Helluuuu Bitchezzz~Ish back widda new chappie=] sorry for the waitXP anyways hope u enjoys it~ Sorries for OOC-ness! whole chap Normal POV btw.
Disclaimer: Nope don't own.
the truth is that I really miss you, in my life
I heard that bouncing back was easy
but I can't seem to get you off my mind
and I know that you can't hear me
but I think about you every day
and I have the shortest memory
but I can't forget the pain,
that I felt when you when away
I can't have it both ways
I'm sorry that I said goodbye
people say I did the right thing
but they don't have to cry
I can love you for all the thing that you are
and then hate you for all the things that you're not
I want you to go, I want you to stay
but I can't have it both ways
Just can't have it - Esmee Denters
Normal POV
Amu pouted when her Grandma refused to give her a third plate of her favorite dish
"Mou~Grangran i won the contest~" The girl whined, Souko just sighed
"Amu sweetie you finished everything i made! I didn't even eat yet!"
Amu just pouted angrily "If you're going to cook for yourself might as well cook for me too..." She muttered to herself. Annoyed by her granddaughters whining Souko picked her up and dropped her out the door
"No is no Amu!" And there the door shut closed...Amu sighed 'Aw well...Let's see what Kukai-kun is doing~'
She ran to Kukai's room and knocked on the door
"Come in!" smiling Amu did as told and went in closing the door behind her "Hey! What's up kid?" Kukai grinned, Amu smiled turning around to answer but stayed still and said nothing seeing him, Kukai raised his eyebrow at her reaction "What?"
"Why are you doing push-ups...with two fingers...with bunch of thick heavy-looking books on your back?" She asked pointing at him, He just grinned
"My daily exercise!" Amu sweatdropped 'Excercise? Daily? no wonder he's so strong and fast..' Amu shrugged and sat infront of him
"Kukaaaii~"
"Hm?"
"I'm hungry~"
"Uuhm...i think i got a shortcake in my fridge, u can eat-" before he could finish his sentence Amu already left and came back with the pink mini-cake in her hands while eating
"Fan kyu!" Kukai just chuckled and ruffled her hair
After Amu finished her cake she brought the plate back to the kitchen and went back to Kukai hopping on the books on his back and sat on him, Kukai blinked but continued his training
"Oi, What do you think you're doing?" Amu just giggled
"Helping you!" she smiled, Kukai just rolled his eyes
"Suree, I thought you wanted to break my back but i was wrong!" Amu pouted and playfully hit his head
"Mou Kukai~" Kukai chuckled
"Just kidding~"
Amu rolled her eyes "Suree~"
"Anyway why'd you come here?"
"Hmm...was bored and granny doesn't want to cook for me~" she shrugged
"Really? didn't you eat breakfast then?"
"I did! three round in fact~" Amu said proudly
"I see, Well...don't get to fat piggy~"
"Mou Kukai~"
"Well, This helping un-boring you?"
"Hmm...nawh not really...Tell me a story!"
"A story? About what?"
"I dunno whatever.." Amu shrugged "Ah! i know! How do you know Amu-chii~?" Kukai blinked and stopped doing push-ups and lay on his stomach and smiled softly, curious Amu got off him and did the same lying on her stomach in front of him and looked at him "You gonna tell me or keep smiling like a love-struck idiot?" Kukai blinked and tapped her nose
"Fine~Well...For starters in from elementary till highschool i was always the class-clown, But also got picked on alot..bullied, made fun of and such..didn't really have that much friends and the ones i did have just came and went.." Amu interrupted Kukai and rose up her hand tilting her head to the left
"I don't get it...I always thought you were one of those popular jocks.." Kukai sighed and nodded
"During that time i was quite fat and lazy,"
"Eh? Really?" Amu asked bewildered and surprised, Kukai chuckled
"Yup, I always loved sport though, but was never good at it. When i was in 1st year highschool i wasn't fat anymore but still a little chubby in the face and still had a round tummy. Like any normal kid of course one of the things a guy does is impress girls with stories which mostly aren't true, and that's what i did, i told them that i was captain of the soccer team in my previous schools and that i always caused the team to win. Later on a couple of 3rd years dared me to join the school's official soccer team and prove my story. There was one team for each year but the main team that would go against other schools and official games was yea what they told me to join. And well..me being me of course i accepted but completely understood how stupid i was the day after...still though i insisted i would make it, so every i trained and trained. Not only soccer but also worked out in the gym and did daily exercise, i only had 5 months to train till the tryouts for the next team would begin. That's how i met Amu..I accidentally kicked the ball in her face though and she was quite pissed hehe," Kukai laughed sheepishly while Amu sweatdropped "She scolded me for having poor aim and not enough power and speed, Being a little sexist i dared her to do better and she did...i was surprised then, either she was a great player or i was so bad i lost to a girl-"
"Think a little of both~" Amu muttered, hearing it Kukai glared at her and stuck his tongue out
"Anyway, since then Amu trained with me everyday and thanks to her i made it into the team and actually turned my stories into reality since i was the top player then, and still am but then japan's top soccer player! Well...around my age then..Funny thing is though we went to the same school for 2 years but never met eachother...well...maybe because i was her senpai so she had other classes but still..the school wasn't that big...anyway there's your story!"
