Hey there! I didn't fall off the face of the Earth...just been busy. My baby is going to be 6 months old! In going trough the story, I have a few corrections to make:

In chapeter 2~thing should be think.

In chapter 4~Sunday should be Saturday

In chapter 7~ the amount should be $724,709.26.

Also, in the last chapter, I realize I made the mistake of making it seem like Bella didn't have her car the Cullen's house. It is there, so Edward has to take her back there to get it. *Shakes head* Sorry about all that. I hope that with my absence and such, a longer chapter will make it all ok!

I didn't get very far before a strong set or arms wrapped around my waist. His scent enveloped me and for just a moment, I felt like I was home. I felt so many things at once. I wanted to scream at him and hurt him like he hurt me. I wanted to punch him in his perfect fucking face, but that would hurt. I wanted to turn around and kiss him and hold him close, never letting him go. In reality, I just stood there with my eyes closed, taking it all in. "Let's go for a ride and I'll tell you what exactly happened to me when I left. After you hear me out, I'll take you home." Since it sounded like this was my only option of seeing my apartment anytime soon, I nodded and followed him to his car.

Chapter 8 BPOV

"Really, Edward. That sounds like a bunch of bullshit if you ask me." He had just gotten done telling me how he felt so alone and practically starved himself as a way to "try to feel the pain he cause me", how he regretted the decision as the words left his mouth that day in the forest. And, how he thought he was doing it all to save my life. He never once thought that it would actually hurt me more.

"I promise you that I mean every word I say. Hurting you was never my intention and I will spend the rest of eternity trying to make it up to you. Please forgive me."

"Do you really think that it is easy as just letting it all go away and I forgive and forget? Do you think that by forgiving you, that everything I have endured for the past 2 years will just erase themselves and I'll be the same me I was years ago? No, Edward. Life doesn't work that way. Just accept that I am fucked up, you did it to me, and it can't be undone. I will never be the same. From here on out, you can just leave me alone and we will both get on with our miserable existences. Who knows, maybe Victoria will realize you are back and finish me off." With my rant over and done with, I headed to the car. As far as I'm concerned, we are done here and I have nothing left to say to him. "Now if you would take me back to get my car, that would be great. I was actually thinking about making an appearance at my dad's for the first time in a while and would like to do so before he heads to bed for the night."

Edward looked sand and defeated but got into his car and took me back to get mine. Alice was standing on the porch when we got back, but made no attempt to move. I told her I'd get a hold of her later and she nodded. I hadn't lied to Edward. I really did want to see my dad. It has been a year and a half since he has seen me. Sure, I had called him on the phone frequently, but I know that it isn't the same as seeing me in person. My nerves were making me edgy, but that wasn't the only reason. Deep down inside I guess that what I had said to Edward about Victoria, I realized, may just happen.

I had swallowed that all down as I pulled up to Charlie's house. Hopefully he wouldn't know something was wrong. I stole a glance in the rear view mirror to check and see how bad I looked. Surprisingly, I didn't look too awful...even with the night I had. I still can't believe I fucked Jacob.

Even though I knew where the spare key was, I didn't want to just barge into my dad's house. It would have been a different story if he was expecting me, but he had no clue I would be there tonight. Shit, neither did I for sure. So, I took a deep breath and held it while I knocked on the door...all the while hoping that he would be asleep or not there.

Shocked would be an understatement in describing my father at that moment. "B Bella? Is everyting ok? How are you? What are you...why are you...wow. You are really here. Jake said he saw you when the guys were in Seattle. He never did mention where or give any details and he surely didn't say you would be stopping by." Huh. That little fucker said he saw me. I told him not to say anything to Charlie.

"Yea, I saw him at the club I work at. We didn't talk much though. Anyways...I have missed you dad. How are things going here? Are you doing OK with the bills and food?" Yep, I am changing the subject.

"You know Bells, the strangest thing has been happening. I know how much money I have in my account, but no matter how strictly I keep track, more money keeps appearing in it than I put in. I have been to the bank I don't know how many times about it and they just tell me that someone has been depositing money into the account anonymously. I really wish I knew who it was considering that on numerous occasions, that extra money has come in handy...especially with the way the economy is now a days. If I could just say thank you it would never be enough."

