Well, I wasn't originally going to post another chapter so soon, but wanted to get it out there since we are going to be moving in a few days and I don't know when we are going to get the computer set back up and internet. Hope you enjoy this chapter and keep reviewing!
Previously:
"Rose, I don't know how to say this and I don't know how it is possible, but…." "Just get to it already," I groaned in true Rose Hathaway style. "Rose…. you are…. pregnant."
Chapter 2
I swear, if I weren't already sitting, I would have collapsed to the floor. "Holy shit," were the only words I could manage to get out of my mouth. I just stared at nothing while my brain tried to process this new found information. "How can that be? We are both dhampirs. I never even crossed our minds to use condoms or anything. This can't be happening". Lissa came over and sat down next to me, placing her hand on mine. "I don't know what to say. Maybe Adrian is wrong. Just know that whatever it is, I am here for you, Rose." I nodded slowly…still trying to make sense of it all. Lissa continued, "If you want me to, I can sneak in a test for you. That way we would know for sure." I felt the tears starting to form in my eyes. If I am pregnant, how the hell would I tell Dimitri? I don't want him to think that I am trying to trap him or anything. I know he doesn't love me anymore; he made it very clear with the words that have been haunting me. "Please do."
With that, my dream faded and I just lied there on my cot. I just hope Lissa hurries up. I want to know if it is true. I never out much stock into what Adrian says a lot of the time, but if he is right about this, I owe him a huge apology for doubting him. Then something clicked. If I am pregnant, would they still be able to execute me if I am found guilty? The thought of alternative punishment excited me somewhat….but as Abe said, "They execute traitors." Would it really be better to wait in this damn cell even longer while I grow to love my baby inside me just to have it ripped out of my arms so they can kill me? I decided then and there that I needed to speak to Abe about that. He would know what to do…hell, maybe it would make him work that much harder to find the Queen's real killer. I will tell him after I find out whether or not it is all true.
About 20 minutes later, Lissa was trying to wake me up. How didn't I hear the cell open? "I'm up, I'm up! God, Liss." She laughed and pulled me up. With a big sigh, she handed me the test. Glancing over to the door, I recognized the man facing away from us…Dimitri. I shot Lissa a questioning look. "He has no idea. Just take the test already!" Rolling my eyes, I got up off the cot and walked over to the toilet. Lissa stood in front of me so Dimitri wouldn't see what was going on if he turned around. After a minute, I placed the test in the sink. "Now we wait. So….what's been going on?" I tried to make some kind of conversation so that HE wouldn't think anything was up.
After a few minutes of talking, Lissa casually made her way over to the sink where I had thrown the test. She picked it up not looking at it and threw it at me. I stood up with it and started to pace. How could I be so scared to look at a stupid plastic stick? Oh yea, the results on this stupid plastic stick could alter my life forever! "Hurry up! I can't stay here all day!" I looked down and saw the 2 very distinct lines. Suddenly, the room started to sway and everything went black. Stupid plastic stick.
DPOV
There is definitely something going on with Rose. Usually, when Lissa visits, she is upbeat and excited. Today she just seems like she is hiding something. She even asked if I could stay out of the cell and just be a guard. This was not like the Princess at all. Something was up but I didn't think that now would be the time to press the issue. So, here I am…standing guard at Rose's cell. I caught a glimpse of her as I opened the door for Lissa. She looked so peaceful laying there and so beautiful. Why did I have to go and fuck everything up? I know she forgives me and even though I may not forgive myself, she loves me and I love her. Everything else would work itself out in time…if I just had the fucking balls to admit it and tell her the truth. Why did I have to be so stupid? Why did she have to believe me? She knows me better than this; she should have known I was lying.
I was snapped out of my mental lashing of myself by Lissa's scream. "Rose, Rose. Wake up! Dimitri, get in here and help me!" I quickly unlocked the door and threw it open, seeing Rose on the floor. "What happened, Lissa?" "She was shocked at something and then just blacked out and collapsed! You have to help me get her back on the cot!" I bent over and picked the beautiful woman up off the ground and carried her to the cot, lying her down gently and climbing in next to her. Caressing her face, I tried to coax her out of unconsciousness. "Roza, Roza, my love. Please wake up. I need you to wake up, Love. Please Roza, I need you." At that moment, I actually started to cry; which I realized as teardrops started to fall on her smooth cheek. I cradled her in my arms, repeating my pleas over and over and letting her know that I love her.
"Dimitri?" Oh God, those beautiful eyes finally opened. "Dimitri, what is going on?" I kissed her forehead. "Oh, Roza. I was so scared I lost you. What happened to you? One minute you were fine and the next, you were on the floor. I love you Roza and I don't know what I would do without you. Are you feeling…." I was cut off by Rose. "Excuse me? Where do you get off calling me that? Love fades…yours has. Remember Guardian Belikov?" A traitor tear escaped her eye and that is when I was hit with it all. Pain, heartache, desperation. It all hit me like a ton of fuckin bricks right then and there. Pain that she thought I really meant those hurtful words that I had regretted the moment they escaped my lips. Heartache for her calling my by my title instead of "Comrade" that I had grown to love her call me. Desperation for to finally see that I want to be with her; to spend the rest of my life with her. In that one moment, a traitor tear of my own slid down my very own cheek.
"Are you crying Guardian Belikov? Like you are the one who has been borderline suicidal. Like you are the one who had their fuckin heart smashed by the one person they can't live without. Like you give a fuck about us! You don't care if we die as long as you are happy, right? Well, we will be just fine without you!" After her rant, she turned over and faced the wall; not bothering to try to hide the sobs that erupted from her chest. I saw her shake her head…probably answering a question Lissa was asking her. Lissa then walked over to where Rose was laying on the floor and picked something up so quickly I didn't get a chance to see what it was.
As I walked Lissa back to her dorm, I made several attempts to ask Lissa about some of the things Rose had said…like about being borderline suicidal and about why she kept saying "us". Lissa wouldn't say anything and just kept walking as if I wasn't there. I just had to speak to Rose. I needed her to tell me everything. I wanted her to hit me, to yell at me, to tell me everything she was feeling and exactly how she felt. I want her to get it all out and I wanted to hold her and tell her everything was going to be alright and that I was a complete fucking idiot for ever letting her think I didn't love her and that I didn't want her in my life forever. I want to go out right now and buy her the biggest fucking diamond in the world perched upon a delicate gold band and ask her to be mine for the rest of our lives. I, Dimitri Belikov, want to marry that insatiable, wonderful woman…to make her mine and show her I will never leave her again and that I could never love anyone remotely close to how I worship her.