"Eeeeeh~Not what i expected at all...good enough though." Kukai sweatdropped at her but Amu just smiled back
"What about you hm? How did you meet her?" Amu blinked then smiled
"Through a story!"
"Eh? I know she's really popular but they have books and stories about her now?"
"I dunno...My mom wrote and told it to me~"
"Your mom writes stories about Amu?...eeeh..who knew even adults would be obsessed fans of her...even to the point of naming their daughter after her...freaky," Amu pouted and hit Kukai's head, he just chuckled
"Yea she did write a story about her, only for me though~And my mom isn't a obsessed fan of hers either! Also she didn't name me after her for that reason~"
"Ok ok geez relax kid, was just kidding kay?"
"Hmph~!" Kukai rolled his eyes at her childishness but shrugged it off and continued his excercise.
"By the way why didn't you show up yesterday? ! I thought we'd bike around the whole place together before the contest~" Kukai pouted, Amu blinked
"Oh yea! sorry i forgot~" Amu said sheepishly, Kukai's eyebrow twitched
"Sorry? We already planned it from the beginning~!" Amu just rolled her eyes
"I couldn't have come anyway.."
"Oh yea? what happened hm?"
"I grabbed my Bitch, fucked it but my condom kept falling off~" Amu pouted looking at him Innocently, Kukai on the other hand almost choked on his own breath and stared at her totally shocked 'What the fuck? !' Amu tilted her head in confusion at Kukai's reaction "What~?"
"T-the heck! Where'd you learn that language? !" Amu blinked innocently and smiled
"From my dad!"
Flashback
When Ikuto fetched Amu from school he had the radio on..A pervy song played but thinking Amu wasn't listening he kept in on since he liked the song himself...
At home
"Daddy~"
"Hm?"
"I liked the song just now!"
"R-really now..?"
"Mm-hm! But i don't get it.."
"Ah."
"What does Bitch mean~?"
"Uhm...bike."
"What does Fucked mean~?"
"Bike...ing...biking.."
"What is a condom?"
"Uhm... bicycle chain.."
End of flashback
"Same thing happened when i was on my way to you..." Kukai sweatdropped
"Right..." 'You got one dumbass father...' Amu just smiled at him while he finished his push-ups and began putting the books back and began watching TV with Amu on his lap..still quite disturbed by what she said...'Bike...biking...bicycle chain..eh?'
After a while Amu got bored and decided to go to her room.
"Coco-ba-chan! I'm back~"
"Ah! there you are! Amu has been looking for you!" blinking Amu dashed to the living room
"Eh? really? Sorry!"
"No need to apologize Amu," Amu(h) smiled "Anyway i just wasted to tell you a few things, well first off, sorry but i can't do a song with you, to make it good though i thought maybe you'd like to go with me on my tour? If possible you can sing with me on stage if your nog too shy and afraid too."
"YES I WANT TO! Can i granny can i? !" Souko giggled and nodded, totally psyched Amu glomped her grandmother making Amu smile remembering her own
"TSUKIYOMI AMU!" Both Amu(H) and Souko turned to the door recognizing the voice both hoping their minds where just playing games with their ears. The moment the door shot open all eyes widen. Ikuto dropped his baggage the moment his eyes fell on the pink-haired girl who was just as shocked as he was, Amu(T) though still obvlious to the problem smiled seeing her dad and ran up to him hugging him
"DADDY! You came! i thought you were totally against this!" Ikuto still frozen in shock didn't respond and kept staring at the person he thought he'd lost forever, blinking Amu released her dad and followed his gaze till it stopped on Amu(h), a grin soon appeared on the brunette's face 'Ooooh~Long time no see eh~?' "AH! Grangran you have to come now! i forgot something!" snapping out of her frozen state Souko immediately grew worried and alarmed going after her granddaughter. Both out of the room Amu(T) silently closed the door and pressed her ear against it. Blinking Souko hit the back of her granddaughters
"What do you think you're doing missy? i thought you had something you had to do?" She glared, Amu sighed
"I know! This is what i have to do!"
"Huh?...Ah! Oh my god Ikuto came and is alone in the room with Amu!" Amu just rolled her eyes and motioned for her grandma to be quiet, Souko did and pressed her ear against the door too
"You know...for anyone who'd walk by or come out of their room...this would look really wrong and embarrassing..."