I tried so hard to keep and indifferent yet interested look on my face, but inside I was patting myself on the back for helping him out. I know that the small town of Forks has seen a huge lack in cases since the decline in "animal attacks" and that they didn't need Charlie as often, thus opening up a lot of fishing days for him that didn't pay the bills otherwise. For once since they left, I feel like I did the right thing instead of fucking everything up like I always do. I stayed a few more hours at my old home and visited with my dad. When I left, I was forced to promise to visit more often.

All in all, the day wasn't too bad. A, fuck. Who am I kidding? First I woke up to the realization that I had sex with Jacob, then I smash my glass pipe. All to answer the door and have my world turned upside down with the appearance of the Cullens. Maybe if I go to sleep and wake up, everything would have been a nightmare.

Once I stepped up to the door of my apartment, things got a while lot interesting. Apparently the building in which I live has been sold and is being torn down in 2 weeks to become a parking lot or some shit. Fucking great. Well, I guess I know what I am doing tomorrow...apartment hunting. I manage to rip the note off the door and unlock it with my full hands. Strategically placing the bags, I open the door and manage to make it to the living room before dropping everything. Wow, I bought a lot!

After I put everything away, I head out to grab some food. Maybe even head to the grocery store just in case Jake makes it a habit of coming over. Ugh! Jake. What the hell am I going to do about that mistake? I really didn't mean for things to happen like they did. Well, how did they? I grab a bottle of water out of the fridge and flop down on my couch to try to recall what exactly happened.

I remember having the guys leave and Jake yelling at me. I remember the broken vodka bottle that he at least cleaned up. He took me into the bathroom to clean me up but ended up taking a bath with me. He was touching my tattoo, the my piercings...oh yea. OK. I know how it happened now. Wait a minute...did I take my birth control yesterday? With that thought in my head, I run to the bathroom to check my package. With a huge sigh of relief, I see that I did. Sure, Jake holds a special place in my heart, but I don't want to have his kid.

While in the bathroom, I decide to jump in the shower and throw on a new pair of pj's. The are just shorts and a tank, so I decide to head out in those to grab my food. Upon arriving home, I am irritated to see Edward pacing in front of my door.

"What the hell are you doing he..." He pressed me against the door and kissed me with a passion I never knew existed in him and fuck if I wasn't turned on. I reached behind me and opened the door while my lips moved in synch with his. I set the food on the counter and he picked me up and placed me next to it.

"Isabella, I am so sorry for what I did to you. If you just give me another chance, I promise you that I will never hurt you again. Fuck, I'll even change you if you still want that. Just say you'll have me again." Due to my stupid raging hormones I just nodded and started taking our clothes off.

Once our shirts were off, Edward picked me up and carried me to the couch, where my shorts and underwear disappeared immediately. "Get on the bottom" was all I said to him as his pants hit the floor. By this time, I was completely wet and seeing him ready for me made me even more so. I straddled his hips and slowly eased myself on him. There was now way I could be quiet with him. He was bigger than Jake and felt a lot better. I knew Edward was always warring with himself over his ability to have enough control for this and that is why I insisted on being on top. That way I am in control and he just lays back and enjoys the ride. While I'm grinding on him, his hands are everywhere...trying to familiarize himself with all that he never had before.

It is at this time that I get hit with a huge realization and stop what I'm doing. "Edward. Is this your first time?" He opened his mouth as if to say something, but nothing came out. I could tell by the look in his eyes that it was. " Are you sure this is what you want...some random romp on my couch?" He sat up and kissed me, confirming that he wanted this just as much as I did. We spent the entire night fucking like rabbits. The more we did it the more confident Edward got in taking control. At some point, I was forced to eat something and sleep.

When I woke up, I was thoroughly sore but without regrets (for the most part). If fucking Jake was a mistake I'd hate to see what my mind thought of this once it has had the opportunity to process it all. But, for right now I was elated to be lying naked in Edward's arms. It was Sunday and I didn't have anywhere to be till late tonight when I had to go back into work.

Thanks for sticking with me on this! Just a note: I'm not sure what I am doing with my other story. Cant really think of what is going on and am considering deleting it. I can't promise you that I will update frequently. My computer is ready for shooting and I am borrowing my mom's now and then in the mean time. Please bear with me...you made it this long! :)