OH EM GEEEEEE! Im so sorry for leaving this story hanging for so long But please just understand that my life is so busy right now with school and work :/ Hardly have time to even go on the net...cut short IM UUUUBER BUSY! So most likely wont be able to update weekly...i mean, actually im sick now but yea stil alive so thought might as well update...just hoping u guys didnt get tired of waiting and are still reading the story :) Anyway here's the next chappy! (finally i know...) SORRY FOR THE WAIT!
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DISCLAIMER: oh wow that i'd actually miss this :o nawh bullshit how can i miss this? Anyway...DONT OWN!
Everyone says don't give him no more chances
He don't deserve them at all
You ignore them letting him right back in
So all this pain is your fault
You blame him for your tears
But you keep giving in
No, I don't think you're really getting it
You are you're
You are you're worst enemy
Cause you give him everything
When you know it's love, it's detrimental
You're able to stick around
So take you're eyes off the ground
You are you're
You are you're worst enemy
Love hurts - Tynisha Keli
...
I knew from the start that this will be an uphill climb,
but I did it anyway
Hoping a change of heart
will somehow appear and we'd be okay
I must have been asleep making decisions
I woke up feeling different
It wasn't what I was asking for
Said we got potential of forever
Pursuing it together
don't know what I'm waiting for
When I know that's it's all
Wishful thinking
that's all it ever was
Just a fictitious love
Wishful thinking
I wanna live back on Earth
Cause in the clouds I keep getting hurt
I'm not getting a thing, living inside of my dreams
of what I thought we would be
It was just wishful thinking
Wishful thinking got me stuck
Stuck between a wall and a rock
Cause I still want you
even though you pulled a hit and run
Now it's gone too far
My hearts been hopin' for too long
That one day you'll come
You would change up your decision
To make this love official
I'm asking for just a little more
Said we got potential of forever
Pursuing it together
don't know what I'm waiting for..
As of right now I'm making some changes in my life
Loving you is all wrong
But I look for ways to make it all right
Gotta wake up, wake up, wake up
it's time I let this go
Wake up, wake up, wake up
I gotta let you go
As of right now I'm making some changes in my life
Loving you is all wrong
But I look for ways to make it all right
Gotta wake up, wake up, wake up
it's time I let this go
Wake up, wake up, wake up
I gotta let you go
Wishful Thinking - Tynisha Keli
Normal POV
Finally arriving at the Tsukiyomi's residence, Amu got out of her car and walked to the back door knowing it was open at night since the maids and other employees would be soon finishing their work so would be going home in a few. Thinking it might be fun to surprise her 'ex', she decided to be sneaky and play a bit. So being the half-blooded ninja she is, she silently searched through the mansion looking for her friend.
'Ugh…seriously, I don't get why you have such a big house with only two people living in it…what if something happens to her and you're like on the other side of the house? Do you even hear her when she calls?'
Growing a bit tired and irritated Amu was about to quit her sneaky act and just shout his name but decided against it when a voice caught her attention. 'Aruto-san?' Not wanting to meddle with business that wasn't hers Amu just stood behind the big oak door leaning slightly against it. –Though eavesdropping already made her meddling with the business…-
"Why don't you just listen!" Aruto's stern voice echoed through the room..startling Amu a bit, she assumed it was a family meeting and was about to leave when she heard something she didn't want to..
"How can u ask me to marry someone I don't love? !" Ikuto barked back standing up
Amu froze…'Marriage? They're talking about marriage? Why? Aruto-san is strict but not that strict he would force his son into an arranged marriage, right?'
"Ikuto, just listen to your father..please?" Amu was confused..even the kindhearted understanding Souko was forcing her son into an arranged marriage? 'Even Souko-san? What's going on..?'
"But-"
"Ikuto just listen to your father god damn it!" Amu flinched at the sudden outburst of Souko..Even Ikuto, never in his dreams would expect that from his mother..even Aruto was quite surprised
Not wanting his mother to get more angry than she already was, Ikuto gritted his teeth looking down "Fine…"
A tear slid down Souko's cheek hearing her son's forced dry reply..she raised her hand ready to give him a smack but Amu couldn't take it anymore..even though running away was in her mind her body did the complete opposite and barged right into the room stopping right infront of Ikuto receiving the impact and a stinging pain on her cheek.
The room was silent and everyone froze in shock..Souko's eyes widen as she quickly held the poor child's face in her hand
"Amu...why did...i'm sorry.."
"Why…why are you making him do something he clearly doesn't want? Why are you forcing him? Why-"
"Amu." Ikuto's voice brought her back to reality "Just forget about it, what's it to you anyway?"