With Ikuto and Amu
Noticing Ikuto's stare a blush slowly crept up her cheeks and she quickly looked away trying to keep her blush down, Ikuto blinked realizing the same thing. Feeling awkward by the silence Amu decided to say something
"Hey..."
"Hey to you too.."
"Uhm...you changed.."
"And so did you. Now if you looked like that back then, then i wouldn't be worried about being seen with you." Amu blinked and then out of the blue began giggling, making the male raise his eyebrow
"U-uhm nothing...Thanks...i guess.." She smiled 'Daaamn! She really did change, already loved her smile back then but now...damn girl!' "So...uhm..yea i'm taking Amu with me if you don't mind.."
"No can do, already gave her to you without even knowing so yea, no." Amu blinked and frowned leaning on one hip
"You think you can tell me what to do? She want's to and Souko already gave persmission."
"So? I'm the parent." 'The hell? ! Tch. still as stuborn as before.'
"You should listen to your mommy Iku-chan~" She smirked, Ikuto's eyebrow twitched
"It's my kid, Muri-chan~" He smirked back, Amu's eyes widen and she glared at him only causing his smirk to grow bigger 'Still so much fun to tease eh?'
[A/N Hinamori mori - muri, muri = useless/impossible, useless/impossible - Amu when she was still with Ikuto and Kotone, Muri-chan = Nickname Ikuto gave her for being useless and clumsy.]
"Hmph! Either way she's still going with me, like it or not." Ikuto rolled his eyes
"Whatever you'll see..Wow...you actually wear a bra now? what size? looks C to me~going D maybe?" He smirked, Following Ikuto's gaze she noticed her (spaghetti)strap fell off exposing a part of her chest even though it was covered by her bra...Amu's face immediately flushed now being the color of a ripe tomato ready to be plucked. She immediately covered her chest and put her strap up her shoulder avoiding his gaze
"P-perv..." She muttered, Ikuto just chuckled
"Oh c'mon, what are you getting so worked up about? It's basically the same as a bikini geez," Amu just glared at him "Ok ok fine sorry, good now?" She just 'hmph' -ed and looked away again. Ikuto sighed and walked to her turning her face towards him making her blush again, he chuckled "Geez, what's up with you? Missed me that much hm?"
"Not even in my dreams.." Ikuto rolled his eyes and went behind her hugging her softly
"Well...i did miss you though...in fact i missed you alot.." He whispered, Amu's heart skipped a few beats as her face just grew darker and darker, again Ikuto chuckled
"Geez! what's up with you? ! Tch...there's nothing to make fun of yet you keep annoying me.." She mumbled pushing him away
"You're making it too easy~"
"Whatever...just stop it." 'Don't do things that confuse me Ikuto...i already chose to let you go...' Ikuto sighed and sat down
"Well...thanks." Turning to him Amu blinked
"Huh?"
"For taking care of Amu." He smiled, Amu couldn't help but smile back
"Sure.." Ikuto turned to the window and looked outside, the wind blowing his through his hair when he slightly opened the window
"It's nice..outside i mean,"
"Uh..thanks."
"Can't believe you actually made it without me.." Amu blinked
"Y-you remembered..?" He just chuckled
"Of course~Mitsuki thought of how it'd look like and i said i'd make it for her but then you butted in saying you would."
"Well, i did didn't i?"
"Tch. Without me even knowing."
"Talking about us..U-us three i mean! u-uhm..hows Mitsuki doing?" Ikuto frowned
"She's gone.."
"W-what?"
"Dead...She died after Amu's birth.." Ikuto's mood immediately changed completely, talking about Mitsuki was one of the things he hated and found hard to do without getting emotional, crying, getting angry or snapping at people, Amu's eyes widen and searched in Ikuto's eyes hoping he was playing with her again but he kept looking outside, a sad expression soon made it's way on Amu's face as she looked apologetically at Ikuto
"I-i'm sorry...I didn't know.." 'S-she's d-dead..?'
"Tch. Of course you didn't...how could you know? You left us..without leaving anything for us to at least contact you..."
"I-i didn't want you to-"
"Then don't be angry you didn't get a invitation for her funeral.."
Amu became pissed by Ikuto's behavior "What? I-i'm not!I mean sure, more than anything the least i wanted was to be there if i knew but i didn't oke? !" Ikuto tightened his fist and snapped
"Do you know how much it hurt her huh? We spent days searching for you! A fucking month Amu! She kept telling herself it was her fault you left...she didn't eat and refused to sleep! Even before you left! You just ditched her! You know how long she waited by the mall huh? she stayed there till 1am! It was raining but she still waited..and in school? No explanation..instead? you decide to give us a cold shoulder...what the hell was that for? ! What the hell did we do!" Amu glared at him
"What did you do? You tossed me aside! You acted as if i didn't exist! Both Mitsuki and you! All there was now were You and Mitsuki..every time i wanted to go out with either of you you'd let me down and say you already had plans with each other...even at school, don't even simply greet or eat lunch together...I fell so out of place so i left!"
