinary, and I didn't want to loose the chance to get to know you."

I sobbed into his chest.

"You don't even know me." I argued.

"I know Cat." He responded.

My eyes widened. "Wait What?'

"She's my aunts daughter." He explained.

"You're Cat's cousin?" I asked him. I couldn't believe.

"Small world. He said jokingly. "We're really close,and when I go to visit her, she tells me everything that's happened with her life."

"What do you mean?" I asked him.

"She told about her suspicions about you and your dad." He said finally.

Cat noticed and didn't talk to me about it? I couldn't believe it.

"Oh."

"I'm sorry for embarrassing you." Riley said. Breaking the awkward silence.

I smiled. "It's okay, but don't ever do something like that again or I will hurt you."

He nodded. " Sure."

I wiped my face roughly. " I hate crying in front of people."

He smirked.

We started to walk. Side by Side.

"So what did you think of the song?" He asked me.

"You have a really nice voice." I said simply.

"That's it?"

I nodded.

We just continued to walk like that until we were in front of the GS.

"Hey T-Bo!" I said as I made my way through all the people just standing around sipping smoothies with Riley trailing behind me.

"Hey Ja- when I said find your muse I didn't mean find a boy to date." T-Bo said jokingly.

I knew for a fact I was blushing. He had said the d word, and Riley and I hadn't spoken about that yet. I glared at T-Bo.

"We're just going upstairs." I explained.

T-Bo nodded and looked at me knowingly.

I shook my head.

No we weren't going to have sex. I wasn't that desperate.

I collapsed onto my bed as soon as I got upstairs.

"So you live here?" He asked me.

Wasn't it obvious?

I glared at him.

"Jade, I'm just trying to make conversation." Riley explained to me.

" Well don't ask stupid questions." I argued.

"Are you always this difficult?" He asked me.

" Pretty much."

It was quiet and awkward. Again.

Suddenly I heard something. A phone.

It was a text message from Cat.

"Go on Facebook and check Beck's profile." She texted.

I sprang up from my bed and grabbed my laptop.

"What's wrong?" Riley asked as he sat down next to me.

"Cat told me to check my ex boyfriends Facebook page. " I said.

"Oh." He replied simply.

I opened up Facebook and typed up Beck's name.

Everything looked the same except-oh my god.

Beck Oliver Is in a Relationship with Tori Vega.

That was the most recent update on his page. Cat told me they were together, and even though I knew it was true, I didn't want to believe her.

Now it was right in front of me. I didn't want to let go of my old life, and Beck was the last link to it, but now I've lost him too.

"He doesn't deserve you anyways." Riley said taking me away from my thoughts.

"Maybe it's the other way around?"

"You don't think you deserve him?" Riley asked me.

"I try not to think that way, but I just can't help it." I said.

I was going to cry again. I knew it.

"Why can't you?"

"Because she said I was ugly, and fat, and dirty!" I sobbed.

"Who's she?"

"My stepmom!" I sobbed. "You were right. I'm broken, and I can't be fixed so just leave okay?"

"She's wrong." He said softly. " You're not ugly."

"Please stop." I begged.

"You're not fat." He continued. "And you're not dirty."

"STOP IT" I yelled. "Please."

"I think you're beautiful just the way you are." He said finally.

"How could you say that?" I asked him. " You can't just say stuff like that to me Riley. Once you know the real me you'll take it all back."

"I don't care." He said.

loosened up when I saw the look in his eyes.

He slowly brought his hand us to cup my cheek. This wasn't happening was it?

He moved closer and closer and after a moment, his lips met mine. It was unexpected, but amazing at the same time.

I kissed him back after a while, and he responded by rapping his hands around me, pulling me close.

My heart was going to explode, I knew it. It was beating so fast.

Finally we broke apart gasping for air.

"I think you're beautiful, okay?" Riley asked me as he kissed again.

"mmhmm"

My mattress squeaked when Riley's back made contact with it. I was above him, kissing him fiercely. My hands were in his hair, tugging at the locks, bringing his face closer to mine so that our lip lock would deepen.
I missed what it felt to kiss someone so much. It had been too long.

We broke apart for air once again.

Pressing his lips to my neck, he whispered huskily, "Let me help you Jadelyn West"

All I could do was sigh. The way he said my name. He made me feel so warm inside. I could feel my core throb, but I wasn't going to let myself go there. It was too soon.

I smiled up at him. "Don't get used to this Riley."

"What? Us kissing?" He smirked.

I nodded.

"Oh come on, you know you wanted it just as bad I did." Riley whispered.

I smirked. "So now what?"

"I think this is when you decide if I'm your boyfriend or not?"

"Eh." I said teasingly.

"Come on." Riley whined.

"Eh."

"I'd like to be everything you want. Hey girl let me talk to you.

If I was your boyfriend I'd never let you go. Keep you on my arm girl, you'd never be alone.

I can be yout gentleman. Anything you want. If I was you boyfriend, I'd never let you go."

Was this guy seriously serenading me right now? I was definitely blushing.

"Fine." I said softly.

"What was that? Cant hear you."

"I said I'll be your girlfriend." I yelled. " Happy no-"

He silenced me with a kiss.

LONGEST CHAPTER I'VE EVER WRITTEN! At first Riley was just going to be an extra, but I decided to make him a main character. I might have them do it eventually, but not anytime soon, that would be too fast. REVIEW!