'What's..it…to me?' Amu just stood there frozen..Souko, knowing Amu's feelings felt sad..when Amu's was about to run away Souko grabbed her hand
"Amu, I don't want you to think anything bad of us..as Ikuto's parents we are helping him correct his mistake..Amu, maybe now you don't understand but please Amu, don't make it harder than it already is.." Souko's voice was soft…but Amu couldn't help but wonder what it was that Ikuto did..
"Then what did he do! Ikuto always did what you guys told him to! Flawlessly! Never argued, never talked back, never asked! He just followed! So what did he do wrong then? ! How can you-"
"I'm pregnant!" A new voice shouted interrupting her rant..Amu froze 'huh?' She turned to the girl sitting behind Ikuto…She was fairly a beauty to be honest, but the thing that spoiled the image were her tears..And somehow it made Amu feel guilty.. "I know who you are Miss, and I also know you are close with Ikuto since childhood..but damn woman that doesn't mean his business is yours!"
Amu was taken aback, how dare she talk back to her like that? She was just an option! Even she was being forced into the marriage! Though of course, who would so no to that? Marrying a rich hot CEO..Amu's guilt was replaced by anger
"So what if you're pregnant? What the hell does that have to do with this? You're just some random girl his parents chose to be their daughter-in-law! Don't act like you're part of the family now! And since you're pregnant you should feel ashamed! Instead of agreeing to this you should stick to your man!" Amu was more than pissed..heck she wasn't even thinking! She only realized the things she said after she said them…only to regret saying them and inwardly scolding herself for being such an idiot.
The girl smiled… "I am…I am sticking to my man and I am part of the family now..What do you know? I could say the same to you..you're just his childhood friend yet you act like you're his girlfriend.." Amu was taken aback with the Girlfriend comment.. "You know, you talk quite big for someone who doesn't know what's going on…quite defensive aren't we? Then again..i would probably do the same..So let me just tell you a little story.
There was this girl..she worked for one of the country's best company and was the secretary of the CEO. She developed a crush on her employee and it soon turned into love…The CEO was aware of his secretary's feelings but in his heart there was only one woman. The girl knew this but still couldn't help it, and her feelings just grew stronger…One night after a business celebration the girl found him drunk…He mistook her for the woman he loved and seduced her..and since she loved him how could she say no? This was her chance, even though she knew those feelings weren't for her she was getting what she wanted that was enough for her..she would be content with that. But she got pregnant..and the guy's parents found out about this..so of course they would have a say in it..Also it'd be bad for the guy's image if ever it leaked that the country's most loved CEO had a one-night stand with his secretary right? So the parents decided the two get married.."
Amu was speechless…in a few ways the two were the same…both loving him knowing he loved someone else..The earlier events replayed in her mind…the things she was thinking were the same things the girl was thinking about..
What can go wrong? I mean...it's just for today anyway..Plus, i always wanted to go out on a date with him! Not as friends~So this is a good opportunity for me to spoil myself a little right? He won't know it's the real me...that those are my real feelings..so it's fine...but that's also what hurts...He doesn't know...'
even though it was just a play, I'm allowed to enjoy it right?
FLASHBACK
"Why..? Amu..Really, i don't like you hanging out with him..I know he doesn't mean anything bad but i don't like you getting hurt..."
"Thanks for caring about me Rima, But i'm not hurting oke? Especially not because of him~I'm over him now! Completely~" Rima frowned
"Yea?"
…
"I'm strong! You said so yourself! Even though it's fake i got what i wanted and for now that's enough~"
END OF FLASHBACK
'Even though it's fake…you got what you wanted..' And again the guilty feeling returned
"Even though I know, I know he won't be happy during our marriage how can I say no to that? And isn't it his responsibility? He's the father of my child..So what's wrong in me marrying him? I love him…I really do…to the point where..i..i.." Tears just streamed down her cheeks and Amu couldn't take it anymore…Her eyes grew teary and the last thing she would want is for Ikuto to see her cry..she looked at the crying woman in front of her and smiled apologetically and whispered only loud enough for her to hear
"I'm sorry..i know what you're feeling…and I know how much it hurts…so take your chance, enjoy..Who knows maybe one day those feelings will be returned.."
That said she immediately left the room and ran out of the house…
The room was silent…Ikuto hearing the story felt guilty…Aruto hearing he story felt disappointed…Souko hearing the story felt sorry…And Haru being the one in the story felt all of that..guilty because she would be taking his happiness away…she would be forcing him into something he didn't want..But she didn't blame Ikuto..Amu was somewhat right, but she had her right, right? But Haru still felt guilty…She felt disappointed because she thought Ikuto would take up his responsibilities..She felt sorry for him because she knew it didn't make him happy..but she also felt thankful…thankful that he was willing to sacrifice that for her…happy that in the end he finally gave in..and slightly hoping…hoping that in the end it would turn out all right..they would live a happily ever after…but she also knew that happily ever after's only happened once upon a time.