"The hell..? What happened Amu? We used to be inseparable.."
"Alot Ikuto...Things changed."
"Yea..You changed, You turned into a self-centered,selfish bitch. What the fuck were you thinking? ! Never mind. You weren't thinking..at least not about us..you only thought of yourself! Only thought about your future! your career! only thought of making your dreams come true!" Amu inwardly flinched while he was spewing venom with his words when he spat them at her..but even though those words reopened the wounds he made earlier and just made them worse, instead of snapping back Amu snickered and a bitter smile soon adorned her face
"You have no idea Ikuto..you couldn't have been closer from the truth.." Ikuto's blood boiled with anger thinking she was making fun of him, going along with what he said. He clenched his fist and just wanted to hit her but chose against it knowing he'd regret it and that'd it would only make it much worse than it already was
"Don't play with me Amu..I don't want to hurt you.." He warned her seriously not sure if he could control himself if she'd push him that far
Amu scoffed "Tch. Asif you haven't already done so.."
"Seriously Amu..Don't."
"Don't what Ikuto? ! You think i'll just let you off like that? After all the things you've said? ! Don't talk if you don't know a damn thing." Amu's voice trembled and she just wanted to leave..she couldn't take it anymore, but the moment she turned her back intending to do just that Ikuto grabbed her arm
"Then fuck Amu tell me! I know you left us! You got offered a great scholarship and moved! You suddenly just stopped hanging out with us! You ditched us! You never called or returned our calls! You hurt us Amu...Without a single fucking reason! ...So tell me Amu if i don't know a thing then tell me what i'm missing! You were our best friend...My best friend.." Ikuto's eyes teared up and his grip tightened unknowingly at every sentence he said, Amu on the other hand just looked down and stayed quiet until Ikuto's grip was just to tight
"Ikuto your hurting me!" Ikuto tightened his jaws and let go of her hand roughly and walked past her...Slaming the door open he walked out of the room leaving Amu there...hugging herself she whispered in a shaky voice
"I-ikuto...You're right...i am selfish...at some point i did..i did only think of myself...but when not, you clouded my mind...I thought of your future...your happiness...i only thought of you...I stood in love with you Ikuto and i fell...I fell in love with you...That's what you missed..." Amu pursed her lips to keep her from crying and rushed to her room locking the door behind her and slid down to the floor hugging her knees telling herself it would be alright...when they would leave everything would turn back to normal..believing that she slowly stood up and dried her eyes which became a little watery and smiled to herself heading towards her living room only to find her friend sitting on the couch glaring at her...Amu smiled
"R-rima..what are you doing here?" Rima glared harder and walked up to her slapping Amu in her face...Amu's eyes widen and she fell to her knees holding her stinging cheek. "R-rima..." What angered the blonde more was that Amu still kept smiling..Rima sighed and hugged her friend as tight as she could
"You're stupid...Such an idiot..." Amu just leaned into her but still kept smiling
"W-why am i so weak? I-i...i thought i could...a-and even when i found out..i still...i already decided to move on and forget him..already decided not to cry anymore...R-rima i-" That's when Rima snapped
"You're not weak oke? ! You're strong..Everytime you feel like crying you manage to put on a so-real-it's-almost-scary-smile, keeping all the negative emotions in...Even when you're grandparents died you were happy and smiling again the next day...And most of the time those smiles are real...but it's oke now...you already proved your good at holding back tears but you can let it all out now Amu.." And then Amu broke...for the first time in 9 years Amu cried...holding her fragile friend in her arms Rima couldn't help but let out a few tears herself, she bit her lip hugging Amu tighter 'Stupid...Fuck you Tsukiyomi...This is exactly what i was afraid of..'
Amu(T)'s and Souko's POV - A bit after the two started barking at each other they left, souko not wanting her granddaughter to hear her dad scolding..
Why the heck do i have such a Idiotic-insensitive-Stupid-Dumb-Dense-Inconsiderate Dad/Son!
WAAAAAAAAAAAHH! STUPID IKUTO RIGHT? ! well, that it for nows:P sorries peeps! nyaha got u wanting mores~? yea? YAY! sorry i didn't update like i said was quite busy so yea but since i updated it tonight i'm not updating the next chap tomorrow kay?..and Love me...well prolly tuesday orso? like i said might delay in updating and update days can be random BUT i will (try) update weekly so don't worry=] well hope u enjoyedXP PLS SHARE N REVIEW!(l) That's what keeps me active~sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes btw! but too lazy to redoXP as long as u can follow n all its good enough:Psame goes for Love me! niways thanks for reading n stay tuned;3 btw i love esmee denters n her songs~check it out=]