With Amu
Arriving home Amu slammed the door shut and rushed into her room and into the bathroom…not bothering to undress she turned on the shower and sat against the wall letting the cold water hit her now fragile figure…Amu was out of the world..she didn't hear the knocking on the door..
Rima's POV
'Seriously? What could be taking that girl so long?' I sighed frustrated…really..sometimes I wonder if that girl really is using her brain…
I was about to go up to my room when I heard the front door bang and a blurry fuzz of pink running up..'Here we go again…' I sighed and walked up to her room and heard the shower being turned on 'Don't you get tired of this Amu?' I knocked at the door but no response. I sighed and went it nonetheless and saw Amu under the shower with all of her clothes still on…her mascara running, making her tears more obvious –though most of the damage to her make-up probably done by the shower- I sighed as I walked over to her turning the shower off making her aware of my presence. I looked at her state..even though I was used to seeing her like this, this time it was different…the image just screamed HEARTBROKEN...
"Hey..what's up?" I knelt beside her trying in some sort of way to clean her face..but she just cried more burying her face between her knees and just burst into tears..
"H-how could I be so s-stupid? God I'm such a f-fool!" I couldn't help but feel sorry for her..not knowing what else to do I just hugged her and listened
"What happened? What did he do this time? Though I totally agree with you, you are a stupid fool.."
…
Oke…so now I'm seriously going to kill him..normally she smiles at me when I say that!..But instead she just tried to control her tears and smiled…he did some serious damage…
"I-I heard Aruto-san…he was t-talking about a marriage…Ikuto getting m-married…b-but Ikuto refused so S-souko got angry and was about to h-hit him but instead I basically j-jumped in front of him and took it...And I started talking back to his p-parents…demanding to know w-why they were forcing him into m-marriage when they didn't h-have a p-problem with him b-being single at all b-before..but now suddenly d-deciding on that. Turns out he g-got drunk after a b-business party or w-whatever and had a o-one night stand with h-his secretary and got h-her p-pregnant...thinking it was M-mitsuki he was doing…so y-yea..you get the main s-story..God R-rima how c-could I be so s-stupid! B-but Rima, y-you know w-what? Me and h-her are the s-same..She a-also r-really loves h-him..s-so I shouldn't g-get in their w-way r-right? R-right R-rima?...R-right..? B-but it hurts…I-it hurts s-so f-fucking bad Rima…I-it hurts…R-rima it h-hurts…"
I was speechless…son of a…God Amu..what have you gotten yourself into? And unknowingly tears started to form in my own eyes…
"I told you! I even warned you! Why don't you listen!" I was more than furious at the young Tsukiyomi..heartless bastard…
"I-i...i thought...Rima...i..."
"Shhhh...I'm here oke?"
I hugged her tightly as she clung on to me…her grip on my shoulder was tight..and it hurt…but I couldn't even imagine what she was going through right now…I just patted her head and kept telling her it was oke..she wasn't alone...even though anything I did probably didn't help, hey, it was better than nothing and of course I would try and comfort her right? Cause that was all I could ever do…offer her comfort..
Normal POV – Tsukiyomi residence
Souko smiled at the little sleeping figure…feeling almost bad she had to wake the poor kid up.
She sighed as she walked over to the bed and slowly and gently shook the sleeping girl. She didn't budge though and just groaned turning to her side. Souko sighed..
"Amu hunny? Wake up dear." Amu just groaned and shrugged the woman's hand away "Amu sweety wake up," Amu slowly opened her eyes and yawned mumbling a 'What?' "Do you mind sharing you bed?" Amu blinked and slowly sat up rubbing her eyes
"Huh?" The little girl whispered tilting her head, Souko couldn't help but smile at the sight.
Souko sat beside her and stroked her cheek "Amu, daddy has to tell you something.."
The still sleepy girl blinked "What?" Then she saw her dad leaning against the door with a forced smile on his face..'What's going on?' the little girl wondered
Ikuto walked towards her sitting opposite of his mother and held his daughters hand, confusing the confused girl more
"Amu, Daddy has to tell you something.." Ikuto started, Amu blinked and just nodded not knowing what else to do..
The girl felt nervous…what could it be that they wanted to tell her eleven thirty in the evening? And who was the one she had to share a bed with? And most importantly…WHY THE HELL DID SHE EVEN NEED TO SHARE HER BED WHEN THEY HAD GUESTROOM'S? !
"Amu, I would like you to meet someone..Amu this is Haru," Taking her cue Haru walked in and smiled at the confused girl..
"Hi Haru-chan…?" Amu mumbled, Haru giggled
"Ahw, Aren't you a cutey?" Amu just rose her eyebrow
"Yea…heard that before.." Haru blinked and giggled
"Quite mature aren't we?"
"Sure…" Not knowing what else to say Haru coughed and looked at Ikuto who just rolled his eyes and nodded
"Anyway Amu…"
"Yes daddy?"
"You'll be sharing your bed with her tonight.." Ikuto stated
Amu was more than confused now, why not get her a freaking guest room? "Why?" Amu stubbornly puffed out her cheeks crossed her arms "I don't want to…"
Haru just smiled "Amu, I just thought it might be a chance for us to have some bonding..you know? Mother and daughter bonding~?" Amu blinked and looked at the smiling brunnete
"Mother and Daughter bonding? Dad, what's going on?" She quickly looked at her dad demanding answers
"Amu, this is Kagami Haru, your…mother-to-be…"
…
"My what?"
"Amu, Your daddy is going to marry, and this nice young lady is going to be your mother!" Souko smiled trying to lift up the mood a bit. Amu grew angry..Souko knew and agreed to the plans they had about coupling the two friends so why suddenly change it now?
"No." Amu refused.
Souko sighed "Amu, listen-"
"No."
Ikuto pinched the bridge of his nose, "Amu, whether you like it or not, I am going to marry her and she'll be your mother so you better get along with her or else-"
"Or else what? Dad you promised mommy! You promised her she would be the only one for you! You promised her you wouldn't betray her! You promised her you would never leave her for someone else! How could you break your promise that easily dad! Daddy do you even love her? I don't want her as my mommy…I don't need some substitute daddy you're enough for me…you said so yourself right? We're happy like this..daddy no…please no.."
"We're both satisfied and happy with the way it is now, I don't want to risk that. Aren't you content enough with what i did for Amu? I fulfilled my promise to you, I'm happy, our little princess is too, And i'm taking the best care of her..Isn't what i'm doing good enough for you..?"
"Amu…" Ikuto couldn't argue with her..she was right..
"I'm probably dreaming right? Tell me I'm dreaming daddy and wake me up? Daddy I won't like this..If this is a dream than this is a nightmare daddy please~" Amu was now in tears…'Mommy's only wish…I want to fulfill it daddy…It's her wish too…'
"Amu...Listen to me, i-"
"No! I don't want that! If you do...then..then...I'll run away from home!"
While Both parent and grandparent were trying to talk to the little girl…Haru just stood there..hurting..she didn't feel accepted..not knowing what to do she just looked and stayed quiet, wondering if what she was doing was really that bad..Did the fact that she was pregnant give her the right to ruin ones family? If she married into the family, how much would it change? Would it change for better or worse? Would she actually be happy? If you love someone, the persons happiness would be far more important than your own right? So that meant it wouldn't be a happy marriage..Either way, if she married him or not, she would still end up unhappy. But what if what Amu told her earlier would happen? What if Ikuto would slowly be able to return her feelings and they would live happy together? Then she should better take the chance right? But what it he would but the little Amu wouldn't accept her as her mother? The family would still be broken…And then Amu..Even though she didn't know the full background on her fiancé's best friend she knew that she wasn't the only one who loved him, that Amu also loved him. Haru also learned the fact that Amu was kind enough to leave Ikuto into her hands…knowing that it hurt the young celebrity more. And she would know, Haru knew how much it hurts to have an unrequited love. What if they lived happily together and even Amu accepted her as her mother, how would Amu(H)'s life be? Would it affect her career? One thing was for sure, Amu wouldn't be the same again…What would Ikuto do about it? What would become of their friendship? Would they still be friends? Haru knew that if she was in her place she would probably cut off all ties with Ikuto and forget all about him…From what she saw she knew Amu would probably do the same…would Ikuto stop her from leaving him again? Or would he be too late? If their friendship did end because of that, would Ikuto blame her? And the more Amu? Haru also noticed that the two were close…so close that if Amu really had to choose, she would without doubt choose Amu as her mother. Would Amu(T) hate her? So many things went through Haru's head as she stood there watching…
Did she have the right to possibly ruin a family and the bond of two very close friends? Was her reason good enough?
GAASP :O So yea...REVIEW PLEASE :3 Also, the last questions, feel free to answer! Do you think it's fair? Does she have the right? Even though it wont be weekly ill do my best to update so please keep hangin! As for the preview...Not gonna do one soz hehe~For the next chappy just gonna make a special featuring Haru :) So yea that all! Hope u liked it and please please please review and stay tuned!